Chapter 193: Missed
It was late at night, the night light in Li Yu’s bedroom was still on, and he was lying on the bed tossing and turning.
It turns out that his dad has done so much for him without knowing it.
He also understands his father's character. It can be said that he is happy in poverty.
His father has his own views on life, but he was forced by his mother to make progress and make money.
For a long time in my memory, his father came home from outside, and when he faced him, he could not hide the fatigue on his smiling face.
As for his mother, when she is not satisfied at all, she will settle the accounts "money, money, money", saying how much he spent on food and clothing, and how much he spent on cram school. What he often talks about is: " So much money is spent on you, if you don’t study hard, who can you deserve?”
If he falls behind in comparison with others outside, he will definitely scold his father when he comes back.
When his father was not at home, he used him as a target: "Your father has no ability, and our family is only as poor as this, but you have to give me credit. If you can't learn well, I will be outside." If I say anything, it will be a slap in my face. Are you willing to let your mother suffer from this coward?"
When his father is at home, he will be angry: "Li Jincai Li Jincai, his name is Jin?" There is no money coming into our house!”
Li Yu knew that his father had a good temper and felt that he was often away from home. It was hard for his mother to handle the housework alone. At the same time, she was worried about his presence, so she repeatedly tolerated verbal disputes.
But he didn’t expect that all he would get in exchange for his tolerance was pushiness and unscrupulousness. Not only did he talk behind his back, but he even called him “coward”, “coward” and “deserves to be poor all his life” in front of his father during the quarrel. ”, “I’m going to have bad luck for eight lifetimes if I follow you.”
At one time, Li Yu suspected that he was not her child, but a pet she had raised that would not make her allergic to animal hair and could give her a golden face.
Even if he does things according to her requirements, passes the test, and meets the standards, she can still change her moody face at any time, criticize and educate him, and at the same time find a perfect excuse for suppression and belittling.
“I am doing this for your own good. Only by guarding against arrogance and impetuosity can we go further on the road to success.”
When he was a child, Li Yu would be so frightened that he would not move even if she looked at her, even if he made no mistakes.
Whether at home or outside, as soon as the smile on her face disappears, Li Yu will become extremely nervous and start to be afraid for no reason.
So, when his father is not at home, it is the most difficult time for him, and it is also the time when he resists going home the most.
In the most serious period of junior high school, that is, the period before their divorce, Li Yu even resisted being in the same space and breathing the same air with her.
This is not normal, very abnormal.
Li Yu didn't realize at the time that after they divorced, his father enlightened him bit by bit and accompanied him. Only when he grew up and looked back at himself at that time did he understand.
But his character has been formed. He has low self-esteem and is submissive. He has been restricted from making friends since he was a child, so he has no friends and is not good at sociability. But at the same time, he is particularly sensitive to other people's emotions, and he can easily capture the subtle changes in expressions and subtle tones.
Goodwill will be amplified by him, and malice will also be amplified.
He was able to become friends with Tao Huayu because of Tao Huayu's indispensable initiative, but the most important thing was that he felt goodwill from Tao Huayu.
Not to mention the Liu Wangxue I met later, and the people I met through Liu Wangxue.
While getting along with them, Li Yu seemed to suddenly have an enlightenment and clearly saw the flaws in his character.
The shining points in each of them attracted Li Yu, and made him truly realize that if he wanted to get closer to these outstanding people, he himself had to become excellent first.
Realizing is not difficult, but making changes is difficult.
Li Yu looked up at them, but he felt powerless.
But for some reason, the God of Luck came - Li Yu never thought that this group of people who were good enough could find a shining point in him.
So with everyone's continuous encouragement, he mustered up the courage to take the first step.
The next step is the second step.
The third step was now in front of him.
Admittedly, the second step has many twists and turns. He seemed to have doubts about himself because of these twists and turns, and wanted to take back the steps he had taken.
Li Yu lay on the bed and thought a lot. Sister Xu Xu pushed him out, Sister Wenxi gave him a chance, Mr. Du gave him a chance, Brother Huayu, Brother Qingsong...
His father almost never They are all filled with work and have no time to rest, just so that he can have a better future...
Everyone is helping him, encouraging him, pushing him forward, what else does he have? What's the reason for holding back?
He can't let anyone down, absolutely not.
So early the next morning, Li Yu called Wenxi, sincerely thanked him, and said that he felt honored to be invited by Porcelain and that he was willing to go.
The next step is to apply for a passport, apply for a visa, ask for leave from the school teacher, prepare luggage, etc.
There is another little episode here.
There are no classes for their major in their senior year. The students in the class are either going out for internships or preparing for the postgraduate entrance examination.
Li and Yu don’t have to worry about either of them.
He also had plans to go to graduate school, and he was originally admitted to the school for graduate school, but a classmate in his class who planned to study abroad suddenly stopped going and competed with him for a graduate school spot.
This classmate is called Fu Lei, and he has a little more advantage than him in awards.
When they were in their junior year, they signed up to participate in the "College Student Landscape Architecture Design Competition" together. Fu Lei participated as a group and Li Yu participated as an individual.
Under the guidance of his teacher, Li Yu not only completed various design drawings, but also made miniature landscapes.
After the finished product came out, the teacher had no surprise, the first prize must be his.
However, something unexpected happened. After his miniature landscape was completed, he locked it in his own cabinet in the dormitory. When he took it out on the day of going to the competition field, he found that it was damaged.
After entering the arena, he discovered that Fu Lei's team had also made miniature landscapes.
Although this is not in the entry requirements issued by the competition organizing committee, it is done and done well, which is indeed a bonus.
After calculating the final score, Li Yu missed the championship with a gap of 0.5 points.
He said nothing and silently took the miniature landscape in the cabinet home with him after he returned.
He removed the parts that were seriously damaged and could not be repaired, and revised and modified the rest, which became "course work" and was later given to Liu Wangxue.
Unexpectedly, it was this 0.5 score that caused him to miss the qualification for graduate school at the beginning of the semester.
It actually doesn’t matter whether he is guaranteed graduate school or not. He has learned solidly and has never been afraid of exams.
The teacher who guided him in the competition was a professor in his major, surnamed Zhou, who taught undergraduate courses and also tutored graduate students.
Li Yu was also the tutor of his graduation project, and he also wanted to study under his supervision.
After Teacher Zhou knew the result, he specially talked to Li Yu and told him not to lose confidence because of this blow.
He liked the student Li Yu very much and said, "Don't worry, I've already informed the Graduate Office. You will definitely pass the written test. As long as you pass the test, you don't need to worry about the re-examination. Come directly to me when the time comes." Here.”
Private design
This competition really exists, but there are three first prizes...
(End of this chapter)