Chapter 2255 Camel Straw and... Mo
Displeased.
Not angry.
Unhappy.
These are the only three emotions that Mo Tan can clearly perceive in the bizarre chaos.
That was his own emotion, the displeasure that belonged to Mo Tan, the dissatisfaction that belonged to Mo Tan, and the unhappiness that belonged to Mo Tan.
It is cold, hot, poisonous, and disgusting negative emotions.
That was bad. He knew it was bad, but he couldn't stop it.
Mo Tan kept his mind active to prevent himself from losing consciousness due to being completely swallowed by chaos. He knew very well that the only result would be to be forced offline by the system and disappear from the arena comically in front of everyone. Go ahead and let that girl's hard work go to waste.
That is a beautiful girl, but I actually don’t care about her appearance, or in other words, her appearance does not occupy a large proportion among other factors that also attract me, but only intoxicates me in countless elements. It just occupies an equal corner of the charm.
There is no doubt that he likes Ji Xiaoge.
Maybe it was after a common greeting, maybe it was in a sympathetic look, maybe... who knows, at least at the moment when I was amazed by him for the first time, besides sighing at this Despite the fact that there was such a beautiful person in the world, he didn't feel the slightest bit of admiration for that girl.
A bit disappointed, I heard that love at first sight is quite romantic.
But more than anything, I was glad. The reason was the same as the reason why the other party suddenly became sentimental while walking in Academy City that night.
But no matter what, at this moment, Mo likes Ji Xiaoge.
Yes, in fact, this matter was very simple from the beginning. Although I have always insisted that I am the same person in the past twenty years, the so-called atypical split personality is just a certain side of the person 'Mo Tan', but in After the three identities of Hei Fan, Tan Mo and Mo appeared one after another, the situation has gradually changed its nature subtly.
After witnessing and leading the 'fusion' of Remilia Keyvos and Thalia Keyvos throughout the process, he had already mastered a large amount of spiritual knowledge through self-study a long time ago. ' is the key word for knowledge and miscellaneous knowledge, and Mo Tan has almost thoroughly understood experimental psychology, psychological statistics, psychometrics, developmental psychology, social psychology, biological psychology, cognitive psychology and personality psychology. I have already learned one thing.
That is, my 'condition' is irreversibly deteriorating.
The game "Innocent Bound" fulfills its unclear purpose, but successfully moved Mo Tan to spend huge sums of money to purchase a game cabin with the slogan - "I want to try to live in another way" ? Here you can have your most authentic self]
The only deviation is that the 'other' in the slogan has become three or even four, and the most authentic self has also become three One or even four.
The person in the world who knows Mo Tan's mental state best, that is, he knows better than anyone else that [The Boundary of Innocence] has never been a major turning point that changes life and destiny, but a straw that accelerates the camel's fall into the street.
In other words, as he grows older, Mo Tan has already concluded that his 'disease' will one day irreversibly trigger a chain reaction, leading to extremely serious consequences including but not limited to sudden death. The reason why the absolutely neutral personality named 'Black Brahman' appears in the game is precisely the 'self-rescue' measure after Mo Tan's subjective and subconscious minds reached an agreement.
To put it more clearly, the personality of absolute neutrality has never been a symptomatic medicine, but the embodiment of the concept of 'antibody'.
In short, Mo Tan knew that 'losing control' was almost inevitable. When he found the game [Innocent Boundary] at that time, he had the mentality of 'blocking is worse than opening up', thinking that if this thing My son is really as awesome as he brags, maybe he can relieve himself from the pressure.
And the facts have indeed proved that the realm of innocence can indeed relieve the pressure of people like Mo Tan who are difficult to be compatible with normal society, but...
In terms of "blocking is worse than sparing", the effect of this game may be a little too good, so that when Mo Tan came back to his senses, his "loss of control" had already begun.
But with the beginning of this 'loss of control', Mo Tan no longer had the 'self-knowledge' as before, but continued his 'own' daily life as if nothing had happened.
The reason is actually very simple. At least from the perspective of Mo Tan, who seems to be in chaos at this moment, but knows very well what he is doing, it is really simple and innocent.
In a word, it is survival instinct.
This is a trait shared by most creatures, including Mo Tan. Different from the previous 'self-rescue', when he came back to his senses, he found that this time the self-rescuer was no longer ' Mo Tan'.
Therefore, in the process of continuous 'self-rescue', Mo Tan became a loyal supporter of the innocent world, but there was no figure of 'Mo Tan' in the innocent world.
When he came back to his senses, the camel had fallen and the straw was burning silently.
Referring to everything he had seen, heard, and learned in reality and in games, he once put forward the hypothesis that "camels" did not exist. After all, after tracing back to the source, Shao Motan realized that The moment he woke up from the nightmare, there was no such thing as a camel.
Self-rescue, sense of crisis, survival instinct...all these added together allowed him to insist on the reality that the 'Camel' still existed, just like the silence in the world of innocence was still avoiding him at this moment. The lie that 'Camel' is no more.
Unfortunately, straw can break the camel that does not know whether it exists or not, and it can also break the person who does not know whether it exists. Putting reserve and riddles aside, he could easily come to a conclusion.
The love for Yuchen and Chen Wangyu overwhelmed Hei Fan.
The love for Ji Xiaoge and Ye Ge overwhelmed Mo.
In the end, the shattering sound reached a level that was hard to ignore and deafening, impacting his spirit like a flash flood bursting from a dam.
Then the question is, is the so-called 'love' really a concept that transcends all emotions and is magical enough to create miracles?
At this moment, Mo Tan felt that this theory was both correct and absurd, so full of contradictions like its existence itself.
It is correct because in most cases, 'love' is indeed the most intense, craziest and most capable of breaking through the rational defense line among common emotions, so it is indeed very suitable to be the first choice when the dam breaks. A crack.
To say it is ridiculous is that compared to Mo Tan's 'life' of more than twenty years, the impact of so-called 'love' on his mental state is infinitely close to zero, which means it cannot play any decisive role.
Neither praise nor belittle, neither brag nor criticize, neither pull nor step down, neither Hei Fan’s feelings for Yu Chen nor Mo’s feelings for Ji Xiaoge can shake their spirits. state, but it can also actually allow them to significantly advance the time of collapse when they are destined to collapse.
It is true that Tan Mo's mental state is so stable that it is not unexpected, but the reason why Mo is more 'fragile' than Hei Fan, who seems to have been struggling for a long time, is entirely due to Within the scope that logic can explain.
If we abandon the long and boring tirade and go straight to the core of the problem, we can simply think that 'Hei Fan' has hardly received any additional pressure except that he can't let go of his feelings for Yu Chen and is struggling hard. However, he seems to be in the most stable state and mentally. Mo, the toughest person, has endured so many things that he should not have to endure in these years, so much so that under his soft outer shell that can warm almost everyone around him and is so tough that it is almost unreasonable, there is already a piece of... The wounds and cracks that almost tore apart the core of his personality.
Under the heavy rain that just now drowned out the sound of shattering, a shocking crack finally appeared in the strong shell.
However, for 'Mo' in the game, even though this crack has successfully broken through the defense, as long as he is given enough time, there is still a high probability that this wound will be as powerful as steel. However, the fact is that due to three coincidences in this competition, Mo Tan finally became completely mentally unbalanced and fell into the current very delicate state.
Among them, the first coincidence is actually the most 'unfortunate', that is, during the [Inquisition Controversy], he was always attacked by the Lord of Innocence who called himself 'Ms. Ye/Mr. Ye' System influence, although he temporarily gained the ability to actively choose characters in public space, which is called a bug, some mental barriers were temporarily weakened because of this, although he did not directly go crazy because he paid the price of his appendix. However, under certain circumstances, the corresponding resistance will still be greatly weakened, and the threshold for triggering the system alarm will be suppressed to a very low level. In other words, unless you suffer mental damage that is infinitely close to fatal levels, otherwise Mo Tan will not be kicked offline by the system.
Strictly speaking, the second coincidence and the third coincidence are the same thing. They are both related to the extremely special weapon [Akatsuki]. One is unlocked after advancing to the Unparalleled Ax. The additional skill [Blood Qi Liberation]; the other is not a skill in the strict sense, but [Violent Ghost·Shura Transformation] that can activate the evil energy of the Shura Halberd to a great extent.
The first is [Blood Liberation]. It is true that in Innocence, this skill is considered a standard feature of the Berserker profession in the warrior branch, but now that the game has been in service for nearly a year, everyone knows one thing. That is, the effects of the same skills of different players are actually very different. Similarly, the additional skills of equipment will also have differences due to different equipment.
Take [Blood Liberation] as an example. Some people’s strength is at the level of ‘I’m going to break up with you. At the level of ', in the final analysis, the specifications of 'an ordinary man's anger splashes five steps with blood' and 'the axe drinks from the underworld, and the blood recommends Xuanyuan' are two different things after all.
Because of this, after Mo Tan activated [Blood Liberation] with his unparalleled axe, he almost received the highest level of impact. Although this impact will not affect the player's emotions too much in principle, But since Mo Tan's mental state at this moment is already very bad, the consequences will naturally not be much better.
And if Mo Tan can still barely hold on in this situation, relying on his steely will to guard his mind, then when he transforms [Dawn] into the Shura Halberd form again, and starts to activate [ The moment he prepared for [Rogue Ghost·Asura Transformation], everything was irreversible.
In fact, even Mo Tan himself didn’t know that when he used [Xiao Shura Halberd] in the game, the violent, rude, and impetuous halberd soul was always helping secretly, even though he never He did not actively communicate with Mo Tan like Ax Soul and Sha Soul, but he silently blocked at least 60% of the side effects of the corresponding form. The reason why Mo Tan was able to unlock the characteristics of Shura Halberd in advance was for the same reason.
If you think about it carefully, you will know how the fierce soldiers who can feel the extreme madness and violence just from a distance can be so easy to tame. Only Mo Tan, who had Ji Po to help share the pressure from the beginning, was able to show his strength under the lamp. Under the influence of darkness, I never realized the truth.
However, there is no Halberd Soul in [Dawn] in the Controversy of Crime. Although the system faithfully reproduces the form and spirit of each form one to one, it is different from the Ruthless Sword and the Snow Spear. , Wushuang Ax, these postures are different. The Shura Halberd that has lost its soul is a completely different weapon.
It is true that if Mo Tan is under normal circumstances, such as the individual match between him and Ji Xiaodao, with the physical fitness that completely liberated [Reverse Scale] and [Herrscher's Determination] + he is in Under the firm will of a lawful good personality, even the Shura Halberd cannot shake his mind. But what a coincidence, Mo Tan is at the most vulnerable moment since he entered the game!
So, just when Mo Tan was about to use [Violent Ghost·Shura Transformation], the violent resentment and the power of ghosts and gods on the Shura Halberd were no less powerful than Mu Xuejian's [Demon Sword]. It directly penetrated his defense which had been weakened repeatedly.
Almost at the same time, Xinglong also used that incredible move [Qinglong·Yingjie] to hit Mo Tan’s chest with almost no space to launch the move, causing considerable damage to his body. of harm.
At this point, all the conditions that could prompt his mental collapse were completely assembled, and 'Mo' also lost his surface consciousness at the moment he was knocked to the ground.
When he regained his ability to think, he was already in chaos, and his perspective was split into two parts, one belonging to his newly awakened consciousness, and one belonging to his ongoing conversation with the Awakening Dragon. Fighting the subconscious mind.
Still, in this case, an ordinary player would have been forced offline by the system, but for Mo Tan, who had a backdoor opened, the current state still has not reached its collapse threshold. .
So, he numbly experienced this battle that had become increasingly strange to him in the first person through the perspective of his subconscious, and after a few moments he was shocked to realize that his 'subconscious' It seems...
Horribly strong!
[Extreme Sword·Fengyue]
That was the sword skill that originally belonged to Ji Xiaodao. Not long ago, he smashed his strongest killing move [Black Sakura·Guanghan] in front, and The three ultimate moves of speed, skill, and power are uniquely ranked No. 3 in the rankings.
At this moment, under the edge of the Ruthless Sword, the auspicious dragon energy on Xinglong’s left arm, the tattooed gauntlet with cyan light flowing like a totem, and even his left arm itself— —
They were all torn apart and shattered in the extremely dazzling light of blood.
Chapter 2246: The End