Chapter 5217 (five thousand two hundred and seventeen) to shout
The man with gray hands said: "You are right. Sometimes, when you are fearless in your heart, you will not provoke. Even if you provoke, you can't alleviate the fear in your heart, right?"
"Yes, it can't be alleviated, but...but at that time, I felt that those provocative words... seemed to be beneficial to me." The person said.
"You think it's good as long as you can get the other person to pay attention to you, right?" the gray-handed man asked.
The man said: "Okay... you can put it that way."
The man with gray hands asked again: "What did you say next?"
"I just said I'm not a coward, and I also said... I also said let me go, kill me... let me go, kill me... it doesn't matter, but don't do what I did then," the man said.
"Don't be like that and no one will care about you, okay?" the gray-handed man said.
"That's right." The man said.
The man with gray hands remembered the person from before who would take a breath and pause almost every time he shouted, as if he would run out of breath if he kept shouting. Because he wanted to know more about the situation at that time, the gray-handed man asked the man: "Did you feel tired when you shouted?"
"Tired...tired!" the man said, "The more I yell, the more tired I feel...as if...I can't catch my breath."
"Do you feel you don't have enough energy?" the gray-handed man asked.
"That's right! That's it." The man replied.
"But you must keep shouting?" the gray-handed man asked. "Yes...yes...at that time...I just wanted to shout." The man said.
"Do you think that will attract them to ignore you?" the gray-hand man asked.
"I don't know," the man said, "I... I'm not even sure if shouting like that... can alleviate my fear."
The gray-handed man said: "Actually, one of the important reasons why you yelled like that is to reduce your own fear?"
"Yes, yes... even though I didn't feel that... the fear was really relieved when I shouted before, but... I still think I should shout." The person said, "I think so, maybe... maybe because... ... Only by shouting out can someone pay attention to me? Then I might not continue to endure the darkness and cold in that place? Of course... it's also possible that I think my voice alone... can alleviate my pain. fear."
"The sound itself?" the gray-handed man asked.
"It's just that I may think it...but...I can't tell whether it is true or not." The person said, "I think...maybe at that time, I just wanted to...want to hear my own voice? After all, ...When I hear my own voice, I feel that I am still...alive...especially when...I hear other voices saying that I am a ghost. I hear my own voice, just... ...It will feel like I am still...a living person.”
"Didn't some of your previous experiences make you think that ghosts can also talk?" the gray-handed man asked.
"Actually... I also thought at that time... maybe... ghosts can also talk." The man said.
"Then why does your own voice make you think you are still alive?" asked the gray-hand man.
"I can't figure out the reason." The man said, "I think...some of my thoughts...are actually...very contradictory. Thinking about it now, I really feel contradictory...but...but at the time, maybe because of me I haven’t thought about it that much, and I don’t think it’s contradictory.”
(End of chapter)