Chapter 204 The most difficult thing to endure is the kindness of a beautiful woman
“If you plan to love someone, you have to think clearly whether you are willing to give up your free mind like God for him, and then be willing to be tied down.”
This sentence from "The Great Gatsby" appeared in my mind almost at the same time.
Su Chengyi looked at Chen Jinzhi's sad eyebrows, took two steps forward, and grabbed her cold fingers.
In the hot summer night wind that hit his face, Chen Jinzhi was as cold as a piece of ice.
Holding her hand at this moment, Su Chengyi had the illusion that her hand would melt into a puddle of water in his palm.
Chen Jinzhi took a deep breath, as if he wanted to say something, but failed to adjust his breathing, choked on the wind, and coughed softly.
Su Chengyi moved her hand behind her back and gently helped her calm down.
Chen Jinzhi is so thin that you can feel the bulging shoulder blades just by touching him like this.
“I never knew I would be so panicked.”
Chen Jinzhi lowered his eyes and spoke very slowly.
The ups and downs she experienced over the years once made her think that she was born to be such a person who could be indifferent to everything.
When Chen Jinzhi was still young, not long after he went to Korea, he once heard his aunt calling a relative.
I am usually afraid that she will hold grudges if she hears it, so when I say unpleasant things, I usually avoid suspicion.
The aunt said that she is not like a child at all, she doesn’t cry, she doesn’t make noises, and she doesn’t miss home.
I don’t know how to ask adults for toys, and I don’t say anything when I’m bullied at school.
Many foreigners cannot understand honorifics when they learn Korean, but Chen Jinzhi has never missed honorifics.
Even though they live under the same roof, the aunt sometimes doesn't even dare to look into her eyes, feeling that she is like a stranger who suddenly walked in.
Didn’t I say that some organization is currently researching some intelligent robot? Maybe this kid is.
It would be great if there was some way to send her to an orphanage.
Chen Jinzhi listened in silence for a while, then slowed down and returned to the door, deliberately making a noise, and then said calmly as usual:
"I'm back."
Even though he was listening At this point, Chen Jinzhi still had no fluctuation in his heart.
Although the family seems to be in harmony at this time, she is cautious and can barely maintain a superficial peace.
Later, the man became addicted to alcohol and gambling, but that was a story later.
Whether she was discriminated against and bullied in a foreign country, or whether her debut opportunity and her four-year training career were thrown away as a life-saving straw, she accepted it all calmly.
But armor and weakness always appear at the same time, she should have known better.
Looking at Chen Jinzhi's dazed look, Su Chengyi pressed her hand harder on his chest, looked into her eyes and said seriously:
"I'm sorry. No. There will be a next time.”
She was originally just like me, a person who was immune to all kinds of poisons and had no taboos.
This morning, when the whole class was scared to death by the flying cockroach, Su Chengyi glanced at Chen Jinzhi specifically, but she didn't even raise her head.
"Do you remember what you told me?"
Chen Jinzhi raised his eyes to look at him.
A lot of things have been said, but both of them knew exactly what she was asking at this time.
I will help you, don’t be obedient, I will move forward with you.
"Remember."
Su Chengyi paused and replied.
“We must do it.”
Her voice suddenly sounded very soft, and Su Chengyi felt as if someone blew a breath into her ear.
“Okay.”
Su Chengyi nodded.
The next second, without warning, Chen Jinzhi took a step closer and gently leaned his face against his chest.
Abandon your sobriety for a while.
Her tears fell very restrainedly, and her back rose and fell slightly.
Su Chengyi felt the school uniform fabric on his chest was wet and hot.
She was probably really sad, he couldn't help but think so.
When he returned to the downstairs of his home, Su Chengyi felt that his chest was still burning with Chen Jinzhi's tears, making him a little uneasy.
His footsteps were so light that he didn't even disturb the voice-activated lights in the corridor.
So when his figure suddenly appeared, the people waiting at the door were so frightened that they screamed.
“Mom?”
Su Chengyi rubbed his ears and turned on the flashlight with a confused look on his face.
It turned out to be Yangliu, she was clutching her chest and looked overly frightened.
When the flashlight flashed, there was Lin Zhiwan standing next to him with a worried look on his face. His eyes were reddish, as if he had cried a lot.
"Why are you two here?"
Su Chengyi took out the key and opened the door first.
"You have the nerve to ask? What have you done today?"
After Yang Liu regained consciousness, his expression suddenly became extremely serious.
I didn’t even walk in, I just grabbed him and looked him up and down.
When Su Chengyi's arm was grabbed by her like this, it felt as if it had been torn apart with her bare hands. The pain immediately made him take a breath.
“Mom!”
"I know it hurts you, why are you trying to be so strong?"
Yang Liu's mouth was unforgiving, but his hand movements were still much gentler, leading him to the room.
"You know?"
Su Chengyi sighed. He knew that King Li would tell his parents sooner or later, but he didn't expect it to be so soon.
Lin Zhiwan followed carefully and put the ointment in her hand on the table.
"Pain is good. If something happened to you, how would you let your mother live? I ask you."
As Yang Liu spoke, tears were about to fall.
No, I saw too many tears today.
Su Chengyi quickly pulled out a few pieces of toilet paper and handed them over.
“I’m fine, am I not? And mom, don’t worry, you will gain wisdom after every experience, and you will never do it again next time. The situation today was too urgent, and I was impulsive.”
Su Chengyi repeated this trick very skillfully.
I have tried it several times, and it only works with Chen Jinzhi so far.
Yang Liu covered his eyes with a tissue and calmed down for a while.
Su Chengyi raised his head and glanced at Sister Lin, who was still standing honestly next to her. She was wearing a hearing aid in her ear, and asked with some confusion:
"Why don't you sit down?"
Sister Lin looked like she was holding back tears and pointed to the ointment she brought.
"You must be in pain, right? It will make you more comfortable if you rub this."
Su Chengyi nodded and reached out to take it. Who knows which tendon was pulled by this move? The pain suddenly made him grin.
Sister Lin hurriedly waved her hands to stop her, and took out the bottles and cans from the packaging bags and arranged them.
Yang Liu wiped away her tears, took a deep breath to calm down, and said in a hoarse voice:
"Zhiwan's massage skills are very good. Just ask her to massage it for you."
There is such a skill.
Su Chengyi raised his head in surprise.
Lin Zhiwan seemed a little shy at such a compliment, but she was still more worried about Su Chengyi's condition. She picked up the ointment and nodded firmly.
Su Chengyi thought about it and realized there was nothing to be embarrassed about. So he decisively took off his school uniform, turned his back, and lay on the back of the chair.
Some of Lin Zhiwan's original feelings that she didn't dare to look at quickly disappeared after seeing the shocking large bruises on his shoulders.
Yang Liuzhen was really distressed and turned his head away not wanting to look any more.
"Xiaoyi, before you do such a dangerous thing, can you think about it for your family, friends, and mother?"
Lin Zhiwan's fingers are covered with a thin layer from working all year round. Cocoon, clear to the touch on the skin.
Let the ointment spread over your shoulders, bringing you a cool and comfortable feeling.
Su Chengyi closed his eyes and said "hmm".
"If it were your close friend, my mother would still understand if you worked so hard, but that's Zou Lian. Do you two have any personal relationships at all?"
Yang Liu sighed heavily. , never seem to understand.
Su Chengyi still closed his eyes, and the bitter taste of traditional Chinese medicine surrounded him, which had a soothing effect on the mind.
"I don't have anything to do with him, but I'm afraid the relationship between you and the previous generation can't be explained clearly in a sentence or two."
Yang Liu didn't seem to expect that he would ask so directly. , suddenly stunned.
“He has been living in the shadow created by his mother so far. I am the villain in his bedtime story. Although it has nothing to do with me, what if he died today? "
After Su Chengyi said this, she felt Lin Zhiwan's fingers leave her behind for a moment. When she turned her head and looked, she actually silently took off her hearing aid.
Maybe I feel that I shouldn’t hear these words.
But in fact, it's nothing. Yangliu can bring her here with him, which means that he has treated her as a close family member.
"So, what is the matter between you adults that is worthy of being entangled today?"
Su Chengyi simply asked more directly.
Yang Liu stood up and poured himself a glass of water. He took a sip impatiently, collected his thoughts again, and then said:
"Zhong Qiuhe and I, that is, Zou Lian's Mom, we were kids, and she was my best friend for a long time, and she was the one who introduced me to the show where I first saw Su Zelang.”
"It was only a long time later that I found out that they had known each other for a longer time and that she had always had a crush on Su Zelang. If I had known earlier, I would never have started dating him."
"Su Zelang and I After getting married, she married a suitor almost at the same time without warning. At that time, we had very little contact, and she unilaterally distanced herself from me. Of course, I didn’t know why at the time.”
"The thing that reappeared in my life was the divorce. You must have heard people gossiping about it? The truth is similar to those gossips. It's just that Su Zelang has been unwilling to admit it. ”
Su Chengyi thought about it and realized that he had indeed heard these things since he was a child.
Some people put it more tactfully, wearing a hypocritical mask, trying to get some inside information out of his mouth.
Some people were more direct, with a face full of narrow-mindedness and gossip, and boldly asked him if he had ever seen Aunt Zhong, who was more beautiful than his mother?
But ever since he smashed the ashtray on the table into someone's face, fewer and fewer people gossiped.
Lin Zhiwan took his arm and pressed it gently, bringing his thoughts back to the present.
She usually wears her hair pulled up to make it easier to do things, but today she may be a little late and forgot about it.
My hair brushes the tip of my nose from time to time, making it a little itchy.
"No matter whether that thing is true or not, whether he was wronged or not. At least there is one thing that your dad can't explain clearly. He has long known that Zhong Qiuhe likes him. And over the years, the two of them have always had a relationship. Contact. This alone is completely unacceptable to me."
Yang Liu took another sip of water to calm down her excited tone.
“Although I often say that meeting these two people is the result of eight bad lucks in my life. It would be great if they locked up and got married together. Why would they harm others? However, sometimes I feel that maybe this is me. There is no way to avoid or escape this fate."
"Moreover, if I don't survive this fate, I won't have you in the world. Xiaoyi, think about it, it's still worth it even if you come back. If I choose again in the past, my mother will choose this result."
Thinking of this, Yang Liu suddenly laughed again.
Su Chengyi glanced sideways, and saw that his mother's face was indeed very beautiful when she was young.
In fact, it’s not surprising that Su Zelang fell in love at first sight, or that he fell in love with her at first sight.
Retelling this matter that she had never wanted to mention in front of her son, her smile gradually became a little relieved.
These things about the older generation are really what the song sings:
If the past is still worth cherishing, don’t let go of the past too quickly. Who is willing to let each other have nothing to do with each other?
We need to owe each other, and we need to be disconnected.
I don’t know if this song will be released this year.
"It's time to turn the page, Mom. Let's all look forward."
Su Chengyi closed her eyes again and said slowly.
He said this to Yang Liu and also to the other two protagonists of the story.
Although he felt that if Su Zelang and Zhong Qiuhe said this, it would probably be a new version of the other two ships.
For example, Su Zelang will definitely explain that he has no interest in Zhong Qiuhe and that he is innocent and upright.
And if he and Zhong Qiuhe were together, wouldn't they have been together long ago? How can there be such bad things later.
Su Chengyi can't guess Zhong Qiuhe's angle, her character is too twisted.
Zou Lian grew up in this kind of environment, and it is really rare for him not to have a psychopath to retaliate against society.
They would probably say things like first come, first served, relationships are unfair, and so on.
I hope that Zou Lian, who has repeatedly jumped on the line of life and death today, can not pay for the past and look forward.
Lin Zhiwan's massage skills were indeed remarkable. Su Chengyi just lay on the back of the chair and almost fell asleep.
Before leaving, she wrung her fingers, as if she wanted to ask something.
Su Chengyi looked at her evasive eyes, made a rough guess, and immediately gestured:
"My shoulders hurt too much today and I couldn't carry my schoolbag, so I got off school."
Lin Zhiwan was relieved. She lowered her head and quickly wiped her fingers from the corners of her eyes.
He raised his head again and gestured solemnly:
"Be safe."
Su Chengyi nodded and watched her and Yang Liu go downstairs and leave.
In just a few steps, Sister Lin walked back three times, for fear that he might need her help with something else.
The most difficult thing to bear is the kindness of a beautiful woman.
Su Chengyi lay on his side on the bed, and this sentence came to his mind.
This is simply his deepest psychological feeling at the end of the day.
Chu Qingmian was closest to the scene of the incident, so he was probably the most frightened.
He had expected that she would be angry, but when she was really sad about it, he still felt a very heavy sense of guilt.
Fortunately, Chu Qingmian was willing to be reasonable, or in other words, willing to believe what he said.
Chen Jinzhi is different.
The person who usually maintained a sense of distance suddenly dropped her guard, shut out all his sophistry, and said that the only thing that would scare her was losing him.
This really makes him unable to reflect deeply on himself.
In short, if the tears shed by these people today were collected, they would almost drown him.
So, has his definition of "fear" changed?
Thinking about the fact that he almost died, Su Chengyi opened his eyes in the dark room.
To pass the time today, the obscure philosophy book I read said:
“Those who have completed their karma are heading towards death; those who are still young are thinking about it. Long time.
In the midst of suffering, we finally strive to survive. We only hope to be harmonious and happy, lofty and long-lasting, and even brilliant. ”
Did you achieve perfection?
Obviously not.
For him, death may still not be worth fearing, but there are still too many regrets in life that have not been completed. .
Taking a step back, Su Chengyi really doesn’t want to experience a baptism of tears like today.
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