Chapter 904: The past in the heart of an old friend
She is not afraid of waiting until there is no time to return, nor is she afraid of facing the end of the world, but is afraid that she will miss her entire life when she was in a hurry when she was young.
“I’m sorry.” Time and space seemed to be silent for a moment, and Yin Baishuang suddenly spoke quietly.
Bailian was stunned for a moment, as if he understood what she meant, and said with a wry smile: "I am the one who should say I'm sorry, because I made you wait for me for two hundred years in vain."
Yin Baishuangda The fingers on his waist were trembling slightly, and his forehead was pressed against his back. His eyes were slightly red: "If I hadn't gone to Nanze Mountain to say those words to you, you wouldn't have..."
"Xiaoshuang." Bailian interrupted her gently and gently, and said seriously: "This is not your fault, all this comes from my cowardice and unbearability."
Yin Baishuang pursed her lips. , and asked softly: "If you had known it back then, I would have waited for you for two hundred years. Even if I don't wait for you for two hundred years, I will continue to wait. Will you still wait for me?" Do you want to make that choice?"
Baili Anjing was silent for a moment and said: "No."
Yin Baishuang smiled sadly, and her eyes suddenly became astringent: "You seem to be like this. I haven’t realized how much I like you.”
Bailian: “…”
Yin Baishuang's fingertips on his waist dug into his skin slightly, and her body finally began to tremble uncontrollably.
“Just now you asked me what I was thinking about when I was preparing to jump into the abyss, and I said I was thinking about you.
But Xiao An, I don’t understand. Two hundred years ago When you drew your sword and killed yourself on Nanze Mountain, did you think of me?"
She asked softly, her smile becoming increasingly bitter: "You seem to have never thought from the beginning that after you die, I can spend hundreds of years, thousands of years, or even a lifetime waiting for someone.
Maybe you just think that I am the fairy lady of Cangwu Palace. , golden branches and jade leaves, that brief encounter when we were young was just the beginning of love and the budding youth of youth.
You feel that you have passed through my heart, but you have only passed by. After all, it is easy to fall in love at first sight, but it is rare to stay with me for a long time to come.
You must have been thinking about me at the moment you died, one day in the future, instead of crying when you couldn’t get it at first, you gradually became peaceful and began to accept the loveliness in life. And not available, right? ”
Bailian didn’t speak.
Yin Baishuang’s pair of apricot eyes that were once as bright as Shunhua were stained with water vapor, and the crystal liquid rolled down like beads, from the cheeks as beautiful as mist. Sliding down.
“But you don’t know that you are so important in my heart and have become the only unbreakable knot in my life.
We had a surprise meeting when I was sixteen. What I know... is that I used a little trick. If I hadn't taken the initiative to express my feelings and forced you to speak, maybe even you wouldn't have known that you liked me.
But I also know that your liking is different from mine, right? ”
Hearing this, Balian’s eyes flashed twice, and he held the hand on his waist, gently but powerfully wrapping her little hand tightly under his palm.
He whispered: "When I was little, When I was young, I heard many people say that I was born with high hopes for all sentient beings. I am a symbol of the long-lasting peace between Zhongyou and Tianxi. In this whole world, there is no one in the world who has a better identity than me. The noble second person.
Everyone in the world says that I should inherit my father's legacy and carry forward Tianxi Sword Technique. Hundreds of sects of immortals envy me, and my peers in the same sect are jealous of me.
Until later, when they discovered that I was just a mediocre person, their envy and jealousy doubled into ridicule and gloating, and everyone secretly wanted to step on me.
My father wanted me to be successful, so he trapped me in that small courtyard with a bamboo fence in the name of love, leaving me in the cold in the desert.
My mother hopes that I will be safe and happy. He said that a loving mother often fails, and even limited the number of times my mother could visit me.
In my memory, my childhood was filled with boring books all day long.
I cannot show too much love for other things, because in this way, my father will be sure that I will become bored with things and destroy the things I love without any threat.
Before I came down from the mountain at the age of fifteen, I had never had a moment of indulgence. It seemed that I had been trapped in a cage all my life.
Looking through my past life, in my memory, I can’t remember whether my father ever smiled at me, let alone when I started to get used to a person and slowly no longer need him.
In my father's eyes, I gradually no longer see any warmth. He needs a perfect son to inherit his great legacy of swordsmanship, but I am obviously not perfect, or even ordinary and useless. Disappointing.
So slowly, when he looked at me, he no longer seemed to be looking at his own child, but as if he were looking at an object, a bad stone that exhausted all his patience but had to continue polishing.
What kind of shape he wants me to become, I should grow myself into that shape according to his wishes.
If there is even the slightest difference from what he expected, I will use a file to cut off the "crooked" part of myself before he notices it, and restore the neat appearance in his mind. "
"I thought this was how my life would be. It wasn't until I met you later that I realized there was another way to live in this world.
It’s like I walked for a long time at night to see you. Walking towards you is like a beautiful process of running from darkness to light.
Xiaoshuang, you are right, my liking is different from yours. My feelings are far less pure, simple and direct than yours. "
"Maybe while I like you, I also regard you as a driftwood in my life, a warm straw.
I am attached to you, and regard this attachment as a kind of support and parasitism, so that even I have never noticed it.
In this relationship, I am weak and incompetent, and I even hope that you can come and save me. "
Yin Baishuang lowered her eyes for a moment. When she raised her eyes again, the fog in her eyes had not dissipated, but her face was a bit smoother and clearer, and her bright eyes seemed to contain a layer of light.
She said: "I must be terminally ill. When I saw you in that small temple having an attack of Wan Ming Dan, I felt that I couldn't leave you alone.
From that moment on, I had the desire to grasp the vastness of this life, and I must give you a sky filled with sparks. So whenever you need me to save you, I will definitely come. ”
"You don't know how much I like you. I don't blame you, but I want to tell you now..."
Yin Baishuang put her chin on his shoulder and neck, and leaned close to him, her chest Pressing against Bai Lian's back, he squeezed and pressed up shyly.
Across the chest, a clear beating vibration came from a calm and fiery heart.
Every stroke seemed to want to melt into his bones and blood, letting him know the pain and coldness deep in his soul.
“This heart cannot be easily provoked, because once this heart is handed over and yearned for you, it will no longer be mine.
I can afford it, but I can't take it back. If you give it up, I can only guard this feeling miserably. My heart is not big, and I can only love one person in my life. "
"Two hundred years ago, my encounter with you was destined to be an endless fireworks, fleeting, but what I want to say is, thanks to your appearance, I will be happy for many years. ”
It’s like that year comes again.
The flowing water blows the clothes, and the shadows are reflected quietly.
The sky and the earth are vast, and all living beings are vast. In this great world of Nine Burns, there is a The girl said that she wanted to give her a sky full of stars.
What Balian said was right, she was a warm straw and a burning torch. It illuminated a path for him in the endless darkness, which he will never forget.
After a thrilling confession, Yin Baishuang did not feel relaxed, but instead became more aggrieved and heartbroken.
“I have always believed that if we can meet each other before the mountain, we will definitely meet again behind the mountain.
It is true that you like me, but it is also true that you don’t understand me. I am happy with you. It's true, but I don't understand you either.
The time we have known each other has been too short. If we really count, we have known each other for less than seven days.
But you have been with that lunatic Su Jing day and night for two years.
So you see, two hundred years later, your appearance has changed so much that I can’t even recognize you, but she can recognize you at a glance and keep me in the dark. It’s so miserable! "
Bailian laughed out loud and couldn't help but rub her forehead with his cheek: "Speaking of which, when we first met in Kongcang Mountain, you stabbed me. Where's the sword? "
He joked: "Is it possible that you really don't like this skin, and you prefer the original one? ”
Yin Baishuang said: "It's not that you have a look that I like, but I like all your looks. However, after being troubled by Ying Xiu for two hundred years, your handsome and beautiful eyebrows are really not that big now that I think about it. I miss you so much.
Thinking back on the time I stabbed you at Kongcang Mountain, it really makes me feel uncomfortable.
I was still wary of you and did not hesitate to compromise. I'm so stupid to be afraid that you will take Shou away from me. Shou is yours. It is so close to you. Why can't I think of it?"
Bai Li listened quietly to her story. After finishing speaking, he said softly: "It's not that I can't think of it, but I don't dare to think about it. I'm afraid that my joy will be empty, and I'm afraid that my old heart will be too much, and it will become empty in a blink of an eye." People cross the ark.
The mist in Yin Baishuang's eyes was like a wrinkled clear lake.
She laughed, the ends of her eyes slowly raised, and her whole body became energetic again, just like the beautiful appearance when they met at the beginning of the year.
The girl with the same eyebrows and grace said to him: "This is the first time we met, let's get to know each other, Cangwu Palace, Yin Baishuang. I will only tell the friends I recognize this name. The man is so handsome and pleasing to the eye, little one." The woman's heart was filled with joy. Her husband can just call me Xiaoshuang."
Seeing her smile, Bai Lian couldn't help but laugh too: "I met you at the beginning. In the Bailian Dynasty of Xia Zhongyou, it is a blessing to be able to meet the girl as a friend. I hope that we can enjoy the music together with my heart." br>
Yin Baishuang hugged him gently: "Now, we have gotten to know each other again. I don't blame you if you don't understand me. I have always been very patient, and I will teach you slowly."< br>
It only takes a moment to like someone, but it is not easy to fully understand someone's heart.
How could Balian know that she was the stubborn and bright girl who was as bright as the sun?
One day, I will end up being drunk all day long, thinking about my old friends in dreams.
If it hadn't been for the arrangement of time, how would Yin Baishuang know that such a docile and unyielding young man in her memory could deeply carry out his determination to die for a piece of jade rather than a piece of stone.
Fire filled the sky and the earth, and those long-lasting memories that had been sealed in the heart seemed to be carefully treasured by the two of them tacitly at this moment.
Hearing about the past again feels like a passing wind in my heart, suddenly open-minded and indifferent.
Because both of us know that we are not as young as before, and it is not up to you and me to get together.
Destinies come and go, and the life chart becomes tangled up into a mess, which has long been difficult to sort out.
The floating life blows like snow, and the taste of the world is brewed into tea. Only when you have a broad mind can you not linger in your heart.
The sky is filled with wild fire, the river is burning with raging fire, and the ruins of the Moqi Palace are like wind and rain, and anything can turn into fire at any time.
Although Bailian didn't have any countermeasures in mind, at this moment, his heart felt lighter than ever before.
It doesn’t matter about life or death, or the way back, it just respects this life and doesn’t bear any responsibility.
"Xiaoshuang, I have a gift for you."
The spiritual power of the Qiankun bag at the waist is poured into it, and in the flash of light, there is a simple black sheath silver carved long sword. Bailian took it into his palm and held it lightly in his arms.
Yin Baishuang cried out in a low voice, with uncontrollable surprise and surprise in her eyes, shaking Bailian's arm: "Mo Yang Sword?!"
Before Balian could speak, the next moment her ears were pinched by her cold jade-like hands. Yin Baishuang raised her slender eyebrows and said, "Hey, Xiao An, it turns out that when we dropped the sword, you picked it up quietly. , maybe you remembered who I was at that time and were still playing dumb with me?"
She pretended to be angry, but there was an uncontrollable smile in her eyes.
Bailian held the sword and looked like he was letting her do whatever she wanted.
"How dare you, how dare you, if I had recovered my memory at that time, how could I have allowed Xiao Shuang to throw the sword into the lake and abandon it."
Yin Baishuang then retracted his hand, and then He said: "That's right. If you had recovered your memory at that time, how could you get together with Su Jing, that evil star with a dead face, and still protect her and save her life, and behave in a very close manner."
There was a bit of a taste in the tone of these words, and Balian wanted to defend himself, but what Yin Baishuang said was true, so he had no choice but to smile bitterly.
Bailian didn't know the truth at first. Although he and Su Jing were daggers at each other when they met, he treated her with respect and friendship.
But later, not to mention the intimate contact in the cold pool, let alone the night of drunkenness, if Ning Feiyan had not stepped in and trapped himself, he would have been with Su for the rest of his life. Jing couldn’t tell clearly.
But even so, he did not do anything substantial to Su Jing, but in his scattered memories, he was induced to have some skin-to-skin contact with Su Jing that went beyond men and women.
Although he was ignorant at the time, for some reason Su Jinghui, who was indifferent to everyone in the world, was too tolerant towards him.
Now that I think about it carefully, I am afraid that this woman has already had a hundred evil ideas in her mind.
Seeing that he was silent, Yin Baishuang snorted coldly and complained:
"Even if you don't say it, I can imagine how Su Jing, that sullen guy, would be able to calm down after seeing you. Well, it's like a hungry wolf seeing fresh meat and delicacies. He pounces on you with all his heart, wishing to pick up the back of your neck and take you to his den.
I suffered a loss as well. During those two years, you lived in Nanze Mountain. I heard you send a message saying that you ate and slept with her day and night, and were inseparable. You fished naked in the river. Fish, she had no taboos at all
At that time, we all thought he was Taixuan's son, but we didn't know she was a woman, but we didn't think so.
Su Guanhai is also a black-hearted person. When you and I went up the mountain, he clearly knew what was going on between you and me, but he deliberately placed his dark and skinny daughter next to you.
The head of a dignified sect just doesn’t teach his daughter about propriety, justice and shame, and that men and women are different and need to be guarded against each other. Instead, he just sits back and watches you hanging out with her day and night.
Day and night, over time, she will be able to clearly understand your living habits and every move. If not, how could she take the opportunity to recognize you. ”
(End of this chapter)