Chapter 481 But I don’t like it
Su Chengyi held up a green bowl cake and walked with Liang Nina under the street lamp on the other side.
In fact, they were not far apart. He could feel that the two people on the other side of Xiaosanlun were eating and watching a show.
Liang Nina lowered her head and turned the lavender bowl cake in her hand.
“This should be delicious. I often ate it when I was a kid.”
Su Chengyi took a bite of the bowl cake while looking for something to say.
The one in his hand is cantaloupe flavored. It has a crystal clear appearance and a soft and cold texture, with a light fruity aroma. It is very suitable to eat together on such a summer night.
Liang Nina said "hmm" and took a bite following his example.
“Everything that seniors like is delicious.”
Although her small bite did little harm to the bowl of cake, she still said this with determination. sentence.
"How do you know what I like?"
Su Chengyi raised his eyebrows.
“When I went to the cafeteria to get food, I would always follow behind and follow what the seniors were eating.”
Liang Nina laughed, not noticing this at all. There seems to be something wrong with the behavior.
This guy.
Su Chengyi coughed and decided not to ask her questions like this again. It was purely to make herself uncomfortable.
Although he has become accustomed to Liang Nina "stalking" and "peeping" on things about him, his reaction is just to ignore and ignore, which does not mean that he can really accept it calmly.
"What's the taste of your bowl cake?"
Su Chengyi simply continued to talk.
“My favorite grape flavor.”
"Is it such a coincidence?"
Su Chengyi just took it from the bag casually, otherwise he would definitely have picked a strawberry for himself.
“Yeah.”
Liang Nina nodded and continued:
“I didn’t have a favorite flavor before, but now my favorite is grape flavor, because it is The senior gave it to me.”
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Su Chengyi felt as if he had been chatted to death again that day.
After a long moment of silence, Su Chengyi's eyes lightly glanced at Liang Nina's loosened cuffs.
Because she wanted to threaten Chocolate, and because she had unbuttoned her cufflinks when taking the admission notice, a piece of skin was faintly exposed on her wrist.
Su Chengyi used to wonder why she wore long sleeves no matter what season.
If it's because she's conservative, but she often wears short skirts just to look good.
Now I know, because there are some dense scars hidden there.
Obviously it was caused by man. The wounds were regular and of the same depth.
Su Cheng sighed without any trace, which is why he called her aside to chat.
Otherwise, with Chocolate’s straightforward mind, he would definitely ask directly if he saw it.
Through scars like this, some problems can be clearly seen.
The most intuitive point is also a pity.
That is, unlike what Su Chengyi imagined, the problems that appeared in Liang Nina cannot be explained by "secondary disease", "adolescence", and "it will get better when you grow up and mature".
She really has some psychological problems that need treatment, and she has been hurting herself because of such psychological problems.
It is not an easy thing to create scars like that.
At least make sure that the hand holding the knife can always remain stable, and for this, you need to be able to endure all the pain you cause.
Su Chengyi thought that he might be able to do this.
In this respect, they are even somewhat similar.
But Su Chengyi would not create unnecessary pain for no reason, just to hurt himself.
Why did Liang Nina engage in such self-harm behavior?
Su Chengyi was thinking this when he heard the person next to him suddenly say:
"Senior, I am very happy."
Liang Nina lowered her head and looked at the shadow on the ground intently.
Su Chengyi followed her gaze and discovered that the bowl cake in his hand was made into the shapes of different animals. Now a black shadow in the shape of a bear was reflected under the street lamp.
“You should be happy, you have made great progress.”
Su Chengyi replied.
Liang Nina took a breath and continued:
“Before the results came out, I was very nervous and scared, and couldn’t sleep at all.
Seeing the scores After that, I breathed a sigh of relief, but soon I started to worry about whether my score was stable. What if it didn't work? What if it was a little bit worse?
For this matter, I went there. This organization asked all the teachers it could find. At the beginning, they would give me serious advice on how to fill out the application form.
Later, they discovered that I actually just wanted to hear them say, "Oh, you will definitely pass the exam."
I have been hearing this and never dare to think about what would happen if I failed.
So, I didn’t dare to come over to see my senior until I received the admission notice. "
She lowered her eyes and looked unusually quiet.
"I'm not as smart as the senior. Even if I try my best, I will only be able to see the senior's back. ”
Hearing this, Su Chengyi cleared her throat, feeling that she needed to revise her thoughts.
"What are you thinking? Do you still remember what your score was at this time last year? You are already very good now.
I have been just studying since I was a child, 伱No need to compare with me.”
“Yeah.”
I don’t know what she thought of, but Liang Nina laughed softly again.
"I have no talent when it comes to studying, but when it comes to liking my seniors, I must be the most talented person in the world."
Su Chengyi paused, not knowing what to answer, so he had to Bite the bowl of cake into your mouth.
"I will keep working hard for the seniors. Today, I finally succeeded in completing something."
Liang Nina turned around and looked at Su Chengyi's side under the street lamp intently. Face.
"So, senior, please look at me occasionally."
Her pupils looked very calm at this time, as if she was just making a very simple, harmless and humble request.
Of course, there are still many words that she hid in the shadows under the light.
Senior, I can finally see you again.
Senior, you will never understand how much I love you.
Senior, why are there always so many people around you?
Senior, is it because of their existence that you don’t want to be with me?
Senior, how can you just look at me?
Students, seniors, seniors, seniors, seniors, seniors, seniors, seniors, seniors, seniors.
Of course Su Chengyi could tell that something was not right with this guy.
She looks very focused, but in fact it is more like a state of relaxation, so she must be thinking about some random things in her mind.
It started again.
Su Chengyi raised his knuckles and tapped her head gently, pulling her out of her wandering thoughts and all kinds of strange and dangerous thoughts.
“Before you go back later, fasten the buttons of your sleeves.”
Liang Nina was stunned for a moment, her expression instantly became panicked, and she covered her wrists covertly.
“This is not.”
"Yeah."
Su Chengyi nodded to indicate that he had no intention of asking further questions before she could find an excuse to cover up.
"Congratulations, it seems that you can keep the title of senior for a long time." Su Chengyi smiled and looked at the evening lights of the long winding street in front of him.
“Do you need blessings for further study?”
Liang Nina said "Huh!", and with just a few words from Su Chengyi, the dark and weird aura on her body suddenly disappeared, and now she looked like just a sweet and cute high school girl.
"Happy graduation. I hope you can use your talent for liking me to like yourself."
Su Chengyi paused for a moment before continuing:
"The weather is too hot. I think you would like to wear short sleeves occasionally."
After hearing his words, Liang Nina was stunned for a while, and then slowly loosened her sleeves. hand.
"Senior, do you think it's ugly?"
"It's not a question of being ugly."
Su Chengyi thought for a while and shook his head, but he didn't know how to answer the next sentence.
It’s not so much ugly as it is abrupt.
Such a scar appeared on the pale and thin wrist, like a piece of broken fine white porcelain.
"It's best not to do things that hurt yourself like this in the future."
"But senior, when I actually do it, I can't remember that it's something that hurts myself."
>Liang Nina looked into his eyes with serious eyes, and her tone sounded like she was discussing a final math question.
"Compared with the extremely confusing emotions, the pain is far from being the most unbearable. On the contrary, it makes me clearly realize that I am still alive."
She blinked Blinking, he rolled up the shirt cuff on his left hand.
In fact, it didn't look as exaggerated as Su Chengyi imagined. After that, she probably tried to make up for it by doing some scar removal methods.
But during the period from the college entrance examination to the score check, her anxiety was too severe, so most of them were new injuries.
"Senior, I can't like myself, because I know what a bad person I am."
Liang Nina smiled. She probably rarely smiles on weekdays, so The look of twitching the corners of his mouth was a bit reluctant.
“Actually, I know what the senior wants to say. It’s written on his face.”
Su Chengyi raised his eyebrows in disbelief.
“What do I want to say?”
“The senior wants to say, Liang Nina, why are you so ignorant? It is not uncommon for children to take so long in the second semester.
After studying hard and getting into college, you should look forward. You have survived such a difficult year of high school, and enjoying the life of a female college student is the most important thing.
Me. I know you have experienced many bad things in the past, but we cannot live in the past forever. Now is a good opportunity to simply forget everything in the past.
The environment at Beijing University is very good, and you will get to know many people there. When the time comes, you will know that there are actually a million people in the world who are better than your senior.
For a beautiful and cute girl like you, naturally many people will like you.
Of course, it would be nice if my temper could be changed a little. But it’s hard to say, after all, many people just do this now.”
Liang Nina imitated Su Chengyi’s calm tone, and even her expression was very similar.
Mingming He's talking about great principles but has a very unconvincing poker face. It's totally a good read.
If you don't really know him well, you obviously won't be able to imitate him to this extent.
Su Chengyi looked at her serious look and found it difficult to accept it for a while.
Does it mean that when he talks away from others, he always has such a life-or-death expression? It was as if someone was pointing a gun at him from behind and asking him to read his lines.
“You are almost eighteen years old, you have to learn to take care of yourself.
And, think about it, if you don’t even have the ability to like yourself, how are you going to do it? Like someone else?
The relationship between us is that of a senior and a junior girl now, and it will only be a senior and a junior girl in the future.
I can't give you any response, because I don't have much emotion in the first place, and now I have given it to others.
Ah, yes, there are still two of us. You can't expect me to like three people at the same time, I'm too busy."
"Okay, okay, stop it. ”
Su Chengyi quickly raised his hand and begged for mercy.
Liang Nina burst out laughing. After performing such a performance, she seemed to be in a much better mood. She opened her mouth and took a bite of the bowl of cake that she had held in her hand for a long time.
Su Chengyi sighed and had to take back all the principles he had prepared.
Liang Nina can direct and act on her own, and can reconstruct what he wants to say. Naturally, it will be of no use if he recites those tightening curses.
“Furthermore, with you as the third person, what if there is a fourth or fifth person?
Look, I can’t accept everything as ordered, right? ? It’s just that you didn’t come first.”
Liang Nina continued to mutter, she turned around with her hands behind her back and raised a shallow smile.
"Senior, I sometimes think, if I could be bolder before, then I would be the first person to appear next to senior.
But if I could If I do it again, I'm afraid I still won't be able to do it.
Because the senior said that if you don't like yourself, you can't make others believe that you like her.
So, it seems. This is the best result now.”
"The senior is the senior, and the junior is the junior. It's not bad, right."
Liang Nina's face showed the look of stubbornly waiting for his answer again. Su Chengyi thought for a while before replying:
"Yes."
"It's okay, I can wait."
As Liang Nina spoke, her eyes lit up as if she thought of something happy.
"Besides, the seniors may not be able to handle the two seniors, right?"
"Well, maybe."
Su Chengyi didn't know how to answer this question.
Liang Nina was obviously waiting for this answer. She was waiting to enjoy the scene after the explosion in the Shura field.
This is also the reason why she feels unhappy even when she sees Ye Ju, but on the contrary, she is not aggressive towards the two people in the center of the Shura Field.
Because she clearly knows that the beauty today is just an appearance, and it is only a matter of time before it collapses.
In fact, everyone is the same as her, they don’t own anything.
Su Chengyi felt like the hairs on his head stood up inexplicably when he looked at her expectant look.
"Button your sleeves and go back."
"Okay, senior."
Liang Nina bowed her head to tie her cufflinks obediently.
Su Chengyi looked at her cute look with lowered eyebrows, and finally couldn't help but start reciting the tightening curse.
“College is really different from high school.”
“I know.”
“You will meet a lot of people who are better and more interesting than me.”< br>
Su Chengyi meant what he said. In fact, it was difficult for him to find someone with a more boring or bad personality than him.
"The most important thing is that they will not reject you like I rejected you."
"Yes."
Liang Nina pretended and nodded frequently.
"Senior, you like to read Jin Yong, right? Have you ever read "White Horse Roaring in the West Wind"?"
Su Chengyi didn't understand why she suddenly mentioned this, so she could only nodded blankly.
"The White Horse Roars in the West Wind" is a short story that tells a simple story, which is inconspicuous compared to Jin Yong's other works.
Compared with the original work, the most famous one is probably the last paragraph of the whole novel.
Su Chengyi recalled the description in the original work.
“There are willows, peach blossoms, swallows, and goldfish in the south of the Yangtze River. Among the Han people, there are many handsome and brave young men, suave and unrestrained young men. But this beautiful girl is as stubborn as the ancient Gaochang people”
Liang Nina turned around under the street light. The dim light made her expression dim, but there was a smile in her tone.
“Those are very good, but I don’t like them.”
(End of this chapter)