Chapter 15 Don’t want to work overtime (7)
Wang Juan took the phone, her hands shaking a little.
Yi Yu didn’t bring her mobile phone, so there was no way of knowing where she went. This was the first time Wang Juan faced such a situation.
"Miss Yi also said that you can go to a place to find her, where she spent the happiest birthday."
Yi Yu thoughtfully told the nurse her whereabouts, but Where is it?
Wang Juan heard this and immediately wanted to leave anxiously. Although she hadn't figured out where it was yet, she could find it first.
The nurse stopped her and couldn't help but tell her: "Madam, you...must pay more attention to Miss Yi's mental state..."
"What do you mean?" Wang Juan He stopped, and the wriggling black tentacles around him suddenly stopped.
“Although according to our confidentiality principle, we cannot disclose the specific information of our customers. But based on the preliminary assessment we made to Miss Yi today, we think it is necessary for you as a family member to pay more attention to her... The tendency to destroy is very strong," the nurse said cautiously, with a look of regret and apology.
"What? I, I don't know, I really don't know..." Wang Juan looked pale. She had never realized that Yi Yu's mental state had reached this point.
As a mother, she actually knew nothing about her daughter's inner world.
Wang Juan staggered out of the clinic. If it weren't for the black tentacles supporting her, she would have fallen to the ground.
The most urgent task is to find Yi Yu first.
Wang Juan cheered up and tried to remember where Yi Yu spent a happy birthday?
But what is helpless and terrifying is that she can no longer remember a happy birthday for her daughter, let alone the "happiest one".
On Yi Yu's birthday last year, she had to work overtime until twelve o'clock in the evening. She specifically asked for leave to go home to celebrate her birthday with her family, but Wang Juan scolded her for being irresponsible, so Yi Yu went back to her room without eating the cake.
For last year’s birthday, Yi Yu brought her boyfriend to her home to celebrate her birthday. Wang Juan felt that this man’s family background was not good, his education was not good, and his job was not good. For the sake of his daughter, he wanted to get married early. , openly and secretly said a lot of things about the man that he disliked. In the end, the man was angry and ran away, and the two had a big quarrel downstairs.
Going forward... For many years, perhaps because Yi Yu was studying in school, Yi Yu did not celebrate his birthday. If a family celebrated a birthday, they would often break up unhappy.
And the reason is always her.
As Wang Juan's thoughts gradually became disordered, black clouds came over the city, and strong black liquid condensed into liquid dripping from the sky. When it fell on the ground, it turned into black tentacles wandering around, twisted and chaotic.
Suddenly, she remembered.
It is a seaside.
Yi Yu was only six years old at that time. Wang Juan thought that her child would go to elementary school next year, so she would just let her have fun.
So the family drove to the beach to play.
There was no grand birthday party or expensive cake gifts. It was just their family walking on the water at the beach, picking up shells, drawing sand paintings, and building a crooked tree with sand. castle.
On that day, there was no blame, no dissatisfaction, only relaxation and laughter.
On the return trip in the evening, Yi Yu was still young and had limited physical strength. He was so tired that he fell asleep in the car, but he still had a satisfied smile on his face.
That seemed to be the last time. Yi Yu was smiling at the end of his birthday.
Wang Juan had a self-deprecating smile on her face, her body was covered with squirming black liquid, and her feet gradually sank into the black mire.
She called a car and drove to the beach.
The journey was quite long and it took two hours of driving to arrive. Wang Juan's mood was as complex and blurry as the rapidly reversing scenery outside.
The beach arrived. After Wang Juan got out of the car, she took a deep breath of the unique salty and wet smell of the sea breeze and felt nervous involuntarily.
She didn’t realize that she had completely transformed into a humanoid creature whose features were so dark that her facial features could not be seen clearly, and its tentacles were twisting all over its body. Every time she took a step, thick black liquid would drip on the ground, and Turn into tentacles and wander away.
She started searching along the coastline. Today was a working day. There were almost no people on the beach, only the waves crashed lonely against the shore again and again.
Wang Juan walked for a long time, until the sky was completely dark. The black in the sky had condensed into a giant whirlpool, with a huge eye exposed in the middle. She opened her eyes and looked at the ground. Her eyeballs were covered with cloth. It was covered with purple-black bloodshot eyes, and the pupils were filled with densely packed black tentacles squirming.
She "saw" that there was the smell of Yiyu on the rocks by the sea.
Wang Juan rushed over. There was still no figure of Yi Yu on the rock, but there was a pile of paper on the ground pressed by the stone.
Where is Yi Yu?
She looked at the waves hitting the rocks and breaking into countless snow-white foam, and an ominous premonition surged in her heart.
The black tentacle took the stone away and rolled up the stack of paper in front of Wang Juan.
Those were printed diaries, and Wang Juan knew they were written by Yi Yu as soon as she saw the tone.
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[Friday, June 16, 2019] I finally graduated. Senior Sister Wang and Senior Brother Zhu asked me to start a business with them and make aerospace systems. I think it is very interesting! Zhengming also supports me, saying that he can make money while I pursue my dream. I am so happy!
【Thursday, December 7, 6519】
I have been working overtime until very late recently, and I don’t have a decent office or money, but I don’t feel tired.
But my mother lost her temper when she came to see me. She felt that I was just wasting my time and playing with my future. Did I really do something wrong?
……
【Monday, January 28, 6520】
I just want to have a little space of my own, a little time of my own, to explore what I really like thing. But every time this thought comes up, I feel selfish.
[Sunday, March 13, 6520]
Tomorrow I will join Guosheng Group. I’m sorry, Senior Sister Wang and Senior Brother Zhu. Maybe my mother is right, I can't waste my youth on unknown things.
[Thursday, May 7, 6520]
I will still be confused. Is all this effort really worth it?
I sacrificed my dreams in order to live up to other people’s expectations. But when I think about giving up, my heart is filled with fear. Maybe it’s because I just started working, but keep working hard!
[Wednesday, October 22, 6520]
I have been working overtime recently. Zhengming was angry and said that we never had time to date, and I was sorry for him.
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[Friday, May 10, 6521]
The pressure at work is increasing and I feel very tired.
Sometimes, I even doubt whether I chose this path is the right one. My mother always hoped that I could have a stable job and a decent life.
But is this really what I want? I started to wonder.
[Wednesday, September 3, 6521]
Today, I secretly asked for leave and went to the small coffee shop I had always wanted to go to, and sat alone for a long time.
The atmosphere there made me feel very relaxed, as if all the stress had left me temporarily. I thought a lot about dreams, about work, about my mother, and about Zhengming. I know that I can't always escape reality, but it is necessary to give yourself some time to escape occasionally.
……
【Sunday, July 4, 6522】
Why is it so difficult to satisfy everyone? Why is it always my fault alone? Obviously I am the protagonist on this day, but why do everyone blame me?
【Saturday, August 22, 6522】
I tried to talk to my mother about my feelings today and told her that I also have my own thoughts and pressures. However, it didn't seem to be successful and we started arguing again. I know it's hard for her to understand me, but it's also hard for me to understand her.
[Wednesday, December 18, 6522]
Sometimes, I really feel like a floating island, surrounded by water that cannot be approached.
……
[Tuesday, March 7, 6523]
I can’t breathe.
【Thursday, June 15, 6523】
It seems like I am living in an endless cycle from which I can never escape. No, I know how to get out.
【Friday, September 13, 6523】
Break up. That's fine, anyway, if we don't break up, my mother will drive me crazy if he doesn't go crazy.
That’s it.
I hope I won’t work overtime in the new year
(End of this chapter)