Chapter 557 My freedom is based on my love for you
“Speaking of it, this is my first time coming to the northwest.”
Chen Jinzhi and Su Chengyi sat side by side on the side of the road, their bodies She finally took off her coat and put it on their shoulders.
"Yes, after all, you have been abroad before."
As soon as Su Chengyi finished saying this, he realized a problem.
It was also his first time to come to the Northwest.
In total, he has lived two lifetimes, but his trajectory is very clear.
Traveling between work and home within 10km is the same, rain or shine.
In large factories where overtime has become a common practice, holidays are even more rare. "Voluntary overtime" has become an unspoken rule that everyone accepts by default.
Everyone is like a finely polished screw, working conscientiously and accurately in his or her position.
Facing the scrolling code on the screen day and night, Su Chengyi occasionally thought that if his life was also a code, it must be the simplest kind to write.
When he was in the second or third grade of elementary school, Su Chengyi flipped through the tutorial books and wrote his own "guessing guessing" game on the computer. Later, it developed into games such as eating gold coins and playing games.
Later, Yang Liu accidentally discovered this feat and publicized that his son was a computer genius.
Su Chengyi felt very embarrassed, so he pushed the programming book to the bottom of the box. At that time, he probably could not have imagined that he would actually become a programmer in the future.
At that time, Su Cheng thought that his life code seemed to be no more difficult than the mini-game where he typed out letters one by one according to the tutorial.
Fortunately, there was a bug in the program, everything collapsed, and he returned to the starting point of seventeen years old.
That’s why he can now sit in this land of the northwest with his arms around the slim waist of the most beautiful girl in the world.
"After coming here, I feel a little unreal."
Chen Jinzhi leaned on Su Chengyi's shoulder and said slowly.
Su Chengyi shook his head, trying to clear out things like "code" and "bugs" from his mind.
"Why is it not real?"
"Words like desert and Gobi have been learned in geography books and seen in documentaries. But only after actually coming here can I really I really feel that such a spectacular landform really exists in the world. Sure enough, there are many things that cannot be described. You must experience it yourself to understand."
Chen Jinzhi looked at the desert in the distance. Horizon, continued :
“It was only after I came here that I understood why Director Caroline insisted on coming to the real location for auditions. She is a person who loves travel and adventure very much. She has been to many places in the world and asked How did I feel after I came here?
She asked sincerely, but my first reaction was that it was related to the audition, so I gave a very official answer as usual. "< br>
At this point, she sighed softly.
"Su Chengyi, in fact, the desert is real, the moon is real, the shots of the crew are real, and it is me who is not real."
"But I have seen the real you."
Su Chengyi took her hand and squeezed it with a little force.
Here it comes again, the ethereal feeling in Chen Jinzhi's body. I'm afraid this is the reason why she has been uneasy for a while.
Su Chengyi felt a little uneasy every time he felt this kind of aura from her body, because she acted as if she would suddenly disappear from the world in the next second.
"Yes."
Chen Jinzhi raised his eyes and looked at him neither sad nor happy.
“So no matter how magnificent the scenery in front of me is, no matter what gratifying things happen, no matter how sincere others around me are towards me, I cannot give normal feedback.
It’s so strange, I will always only think about it, if only you were here.”
The more free and vast a place one is in, the more one can feel one's own insignificance and despicability, as well as being incompatible with other people.
"So, Su Chengyi, what if one day you want to leave me?"
Chen Jinzhi suddenly asked.
Su Chengyi was stunned for a moment. Reason told him that he should say some standard answers at this time, such as "Why would I want to leave you?" "Don't think nonsense", but his intuition was also lurking on the other side. , tell him: She doesn’t want to hear these words at this time.
So Su Chengyi was silent for a long time and said slowly:
"I don't want to leave you, but Chen Jinzhi, life is a wilderness."
He once said this to Chu Qingmian. At that time, he also said that her life was determined only by herself. , neither the expectations of her family nor her love for him can affect her own heart.
Because compared with "freedom", all these are constraints.
What binds Chu Qingmian is the responsibility brought by the family. In comparison, what binds Chen Jinzhi is just him.
He appeared at the darkest moment in Chen Jinzhi's life, so she naturally regarded him as her salvation and was willing to give everything for him.
For some people, this is a great thing.
Because this can be used to control her, it doesn't matter how much you hurt her, as long as she can't leave anyway.
But Su Chengyi didn’t think so. He had moments of selfishness, but in the end he truly came out on top.
So, he said this:
"There can be a lot more in your life besides Su Chengyi, don't live for me. It doesn't matter if you can't do it now, you can take your time. .
You have to consider not just what if I wanted to leave you, but also where you would go if you wanted to leave me. ”
To be honest, the courage required to say this is no less than jumping from Laojun Mountain.
Because no one in the world can accept Chen Jinzhi’s departure.
Obviously it was just a hypothesis, but Su Chengyi felt like he was suffocating as he spoke. It turned out that this was how Chen Jinzhi felt when he asked this question just now.
"If I want to leave you. ”
Chen Jinzhi repeated his words while thinking.
Hearing Su Chengyi's heart, he felt a faint desire to die, and felt that he would have no guts to retract his great declaration of freedom in the next second.
Chen Jinzhi could easily see his stiff expression, and suddenly lowered his head and laughed.
The words he just said were obviously not without effect. At least Chen Jinzhi's fragile and ethereal feeling disappeared.
"Su Chengyi, I will never, ever stop loving you. Even if I have to leave you one day."
She spoke in a tone that sounded like an oath, but her eyes were as gentle as water.
“I am willing to give up my freedom for you, and of course I am willing to become a free person for you. So, just like you said, I will try to find the meaning of my life besides you. "
The weight of her words is very heavy.
Getting Chen Jinzhi to love the world is as difficult as getting Chu Qingmian not to love the world.
Su Chengyi lowered his eyes and realized once again how much the girl in front of him loved him and was willing to take such a step for him.
"But, I hope you will always understand."
Chen Jinzhi came closer and looked into his eyes. Her silhouette in the moonlight was as beautiful as the legendary goddess who was moved by a mortal heart and was banished from the world.
"My freedom is based on my love for you."
After the words fell, as if to seal the oath, she kissed him gently on the lips.
The moon is like frost.
On the way back to the hotel, Su Chengyi was still thinking.
Unable to repay the sincerity of others and unable to integrate into this world, Chen Jinzhi has probably always felt sorry for himself.
So she needs to ask and get answers from the only connection between her and the world, which is him.
Thinking of this, Su Chengyi felt a little lucky for his answer.
Fortunately, his sincerity defeated his selfishness. If he had taken advantage of the situation and said, "Ah, isn't this great? It's OK if I am the only one in your life.", then Chen Jinzhi would definitely do the same.
However, in that case, she will become more and more confused and less and less self-conscious.
Life will become more and more painful.
Su Chengyi thought that he didn't want to make Chen Jinzhi feel pain. Even if it was irreversible and would come sooner or later, he wanted to make it come as late as possible or cause less harm.
Immersed in such thoughts, the other three people in the car kept chatting, but he didn't answer a word absentmindedly. It wasn't until Xiao Zheng couldn't stand it anymore and pressed the horn angrily that he was brought back from his thoughts.
"What's wrong?"
Su Chengyi came back to his senses, raised his head and asked.
"What's the matter? Master, what's the matter? We've been discussing it for a long time, why don't you, the hero, say a word?"
Xiao Zheng patted the steering wheel, Apparently he has entered combat mode again.
"Protagonist?"
Su Chengyi raised his eyebrows in confusion.
Of course Chen Jinzhi knew what he was thinking along the way. He had been helping him answer the call just now. Now he gently squeezed his fingers to show comfort and reminded him in a gentle tone:< br>
"Brother Zheng wants to tell you about the collaboration with the crew."
"Oh, tell me."
Su Chengyi nodded casually.
What's the matter? It's such a trivial matter. What he was just thinking about was a thousand times more important issue.
"I mean, since we have come this time, we can go negotiate with Caroline again. You see, Iris has passed the audition. It is understandable that we want to deepen our cooperation. At this time, we can't You know how many people are eyeing this hot cake, let’s come early to get a seat, it will be beneficial without any harm.”
Xiao Zheng is good at tempting.
"The only thing that can convince Caroline is the work, but before the tone of the entire series is set, how should I produce the work?"
Su Chengyi asked rhetorically.
"She doesn't want you to compose music for the crew now, but she needs to see your production ability. Master, just find a way to show it off in front of her and that's it! Anyway, we are learning from our real talents, so what are we afraid of?"
Xiao Zheng waved his fist and his fighting spirit was high.
“Perform a three-key song for her!”
Three-key song, by definition, does not always use three fixed keys to play, but revolves around three notes. In addition, the improvised association and extended creation of the tonal understanding are added.
This is something that can only be accomplished by people who often improvise. It also requires the accumulation of classical repertoire and the blessing of popular creation experience.
In other words, it is definitely not something Su Chengyi can "show off".
"Don't you think this scene is funny? I carried the piano and went to the house and said: Director, please stay and allow me to perform a song for you."
Su Chengyi said speechlessly .
“Oh, opportunities are created by people! We can fight for it”
Xiao Zheng obviously refused to give up and was still chattering about his great plan.
"In this way, we have a double happiness today! Iris passed the audition, and the young master's collaboration song has been finalized.
La la la, today is a good day~~ It is the New Year in the first month~~Ahhhh~~~ I congratulate You are rich~~~I congratulate you for being wonderful~~~"
Lulu, who was sitting in the passenger seat, finally couldn't bear it anymore. She clicked on the Bluetooth speaker and played a death heavy metal song she treasured. , and turn the volume up hard.
The hoarse and manic roar of the lead singer came from the speakers, and the wheels of the off-road vehicle flew past the dark night. If there happened to be any camping warriors spending the night here, they might feel like they had seen a ghost.
When we arrived at the hotel, the rest of the crew had already arrived for a while, so only a few of them were left to check in in the lobby.
There are three rooms in total, two single rooms are for Xiao Zheng and Lulu, and Su Chengyi and Chen Jinzhi live in a large bed room with an outdoor view.
"I said your crew seems a bit impersonal. It's still early and we won't disband after team building."
Xiao Zheng glanced at the wall hanging in the lobby Zhong, sighed.
"You just think it's a pity that you didn't meet the director!"
Lulu took the room card and revealed his thoughts mercilessly.
"What's going on?"
Xiao Zheng shook his head and hummed a few times. Although he knew the chance was slim, he still looked left and right without giving up.
At this glance, he really saw an acquaintance.
Although this acquaintance looked at him as if he were looking at a criminal gang that abducted ignorant girls, and would call the police the next second.
“Hey, isn’t that who it is?”
He excitedly poked Su Chengyi next to him.
Su Chengyi put the room key card in his pocket and looked over it casually.
There was a person hiding behind the pillars in the hotel lobby. She probably thought that she was hiding very well, and she was holding on to the pillars to watch them vigilantly.
"Lin Yishui?"
Su Chengyi frowned slightly.
Lin Yishui knew about his relationship with Chen Jinzhi, so there was no need to avoid him, but at this moment, Xiao Nizi's eyes were full of hostility for some reason.
“Is this Director Caroline’s biological daughter?”
Xiao Zheng’s eyes shone brightly, and he felt that he had been favored by God today, and there was always a way to reach the mountain.
“Great! She can definitely ask Caroline out, right?”
“Go to hell!”
Lulu punched him.
“Please don’t let the friendship between sister Iris and her good friend deteriorate!”
“What’s wrong with introducing your good friend’s boyfriend to your mother?”
“.”
Lulu nodded to Chen Jinzhi and dragged Xiao Zheng into the elevator.
"Don't drag me, I still have something to say! Hey, little beauty over there, what's your mother's surname? Are you interested in coming out for a late-night snack?!
No, Lulu, why are you so strong? Big? You’re lifting the iron with everyone on your back, right?”
Xiao Zheng’s unwilling voice gradually disappeared into the closed elevator door.
Chen Jinzhi then turned around with a smile and looked at Lin Yishui, who was still hiding behind the pillar.
"Xiao Shui?"
She gently hooked her hand, and Lin Yishui walked out obediently. Her eyes kept falling on Su Chengyi, and after a long while, she said:
"Shu Zengyi."
As always, Very standard Mandarin.
Su Chengyi really wanted to laugh.
“Ah, I almost forgot, you guys know each other.”
Chen Jinzhi said slowly.
Su Chengyi's heart immediately started to ring with alarm bells. To put it into perspective, his first meeting with Lin Yishui dates back to the welcome party when Jian Xiao returned to China, and that time Miss Chu was also present.
However, if Lin Yishui still remembered this matter, he must have told Chen Jinzhi long ago.
Su Chengyi thought this and breathed a sigh of relief.
"Xiao Shui, don't be nervous. He even voted for you during the 101 competition."
Chen Jinzhi said with a smile, his tone changed over and over again, and he was very tactful.
“.”
Su Chengyi suddenly felt a pain in his knee.
I didn’t expect that Chen Jinzhi would still remember this kind of thing about sesame seeds and rotten millet. Has it been too long to hold a grudge? !
(End of this chapter)