Chapter 506: A good match
“Ding Ding.”
The sound of Su Chengyi tapping the cup sounded very much like the dubbing of the main character having an idea in some kind of anime.
“I remembered what you said.”
“Huh?”
Chen Jinzhi didn't know why.
"When was the first time I consciously fell in love with you."
Su Chengyi also added a precondition to this sentence, that is, "conscious".
Because there are no restrictions on the heartbeat, no one can tell when it started, but the node that was clearly realized for the first time can still be confirmed.
Chen Jinzhi blinked, showing a somewhat inquiring look.
Although she didn't speak, her expression already meant that she was very curious about it.
"——Ahem."
As the words reached his lips, Su Chengyi paused and coughed twice in embarrassment.
He was certain that this matter must be a secret that even Chen Jinzhi couldn't guess.
It takes a lot of courage to say such shameless words under the eyes of such a thousand-year-old fox.
"Do you still remember that day when you and Quan Enyan came to visit No. 1 Middle School?"
".Remember."
Chen Jinzhi frowned slightly.
For some reason, she had a bad feeling.
“That day, when you introduced me to her, you spoke in Korean, which I couldn’t understand.”
Su Chengyi rolled up a circle of pasta with a fork, pretending to be nonchalant.
“However, I had a voice recorder in my pocket and accidentally pressed the record button.”
“I found out after I got home that the conversation you had at that time was also recorded. I was really curious, so I used the voice function of the translation software to translate it.”
“Quan Enyan asked me who I was, and your answer was”
Su Chengyi hadn’t said anything yet. After he finished, Chen Jinzhi on the opposite side raised his hand to stop his narration.
"Okay! I remembered."
She seemed to be embarrassed for a rare moment. After a while, she covered her eyes and sighed softly.
This was indeed something she didn't expect.
Of course she remembers that her answer at that time was: "It's the person I like, my future boyfriend."
But the reason why Chen Jinzhi answered like this at that time was solely because of Su Chengyi Just don't understand.
And she also carefully considered that this was a whole sentence, not a short word, so the method of memorizing the pronunciation and then going back and repeating the translation would not work.
Even Chen Jinzhi, who is very resourceful, would not have thought that the other party had something like a voice recorder on him.
I accidentally pressed the record button, and the timing was just right to record such a conversation. It just so happened that this person was so curious that he could use translation software to translate it.
What a shame.
Chen Jinzhi began to feel that this was a Waterloo in her life.
"Actually, it's nothing."
Su Chengyi looked at her red ears and continued:
"I didn't know if you were serious at the time. I thought maybe you were just talking to relatives. The teasing and joking between each other may be the customs of you people."
".Where can such strange customs occur?"
Chen Jinzhi couldn't help but complain. One sentence.
Su Chengyi spread his hands.
“But no matter what, my heart did move for a second.”
He can still recall that feeling, staring at the translated text on the screen one by one. , an unbelievable but heart-beating feeling.
"Just one second? I was confessing my love in disguise."
Chen Jinzhi raised his eyes to look at him.
"Although what you said is true, the authenticity is doubtful. You liked to tease me a lot at that time."
Su Chengyi complained while poking the sliced Wagyu beef in the bowl onto her plate. .
"That's all a joke to show your sincerity."
Chen Jinzhi lowered his head and looked at the food that had piled up into a small mountain in front of him.
“I didn’t believe a single punctuation mark at first.”
Su Chengyi said.
I thought Chen Jinzhi would retort, but unexpectedly she smiled and nodded.
"Well, I know you don't believe a single punctuation mark, so I feel so relaxed when I say these words."
Chen Jinzhi still did not finish all the food on the plate. But Su Chengyi saw that she had worked very hard, so she still became the disc man tonight.
The waiter placed the desserts on the coffee table on the balcony, and the two of them leaned against the railing, enjoying the evening breeze.
The Oriental Pearl Tower stands tall as the most eye-catching landmark, surrounded by tall buildings and LED screens flashing with magical neon lights.
Only when you are truly in this city can you understand why it is called the "Magic City".
Countless people come here with hopes, some get the life they want, and many more leave with regrets and scars.
Behind every light is a world that you cannot understand.
The night view of the Magic City is familiar to both of them. Chen Jinzhi has been working in the Magic City recently, while Su Chengyi still retains many memories from his previous life.
He looked to the southeast, a complex of buildings where every inch of land was valuable, and his home in his previous life was at that location.
At this point in time, if he had not worked overtime, he would have been standing by the balcony in a daze, just like now, except that there was an extra person beside him this time.
For countless nights in his previous life, he watched the changing of the day and night in silence through the floor-to-ceiling windows.
Viewed from a height of dozens of floors, the endless flow of vehicles looks like an orderly swarm of ants, and the thousands of lights that light up in the night look like floating fireflies.
Su Chengyi retracted his gaze from the distance and turned to look at Chen Jinzhi beside him.
There was no expression on her face at the moment, she was just leaning casually on the railing, her long hair was blown up by the night breeze, and she looked very much like she was filming a movie poster.
Su Chengyi wanted to reach out and pull her in, but he suddenly and inexplicably doubted the solidity of the railing.
He is not a person who is afraid of heights, and he also knows that the probability of something going wrong with this railing is about the same as the probability of a plane suddenly crashing into a building at this time.
But when Chen Jinzhi stands in this marginal zone with his long hair flying, it always makes people's hearts hang.
“Actually, the question I just asked Teacher Su about love and pity is not important.”
Not sure if he noticed his nervous eyes, Chen Jinzhi suddenly spoke.
"Why?"
"Because, no matter what the answer is, I don't care that much."
Chen Jinzhi turned his head to look at him, his tone serious.
Su Chengyi frowned, trying to understand her intention.
As if Chen Jinzhi had guessed that he would not understand, he blinked and continued:
"Sometimes people ask questions with answers. If I have that kind of confidence, I can truly believe that you If you love me, I would probably say now"
"Don't pity me, don't be with me just because you pity me.
Su Chengyi, I want you to love me, not pity me. Me."
Su Chengyi's eyes flickered and he hesitated and said:
"But, are you talking about what if?"
"Yeah." Chen Jinzhi smiled softly, with little lights shining in his eyes.
“It’s just blind confidence that comes from asking questions with answers.
Just like I told Eun-yeon that this boy is the one I like. , just because at that time I thought you would never know what I said.
Just like I always said things that sounded frivolous to you, just because I knew you wouldn't believe a single punctuation mark. "
Her tone when she said these words was obviously very calm, but Su Chengyi felt an inexplicable dull pain in his heart. He took a deep breath and continued to ask:
"What if, apart from this, What are your real thoughts now? ”
“Now.”
Chen Jinzhi fell into a brief thought, and then raised a very shallow smile.
Su Chengyi wondered if she didn't even realize how complicated this vague smile looked.
"I would probably say so."
She said slowly.
"If you really just pity me, then please pity me to the end."
"Don't pity others when you see other more pitiful people in the future."
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When Su Chengyi asked this question, he didn't expect Chen Jinzhi to give such an answer.
He instantly felt overwhelmed by guilt, as if he should be hanged on a pillar of shame and be chopped into pieces.
But he also suddenly understood the difference between love and pity.
When he learned about Lin Zhiwan's feelings, he also felt a similar sense of guilt.
Because I think she is unkind to others, and I think she is a very good girl and should not be let down by someone like him.
I also regret why I couldn't realize this problem earlier. Earlier, maybe there would be a better way to stop the loss in time.
But this is completely different from how I feel now.
In addition to the guilt, he also felt a real heartache.
Chen Jinzhi is now a big star surrounded by thousands of people. Every move he makes can attract countless attention, and a carnival surge of public opinion and traffic.
She always seems to be able to cope with everything. It seems that nothing in the world can really defeat her.
Even if she is surrounded by enemies, she will never let go of her sword until death.
Su Chengyi always thought she was such a person.
But now she was looking at him, her whole body was so fragile that she seemed about to fall into the confused night behind her in the next second.
"I think love is thicker because of differences."
Su Chengyi reached out and held her finger, pulling her in a little.
"What do you mean?"
"Speaking of which, besides Sister Lin, I have been in contact with some other girls."
Su Chengyi scratched his hair, not sure where he was. Is it the right thing to say these words at this time?
But to prove what he just said, this is the simplest and most effective way.
In experimental research, this is called establishing a control group, and its function is to improve the identification ability and the persuasiveness of the conclusion.
"Sister Lin is very good. You have met her before. You know she is very beautiful and gentle, but I can't have feelings for her like a lover.
She lived too hard in the first half of her life. , so I sincerely hope that she can be happy in the rest of her life, and I will bear witness to this as a friend or younger brother."
"A school girl claimed that it was because I was the only one who voted in a voting event. Gave it to her and fell in love with me. I thought she was just suffering from a secondary disease, but now I kind of believe it.
She also has many problems in her life, otherwise she would not have become so paranoid and stubborn. But I am very grateful to her, she likes her. When I was young, my personality was much more withdrawn and eccentric than it is now.
So I also hope that she can live a good life in the future, and I am willing to be a senior, but that's all. ”
After talking about these two people, Su Chengyi felt a little stuck for a while.
So to put it this way, there are actually not many women around us! ! !
But Chen Jinzhi listened very carefully and seemed to be waiting for his next words.
Su Chengyi had no choice but to cough and forced herself to continue:
"There is also a very neurotic girl. I often feel that I can't keep up with her thinking. I originally thought she was like this This kind of character would grow up among thousands of pampers, but that is not the case. Her family conditions are not good either.
She was always a loner in school, but she seemed to enjoy it. She was actually a pretty interesting girl.
A mutual friend, a man with glasses, told me that he suspected that she was interested in me. I thought he was probably making this up, but I also knew very clearly that she and I might be very good friends, but They will only be friends. "
If Ye Ju heard him say this, she would probably hold up a spatula - she recently worked part-time in a private kitchen and chased him for eight thousand miles and scolded him for being narcissistic.
"Well, besides that, I also have an older sister who drives a Ferrari and often asks me if I'm interested in going out for a ride with her. ”
This is true, but Jian Xiao probably regards him as an electronic pet. She just sends him a WeChat message like this when nothing happens, and she doesn’t care that he can’t read it back.
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After a lot of hard work, Su Chengyi finally shook off all the bad things he had done.
Chen Jinzhi listened with interest, a meaningful smile brewing in his peach blossom eyes.
These things were not a new secret to her, but it was even more surprising to hear Su Chengyi say it out loud with a guilty expression.
It seems that even a piece of wood can still be aware of this to some extent.
Or maybe she taught too well in person?
Now Su Chengyi really couldn't think of anyone else who could appear here, and he finally breathed a sigh of relief.
“But you are different from all of them.”
He changed the subject and sounded serious.
Chen Jinzhi was slightly startled.
“Even if I know that other people also have so-called ‘like’ feelings for me, I will not have the idea of reciprocating because of this.
Because I don’t want to respond, I want to escape, so I will find many excuses for myself. For example, they may not be able to accept my personality, or I suspect that their love is fake and has a shelf life.
But in the end, It’s just that I don’t have a heart-warming feeling, and I don’t have a liking that resonates with me. "
"So I just said that love is thick because of differences.
Because you are a special person to me, I am still very good at making many excuses for my escape, but in the end, these excuses cannot convince me to give up my love for you.
When I hurt you, I not only feel sorry, but also feel heartache for it. ”
"But, I can't seem to convince myself to give up on you as soon as possible just because I'm afraid of hurting you.
In the end, I am a very selfish and sick person."
Su Chengyi lowered his head, His fingers unconsciously hooked on the metal watch strap hanging on his wrist and pulled hard.
Chen Jinzhi lowered his eyes and looked at the obvious red marks on his wrists. This seemed to have evolved into an unconscious habit when he felt nervous.
But despite this, his tone still did not change in any way because of the pain.
"Our lives are meant to be involved together, no matter what, it must be this way.
I hate the word 'give up', especially when it is placed with you. In comparison , 'Death' sounds much easier."
Chen Jinzhi thought that this man's thoughts sounded like a magician chanting evil spells, with a kind of calmness. of death.
Although it has been known for a long time that he must have some psychological problems, it is still a bit surprising when such a pathology is really revealed.
But, how to say it?
She wasn't disgusted or scared at all, or rather, she quite liked it.
"Sorry, this is not fair to you."
After Su Chengyi came back to his senses, he couldn't remember what he said, so he just apologized subconsciously.
Chen Jinzhi took his wrist and gently brushed the shocking-looking red mark with his fingertips.
The next second, her eyebrows curved into a beautiful arc.
"That's fair."
Not only fair, it can even be called a perfect match.
(End of this chapter)