Chapter 549 Heart-warming Light
Ye Yan said: "I cut out that sentence, and I put it in the phone case and kept it."
Hear it Here, Xu Qingsong tried his best to dig through his memories but could not pull out any relevant fragments. He asked Liu Wangxue: "Are you sure the person she is talking about is me? Why don't I have any impression at all?"
Wuxin That's a good move, Liu Wangxue thought, feeling that Xu Qingsong probably didn't even look at Ye Yan at that time, but Ye Yan's memory couldn't be wrong: "Ye Yan said that she secretly glanced at you several times before leaving. , I will remember you, and I will ask my classmates about you after I get back, you are from the Computer Science Department~"
As he spoke, Liu Wangxue reached out his finger to pick Xu Qingsong's chin very frivolously, Xu Qingsong grabbed his hand and put it to his lips and kissed it.
Liu Wangxue said: "Since then, she has paid more attention to you, and then her attention turned into liking you. It was not until the middle of the first semester of her sophomore year that she finally plucked up the courage to confess to you, and then she heard that you had She has a girlfriend, and because of this, she has been in a state of despair for several days."
Xu Qingsong suddenly thought of what Shi Wenjun said, "She has liked you for so many years." He thought about it and was surprised. Year!
Liu Wangxue observed his expression and asked him: "Are you sad? There is a person who has liked you silently for several years, but you don't know, or even know that such a person exists."
Xu Qingsong shook his head or nodded, feeling very uncomfortable in his heart: "Baby, don't stab me again."
Liu Wangxue smiled and hugged him, and asked Does he want to continue listening?
Xu Qingsong said: "Go ahead."
Liu Wangxue continued.
Xu Qingsong already has a girlfriend, so Ye Yan will naturally not bother him anymore, but her secret love has never ended.
When she was in her senior year, she heard that Xu Qingsong had been admitted to the postgraduate program at this school, so she wanted to continue studying. However, she failed to get a place at the school, so she worked hard to prepare for the exam and passed the exam.
When she graduated from college, she heard that Xu Qingsong had broken up with his girlfriend. Ye Yan was not unhappy. She immediately made a decision. She must find a way to get in front of Xu Qingsong when she was in graduate school.
Xu Qingsong was shocked again: "So, those chance encounters I thought were all planned by her in advance?"
Liu Wangxue nodded: "Yes, that's what she said."
Xu Qingsong had just sadly left his last relationship, so naturally he would not start the next one so soon. Ye Yan first became friends with him for a year, and it wasn't until the second semester of her second year of graduate school that Xu Qingsong confessed to her that they got together.
We have only been dating for a year and a half and are about to graduate. Ye Yan cannot accept a long-distance relationship. She also knows the reason why Xu Qingsong broke up with her ex. She feels that in an intimate relationship, one party always needs to make sacrifices and compromise. Or give in. She likes Xu Qingsong so much, so naturally she doesn't want to see him in trouble. After thinking about it, he resolutely gave up the offer in Beijing without telling anyone, even though the company in Beijing was better than the one in Haishi.
When Liu Wangxue heard Ye Yan say this in the coffee shop, she was very confused. Since this relationship was so hard-won, Ye Yan chose to go with Xu Qingsong because she couldn't accept being in a different place. Haishi, then why did she choose to go abroad a year later?
Ye Yan said it herself without Liu Wangxue asking. She didn't seem to need Liu Wangxue to communicate with her. She probably just wanted to talk.
Ye Yan said: "Maybe the one who paid more will worry about gains and losses? Although I was with him at that time, I still felt a little inferior. After all, his previous girlfriend was very beautiful, and I was more beautiful than him. If I don’t fall in love with her, there are many beautiful girls in his company... I am prone to obesity, and my work pressure is high, so I can’t lose weight..."
Ye Yan said with a bitter smile: " Although we were both in Haishi at that time, our companies were in different districts and were quite far apart. I was busy with work and it was common to work overtime. I couldn't bear to let him be too tired, so in order to save commuting time, I suggested renting a house near our respective companies... ...Thinking about it later, it was really stupid..."
Liu Wangxue also thought she was stupid, knowing that she was worried about gain and loss, but she still made such a suggestion. The sea city is only such a big place, no matter how far it is, there can be more Far? Originally, I didn't have much sense of security in this relationship, and I had to pretend to be generous. Once separated like this, I would inevitably feel that the love was going to disappear.
Sure enough, Ye Yan said next: "After we lived apart, I felt that the connection between the two people suddenly decreased. Sometimes when I send him a message, he only replies after half a day, and I think , could his feelings for me have faded..."
Liu Wangxue thought to herself, if he didn't reply immediately, it meant he was busy! Sometimes she sends messages to Xu Qingsong, and Xu Qingsong only replies after half a day. On the contrary, when she was with the group, or writing scripts, or recording programs like the previous times, she couldn't reply in time when Xu Qingsong sent her messages. But this does not prevent the two from communicating after each other has finished their work.
Ye Yan said: "I know it's wrong to think like this, but I couldn't help it. I was stuck in that emotion at the time and felt that he really didn't love me that much. So when I received a call from a courtyard After placing the order for the design, I took him to accompany me to nearby ancient towns on weekends. It was nominally to go on a field trip to collect works, but in fact, I wanted to go on a date to consolidate our relationship. Although he had just entered the workplace for less than a year at that time, he was very capable. He is outstanding and highly appreciated by his boss. He is involved in projects of all sizes, and he is very busy. Nine times out of ten, he cannot stay with me for the whole day. When I get a call, he has to go back and work overtime... "
Liu Wangxue was convinced. She couldn't help but interrupt Ye Yan: "Are you very generous and considerate and told him that it doesn't matter, you go ahead, work is the most important thing?"
Ye Yan nodded: "Otherwise? Do you want him to put down his work and stay with me?"
Liu Wangxue was speechless. There was obviously another solution, Ye Yan How do you avoid the correct option time and time again?
Liu Wangxue couldn't help scolding Xu Qingsong at this time: "And you, were you so busy at that time? Didn't you notice anything wrong with her emotions?"
Xu Qingsong tried to think back again. , he said: "No, I remember chatting and communicating everything at that time It’s normal. She also told me a lot about architecture when we went to the ancient town. Otherwise, if I am so familiar with Zhouzhuang, I can be a tour guide for you?”
Okay, Liu Wangxue thought, You can't blame Xu Qingsong, but you can only blame Ye Yan for hiding it too well. Liu Wangxue felt that Xu Qingsong was quite sensitive to the emotions of people around him, and getting along with her was the best example. She thought that as long as Ye Yan showed even a little bit of her inner uneasiness, Xu Qingsong wouldn't be able to notice it.
Liu Wangxue inoculated Xu Qingsong: "Be mentally prepared, I'm going to stab you again."
"Anything else?" Xu Qingsong felt a little tired, He pinched his eyebrows and said, "What kind of knife? Come and stab it."
Liu Wangxue hugged him: "If you don't want to hear it anymore, I won't say anything anymore. Let's go to your grandpa's house?"
"No, just tell me and let me listen." Xu Qingsong also hugged her and sighed softly, "I thought it was a peaceful breakup, and there was no intention to let it go. It turns out it was just from my personal point of view." Therefore, when they met upstairs, Ye Yan's behavior was also explained.
Liu Wangxue couldn't help but sigh and said, "She said that she chose to go abroad because her career only accounted for a small proportion. She was testing you."
"Test me?" Xu Qingsong wondered, "What are you testing me for?"
Ye Yan was testing whether Xu Qingsong didn't care about her and would keep her. She laughed at herself: "It turned out not to be. He had a friend in country M at the time, and he asked that friend to find someone to inquire about the company that sent me the invitation letter. Combined with the information he found, he was very serious and very He helped me analyze objectively and finally concluded that it was worth going. He was very happy to see that I could have a better future..."
Ye Yan's heart was cold at that time, because this was not the result she wanted. She asked Xu Qingsong what if she really went and they were in a foreign relationship: "He didn't seem to worry about it at all. When I arrived I can still clearly remember what he said at that time. He said that love is important, but compared with personal life growth, it is no longer the protagonist. He hoped that I could have a more exciting life, and he also said that he was very important to us. Have confidence in the relationship , distance and time difference are not a problem. But I can’t, I am not as confident as him. It happened that his friend in country M also invited him to develop there. I was very happy when I found out, and thought we could go there together..." br>
So Ye Yan asked Xu Qingsong. It was actually a test. She knew that Xu Qingsong did not want to work and live abroad. She just wanted to see if Xu Qingsong would pay, compromise or give in for her.
Ye Yan thought that when she chose a job after graduation, she gave up the offer in Beijing for Xu Qingsong and accompanied him to Haishi. This time, could Xu Qingsong give up these offers in China for her and accompany him? Will she go to country M together? But she forgot that she never told Xu Qingsong about this matter. Xu Qingsong naturally didn't know, so the result was naturally contrary to her expectation.
Liu Wangxue wanted to ask Xu Qingsong, if he had known it at the beginning, would he have chosen to accompany Ye Yan? But on second thought, this assumption was completely meaningless. She felt that even if Xu Qingsong knew about it, there was a high probability that he would not accompany Ye Yan there. He should love her more based on guilt and debt, but he will not change his life choices just because he loves her.
Later Ye Yan went abroad alone, and there was also an element of anger in this. After going abroad, time and distance made it even harder for her to find evidence that Xu Qingsong loved her. Her confidence in the relationship declined again. Within half a year, she broke up with Xu Qingsong.
Because of the time difference, the communication between the two would lag. Xu Qingsong was not slow, so he naturally noticed the changes in Ye Yan's mood, so he picked up the time every day and called Ye Yan before going to bed or when she got up early in the morning. Video, hoping to enlighten her mood.
Xu Qingsong initially thought that Ye Yan had encountered some difficulties in work or life, but whenever he asked, Ye Yan said nothing and said that everything was fine.
After some time, Ye Yan refused to answer most of Xu Qingsong’s video calls, using the excuse that she was either busy or tired.
Xu Qingsong recalled: "We were far away across the ocean, and I didn't know what to do to give her real comfort. It happened that the program development of the project team I led at that time was approaching the advanced stage, and it didn't matter whether I was there or not. It didn’t matter much, so I applied for a visa to go to country M.”
After getting the visa, Xu Qingsong booked the nearest flight and told Ye Yan to visit her. Ye Yan didn't answer the first video call, so Xu Qingsong thought she was busy, so he sent a message. It didn't take long for Ye Yan to reply, but she said she wanted to break up.
Xu Qingsong asked her why, and she said she was tired and didn't want to continue. Xu Qingsong told her not to be impulsive. He would fly on the next morning and they would meet soon. If anything happened, we would discuss it later.
Xu Qingsong said: "She told me not to go, she didn't want to see me."
Xu Qingsong called Ye Yan again, but she still didn't answer, and then she didn't even message her. Replied. That night, Xu Qingsong stayed up all night and sent her many messages. It wasn't until the next morning that Ye Yan called her. He thought there was a turn for the better, but he didn't expect that she still said they wanted to break up.
Xu Qingsong relayed to Liu Wangxue: "She said she was very tired and had completely lost confidence in this relationship. If I still love him, please don't force her. Breaking up would be a relief for her. . ”
Ye Yan talked about it for this reason. Naturally, Xu Qingsong’s trip to Country M failed, and the two broke up. After the breakup, Xu Qingsong felt empty for a long time. He couldn't even blame himself because he didn't know what he did wrong, and he couldn't figure out why he and Ye Yan suddenly ended up breaking up. These emotions always found an outlet, so he devoted all his energy to his work, seemingly not caring so much about everything outside.
Liu Wangxue's mind jumped here: "So that's when you gained weight?" Xu Qingsong was stunned by her sudden turn, and saw her bright eyes and the smile on her face. Layers emerged, and he raised his hand and pinched her cheek gently: "Yes, hahaha..."
Liu Wangxue clicked her tongue in surprise: "I am trapped by love~"
Xu Qingsong exhaled: "I didn't expect that after so many years, I would learn the truth in this way."
Liu Wangxue asked him: "What did Shi Wenjun tell you? ?”
Shi Wenjun was talking to Xu Qingsong about what happened to Ye Yan in Country M and her situation over the years.
Shi Wenjun and Ye Yan met in country M. He was studying there in his final year. One time when I went to a convenience store to buy things, I met Ye Yan who was sick. Seeing that she was a little girl alone, I paid a few words of concern and became acquainted with her.
After Ye Yan arrived in Country M, she was not used to the local environment and could not get used to the food there. She often fell ill at first. Thanks to Shi Wenjun's help, she would not have known how miserable it would be otherwise.
After the two became friends, Shi Wenjun got to know Ye Yan better, knowing that she had a boyfriend in China, and then watched her break up with her boyfriend.
In fact, before the breakup, Ye Yan had already experienced some psychological problems. Shi Wenjun only discovered it after she broke up for a while. Ye Yan was always optimistic and cheerful on weekdays, and she never had any problems at work. If Shi Wenjun hadn't suddenly come to her door one night to bring her food, he might not have been able to find out in time.
Shi Wenjun took Ye Yan to see a psychiatrist despite her objections. The diagnosis was that she was overeating due to depression, and Ye Yan also had another problem, inducing vomiting after overeating.
Shi Wenjun had already fallen in love with Ye Yan at that time, and knew that she was acting like this because of emotional injuries. After graduation, he chose to stay and work locally, and also accompanied her for treatment. The process was quite difficult, because Ye Yan once changed from overeating to anorexia, the treatment of depression had not improved, and she developed stomach problems.
It took Shi Wenjun more than two years. Under his meticulous care, Ye Yan finally got out of the shadow of depression, her diet returned to normal, and her stomach problems needed to be taken care of slowly. She thought it would get better, but Ye Yan suddenly found out that there was a problem with her vocal cords, so she had another surgery and spent a long time recovering.
Over the years, Shi Wenjun has been by Ye Yan's side, but Ye Yan did not agree to his several confessions. He knew that Ye Yan had never let go of her relationship with Xu Qingsong, but it didn't matter, he was willing to wait.
In the second half of last year, Ye Yan said that she wanted to return to China and would carefully consider their relationship after returning. Ye Yan also took the initiative to ask Shi Wenjun out today. He had a hunch that he would wait until the clouds clear and the moon shines. Unexpectedly, he met Xu Qingsong and his girlfriend, and Shi Wenjun felt deeply unlucky.
Liu Wangxue almost laughed out loud when she heard this word: "He is unlucky?! I am still unlucky, okay!" She said to Xu Qingsong: "Do you know why Ye Yan wants to chat with me alone?"
Xu Qingsong gently stroked her back to tell her not to be angry, and asked: "Why?"
"This is all her conspiracy!" Liu Wangxue said.
On New Year's Day, Shi Wenjun knew about using Xu Qingsong's WB to show affection, and Ye Yan couldn't possibly not know about it, including the promotional video for Taojiacun, which Ye Yan also saw. There was envy and jealousy in her heart, and she felt very uncomfortable. After thinking about it for two days, I felt that Xu Qingsong had started a new life, and there was no need for her to let go of the past. After all, she was the one who initiated the breakup.
Today Ye Yan happened to go out to meet clients and did not have to return to the company in the afternoon, so she made an appointment with Shi Wenjun and wanted to confirm her relationship with him. However, what surprised her was that she actually met Xu Qingsong and Liu Wangxue in this shopping mall.
In fact, Ye Yan saw Xu Qingsong and Liu Wangxue first when they decided to go downstairs to the cafe to have a bite to eat and walked arm in arm toward the escalator.
At that time, Ye Yan and Shi Wenjun were walking towards them. Shi Wenjun was lowering his head to talk to Ye Yan and did not pay attention to the front. When Ye Yan saw Xu Qingsong, she hurriedly pulled her Shi Wenjun turned into a nearby jewelry store, and then said that she suddenly wanted to drink milk tea from the milk tea shop she just passed by, and asked Shi Wenjun to buy it for her.
When Shi Wenjun left the jewelry store and walked back, Liu Wangxue and Xu Qingsong happened to walk to the door of the store selling down jackets. Xu Qingsong’s eyes were attracted by something in the window, and he walked unconsciously. He stopped, and Liu Wangxue happened to notice that the back of Shi Wenjun not far ahead was similar to that of Xu Qingsong, and he pointed it at Xu Qingsong.
After Shi Wenjun left, Ye Yan also came out of the jewelry store and saw Xu Qingsong pulling Liu Wangxue into the down jacket store. She was leaning against the wall beside the door of the jewelry store, struggling. Was it a "accidental encounter" in the past or was it waiting here.
I don’t know how long she has been struggling. When she raised her eyes again, she saw Xu Qingsong and Liu Wangxue coming out of the down jacket shop, walking towards her, and stopped in front of her. She witnessed It tells the whole process of the love between the two people. Memories came flooding back, and she remembered all the good things about Xu Qingsong.
Ye Yan's heart was really twisted for a moment. She thought, she had decided to let go, why would God let her meet again. Videos are never as impactful as real people. She was so uncomfortable that her eyes instantly became wet. What made her even more uncomfortable was what was happening behind her. When Xu Qingsong turned around, his eyes passed over hers, but he didn't recognize them. She only saw the word "strange" in those eyes.
Then the background music in the jewelry store changed, and as soon as the lyrics were sung, Ye Yan cried uncontrollably. She thought about the past with Xu Qingsong, and then thought about Shi Wenjun who had been by her side, and the similar back figures of Shi Wenjun and Xu Qingsong, and her mind was in confusion.
Then Liu Wangxue came over and handed her a tissue, and then Xu Qingsong came back. But maybe Qingsong didn't notice her at all. He only cared about the insignificant red mark on Liu Wangxue's wrist.
Ye Yan thought, it turns out that she has never let go all these years because it is difficult to calm down. So she wiped away the thought of leaving and said hello to Xu Qingsong, hoping to add some trouble to Liu Wangxue.
In the coffee shop, Ye Yan wanted to chat with Liu Wangxue alone, just to make things difficult for her. She just wanted to talk about how she and Xu Qingsong were in love in the past, and then write some articles on private topics.
Xu Qingsong had just been caught in the doubt and self-blame that he was an out-and-out scumbag. When he heard this, all doubt and self-blame flew away in an instant: "How could she do this?!"
Liu Wangxue patted him: "No, she didn't do it in the end. She said that the moment she and I sat down next to each other, she suddenly felt that it was very boring. So she told me about her own mental journey. Maybe it was I want to talk about it, or maybe I have really let it go.”
Ye Yan has observed Liu Wangxue and feels that she is not the kind of person who thinks too much, and most likely won’t have random thoughts. Ye Yan also thought of another possibility, that is, after she finished talking to Liu Wangxue, if Liu Wangxue told Xu Qingsong everything, her remaining image in Xu Qingsong's impression might be completely destroyed.
So, Ye Yan thought, forget it, let’s talk about something else. After the conversation, she completely gave up.
“That’s pretty much it.” Xu Qingsong said.
Liu Wangxue suddenly approached him, observed carefully, and deliberately said: "It seems that there is something I can't know?"
Xu Qingsong immediately expressed his position: "No, absolutely not! What else do you want to know? , I will answer all your questions."
Liu Wangxue laughed: "I'm not interested in the details of your past relationship. Fortunately, she didn't say it. It's not sure whether it can cause trouble, but it will definitely make me happy. Upset.”
Xu Qingsong pulled her over and kissed her, and asked expectantly: "Then why did you tell me what she told you? Aren't you afraid that I would get entangled with her out of guilt after knowing it?"
Liu Wangxue pretended to be shocked: "Oh, my dear Mr. Xu, didn't you just fall into the emotion of being a scumbag? Why, now you plan to practice how to be a real scumbag ”
"Why is it so difficult to make you jealous?" Xu Qingsong quickly hugged her, "I don't dare, I'm afraid you'll kick me before I start practicing."
Liu Wang Xue patted him with satisfaction: "Very good, very self-aware."
Xu Qingsong was about to kiss her when the cell phone in his pocket rang. He took it out and saw that it was his grandma, so he had to Pick it up.
After pressing the button, the old man’s angry voice came out: “Qingsong, where have you and Xu Xu been?”
Liu Wangxue glanced out of the car window guiltily. , they are also in the underground parking lot of the mall.
Xu Qingsong was still holding Liu Wangxue's hand and opened his mouth: "On the road, almost there, there is a bit of a traffic jam."
The old man happily said hello, and asked him to drive safely, then hung up. .
Liu Wangxue looked at the time and saw that they had been sitting in the car for almost an hour, so he quickly put on his seat belt and urged him: "Let's go quickly, it's going to be late."
Xu Qingsong calmly took Liu Wangxue's hand and held it, with a solemn expression and tone: "Xu Xu, you must not hide anything from me in the future. You have to tell me everything. Let me Got it?"
Liu Wangxue opened the buckle of the seat belt and leaned over to kiss him: "Don't worry, I've always played straight."
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Xu Qingsong touched her face and smiled very gently. Liu Wangxue saw the tiny light in his eyes, which was so heart-warming.