Explanation on ambiguity (the male protagonist’s emotional journey is very different)
Yesterday, Baozi commented on the chapter about Cyber Cultivation, saying that men in their thirties still engage in ambiguity.
I specifically read the content of that chapter... Well, maybe I didn't write it clearly before.
As a mother, please allow me to quibble. No, please explain further.
First of all, I don’t mean to be ambiguous subjectively.
In my opinion, the word "ambiguity" means that I know that the other person likes me, but I don't know how to say it, so it's a vague emotional state.
I consider myself not good at writing romance, so when I started the book, and even now, I didn’t have the idea of letting the protagonist fall in love.
However, love is indeed one of the other representative emotions besides family and friendship. It can't be said that he has to do it, but there is no need to completely ignore the existence of this thing.
We don’t fall in love, but as normal people, it’s not an exaggeration to have a correct appreciation for the beautiful members of the opposite sex, right?
As a book that is relatively close to real life, I have no intention of avoiding the aspect of love. So Lin Fan has been in love, Song Ren has also been in love, including John Woo.
They are all mature social people in their thirties with certain life and emotional experiences and successful careers. The expression of feelings is bound to not be impulsive and move forward like young people. And because everyone has different personalities, they make different decisions.
Lin Fan's recovery from the morbid state of having no desires and apathy to being able to appreciate Song Ren's handsomeness and John Woo's kindness are all manifestations of a normal person.
It’s like we always have the opportunity to meet a few people around us who are good-looking, good-looking, good-looking, or have good abilities, or good personalities, right? We appreciate it, but it doesn’t mean that we have to be friendly with others and have a good relationship with others. Isn’t this the principle of being involved together?
Lin Fan still has a knot in her heart and rejects the approach of love from the bottom of her heart. Therefore, no matter how good Song and Wu are, she only stops at admiring them and never thinks about deepening the relationship between men and women. This is Lin Fan's position.
Why does Song Ren like Lin Fan?
I wrote when he appeared on the scene that what he wanted was a long-lasting relationship with companionship.
In the relatively closed 800, Song Ren, who was devoted to training, met Lin Fan, who needed his personal protection and companionship. In the process of getting along with him, he saw Lin Fan's kindness in saving people subconsciously without realizing it, and his tenacity in getting up from a puddle of mud step by step...
Lin Fan's beautiful qualities and character, including what made him The mecha stars that gave birth to Mu Qiang are attracting him. He is weak where he is weak, and strong where he is strong... Coupled with being by his side day and night, I think it is normal for Song Ren to fall in love with Lin Fan.
ps, such an excellent man likes the protagonist, and he also foils the protagonist Bangbang, haha.
The reason why he didn't say anything at first was that the relationship had just started to develop and it hadn't reached that point yet. In addition, there is the reason for Cui Yan, the gap between the Special Office and the 800, etc.
Later, Lin Fan left and the two of them had less contact. Song Ren knew very well the consequences of a relationship separated by two places. In order not to make the same mistake again, he simply kept silent.
He sealed up this fruitless relationship in his heart and slowly forgot about it. He thought that this would be it for the rest of his life, but he got a turn for the better when he was paralyzed.
When Lin Fan went to see him, he closed his eyes and ignored anyone, trying to drive her away. No one wants the person they love to see themselves at their worst, and Song Ren can't stand it.
But Lin Fan sought a chance for him, which not only allowed him to recover as before, but also received the support of biological armor, and he became a top being on par with Lin Fan.
This feeling of fulfillment between life and death, and having the whole world after despair, amplified Song Ren's feelings for Lin Fan to the extreme.
Out of love, gratitude, the grace of rebirth, or various complex emotions intertwined, Song Ren was sure that he would be devoted to Lin Fan for the rest of his life.
He determined his feelings after careful consideration. In terms of the righteousness of family and country, the two of them are on the same page. In other matters big and small, he is sure to follow Lin Fan unconditionally, like and tolerate everything about her, and will never make her sad...
So after knowing the above because Lin Fan was basically normal, and after he intentionally relaxed his emotional restrictions on her, he opened his mouth to test her.
It was only then that Lin Fan realized that Song Ren did have that kind of interest in her.
Song Ren has a cold personality and doesn't talk much. Most of the time, he has a cold and reliable image.
Lin Fan had had a few playful thoughts in the past, but because Song Ren's performance was not obvious, she felt that she was confused by Song Ren's face, and quickly changed her mind to stop herself from thinking too much.
As I have written before, friendship is more important and more stable in her mind than an uncertain couple.
Song Ren also knew Lin Fan well and knew the reason why she was hesitant to move forward in this regard. After being rejected, he would not push him and wanted to wait for the opportunity. This is Song Ren.
Let’s talk about John Woo.
If Song Ren is the heat sealed by the iceberg, then John Woo is the gentle and mellow wind. In Lin Fan's eyes, he was kind to everyone, so even though he lamented how this person was so kind, he didn't think too much about it.
Of course, it’s not that I haven’t thought about it at all. But she denied it herself.
As I said before, Lin Fan actually has low self-esteem in her heart. Although she is very good and powerful now, when facing these feelings, she still subconsciously feels that she is impossible.
She doesn’t want to be the kind of ordinary girl who says, “When someone smiles at you, you feel like they are interested in you.”
Moreover, as a mature woman who has experienced ups and downs in relationships, isn’t it fun to work and make money when everything is uncertain? Why do you have to get stuck in a relationship and worry about the gains and losses of another man?
She didn't know anything about her biological parents, and she didn't want to cause any more trouble for herself.
Rich woman Lin Fan realized the benefits of money and decided to end love.
My parents have no choice. But she can choose not to have another person who might hurt her.
Wu Yusen understands her very well, so he doesn’t show it at all. He was gentle and gentle to her, not letting Lin Fan feel any pressure.
So, Lin Fan had no idea about John Woo's feelings for her except that he once occasionally lamented that this man was really good.
So people like Wang Fengfeng could see that John Woo treated her differently, but she didn't know it herself. She thought that John Woo treated everyone like this.
Except for the fact that they separated from time to time and spent less time together, it can only be said that it was due to the blindness of "being in this mountain".
As for why John Woo likes Lin Fan. The principle is similar to Song Ren's. The reason I ask again is to highlight the fact that the heroine is awesome, it’s worth it, it’s very good...
To sum up, I don’t feel there is any ambiguity in this.
One was rejected as soon as he revealed it, and the other was someone who didn’t reveal anything and hid it very well. It was considered a secret love at most.
I hope you guys won't misunderstand me. My mother feels distressed.
By the way, why do I write so much about the psychology of characters?
This is already 800 chapters, and I haven’t written many fighting scenes.
Of course, because the second volume was canceled, it had a lot to do with changing the outline. But it is obvious that there are many descriptions of the behaviors, mentality, and interactions of each character. I doubt that there is any novel written like mine.
It feels like a group drama, more about life than war.
Because Lin Fan suffered from mental illness at the beginning, the early stages were all about her overcoming herself. To put it simply, the purpose of such a large-scale group portrait description is to build and enrich Lin Fan's once collapsed inner world.
Including the feelings of the two male supporting characters who appear later.
Lin Fan does not necessarily accept love or fall in love, but she should be a normal person with normal emotions who can sense that others like her.
That’s what I think.
I hope that my characters are all three-dimensional characters, good and bad, strong and weak. He is not like the kind of weak boss who can immediately bankrupt many companies with just "Tian Liang Wang Po".
Everyone has their own joys, sorrows and joys, and there are all kinds of helplessness hidden behind the laughter.
Lin Fan is the protagonist, but this world is also a world where all characters live together.
So I will describe each character’s behavior, psychology, and the protagonist’s feedback from many details and plots. These seemingly off-topic plots actually add fuel to the protagonist's empty heart.
The relationship was not settled, but a balance was achieved. Friendships are greatly harvested, but the period seems to be mixed with impure hidden dangers. Love is available, but the protagonist chooses to reject it.
An imperfect-looking result is closer to reality. These bits and pieces of daily life and emotional input also build a solid and strong inner support for Lin Fan in his subsequent interstellar wandering.
Although this is an illusory novel, I still want to write it from a real perspective as much as possible, so that when the children read it, they can feel familiar and familiar from time to time.
Okay, there is so much nonsense today that I can write a chapter. It’s also because I haven’t talked nonsense with you for a long time, so I broke out. Hahaha
Okay, I will continue coding, thank you all for your continued support. bow.