Chapter 43 Introduction to the condition
“That’s natural,” Xie Bisheng continued: “Lin Fan is not only an important member of your special office, but also a precious asset of our country. We will naturally cherish it. , carefully protect her safety in all aspects. Isn't Dr. Jin here? If there is anything wrong, just tell me and I will solve it."
Jin Sichen smiled and thanked her when he heard his name being mentioned. Bi Sheng nodded. If the deputy director could say something like this, Lin Fan's safety would be guaranteed to a certain extent.
Wu Yusen also said with a smile: "We definitely believe what Deputy Director Xie said. However, Lin Fan's illness is indeed a bit different from ordinary people, and I am afraid it will have a certain impact on the progress of the research. I hope you will be considerate.”
Thank you. Sheng waved his hand and said on behalf of the others: "This is not a problem. With Dr. Jin here and our cooperation, I believe that Lin Fan will soon overcome the disease and recover. It doesn't matter if the initial progress is slower, it is still people-oriented. Let's do research Yes, the most patient.”
Others in Group 623 all spoke in agreement, telling John Woo not to worry, as they would give priority to Lin Fan's physical condition.
“Although we have checked the information, we still don’t know much about depression. Can you tell us more about Lin Fan’s situation and what needs to be paid attention to, so as to avoid unnecessary harm inadvertently. "The speaker was a middle-aged man in his 40s.
"That's natural. As a professional, Dr. Jin has the most say in this regard. Let him explain it in detail for everyone." Wu Yusen handed the topic to Jin Sichen and sat down with a smile.
"Okay, let me explain to you Lin Fan's recent status and taboos." Jin Sichen did not stand up to speak like John Woo, but still sat steadily. But given his status, no one would say anything.
“According to my current understanding, Lin Fan’s depression is not in an explosive stage and his mood is relatively stable, but the various symptoms are still very obvious.”
"The onset of depression usually manifests itself in three major aspects: core symptom cluster, psychological symptom cluster and physical symptom cluster. I will combine these symptom clusters to talk about Lin Fan's individual performance in detail."
Jin Sichen spoke During this time, the researchers took notes and took notes one after another, as if they were listening to the teacher's lecture in class, with serious expressions and extra seriousness. Even Xie Bisheng is no exception.
“Let’s talk about the core symptom group first. The first one is low mood. Being in a low mood for a long time, often feeling distressed and sad, in unbearable pain, feeling unhappy, living like a year, life is worse than death... these symptoms are all Lin Fan has Yes, you can easily detect it in future contacts.”
“But there is something special about Lin Fan. , her mood is relatively stable, and she does not have very strong pessimism. This has a lot to do with the fact that she has little contact with the outside world and works hard to control herself. This is also an aspect that everyone should pay attention to, so as not to arouse her more pessimism. Mood."
"Another classic manifestation of the core symptom cluster is the loss of interest and pleasure."
"I have no interest in anything. Things that I used to feel happy now have no feeling at all. I can't get any pleasure from daily activities. Reading or playing on the computer is just to kill time, and I don't get any pleasure from it."
“For example: The salary and benefits of our special office are very high. As a person who has been ill for several years, is in financial distress, and needs help from others, Lin Fan didn’t even blink an eyelid when he learned that he had received a high salary. She only thinks about whether the death and funeral funds will be enough for her parents to spend the rest of their lives. This is not only a manifestation of pessimism, but also a manifestation of loss of desire. "
"On the other hand, as a 35-year-old woman, she has no choice. Normal women love beauty and want to be beautiful. You can tell by looking at her clothes that she is still wearing them even after they have been washed and faded. This is not because she does not care about the quality of life. "
Everyone looked at Lin Fan. The large T-shirt has been worn for who knows how many years. The color is old and worn. The collar is loose and deformed, and the edges are frayed. Scattered small holes are vaguely visible on the clothes. Even an old lady in her 70s or 80s might not wear such clothes.
“When I was going through the security check at the sentry post just now, I realized that the only luggage she brought was the small red bag in her hand.”
"What's inside? Two sets of changes of clothes, including underwear, a total of 8 pieces for the upper and lower body, one of which is a very torn T-shirt. Mobile phone, data cable, power bank, water bottle, towel, toothbrush, slippers, ID card and The key. Oh, and a dirty bed sheet."
"Let me ask you, who only takes this little luggage when traveling?"
" We all know that her stay will not be too short after coming to 800, and her luggage is not enough to cope with the seasonal changes. Even if she spends this summer, I feel that it is too reluctant when Wu Teqin proposes to buy her more clothes. She was rejected. This is also a manifestation of her strong indifference to the quality of life. She doesn't care about external material conditions at all."
The red bag was placed on Lin Fan's lap, and everyone could only see it briefly. It's true that there isn't much in it. They thought it was something Lin Fan carried with him, but they didn't expect it to be all his luggage. Even male researchers can’t help but feel that there are too few.
"In addition to these, Lin Fan has also lost her hunger and appetite. As long as it is not something she hates, she will eat it, but the taste is almost like chewing paper. There is no need to eat more of whatever is delicious. situation. Eating is not for the purpose of filling the stomach and enjoying delicious food, but to avoid starvation and to cope with the task. The amount of food is also small, one meal a day or two meals a day is normal. Only the minimum needs for survival ”
Regarding eating, Jin Sichen asked John Woo carefully when Lin Fan was sleeping later.
“We all know that in life, we live for various desires, whether it is yearning for the beauty of life, whether it is longing for money to become a millionaire, or standing at the pinnacle of power, becoming a master, or It is to build a happy family and raise children, It's so enjoyable..."
"After all, people have desires. Even animals live by their own instinctive desires. Lin Fan's loss of desire makes her have no expectations for anything. At the same time, he doesn't care about his own life. Being depressed is more dangerous."
"Next, I will try to reverse her situation as soon as possible and arouse her desire for foreign things, whether it is money or material desire... no matter what, only when she has desire. There is concern and reluctance.”
"Before, she was still concerned about her parents, but after confirming the amount of funeral compensation, she had put aside this concern. She came here with the idea of death, and she had already prepared to be sectioned and studied. Various preparations for the whole corpse.”
Jin Sichen finally pointed out Lin Fan's inner thoughts, also reminding 800 what to be wary of.
Lin Fan tilted his head slightly and pointed in Jin Sichen's direction. Yesterday's conversation was not so in-depth. I didn't expect that he could guess so much on his own. He was worthy of being a top psychologist.
The researchers whispered, they can understand how difficult it is to live without hope, and they will go through a cycle every time their research fails. But they will relieve their emotions, travel, play games, watch movies or sing karaoke... Use various ways to cheer themselves up, quickly rebuild their confidence, and invest in a new round of research.
They know the pain, but it's still hard to imagine what it feels like to continue it day and night. Who can a normal person bear this?
Lin Fan was sitting here calmly now. Although she said nothing, she did not show any extreme emotions or any confusion, which fully demonstrated her tenacity.
"Hey! How could he die? There are slices and so on..." Xie Bisheng quickly denied, "Lin Fan, you are overthinking! All our 623 colleagues, dear, you are too late, how could you possibly You sliced it up? It’s even more impossible to kill you on purpose for research! I guarantee my research career that our institute will never do such a crazy thing!”
“This is also true! A manifestation of pessimism, always thinking about the bad things when things happen. For ordinary people, things that are trivial may be magnified by Lin Fan and become entangled repeatedly, adding to the emotional burden."
"This is a manifestation of pessimism. It's not something she can control. It's a characteristic of depression. She is actually the biggest victim. She has to keep tossing back and forth in various emotions and finally restrain herself to a stable state. It's easier said than done, but no one knows how hard it is. I can understand it."
"So I hope everyone can understand her inappropriate thoughts and try not to bring the matter to Lin Fan's eyes. After all, she may ponder over and over again in her mind the things we forget about in a blink of an eye. , tormenting myself for several months.”
"Oh..." Everyone nodded. From this point of view, Lin Fan was really pitiful. They must be careful in the future and try not to hurt her.
“There are more symptoms in the psychological symptom group, and unfortunately Lin Fan almost meets all of them. Normally, if you meet some of the various symptoms of severe depression, you can be diagnosed. Like Lin Fan, almost all of the symptoms are This is the first time I’ve met some people.” Jin Sichen sighed, looking at Lin Fan who lowered his head and didn’t move, he felt hard just thinking about it.
“Many people have experienced anxiety, which is also one of the classic symptoms of psychological symptoms. It manifests as upset, nervousness, restlessness, random thoughts, etc. The process is repeated and long-lasting, difficult to control, and can cause great harm. Psychological pressure. "
"I just said that Lin Fan was determined to die. Before she made this determination, she must have experienced repeated anxiety. She was afraid of going out and fearing that new things she encountered would cause more problems. Anxiety and negative emotions are also typical symptoms of anxiety.”
“She lived alone for two and a half years before we took her to the special unit. At home, she rarely goes out. In the past six months, she only went to the courtyard of the community to feed stray animals, and she rarely had contact with people. She soon returned to her own home without saying hello. This was not because she was rude, but because she had communication difficulties. Afraid of interacting with strangers ”
A group of people nodded. They didn't care about Lin Fan not saying hello. They didn't think that this was also one of the symptoms.
"Communication disorder is a manifestation of slow thinking. It also manifests as slow reaction, difficulty in thinking about problems, reduced speaking, decreased decision-making ability, etc. Lin Fan has all of these."
"She Often do not remember recent events, have difficulty concentrating, find it difficult to react quickly after learning something, do not understand what is going on for a long time, and are indifferent to the surrounding environment and the external environment. They are all manifestations of cognitive impairment. "
"When cognitive impairment is at its most severe, symptoms of 'three absences' will appear."
"Lin Fan has a very low opinion of himself. She is useless, can do nothing, is worthless, and is simply a waste of air. This is 'useless'. There is nothing she can do about her condition, and she can only suffer slowly by herself. This is 'helpless'."
"It is 'hopeless' to think that life has no hope, the future is bleak, and there is no way out. These 'three noes' will aggravate the pessimism and prevent the condition from getting better."
"She also has strong self-guilt. Behavior. She felt that her parents were burdened by her illness. She felt that the family would be better off if it were not for her. She was full of guilt and self-blame for her long-term illness.
"Come together The problem is negative suicidal thoughts. Due to the recurring emotions of self-blame and guilt, the "three noes" symptoms continue to interfere, and Lin Fan also has recurring thoughts of self-mutilation and suicide."
" When she saw sharp objects, she couldn't help but want to stab herself. She also jumped into a river on impulse and committed suicide. She was lucky enough to be rescued."
Everyone looked at Lin Fan in surprise, knowing that she was. -Killing is already the most serious manifestation of depressive disorder. Looking at Lin Fan's calm expression, he didn't expect that he would ever behave so violently.
Jin Sichen said so many words, but Lin Fan remained in the same posture as when he came in, motionless. A group of people couldn't help but feel a little distressed.
“I also want to take this opportunity to tell everyone not to let Lin Fan come into contact with any sharp objects, in case she can’t control herself and hurt herself.”
“The scope of sharp objects is... ?" asked a female researcher.
“Knives, scissors, needles and other sharp objects with sharp edges. There was a time when she just thought about sharp objects like knives and needles in her mind, and she couldn’t help but want to kill them on her body. It was stabbed in the upper body and eyes, so it was better not to let her see it, so as to avoid having too many associations.”
Everyone took a breath and thought about how terrible it was to stab themselves. Express certain attention.
Lin Fan has actually gone through that serious period. Now he occasionally has such thoughts, but he is not as impulsive as before and can easily suppress them. But she didn't want to talk, so just listen to what Jin Sichen said.
The introduction of the condition will definitely be a bit boring, but now the introduction is clear, and there will be comparison later.
(End of this chapter)