Chapter 73 Straight to the Heart
The lake is sparkling and the sun is bright but not hot. Lying on the soft inflatable bed on the lake, blowing the moist wind while eating snacks and drinks, this feeling is really comfortable. .
There are people swimming in the lake. The water is not very deep, less than five meters on average. The buoyancy of water is very strong. Even if you don't know how to swim, you can float easily as long as you don't struggle. There are many marine fish in the water. Sitting on the floating bed and looking down, you can see them swimming by from time to time.
Some people are playing water polo nearby, and others are playing water volleyball. There were children playing in the water holding white dolphins, handsome men and beauties playing in the lake, and the laughter spread far and wide.
The open-air stage of Happy Island burst into enthusiastic cheers. Then a melodious song came, and people in the nearby lake commented that this was a song sung by Lala Felu, the most famous star in mainland China. As one of the five major families, the Beji family spent a lot of money to invite Lala Felu from thousands of miles away to promote this ocean paradise. The streets and alleys in the city were covered with Feilu's posters.
The entire ocean paradise is immersed in a happy atmosphere, but this atmosphere cannot infect everyone's heart.
Bing Zhixie saw Blanche swimming nearby. She had been swimming for a while and was quite happy. She seemed to have no purpose in going to the lake, just to swim.
"Do you like it here?" Sufina rowed across the oar of the boat and suddenly paddled over: "You seem to be thinking about something."
Bing Zhixie came back from his thoughts.
Sophina was a little discouraged: "I thought you would be happy when I brought you here."
"I'm very happy." Bing Zhixie's eyes narrowed at the crescent moon, very happy.
"That's right..." Sufina forced a smile, but she didn't believe it in her eyes.
Bing Zhixie said: "Isn't it you, teacher, who is coming here?"
"But I brought you here specially."
"Why should I bring you here specially? Bring me here?”
Sufina did not answer directly, but asked softly, "Why do you want to isolate yourself from the world?"
"I don't understand what you mean, teacher." Bing Zhixie still pretended to smile.
Sophina sighed: "Let me tell you a story."
"Okay, I like listening to stories."
Sophina slowly Said: "There was a little girl who lived in a small town. She lost her parents when she was young and only had one grandfather. Grandpa. But the little girl’s grandfather is a busy man, busy with various things every day, and has no time to accompany her, so what she looks forward to most every day is to look forward to his coming back soon. There will be some laughter in the old house.”
"Like me, she lost her parents, she is such a poor girl." Bing Zhixie said lightly.
Sofina continued: "But grandpa is getting busier and busier, and he spends less and less time with her. She feels sad at home alone every day, and family members pick up other people's children after school. , but she was alone. She stood at the small pavilion window and saw other children laughing and laughing on the street, and her heart was always full of bitterness. She wanted to go down and play with those children, but she didn't know how to fit in. In the evening, when she saw other people having fun with their families, her heart It was like being stabbed again and again. Gradually, the little girl became more and more withdrawn, more and more fragile and sensitive. She felt that she was so out of tune with the world, and the laughter and laughter of others turned into coldness in her eyes. and darkness. She had thoughts of leaving this world, because in her eyes, the world she saw was not her world, and she just wanted to live in her own world..."
Bing Zhixie didn't speak for a long time, and Sufina looked at him quietly. After a while, Bingzhixie asked with a smile: "What happened next? What happened to the little girl?"
"She died."
Bingzhixie's heart skipped a beat: "Dead ”
"Although she is dead, I am alive." Sufina looked into Bing Zhixie's eyes: "That little girl is me."
The air fell into silence again, although there was noisy surroundings, but The two were completely out of hearing.
Bing Zhixie wanted to continue pretending, but couldn't pretend any longer, and the expression on his face turned cold: "Why did you tell me this?"
"Because I saw it in your eyes. When I was alone, I saw the person I once was. "
"I am an orphan, but don't bring your own thoughts to me."
"Your eyes are full of alertness and vigilance. You can smile insincerely at others, but you dare not open your heart and have a deep relationship with the people around you."
"You think you know me very well. ? I am me, you are you, I am different from you!" Bing Zhixie yelled.
Sofina stopped talking. She saw the anger on Bing Zhixie's eyebrows, and felt sad in her heart. I used to be like this, and would resist with the greatest anger any direct questioning of my heart, because that was the most vulnerable part of my heart!
Bing Zhixie suddenly laughed: "Teacher Sufina, how was my performance?"
"Huh?"
Bing Zhixie said: "What you just said reminded me that this is very similar to the plot of a stage play. On my way to Debiles, I happened to watch a play similar to the one just now. That's how the actor acted. Yes, I remember that the play was called "The Orphans of Lobik"
Sophina was stunned. Bing Zhixie calmed down and said: "Teacher Sufina, I feel that you are very kind to me. Although we have known each other for a short time, you still want to enlighten me. But my situation is different from the little girl in your story. I am a boy, and the story is about a little girl. The little girl lost her parents when she was young, but she still has a grandfather, and I have been an orphan since I can remember. From then on until now, the little girl at least has no worries. Food and clothing, but I wake up every day The first thing is to think about how to fill my stomach today. I really don’t have time to think about those strange things you mentioned. I occasionally think about them and then forget about them. I have a strong sense of caution. If I had not been wary, I would have been eaten by wolves or deceived by human traffickers, don’t you think so, Teacher Sufina?”
Sophina? Seeing his hearty smile, I was speechless for a moment. Could it be that I was really wrong? Thinking too much? While she was lost in thought, Sufina found him staring at her breasts: "You...what are you looking at..."
"Teacher, your breasts are so big. They are 36E, right?" ? Hehe, I learned this from the drinkers in the tavern." Bing Zhixie grinned and looked straight into her breasts.
Sufina quickly blocked her chest, with a hint of embarrassment on her face, and turned her body to one side.
Blanqi, who was swimming in the lake, swam over, shook the water from her hair, and said, "What are you talking about? I just seemed to hear you yelling."
< br>Bingzhi smiled evilly and said: "Teacher Sufina just told me a story. I was so fascinated by it that I couldn't help but yell twice. Sister Blanche, what do you think of Sufina?" How big are the teacher’s breasts?”
Blanqi smiled: “36E! Do you know what 36E is?”
“Yes, that’s right. What’s the difference between the upper bust and lower bust?” Bing Zhixie said proudly: “I heard it said in the pub, and then I asked the tailor specifically.”
"Boy, you know a lot."
"That's right. Sister Blanche, how big is your bust? Is it hers or yours?"
"Little brat, do you want to touch it?"
"Do you think I dare not..."
Sophina could no longer hear what they were saying. , she realized she might have made a mistake.
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After returning to the academy, Bing Zhixie was in a bad mood. This trip to Ocean Park ended up being a bit unhappy. But that's not why he's in a bad mood. The words Sofina said on the lake appeared in his mind again and again. He didn't want to think about it, but he couldn't get rid of it.
"...Bing Zhixie, Bing Zhixie?"
"Huh?" Bing Zhixie raised her head and found Wayne looking at her.
“It must be fun to go to Ocean Park today, right?” Wayne said with envy.
"Yeah." Bing Zhixie responded casually.
"What does 'um' mean?" Wayne said, "Hey, don't fool us like that. You go play and tell me some fun things."
Bing Zhixie frowned and said, "You're very annoying." He stood up from the stool and walked to the balcony.
Wayne rubbed his chin and wondered: "What's wrong with him?"
"Bing Zhixie doesn't seem to be happy." Carol looked at her back on the balcony.
Wayne curled his lips in displeasure: "Forget it, Luo, let the three of us play a magic card game."
The cool breeze blowing from the balcony may make him feel more awake. This was the first time that someone cared about him like this. He was scared and panicked, and used the most absurd method to cover up his nervousness and panic at the time. He didn't know if it was the right thing to do. No, it must be right, he told himself in his heart. He never wanted to experience the feeling of having his heart penetrated by others. He preferred to stand in a deserted corner and peer into other people's hearts.
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Sofina was walking on the way home, and the magic street lamp lengthened and shortened her shadow. She regretted in her heart that maybe she had really seen it wrong. Zhixie's judgment is just his own wishful thinking, a reflection of his gray childhood. There are so many orphans in the world, and it is impossible for every one of them to be as self-pitying as himself. Those unbearable gray memories may be a different light in others.
Wrong. Is it really wrong?
"No! Something's wrong..." Sufina realized something. After saying those words, his reaction was very different from before. Bing Zhixie, who was usually silent, calm and low-key, suddenly seemed like a different person after those words. Aren't talking loudly, laughing loudly, and using obscene and obscene language just to cover up the inner confusion? When a person's thoughts are said correctly, they will use this exaggerated way to cover up their inner uneasiness.
"Celeste..." Sophie turned around and prepared to run towards the academy, but her pace slowed down again. She felt that she shouldn't push too hard. Untying a person's heart knot is not something that can happen overnight. It takes time to buffer.
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(End of this chapter)