Chapter 172 Being trapped in this perfect shell
Xiao Li stood up and left, leaving Song Junzhan alone in the library.
The spring light was bright outside, and the flowers brought for the banquet filled the yard. All you could see was the spring scenery of blooming flowers, but what Song Junzhan remembered in his mind was her looking back and smiling that day under the ginkgo tree in the Song family residence.
She said: 'I am a commoner, and there are things about my young master that I can like, such as this appearance, which is unparalleled in the world. ’
What she liked was his appearance, but what she wanted in the end was his ability.
From that day on, he couldn't feel at ease. He was often lost in thought because of her. When he knew that he could see her again, he couldn't suppress the excitement and joy in his heart.
At this moment, he could calmly watch Cen An, who fell in love with Miss Wang at first sight, being tormented by lovesickness, but at that time, why didn't he?
It's just that the obsession in his heart was so heavy that all his heartbeats were suppressed in his heart.
She said ‘Stay close to me and you will die’.
But what's the harm in following her to death?
He raised his hand and poured himself a glass of wine. He was really not good at drinking, but the taste was strong and hot, just like hers.
It smells sweet and mellow, and drinks it spicy. It is obviously painful, but the aftertaste is sweet, and all kinds of flavors are included in it.
He had no intention of getting a wife, and he knew he shouldn't have such wishful thinking, but she said she would never have a consort.
It was obviously just her decision, and she obviously didn't know his delusions at all, but just one sentence sent him into chaos.
Fill it up again, pick up the wine glass, raise your hand to bring it to your mouth, but stop at the last moment, slowly put the wine glass down, stand up and walk to the table next to you, pick up the pen and continue writing the test paper.
He is not qualified to drink, at least not yet.
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"Wow~~"
Xiao Li got up from the tub, took the towel and wiped his body. When he slowly put on his pajamas, he suddenly looked at his body on a whim. His nineteen-year-old body was the most delicate, with a slender waist, long legs, The skin is fair and the front and back are full and the curvature is just right.
Xiao Li's current appearance is the same as before, but his body is still different.
Although he was injured, there were almost no scars.
She had suffered several gunshot wounds on her body, leaving five or six very hideous scars. The doctor said they could be removed, but she insisted on leaving them. They were marks of her narrow escape.
There were also many pinhole marks left on her arms and knees due to medication and puncture extraction. They were very small and could not be seen without looking carefully, but she remembered every one of them clearly.
Because of too many medications and surgeries, her breasts were not fully developed.
She loves having neat short hair and wearing a suit, making her look male and female.
But now the body is incredibly intact, like a broken porcelain doll suddenly covered with a perfect shell.
She has long hair that reaches her waist, bulging forward and backward, and her whole body exudes the femininity and charm of a woman.
How beautiful, how beautiful.
But this is not her! Not herself!
No matter how broken the body was, it was still hers. No matter how difficult that life was, it was she who got through it step by step.
No matter what others think, that is her Xiao Li's life!
She doesn't need others to care about her, nor does she need anyone to love her, because she, Xiao Li, is the one who loves her most.
No matter the pain or disability, it is still her.
Instead of coming to this ghost place and being trapped in this perfect shell!
The negative emotions that had not appeared for a long time resurfaced without warning, swallowing her up in an instant.
"Bang!"
Xiao Li threw away the things next to him.
"Princess, princess, what's wrong with you?"
"Princess, calm down."
Hong Yue and Lan Yue were frightened. They wanted to go up to see Xiao Li, but Xiao Li opened their eyes.
"Get away!"
She couldn't control her anger. As long as she thought that she was still trapped in this body, she couldn't help but feel suffocated in pain.
It seemed like he was about to go completely crazy the next moment. "Princess."
The two of them stepped forward, but Xiao Li turned around and went to the bedroom: "No one is allowed in."
The door of the compartment was closed, and Hong Yue and Lan Yue were furious.
"What's wrong with the princess?"
"You were fine just now, why did the princess suddenly get so angry?"
Thinking of the scene just now, both of them were frightened and their faces turned pale.
Hongyue forced herself to calm down and said: "You stay here and I'll go out to find Brother Yang Jun to find a solution."
Lan Yue nodded: "Then go quickly."
Hongyue went out in a hurry and then remembered that Rong Qing was the one keeping watch tonight. She was wondering if Rong Qing could help, when she suddenly saw Rong Qing confronting someone.
Seeing that the two of them were about to take action, Hongyue rushed over: "Stop fighting, something happened to the princess."
Watching the man go in, Rong Qing glanced at Hongyue: "You are disobeying the princess's order."
And pulled him up.
Hongyue clutched her sleeves tightly and looked inside worriedly, her lips turned white with nervousness: "I know, but the princess was in a bad mood just now, and I don't know how to deal with it. You and I don't care, how can we let the princess be tortured?" ”
The princess just got angry suddenly, but she felt that the princess was not angry at them, but more like she was being tortured by something and was in a daze.
Rong Qing: "Then how are you sure that the person will be useful if he passes by?"
Hongyue shook her head: "I don't know, but he is different to the princess, and he will not hurt the princess."
He turned around and bowed deeply to Rong Qing: "Thank you to Brother Rong for what happened tonight. Hong Yue will bear all the punishment from the princess. If Brother Rong is hurt in the end, Hong Yue will definitely repay it."
After saying that, she hurried back, she was going to guard the princess.
Seeing Hong Yue running away, Rong Qing slammed the handle of the long knife in his hand on the ground.
What's all this?
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Xiao Li is not a madman.
But the overwhelming feeling of despair and suffocation made her almost collapse.
No way to struggle, no way to escape!
She still has reason, and she knows she can't be so crazy, but her body's feelings are not controlled by her soul.
She hated this body, hated this appearance, she wished she could cut off this body of flesh and blood with one knife.
It would be fine if he died
Death.
"Princess!"
The dark purple figure eagerly pushed the door open, accompanied by Lan Yue's horrified cry.
What he saw was Xiao Li who was smiling weirdly and madly. She was holding a dagger in one hand and slashed through the air, causing blood droplets to fly.
Her white pajamas were stained red with blood.
Lou Xiang's pupils trembled rapidly, and he quickly stepped forward to snatch her dagger.
Xiao Li did not resist, and let him take the dagger away. She was as calm as if the crazy person just now was not her.
Lan Yue was so frightened that she collapsed on the ground. Now she had no strength to get up. She cried: "Get the medicine, Hong Yue, get the medicine!"
Hong Yue, who was frightened when she heard the exclamation and rushed in, suddenly came to her senses and quickly went to find the medicine box.
Xiao Li sat there with his eyes closed and allowed them to bandage him.
die? She can die, but she won't die because of an emotional breakdown. She will never allow herself to go crazy.
Since the body is too perfect, let it be imperfect and stop when it sees blood.
Deleting, deleting, modifying, and suffocating me to death.
The heroine's character is crazy. If you forget about it, you can go back and read the beginning.