Chapter 144 Same Dream, Different Dust
The old city was completely silent late at night, with only the soft sound of the evening breeze blowing through the window screens, and the clear moonlight shining through the gaps, appearing and disappearing.
Su Chengyi lay on the bed and slowly closed his eyes.
This was the first time in his life that he was confessed so directly.
After all, I have almost zero love experience, especially when the other person is someone like Chen Jinzhi.
You know, people who could only be seen through LED advertising screens in their previous lives, people who can cause a sensation among fans around the world with every move, every gesture, and every smile.
She is standing in front of you now, and she also said that she likes you.
Even Su Chengyi, whose heart was sealed by cement in his previous life, could not help but feel the warmth of the spring breeze melting the ice and snow.
It was difficult to suppress the tension and excitement in a moment. He felt as if his heart had stopped beating for a second.
But after a short while, my mood gradually cooled down.
He didn't understand the definition of "like".
Chu Qingmian never said the word "like" to him face to face, but no matter how dull he was, after hearing Chu Qingmian's self-confession that night in the abandoned laboratory building, he could still feel——
She probably likes him.
This kind of love may come from my childhood obsession.
It’s like a seed was planted at that time, and now it has grown into a towering tree, with pavilions like a canopy.
But Chu Qingmian is determined and brave, there is no doubt about this.
Su Chengyi couldn't imagine anyone else who could keep trying to get closer to someone who didn't respond for ten years.
He felt a little sad when he thought that Chu Qingmian had waited for him for so long in his previous life but still didn't get an ending.
Chen Jinzhi took this opportunity tonight to express his feelings to her, perhaps the only friend she could trust in the world.
Although she thought she didn’t understand, that’s why she pointed it out so boldly.
However, by some mistake, he accidentally recorded this conversation and knew what she meant.
Su Chengyi also wants to brainwash herself to say something. She usually likes to make jokes like this. She is just setting me up with her friends. How can she really like me? And other reasons for evasion.
But he knew very well that it was not.
The three hours of waiting for him to come home in the dark, the morning breeze blowing on the knee pillow on the rooftop, the sudden kiss on the rainy night, and the raised corners of the mouth when I said these words tonight.
There are too many to deceive yourself.
In the past life, let alone falling in love with Chen Jinzhi, even meeting her would have been a luxury.
And her aura on stage doesn’t look like she’s going to be in love at all.
The current Chen Jinzhi is far different from what he saw in his previous life.
In the short first half of her life, God gave her too many hardships, so she grew up to be invulnerable to all poisons.
The only thing that remains unchanged is that she is still the kind of person who is very good at restraining her emotions. She can only express a part of her heart.
So in other words, she may like you more than meets the eye.
The current Chen Jinzhi is beautiful and fragile at the same time. This may be the source of her special temperament.
Like a glass statue in a swamp, if I don't step up to help her, she will slowly sink in.
Such a person crosses the quagmire, dusts off the dust, and holds out a shimmering crystal heart to you with trembling hands. Probably no one in the world knows how to refuse.
But just because you can't refuse, doesn't mean you know how to accept it.
Su Chengyi didn't even understand the definition of like, let alone a more intimate and complex relationship like love.
The reason for his negative and pessimistic attitude towards love relationships can be traced back to Su Zelang and Yang Liu.
The two of them personally showed the young Su Chengyi what it is called: Lan Yin Xu Guo.
Orchid is a beautiful beginning, and Xu symbolizes a failed ending.
It is like catkins that are blown up by the wind. When the wind blows, they scatter in all directions.
The meeting and love between Su Zelang and Yang Liu is simply a romantic scene that cannot be captured in movies.
I fell in love at first sight among the crowd, fell in love quickly, and stayed together without hesitation even if the whole world opposed it, but what was the result?
Su Chengyi understood at a very young age that the relationship between people may be beautiful, but it is also fragile.
Any quarrel, disagreement, or unintentional hurtful words will cause a rift in the relationship between two people, and this damage is irreparable. Most people will not be trapped in such a relationship for a long time. After a few tears and a few days of sadness, they may be able to come out and embrace a new life.
After experiencing a few more such failures, they will finally realize that love is not the most important part of life, so they will become numb, put "suitability" before "like", build a strong and perfect family, and finally Live a happy life in the eyes of others.
Just like Su Zelang and Yang Liu are doing now.
But Su Chengyi is not the majority.
Whether it was in his previous life or now, he always had a place similar to a safe zone in his heart.
That is a strong inner line of defense, its function is to protect yourself.
If someone passes through many checkpoints and finally enters the safe zone and sees the truest person, he regrets it and turns around and leaves.
Su Chengyi felt that it would be a devastating blow to herself.
The beginning of the story was beautiful, and he did not doubt the sincerity they showed to him now.
But Jincheng Wudou in "Chungking Express":
"Saury will expire, canned meat will expire, and even plastic wrap will expire. I began to doubt that there is anything else in this world. It won’t expire?”
There are too many risks and emotions involved in starting an intimate relationship. Although the symptoms of social anxiety have been reduced a lot than before, it is still difficult for him to really take that step.
While thinking about it, Su Chengyi suddenly felt that she was thinking too much.
Maybe it was just a casual confession of emotion, he had almost thought of the name of his child
Isn’t this a self-defeat!
What's more, the college entrance examination is almost here now. Even if you have to consider these things, it will be after the college entrance examination.
He sat up, patted his face, sighed, stood up in the moonlight, closed the curtains in the room, covered himself with a quilt and fell asleep.
The other side of the city.
Chen Jinzhi saw off Quan Enyan, who was rushing to Shanghai to attend an event, and returned home.
No surprise, because I got a lot of insults because I returned late.
Chen Jinzhi seemed not to have heard anything, and quietly cleaned up the mess in the house as he had done countless times in the past.
Ever since that man left home, Auntie's temper has become even more irritable.
She was probably worried that she would be left in such an unfamiliar foreign country, so she vented her anxiety on the only familiar person she could see.
It’s actually understandable.
Chen Jinzhi leaned on the shaky windowsill, raised his eyes and looked at the moon behind the clouds.
Tonight was supposed to be a joyful night. She saw relatives whom she hadn’t seen for a long time and introduced her to the boy she liked.
Su Chengyi seemed to be the type who was afraid of trouble, but he still accompanied them around the school.
Quan Enyan praised her for her good taste and said that if Ernie wanted to fall in love, she must be with a boy like this. It was a perfect match and she very much agreed with the marriage.
It would be nice if I didn’t go to the playground in the end.
If you didn’t go to the playground, you wouldn’t be able to see the long row of white walls, and you wouldn’t be able to see the signatures of this year’s senior students written on them.
You can't see the three words "Chu Qingmian" carefully signed under "Su Chengyi" written in cyan pen.
These three small characters were squeezed into the middle blank space with great difficulty, and they were obviously added later.
Quan Enyan did not know Chinese characters, and Su Chengyi looked away awkwardly after seeing "Su Chengyi's father".
So probably only I noticed such details.
There are many types of likes. There is only one type that will search a whole wall full of names just to sign them together.
In other words, I am of the same species as her.
Looking at the moonlight frozen on his fingertips, Chen Jinzhi suddenly sighed almost inaudibly.
The reason why she understands "like" as a fantasy is because she feels that there are too many insurmountable gaps between the two.
People like Su Chengyi will have an extremely smooth and bright future, but her life is still a mess, and nothing is real.
Chen Jinzhi originally knew the truth that wise men never fall in love, but love did not know where it started, and it only went deeper and deeper. Now it is too late to get out.
So no matter what lies ahead, she will never give up.
After clarifying his feelings again, Chen Jinzhi took one last look at the bright moon hanging in the night sky, gently closed his eyes, and wished that the people on the other side of the city could have a good dream tonight.
As soon as the bell rang clearing the night, several people had the same dream but different lives.
I couldn’t sleep and got up and coded another chapter.
(End of this chapter)