Chapter 11 Another Possibility
Wu Yusen’s car is parked not far downstairs. It is a brown business car. The glass is covered with black heat insulation film, so the inside cannot be seen from the outside.
Wu Yusen wanted to open the middle door and let Lin Fan get in the car, but unexpectedly she opened the passenger door and got in. John Woo didn't say anything, got into the driver's seat and quickly started the car.
Lin Fan didn’t want to sit with John Woo, but she got carsick.
As long as you are not driving yourself, you will feel dizzy if you sit in someone else's car, ranging from dizziness to vomiting. The specific situation depends on the driver's skills and the condition of the vehicle. Just sitting in the passenger seat may be a little better because I can see things in front of my eyes.
If it was an acquaintance's car, she might lie down in the back seat and squint to relieve some discomfort. It's impossible to squint in John Woo's car, so you can still see the road more closely.
Maybe it’s because the feeling of unreality is too strong, and there is still some doubt in a corner of my heart that this person is a liar.
It was already past 10 o'clock when John Woo came to the door. Not long after we drove out, it was already 11 o'clock before we left the city. It was unknown when they got on the expressway and had a meal in the service area. With Lin Fan's permission, the two got off the car and had something to eat first.
I found a fast-food Chinese restaurant, one that offers small portions and self-service checkout.
Lin Fan took a vegetarian dish, a soup, and some rice, then went to find a seat. John Woo took a few dishes, and after paying the bill, he quickly found Lin Fan. The two of them ate seriously without much sense of separation.
After eating, we got in the car and went straight onto the highway. John Woo chatted: "You didn't eat in the morning. Is this enough for lunch?"
Lin Fan knew that people who drive for a long time should not be too quiet and are prone to dozing off, so he also cooperated and chatted: "That's enough. I always Eat less. Normally, it’s two meals a day, sometimes one meal a day.”
Wu Yusen looked forward, with Lin Fan’s appearance in his mind.
Lin Fangao wears loose clothes, so some flesh on his body is not obvious. Preliminary estimation may be 170 pounds. But based on the amount of food she eats today, she won't be able to eat enough meat in two meals a day.
“Do you think I’m so fat, why do I eat so little?” Lin Fan guessed what he was thinking.
"No, I'm afraid that you'll be hungry." I'm really afraid that she'll be hungry, Wu Yusen thought.
"The flesh on my body is all due to taking medicine. You know that some medicines contain hormones, and if you take them, you will gain weight, right?" Lin Fan said.
“I know.” No wonder the flesh on her body was swollen like steamed bread, which was different from ordinary fat people.
“Are you still taking it now?” Hormone medicine is not a good thing. If you take it for a long time, your body will not be able to bear it.
“I haven’t taken it for a long time. The medicine is too expensive and I can’t afford it. I stopped taking it two years ago, but I haven’t lost weight yet.”
"Is it an antidepressant?" John Woo asked. There are only some brief entries in the survey materials, and these specific situations will naturally not be mentioned.
“Yes.”
“Are there other side effects?”
“There are quite a few. For example, I am in poor health now and I feel tired even if I move a little. I always feel very noisy. , my eyes get tired easily. Sometimes, I just wake up, brush my teeth, wash my face, have breakfast, and haven’t even had a nap yet. At that time, he started to feel tired and wanted to lie down again. "
Lin Fan felt that there was nothing to hide, so he just wanted to explain it clearly to John Woo, so that he wouldn't always think that he had super powers." My memory is also getting worse. As I told you, I can’t always remember things.”
"Why didn't you continue the treatment? Is it because I had no money?"
"It was because I had no money at first. The monthly medication cost was seven to eight thousand, and I also had to see a psychiatrist, which added up to almost ten thousand." Lin Fan recalled: "After taking it for more than a year, my savings were all used up. Instead of getting better, I had more and more problems. I stopped taking the medicine."
"I heard that psychotropic drugs need to be taken step by step. Stopping medication is very painful, just like detoxification. "Wu Yusen often contacts people in the psychological team and has heard about this.
“It was quite painful, but the side effects at that time also forced me to stop. At that time, I felt that my body and nerves had reached a certain extreme, and it kept getting more painful.”
“Doctor Do you agree to stop taking the medicine?" Wu Yusen asked in surprise.
"I didn't ask the doctor. I didn't have any money at that time. I was also feeling uncomfortable, so I simply didn't go to the hospital. I just cut it off." Lin Fan said lightly.
Even though John Woo considered himself a tough guy, he couldn't help but glance at Lin Fan.
As he said, forcibly discontinuing psychotropic drugs is similar to detoxification. Everyone knows that detoxification is very painful. Many people cannot stand the pain and are unable to quit, and some even commit suicide.
But the girl next to me, who looked calm and composed, had experienced such pain, and she didn't seem to care. Are you completely numb or are you just hardened in your bones?
"How long did the pain of drug withdrawal last?" he asked again.
"It's two a month, I don't remember." At that time, I was so dizzy that I didn't care about time at all.
Wu Yusen was silent for a moment and thought of a possibility: "Could it be that those sequelae are the consequences of forcibly discontinuing the drug? Is it because of the damage caused by forcibly discontinuing the drug?" In his impression, the sequelae of drugs do not seem to be so It’s amazing, I feel like although my life is still there, my life has been ruined.
"Maybe." Lin Fan shrugged, "It doesn't make sense to talk about this now."
"So, do you feel okay now?"
"Now? Lin Fanxun glanced at Wu Yusen, "Are you referring to the pain caused by the sequelae? I'm used to it. I feel the pain. I don't know if it has really reduced over time, or if my body has slowly adapted. It’s normal.”
"Still have pain?"
"Why, didn't I mention it just now?" Lin Fan thought for a moment, but didn't seem to say, "I keep having pain in various parts of my body. I also went to the hospital for a checkup and it was said to be neurological. They wanted to give me medicine, but I didn’t take it. “Is it because of money?”
“In fact, it didn’t work the first time. Eat again.”
“Where does it hurt?” Wu Yusen asked.
"Everywhere hurts. My head hurts, my neck hurts. My arms hurt, and sometimes my heart hurts. Sometimes my knees hurt, and sometimes my whole leg hurts. I feel like there is no place in my body that doesn't hurt." Lin Fan said that he felt pain in the end. I want to laugh a little bit.
It sounded very serious. John Woo frowned: "How does it hurt?"
"Sometimes it hurts faintly, like muscle inflammation. It hurts secretly. Sometimes it suddenly hurts. Stinging pain, the whole body is frozen and unable to move, and it takes a while to recover. Sometimes it feels like there is a steel bar in the body. "The most severe thing is the headache. When it's severe, it feels like there's a steel bar hanging from my temple, and my head is being lifted open, and I can't stay awake." br>
Wu Yusen didn’t know what to say at once. This kind of pain can be used by good people to cure depression, right? He suddenly understood Lin Fan's depression.
"I also learned a new word called 'migratory pain'. It's very appropriate, isn't it." Lin Fan laughed softly.
Wu Yusen took a glance and found that the smile did not reach his eyes, it was more like a helpless compromise.
"Then don't you usually have anything happy?" John Woo changed the subject.
“I haven’t known what happiness is for a long time.” Lin Fan said.
“What do you like to eat?” If you can’t continue the conversation, change the subject.
"I don't know."
"No?"
"I did before. But then, I didn't feel that way anymore. I used to be happy when I ate something I liked, but now I don't I know what joy is. My emotions are missing," Lin Fan recalled. "And most of the time, I can't taste the food I eat. I feel no different between eating meat and vegetables. I don't feel hungry. Eating something every day is just to prevent myself from starving to death."
Wu Yusen glanced at Lin Fan in surprise. If it wasn't on the highway, he really wanted to stop the car and ask questions.
This is not normal at all, okay!
Lin Fan felt the gaze from the other side, and she smiled again: "I have changed too much over the years, and I don't look like myself anywhere. If the face in the mirror wasn't still familiar, I would have suspected that it was someone else."< br>
Wu Yusen’s heart suddenly jumped. Lin Fan might not care, but he worked in a special agency and knew that such a thing was entirely possible.
If we follow this line of thinking, Lin Fan is right to deny that she has superpowers, because it is indeed not her who has superpowers. Her fatigue and pain seemed to have a reason.
But I can’t say it yet. After all, he is not sure what the situation is. If it is true, it is not clear how friendly the other party is, and whether talking too much will alert the enemy.
Thinking of this, John Woo decided not to ask Lin Fan anymore, and instead told some interesting anecdotes about the special office.
What he said were small pieces of information that were not confidential, and it wouldn't matter if he told them. Although Lin Fan was not interested, in order to prevent Wu Yusen from falling into a quiet state and causing drowsiness, he still responded one after another.
I don’t know whether it was the car or John Woo’s driving skills, but Lin Fan did not feel particularly uncomfortable along the way.
Probably because of the weekend, there are more cars on the road. The road that originally took 3 and a half hours actually took 5 hours to get there. Lin Fan was a little surprised when he entered Gaohe City from the toll station, until the car started to stop and stopped, entering an old compound.
Wu Yusen unbuckled his seat belt, and Lin Fan got out of the car obediently.
Looking around, the yard is quite empty. There is a three-story old building in front of it. The exterior wall is decorated with mosaics, which looks like the architectural style of the 1990s. There are trees outside the yard, and the location seems relatively private with little traffic. Not far away is the elevated highway, I don't know whether it is a railway track or a highway.
"This used to be the house of the Power Supply Bureau. Later, the Power Supply Bureau built a new building and moved away, so we took over here." Wu Yusen said and led Lin Fan into the old building.
Lin Fan didn't see any signs outside the door. After following in, he discovered that only the facade was old, and the interior had been renovated long ago.
The entire wall facing the gate is decorated with mosaic murals to show a beautiful scenery of mountains and rivers. Around this wall is a glass door, which looks like a real office area.
Wu Yusen swiped his work ID card at the door opposite, and the glass opened with a ding. Lin Fan followed John Woo into the room and walked to the front desk.
The lady at the front desk saw Wu Yusen coming in and greeted happily: "Wu Te is back?"
"Yes," John Woo replied with a smile, "Give me a visitor card and register it in my name."
"Is this the newcomer this time?" The young lady glanced at Lin Fan curiously.
Lin Fan didn't hear the question. She was staring at the background wall at the front desk in a daze.
On it were a few big characters that were shining in gold and extremely rustic - RiRihong Trading Co., Ltd.
(End of this chapter)