Chapter 356 The murmurs conveyed by the flowing clouds
After sitting in front of Xu Zhihan’s grave for a while, the sun was no longer as bright and dazzling as before, but it struggled out from the gradually accumulating clouds, still carrying a gentle warmth. meaning.
Su Chengyi's eyes passed over each tombstone. As time passed, many stone monuments were eroded by wind and frost, and even the names of their owners became blurred.
"Shu Wang"
Su Chengyi stopped and looked at the two words that had obviously been wiped and touched repeatedly.
This is a very nice name, with a gentle and soft temperament.
Although there was no photo attached to the monument, Su Chengyi felt that she could almost imagine what she looked like.
After all, Chen Jinzhi said, she looks more like her mother.
It seems that Chen Jinzhi’s name was probably given by his mother.
There are fifty strings of brocade strings for no reason, each string and one column is reminiscent of the past.
Before the college entrance examination, Su Chengyi was brought here by Chen Jinzhi.
She said that every time she wanted to talk to her mother, she felt that she couldn't hold on anymore and wanted to give up.
She knelt here and asked her relatives underground the question she had thought about countless times:
If death is a bad thing, then why did you make this choice. If death is a good thing, then why don't you take me with you.
Su Chengyi said, because this world is not so good that people don’t want to leave, nor is it so bad that people want to leave immediately. She has seen enough of the bad in this world, but she still hopes that you can see the good that she has not seen.
Then Chen Jinzhi said that she saw it, so she brought him here to let her mother see it too.
The moonlight is clear and her smile is gentle.
Su Chengyi always felt that this was the time to meet his parents.
The subsequent meeting with Chen Wende is of course not counted.
Su Chengyi really had some murderous intentions towards Chen Wende at that time. After all, this man really deserved to die, and it is difficult for people to consider the consequences when they are emotional.
Fortunately, the last bit of reason in his mind reminded him that finding Chen Jinzhi was the most important thing.
Fortunately, she was fine. Looking back now, I still feel a little scared.
Su Chengyi was silent for a long time, forcibly blocking his thoughts.
The weather is so nice, I don’t want to mention scum.
Chen Jinzhi must have made a lot of determination to take him to Shu Wang's tomb.
After all, when she came for Xu Zhihan, she didn't give any hint that her mother was buried here.
It’s just that I don’t know how she will feel at that time, and I can’t understand it anyway.
Su Chengyi suppressed his mood, squatted down and inserted the candle into the soil.
The swaying firelight blew over his fingers in the wind. They should be hot, but he didn't know it.
Opening the plastic envelope of another stack of paper money, Su Chengyi looked down at the red and green numbers swept by the flames, coughed, and said awkwardly:
"Hello, Aunt Shu. My name is Su Chengyi, and I am Chen Jinzhi's boyfriend."
Knowing that there was no response, he felt extremely nervous, as if he was really being scrutinized by his mother-in-law.
"I wonder if she has ever mentioned me to you. We met after she transferred to No. 1 Middle School."
At this point, Su Chengyi paused slightly.
When chatting with someone who has passed away, there seems to be no need to hide anything?
"In fact, I had met her before I was reborn. But at that time, we were just passers-by and big stars.
She is the much-anticipated and dazzling star Iris, and I am just a Ordinary workers, just waiting for a break, will see her giant poster when passing by the large LED screen in the mall. "
Su Chengyi is thinking about the slogans of the advertisers on the big screen." Iris’s choice is trustworthy!” I felt like laughing for a moment.
In that timeline, Su Chengyi clocked in to work in the office building, typing complicated codes day after day; Chen Jinzhi held a concert tour on the other side of the earth with a time difference of more than ten hours, surrounded by thousands of people meeting.
At that time, the two of them probably could not have imagined that they would interact with such a distant person.
"Auntie, you don't know, she was really famous at that time. I am an otaku who never pays attention to entertainment news, but she is too famous.
That's why after being reborn, I recognized her immediately She came.
The feeling was really shocking, like someone in the movie walked out of the screen.”
Now I think back to the first time I saw Chen Jinzhi. , I still feel like my heart skipped a beat.
The clouds look like clothes and the flowers look like faces, but this is nothing more than that.
"I don't know if it was because I was so shocked by the incident of a big star falling from the sky that it aroused your daughter's curiosity. In short, she started to get close to me inexplicably like she was studying alien creatures."
“Many, many things happened later.”
“My plan was not comprehensive enough and I failed to protect her.
In the end, she still embarked on the path of debut. Road.
Every day is hard, but the results are good.
She is really great and is now a well-known and popular traffic.
The road for domestic girl group idols is very difficult, with many obstacles and prejudices, but the appearance of Chen Jinzhi successfully broke the doubts. "
"She is not only an idol now, but also a female singer. There are two songs of hers on the new song list.
Everyone is wondering why she trained in South Korea but did not suffer from many of the problems of South Korean assembly line artists.
Many music critics say that her singing is very tasteful, with a Chinese-style charm, which is very rare.
But I know it's because you taught her to sing Huangmei Opera. "
"Recently she received an invitation to her first variety show in her life and is preparing for it.
So I came to see you on her behalf and talk to you.
Auntie, I know that the entertainment industry is deep and there are opportunities everywhere, but there are also traps everywhere.
But don’t worry, I will definitely protect her. ”
"She will definitely get better and better in the future, Auntie, you and I both know that."
Su Chengyi lit the last stack of paper money and coughed due to the smoke.
After talking so much, he suddenly felt a little tired, so he sat down on the spot.
Let the burning ashes fly like snow and fall on his knees and shoulders.
The sun ironed his black woolen coat very warmly. Su Chengyi lowered his head to button the cuffs and then unbuttoned them again.
After a long while, he took out a bouquet of flowers from his pocket and carefully placed it in front of the monument.
White carnations, the packaging is very simple.
——Because he pierced it with his own hands.
The academic master surnamed Su, who is confident in whatever technique he learns, finally gave up on hand-folded paper after wasting several sheets of colored paper.
He looked at the bouquet of flowers, and finally cut off the packaging part when taking pictures.
After sending the photo to Chen Jin, her status quickly changed to "the other party is typing", but no information was sent.
Su Chengyi was not in a hurry. He looked up at the clouds floating over the mountains. The blue and white of the sky and clouds contrasted with each other, which was the color of the No. 1 Middle School uniform.
Chen Jinzhi has some ingenuity and is able to look good in matching school uniforms without violating school rules and disciplines.
On those days when Su Chengyi skipped class and went to the rooftop to catch up on her sleep, when Su Chengyi woke up and opened her eyes, she could always be seen leaning on the railing in a daze.
Her figure is thin, as if she is about to blend into the scenery behind her at any time, giving her a vague sense of unreality.
Whenever such strange thoughts come up, Su Chengyi will sit up or cough.
Until she turns around and asks him with a smile, "Are you awake?", he will nod and pretend to have just woken up.
Pretend not to stare at her back for a long time. The sky today looks like it did in those days that will never come back.
The phone vibrated, but it was not a message but a call.
Su Chengyi picked up the call and said nothing.
It was quiet on the other side of the receiver, except for her gentle breathing.
After a long time, she finally spoke slowly.
“Why do you think of going here?”
“Tang’an has always had this custom during the Chinese New Year. You don’t have time, so I’m here.”
Su Chengyi spoke in a relaxed tone, suppressing the low and sad emotions just now.
He doesn't know Shu Wang, and the reason why he has these emotions is just because he likes Chen Jinzhi, so just thinking about it from her perspective will make sadness fill his heart.
Chen Jinzhi was quiet for a few seconds and suddenly sighed softly.
"Thank you."
Su Chengyi originally wanted to say "no, no, no, no, no, tell me more," but after thinking about it, he said "hmm" instead.
Chen Jinzhi was originally very busy today. She owed a lot of commercial shooting, and the group's new song was in a hurry. She was busy rehearsing the stage moves, and she spent last night in the practice room.
When she felt a dull pain in her stomach, she suddenly remembered that she had not eaten all day.
If someone knows about it, I will be angry again.
This person always thinks that his anger is hidden, but in fact it is easy to guess.
Unlike the mature and steady person he imagined himself to be, Chen Jinzhi knew very well that he was actually a stingy and childish guy.
She will get angry if she doesn't eat well, and she will get angry when a marketing account casually pulls CP for her.
The most important point is that when you are angry, you will definitely say no.
Chen Jinzhi couldn't help but raise the corners of his mouth as he thought about it.
Such a smile made the staff walking in a hurry next to them stop in their tracks: It’s so damn stupid, how can our small and broken company sign a beauty of this level? !
Only by thinking of Su Chengyi, Chen Jinzhi could briefly escape from the tiring work, like a sudden burst of bright color in a black-and-white silent film.
The staff packed the salad, and she avoided the sweet dressing and poked a piece of cauliflower into her mouth.
Then I took a photo in time and prepared to send it to Su Chengyi.
This is evidence that she eats well.
Unexpectedly, I saw the message he sent first.
A bouquet of carnations lay quietly in front of the monument, and she recognized this extremely familiar location almost at a glance.
In the years since he left Tang'an and went to South Korea, Chen Jinzhi was unable to go to the cemetery to complete such a tradition.
In a strange country, with different habits of food, clothing, housing and transportation, I learned a new language by myself syllable by syllable.
No matter how much vulnerability and longing there is, there is nowhere to vent it.
So after returning to China, the first thing Chen Jinzhi did was to go here.
I thought I would have a lot to say, but after all, my four-year career as a trainee was all in vain.
But at that time, as she stood in front of the monument, she suddenly felt that there was nothing to feel wronged about.
After all, I returned to my hometown, heard the familiar accent, and got closer to my only relative in the world.
After meeting Su Chengyi, this feeling became even stronger.
In the initial interaction between the two of them, she still held curiosity, kept a safe distance, and wore the mask she was accustomed to.
Since when did she realize that she had been unable to escape.
Chen Jinzhi thought that it probably started from the time when she reflected on herself in front of Shu Wang's monument.
At that time she said:
"Mom, ever since you left, I have often been thinking, if I could go back in time, what method should I use to save you?"< br>
“If we could prevent all this later If it happens, even if it changes the trajectory of the future, even if everything I have now disappears, even if it makes me never appear in this world, I am willing to do it.”
“But recently, I suddenly started. Shaken.”
"Because I met someone I like very much. I can't help but wonder, if I go back to the past, will it change the process? Will it erase the encounter between me and him?
Thought I suddenly started to be afraid of this.”
“Mom, after so many years, in this timeline where you left me, I finally experienced something that I hadn’t experienced in a long time. These are like happy emotions.
Sometimes I wonder if his appearance is another fantasy of mine, just like the scene I have fantasized about if you were still here."< br>
"Fortunately, he does seem to be real. Now I kind of believe what you said, the world may not be that bad."
"Mom, I hope you can forgive my selfishness.
It would be great if you could give me a little more blessings."
Chen Jinzhi once put his hands together and stood in front of his mother's monument. Have such a monologue.
And now someone came here and gently placed a bouquet of flowers for her.
It seems that I tied it myself. The piece of wrapping paper accidentally exposed at the bottom of the picture is crumpled, which is obviously not the work of a flower shop.
Chen Jinzhi's fingers holding the phone unconsciously exerted force, causing his fingertips to turn slightly white.
"Ahem, you don't have to think too much. I happened to remember this, so I came over to take a look."
Perhaps he felt that her silence was unusually long, Su Cheng Yiqing He cleared his throat and spoke.
"After some time, during the Qingming Festival, let's see if you can spare some time, and we'll come over again"
"Teacher Su."
Chen Jinzhi's voice was very soft, like a floating cloud.
“Huh?”
Su Chengyi responded subconsciously.
"Thank you."
Chen Jinzhi's voice had a gentler smile than before.
Su Chengyi was slightly startled when he heard this, and could only say "Yeah" again.
"If mom can see you, she will like you very much. She used to praise an actor who has a temperament very similar to yours."
Chen Jinzhi continued, his voice rising. , seems to be in a good mood.
Su Chengyi felt that he could imagine her crooked eyebrows, but he felt something was wrong.
The sound sounded like she was laughing, but inexplicably she felt that her eyes were red.
"If I can see you, it's just in time. She will give you glutinous rice balls stuffed with sweet-scented osmanthus to eat." Can't hear clearly.
Su Chengyi pressed the speakerphone and heard her words that were so weak that they were almost murmuring - "I miss you so much."
and very, very quiet, suppressed sobs.
Su Chengyi just listened silently. He knew that he didn't have to do anything at this time, just stay with her quietly.
He looked at the burned paper money, and the green smoke rose up from the ashes and drifted away in an instant.
The green smoke carries silent thoughts, and the flowing clouds also convey unfinished ravings.
(End of this chapter)