Chapter 580 Oh! Be good
"Son, adults, especially us men! We must have our own opinions, and we must be responsible for our own actions."
Having not had two sips of wine, Su Ze Lang's chat box has been opened.
If he didn't know that he was like this, Su Chengyi would almost think that he was hinting at something.
After all, the words "responsible for one's own actions" can also be translated into "responsible for one's own scumbag behavior".
However, it turned out that Su Zelang was just addicted to the principles of the wine table again, and he soon started a new round of preaching.
"In the final analysis, life is all about three words 'get'. Be able to hold your breath, bend down, and hold your head up."
Su Zelang raised his head and took a sip of wine. The wine filled my heart with sorrow, and I sighed deeply.
"Promise me that you won't read chicken soup on the public account in the future, okay?"
Su Chengyi poked at the slightly overcooked pork belly in the bowl and said slowly.
Listening to his rants, Su Zelang scratched the back of his head with a smile, and said a little embarrassedly:
"These are all the principles of life that dad has realized by himself. Oh, son, when you reach dad's age, you will Got it!”
He picked up the wine glass and touched Su Chengyi’s drink. Happy Cup, and then continued:
"Stop talking about this, son, I will leave when I am nineteen years old."
Su Chengyi felt that the old father actually had a lot to say, but he didn't I knew how to speak, so I held it in for a long time before saying a dry "Let's go."
It makes people feel quite complicated.
Su Chengyi picked up the cup and touched it lightly with him. The dark brown carbonated drink in the cup bubbled up.
"I have been thinking about your childhood lately. Son, when you were a little taller, you could already memorize a long list of pi."
Su Ze Lang raised his hand to draw a height in the air and smiled. He said:
"Every time I take you out to dinner with my friends, I ask you to perform this. You are reluctant every time, but I feel very proud at that time. My brothers all say I am blessed to have a genius son.
Later, you told me out of the blue that you actually didn’t know how to memorize the numbers at all, and you were just making random nonsense after the twenty digits. Hey! I was so scared, I was afraid that someone would find out and laugh at you! ”
Su Zelang slapped the table, still seeming a little frightened.
Su Chengyi lowered his head and drank Coke to hide the smile at the corner of his mouth.
He was actually still Remember this?
How could he not memorize it? He just didn’t want to stand out in front of Su Zelang’s friends, so it’s not reliable that his father would believe his excuse. .
"Another time, you and your grandpa made a paper airplane together. That good guy looked like a real airplane, so professional.
It flew high too! I didn't even see it clearly. What happened is that it was hung on a tree. Son, do you remember that tree in your grandpa’s yard? It’s very tall!”
Su Zelang stretched out his arms and gestured excitedly. Obviously very impressed by this incident.
“Remember.”
Su Chengyi nodded and used tongs to turn over the honey chicken wings in the baking pan.
"Everyone said it was too high to reach, and the branches and ladders couldn't be reached. Your mother directly said she couldn't take it, and your grandpa also said he would help you make a new one.
To be honest. Yes, dad first saw that height , I was also scared, and the tree was old and unreliable.”
Until now, Su Zelang was embarrassed to say in front of his son that he was actually a little afraid of heights, so he just took a sip. He smacked his lips with wine to calm down his mood.
Su Chengyi nodded and said nothing. In fact, he had known for a long time that Su Zelang was afraid of heights. When he was a child, he went climbing and he did not dare to look at the foot of the mountain.
“You are a child who has been bored since you were a child. You never cry or make trouble, and you don’t say you can’t bear to leave the plane. If your mother coaxes you, just nod and agree.
Everyone thought you were sensible and would not be unhappy, but I was the only one who found you sitting alone on the edge of the threshold, staring at the sky in a daze. "
Speaking of this, Su Zelang couldn't help shaking his head and laughing.
" Otherwise, why should we say that knowing a son is better than a father? Son, dad still understands you at critical times.
At that time, my father thought, it doesn’t matter if his leg is broken or his arm is broken. I want to get that paper airplane back for my son today. ”
To this day, Su Zelang can still feel the hot-headed feeling at that time. As an unreliable father, he rarely has such a sense of responsibility.
"And I know that you are a bad boy. You agree obediently on the surface. If no one is watching for a while, you will definitely have to climb up and get it by yourself."
Hearing what he said, Su Cheng thought slightly. He raised his eyebrows in surprise.
I didn’t expect that my unreliable father knew him quite well. This was indeed what he would do when he was a child.
"So in the end you still had to fight with your two limbs and climbed up tremblingly to help me get it."
Su Chengyi recalled.
"Why do you describe my father as not heroic at all?! Shouldn't it be the figure of a father's love that is as majestic as a mountain? Tell my father secretly, have you ever written this incident into "My Dad" or something like that? "In the composition?"
Not hearing the ideal answer, Su Zelang couldn't help but bang his chopsticks in protest.
After all, this was one of the few heroic moments he could recall, but Su Chengyi described him like a turkey being put on the grill!
“By the way, waiter, when will the roast chicken be served to our table?”
Anyway, thinking of this, Su Zelang ordered a dish by the way.
"Not really."
Su Chengyi said vaguely while chewing chicken wings.
The essay topics he hated most when he was a child were "I Love My Family" and "My Father", because at this time he could only write the most common examples in sample essays.
For example, if you are sick and have a fever, your mother will carry you to the hospital on your back, and your father will ride a bicycle to school in the rain
It is very rustic.
Su Chengyi poked a piece of beef and put it in his mouth, thinking, it's really corny.
Thinking about it this way, the most difficult problem he encountered in his studies since he was a child was probably writing a composition that requires true feelings. Other times, it was a smooth journey.
The waiter brought the roast chicken to the table, held the knife and politely asked if he needed help cutting it.
Su Zelang shook his head decisively, took the knife and fork himself, cut off the chicken legs, and put them on Su Chengyi's plate.
"Time flies so fast, son, you have changed every time I see you. But when dad thinks of you, you are still the same as when you were a child."
Su Chengyi was actually full, but the chicken leg was roasted very well, with a charred skin on the outside and a tender and oily inside.
"You are studying in Beijing now, and you will probably develop there after graduation, right? In fact, dad has always wanted to tell you that Beijing is good, and Tang'an is not bad either. With your ability, It will be good to develop anywhere, but if I think about it carefully, I’d better forget it.”
Su Zelang put down his knife and fork, looked at Su Chengyi who was eating chicken legs, picked up the empty wine glass, and sighed quietly. , after a long while, he continued:
"Young people, if you want to go out for more adventures, it's good. I won't say more. Dad trusts you unconditionally and is your most reliable backing."
Although Su Zelang usually talks about running the train, what he said was true and quite emotional.
Su Chengyi listened quietly, lowered his head and said nothing.
It is impossible to say that he was not touched at all. After all, he was a reborn person. In his previous life, he only had a blood relationship with his parents and no longer had any contact. In fact, for him, rebirth is not the so-called "changing destiny against nature", but a story of "lost and found again".
Now listening to Su Zelang's heartfelt words, Su Chengyi didn't react on the surface, but in fact he was a little dazed.
He has even begun to think that maybe he can have a frank chat with him about emotional matters.
"Also, how have you been with Xiao Chu recently? Although the little girl has an unusual status, dad can tell that she really likes you. You must treat her well!
This Everything in the world can be easily solved, but breaking a woman’s love for you is difficult to make up for no matter what you do. You really have to listen to your dad in this regard. I am someone who has been there and has experience.”
Su Zelang paused, poured himself another glass of wine, and drank it in one gulp.
He spoke the truth and from the bottom of his heart.
So Su Chengyi was about to try to express his emotional troubles, but he stopped talking. After a while, he just said "hmm".
Su Zelang felt very satisfied with this barbecue meal.
After all, my son used to go out to eat with him, and he would always look down at his watch after taking two bites, saying that he had something to do and had to leave in a hurry.
This time today, not only did I eat a lot, but I was also willing to wait for him to slowly drink two cups of wine.
Sure enough, I have grown up.
Su Zelang wiped the corners of his eyes with some drunkenness.
As a father, he was absent from a large part of his son's growth. It felt like he suddenly changed from a little kid into the thin and taciturn boy in high school.
Now, he is a mature and steady adult. After sitting in the driver's seat, he seems to be more familiar with adjusting the seat and turning the steering wheel than he is.
"Next, I won't have much time to stay in Tang'an. Live your life well, Dad."
Su Chengyi reversed the car out of the garage, glanced at the rearview mirror, and suddenly spoke road.
Su Zelang was slightly startled, not expecting that he would suddenly talk to her. After a while, he just said "ah".
"Don't feel like you owe me, you, my mother, and me. In fact, everyone is a victim, and there's no telling who is right or wrong.
Of course, you still have a lot to say to my mother. . Such as being lazy about eating and making big cakes every day.”
Su Chengyi was a little uncomfortable driving Su Zelang’s car for the first time, but he quickly adjusted and followed the navigation guidance to get around the road.
Su Zelang was a little embarrassed by what he said, so he could only smile awkwardly "hehe".
“However, the past is the past, let’s all look forward.”
At the traffic light ahead, Su Chengyi tapped his fingers on the steering wheel, and his eyes slowly fell on the family photos placed in front of the car.
He would see this photo every time he took Su Zelang's car. At first, he would deliberately avoid it, but now he doesn't mind it so much.
However, this look made him slightly stunned.
Whenever I saw this photo in the past, it was always from the passenger seat.
Now sitting in the driver's seat, looking at it from this angle, I can see that this photo has been processed.
Only from this special angle can we see that there is a photo forcibly affixed to the upper right corner of the family portrait.
That was a photo of Su Chengyi when he was a child. He was wearing a tiger hat and looking at the camera with a serious look like a little adult.
Su Chengyi's breathing stagnated, he looked away, and his mood was ups and downs.
For a long time, I just wanted to sigh.
The traffic light countdown is over and the wheels continue to move forward.
Su Chengyi thought for a while and suddenly said:
"Dad."
"What's wrong? Son."
Su Zelang was drunk and felt a little dizzy. , when he shouted like this, he sat up straight and rubbed his face.
“I have always believed you about what happened back then.”
Su Chengyi said slowly.
I regret saying this a little bit.
After sending Su Zelang back to his home after crying all the way, Su Chengyi thought silently.
Probably the grievance of being wrongly accused, questioned, scorned, not believed by anyone, and losing everything over the years is so heavy that Su Zelang, a tall middle-aged man, would feel guilty because of himself His son's words completely broke his defense.
Su Chengyi didn't say this just to make Su Zelang feel relieved. He really always believed that Su Zelang would not betray Yang Liu.
It's just that the incident was too big. No matter what the facts were, Yang Liu had already suffered very serious mental damage.
Originally, her grandfather's death had hit her hard before that time, but she never thought that misfortunes never come singly in this world.
During that period, she barely ate or drank, cried every day, and fell into a very, very severe depression. During the attack, she could not even take medicine to relieve it, and she was so thin that she lost her appearance. .
Su Chengyi watched all this silently, but also knew that as a young child at this time, no matter what he said, it would be useless.
All that can be done is to stay with her and bring a cup of hot water when necessary.
But actually looking back, Su Zelang was also tortured.
At that time, he was just like Linghu Chong who was wrongly framed and fell into the position of a "scumbag" despised by everyone overnight.
In the end, Su Chengyi was caught between the two of them, and it was not easy.
From his position, he cannot stand on either side, because no matter which side he chooses to stand on at this time, it is a betrayal of another person.
So when they divorced, Su Chengyi resolutely chose to live on her own.
At that time, Yang Liu was actually ready to raise Su Chengyi alone, but Su Chengyi knew that only by completely breaking away from the environment at that time could Yang Liu's mental trauma be healed.
Because of these messy reasons, Su Chengyi said:
"Actually, everyone is a victim."
When Su Chengyi was in middle school, during lunch break I was reading a novel during my time, and the author wrote:
"We are all ordinary people. In recent years, we have been mixed up in love and hate, so what can we do?"
At that time, he closed the book and felt that it resonated deeply with him. The four words "a mess" were the most suitable to sum up everything that had happened in these years.
It was adolescence that shaped three views. Growing up in such an environment, it was difficult for Su Chengyi to form a normal view of emotions.
So his emotional line can only be described as "a mess".
(End of this chapter)