Chapter 3094 (three thousand and ninety-four) "Is it because you have tested me before?" Tie Jinjue asked.
"This is just one of the factors." Li Pingrun replied.
"What other factors are there?" Tie Jinjue asked again.
"There are many factors." Li Pingrun said, "For example, I believe that Elder Tie will not harm me. Another example is that now I have let go of my attachment. Although I also promised Elder Tie that he would never commit suicide, I also decided to follow the instructions. My sister said to live well, but I still won’t be obsessed with ‘life’.”
At this point, Li Pingrun felt that these words seemed to easily cause misunderstanding, so he added: "What I mean is that I will no longer take the initiative to end my life, and I will try my best to live well. However, for some I won’t worry too much about the consequences of things. I will do whatever I want. If I want to live well, if something I do casually results in my death, it is beyond my control. . I will cherish my life as long as I can control it.”
Tie Jinjue said: "Look at Li Gengmi's letter before and after, it's like he's a different person."
Li Pingrun said: "The content of the letter gave me a great shock. Of course, why I am like this is inseparable from the way Elder Tie treated me before. If Elder Tie didn't treat me like that before, I probably wouldn't be the same." Such a big transformation can happen in such a short period of time.”
Tie Jinjue said: "What if I hadn't treated you like that before?"
Li Pingrun said: "Yes, Elder Tie's attitude towards me is very important to me. Elder Tie told me: 'If you are thinking about something, just keep thinking about it. I will wait for you to think clearly before talking to you.' I care about your situation and your mood. 'No one has said this to me for a long time. I don't think anyone cares about my situation or my mood. Even I don't know how to care about me. I was moved by Elder Tie's words, and I could think about them seriously without any worries. Elder Tie also said: "There are some things that I thought I might never get." Maybe the answer will appear in front of me in the next moment. 'After hearing this, I naturally didn't think that this kind of thing would happen to me soon, but I no longer felt that this kind of thing was impossible as before. It's on me. Elder Tie said to me: 'Your benefactor wants you to promise him something, something that is not difficult, something that is not something you are asked to do but something you are told not to do. Aren't you willing to agree? ' These words touched me again. I felt that this was not a 'threat' to me. It was actually just another way for Elder Tie to express his hope that I would survive. When I immediately agreed to Elder Tie, Elder Tie did not get angry, but was very patient. I asked Elder Tie if there was anything else for me to do, and Elder Tie said decisively that there was nothing else, just this one thing. Later, Elder Tie said that he hoped I would promise you, and said that if I promised you, you would show me that thing, and he also clearly said, "What if you don't want to commit suicide after seeing it?" I still didn’t think that I would immediately stop wanting to commit suicide after watching this. However, I was touched. At least I saw this possibility. Seeing that Elder Tie was still so patient with me, I felt that I would be able to commit suicide no matter what. Can't push it any further." (End of chapter)