Chapter 485: Review of Huaconglan
Su Chengyi is Chen Jinzhi’s first love.
Although she looks like a fisherman who knows how to love, she actually doesn’t have any experience in love.
But Chen Jinzhi is very good at observing words and expressions. Due to the environment in which she grew up, she has developed the habit of observing human beings since she was a child.
I have seen the worst side of people when I was very young. When I grow up, it is difficult to establish a trusting relationship with anyone, let alone develop love.
Therefore, Chen Jinzhi originally thought that "love" would have nothing to do with her in this life.
After all, what I saw from my parents can be said to be the worst ending of a marriage.
Although Su Chengyi's parents were not very happy, at least they were very happy in the beginning and they truly loved each other.
——Although both of them would probably deny it at this moment and name this relationship as their dark history.
But among Shu Wang and Chen Wende, there is no so-called "love" at all.
From start to finish, it's just a "scam."
Shu Wang's background is somewhat similar to that of Yangliu. He comes from a scholarly family, his parents are both civil servants, and his conditions are pretty good.
But their education for Shu Wang was a very old-fashioned "Xiaojiabiyu" model, and they protected her too well.
So after both of them passed away due to an accident, Shu Wang was very confused and had no idea how to live alone.
Chen Wende appeared at this time. He easily won all Shu Wang's trust as an independent and capable savior.
From Chen Jinzhi's current perspective, of course it can be seen at a glance that he was just doing it for property, but to Shu Wang at that time, it was like grabbing a life-saving straw.
After the two got married, Chen Wende began to show his true colors, becoming an alcoholic and moody.
But Shu Wang naively accepted all of Chen Wende's bad habits. She subconsciously felt that love and tolerance might make people better, and she also thought that the birth of a child would make him take responsibility.
But this obviously didn't work. People like Chen Wende never knew what responsibility was. He began to get addicted to gambling and started domestic violence and mental control that lasted for many years.
After squandering the inheritance left by Shu Wang's parents, he abandoned his wife and daughter very decisively, and ran away.
Chen Jinzhi sometimes found it ridiculous. What finally defeated Shu Wang was not his long-term abuse, but his departure.
Shouldn’t it be considered as an opportunity to start a new life when such a scoundrel is gone?
Later, she learned that there is a mental illness called "Stockholm Syndrome".
The psychological analysis is as follows: The hostage encounters a cruel and violent murderer. This murderer has a violent temperament, restricts the hostage's freedom, and may take his life at any time. Over time, hostages will unknowingly place their lives in the hands of their murderers.
From now on, the hostages will think that their right to eat, drink, and even breathe comes from the kindness and charity of the murderer.
The hostage's feelings towards the murderer will also change from initial fear to gratitude in this process.
Finally, it becomes dependent.
Chen Jinzhi believed that Shu Wang might have had such a morbid feeling for Chen Wende that she never said a word of hatred for him when she committed suicide.
If so-called marriage and love were such things, Chen Jinzhi only felt sick to his stomach.
She will never fall in love with such a person. Even if Stockholm Syndrome really catches her, she will only choose to drag him to death.
With this thought, Chen Jinzhi grew up every day.
As she grows older, she gradually becomes more dazzling and outstanding. When people see her for the first time, they no longer blurt out "cute" but "beautiful".
As a result, she will naturally have many suitors.
Chen Jinzhi maintained his superficial politeness and rejected everyone decently.
“Thank you for your thoughtfulness, but I have no plans to fall in love at the moment.”
"I'm sorry, you're a nice person, but I don't have that idea about you."
"I'm sorry."
"I'm really sorry."
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In fact, she was disgusted with such pursuit. Everyone reminded her of Chen Wende's terrifying face.
It's just that Chen Jinzhi also knows that this is her own psychological problem. Maybe others' love is just sincere, so she can barely maintain such superficial harmony.
But based on her inner words, she could not trust anyone at all.
Miss Chen Jinzhi, an eagle-like woman who is ruthless and whose heart is sealed by concrete, originally firmly believed that she would remain in this state throughout her long life.
Until she met Su Chengyi.
At a moment when she was absolutely confused about the future, she ushered in the most significant turning point in her life.
Chen Jinzhi thought that if he wanted to describe such an encounter, it would be easy to describe it in a tacky way.
But this is indeed the case, as Zhang Ailing said:
“Meet the person you want to meet among millions of people.
In millions of years , In the boundless wilderness of time, there is no step too early and no step too late.”
Chen Jinzhi has never set up a so-called ideal type for himself, but there is such a person who makes you feel like him. everything.
It’s as if he was born to be your complete ideal, and you were born to wait for his appearance.
It is only now that Chen Jinzhi can take back her "hatred of iron cannot be transformed into steel" towards her mother.
Sorry mom, I seem to have inherited the part that you least want me to inherit.
Perhaps it is because he inherited the love brain that Chen Jinzhi can be so keenly aware of those undercurrents of emotions.
Whether it was the moment when my "curiosity" about Su Chengyi turned into "like", or the secret love that the quiet girl opposite the dinner table inadvertently revealed.
Too obvious.
Chen Jinzhi couldn't help but think.
But maybe it’s normal for others not to see it. Only she who feels the same way will know it very clearly.
Whether it’s the restrained yet joyful smile on the corner of the mouth, or those moments when the eyes are downcast, there is only one thing that is clear - I like you so much.
There is a saying that you can't hide your love for someone. Even if you cover your mouth, it will still come out from your eyes.
Maybe Lin Zhiwan can't speak, so her eyes can express more emotions.
It seems that she has tried very hard to hide it, but she encountered Chen Jinzhi, a bug with his own "seeing through" skills.
Chen Jinzhi clenched his chopsticks and poked at the rice in the bowl, laughing for a moment.
Facts have proved that even if you are a huge block of stone emotionally, you can still have such strong love luck.
However, this piece of wood himself is still in a state of being kept in the dark, so people can't find any reason to be angry with him.
Really.
Although Su Chengyi felt guilty due to Chen Jinzhi's meaningful glance, it did not affect his appetite.
Lin Zhiwan’s craftsmanship is really unparalleled. Although Yang Liu, an unreliable assistant, is working beside him, which slightly affects the appearance, the taste is still top-notch.
He felt that he had not eaten such a big bowl of rice for a long time.
While Su Chengyi was indulging in cooking, Yang Liu and Chen Jinzhi chatted naturally, mostly about interesting things about his childhood. When Yang Liu talked about this, he was always smiling and very happy.
Children like Su Chengyi are particularly easy to raise. Not only do they not get into trouble, they also don’t pester their parents to play with them.
Just throw a book to him and he can hold it and chew on it all afternoon.
And he looks pretty cute. Such a cub pretending to be cool and putting on a poker face will not make people find it annoying, it will only make it fun.
But as he spoke, Yang Liu felt a little emotional.
"Jin Zhi, do you think it's because his aunt was too indulgent that he grew up to be such a boring person?" After dropping the child, Yang Liu can take the opportunity to lie on the bed and brush the soap opera leisurely, and Su Zelang can go out and drink beer with his brothers.
As parents, neither of us ever considered whether it would be boring for our children to read books all day long, whether they would not be able to make friends, or whether they would grow into a nerd.
"Oh, you don't know. Auntie used to be really afraid that with his personality, he would not be able to find a girlfriend in the future."
When he thought of this, Yang Liu felt a little frightened and put down his chopsticks. He stroked his heart.
Chen Jinzhi smiled when he heard this, and his eyes lightly glanced at the top of Su Chengyi's head, which was concentrating on cooking rice.
"No, Auntie, you may not know this, but Su Chengyi is very popular with women."
"Pfft."
Su Chengyi almost choked on a mouthful of rice. He raised his head to look at her for no apparent reason.
Chen Jinzhi gave him a slightly teasing look.
"Ah? It's true! Do all the little girls nowadays like his style? Hey, I'm really old and I don't understand what's popular now."
Yang Liu threw away the chopsticks happily. , the fire of listening to the gossip arose spontaneously.
But soon she realized another problem, that is, Chen Jinzhi also liked his type of girl, so she quickly changed the topic.
"No, no. Xiaoyi, you have a real girlfriend now, and you won't be able to be a woman anymore.
You can't learn from your dad! Mom is telling you To be honest, if someone like him met a kind-hearted ex-wife like me, all his bad things would have been exposed long ago! Let’s see how he can still survive in society!”
When Su Zelang was mentioned, Yang Liu gritted his teeth and was filled with hatred.
Su Chengyi couldn't help but think that when it comes to relationships, hate actually lasts longer than love.
Although these two people now have new families, they are always in such an aggrieved state when they mention each other, and they both feel that the other party has failed them.
Maybe in the future, when the two of them arrive at a nursing home, they will have very few teeth combined and will be unable to walk, and they will still use crutches to fight each other.
However, when it comes to women's luck, if it were placed in the previous life, Su Chengyi would never have thought that he would be evaluated as "very womanly".
In his previous life, there were girls who were attracted by his rather deceptive face. Unfortunately, they only asked for WeChat messages, and he already ran away as fast as if he had seen a ghost in broad daylight.
Even if someone really wants to develop with him, there is no chance at all.
But Su Chengyi thinks this is not the point, because even if he musters up the courage to insist on getting along with the other party, the final result will be tragic.
In three days at most, that unlucky girl will be forced to run away with a bucket due to his character, and will learn a painful lesson from then on - Mom, I will never be a handsome dog again.
Su Chengyi doesn’t think she is very handsome, but the genes are there anyway.
Yang Liu is a famous beauty, and Su Zelang was also very handsome when he was young, and he also had the temperament of a literary rock youth.
So, it is useless to rely on a good-looking face to win a relationship with a girl.
Su Chengyi thought for a while, although it seems that his love luck is indeed a bit strong now, most people should play the role of an atmosphere group.
Up to now, apart from Chu Qingmian and Chen Jinzhi, the only person who has really had deep contact with him is Liang Nina.
Since the last time Liang Nina said seriously, "Those are very good, but I don't like him," Su Chengyi finally accepted the fact that Liang Nina really liked him. .
It’s not a child’s nature, it’s not gratitude, it’s just love.
But Su Chengyi clearly chose to refuse. He felt that his emotions were weak and he was by no means a modern version of Duan Zhengchun.
Although Duan Zhengchun shows mercy at all times, he truly loves every woman he has. He is a contradictory character who is passionate and infatuated.
Su Chengyi felt that he probably couldn't do that. It was an accident that he fell in love with two people at the same time, so how could he give his heart to a third person.
Although there are three thousand weak water, I only take two ladles to drink.
Su Chengyi calmed down and suddenly stretched out his hand to hold Chen Jinzhi's wrist.
Although both of their hands were hidden under the table, Chen Jinzhi was still startled and turned his head to look at him.
"Looking back at Hua Cong lazily, I am half destined to practice Taoism and half destined to be a king."
Su Chengyi looked into her eyes and said with a smile.
I walk back and forth among the flowers but am too lazy to look back, partly because I devote myself to cultivating Taoism, and partly because of your presence.
Chen Jinzhi clearly knew the meaning of this poem. She pursed her lips slightly and lowered her curtain-like eyelashes to cover her flowing eyes.
“Oh, a child can be taught. A child can be taught.”
Yang Liu smiled happily, and couldn’t help but sigh that God was wise, and his son did not inherit the loveliness of his unreliable father. Big radish gene.
"Wanwan, we wrote this poem last time, right? Do you still remember it?"
Yang Liu took Lin Zhiwan's hand and asked with a smile.
Lin Zhiwan has been practicing writing in her spare time since some time ago.
She basically recognizes the commonly used words, but her writing is not pretty and there are often typos.
Now I no longer have to do hard work, so I am taking advantage of my free time to work hard to improve my cultural level.
When Yang Liu was young, he was a literary young man who loved reading and writing poetry. Of course he was willing to help. Lin Zhiwan had learned many ancient poems recently.
Among them is Yuan Zhen's "Five Poems on Lisi, Part 4".
Lin Zhiwan, who had been quiet for a long time, raised her head in confusion. She looked a little lost, but it was fleeting.
Compared with the last two sentences of "taking a few flowers to look back lazily, half destined to practice Taoism and half destined to be a king", the first two sentences are more widely known.
"Once upon a time, the sea was difficult to overcome, except for Wushan, it was not clouds."
Lin Zhiwan read this poem silently in her heart.
She didn’t know what her voice sounded like, so what she recalled in her mind was the rising and falling tones of Willow.
After experiencing the majestic sea, water elsewhere is no longer worth looking at.
After being intoxicated by the dream of clouds and rain in Wushan, the scenery elsewhere will not be called clouds and rain.
Lin Zhiwan bent her eyes and smiled. After a while, she nodded gently.
She remembered.
(End of this chapter)