Chapter 1326 Leaving this empty place
Snow is floating at the window, what falls is its pure whiteness, and what falls is its tenderness. Tenderness, just like a mother's tenderness, so gentle, so simple.
Amy was lying on the white hospital bed, with soft pillows boosting her body, looking at the falling snow outside the night window. In the past two days, her mood had eased a lot. After she had overcome her hatred, her heart had calmed down. She began to think seriously about the problem of the child in her belly.
Motherhood is a kind of nature. As the doctor said, can she really kill her child so cruelly? The child is that person's, but more of it is your own. It is conceived in your own child and grows in your own belly. Even if you make a mistake, it is your own fault. The child is innocent.
Amy thought so, but she also thought about the scenes of her parents dying tragically in front of her eyes, and she still couldn't get over it. When she thought that the child in her belly was her biggest enemy, the person she hated the most and the child, she couldn't let go.
Thinking about it, she recalled what the doctor said to her today: "Considering the actual situation, your current body is really not suitable for abortion. It is very likely that one body will die, two lives will be lost, mother and child will die. If you really do this , then your family will be completely empty. Your parents will lose their only daughter, and your hatred, your grievances, and your grievances will disappear. For you personally, death may be a relief, but if your parents are still here, I think they will. I would never want to see my daughter If your son dies like this, that is their only hope in the world. Your death will only benefit one person, and that is the person you hate. He wanted to kill you but failed to kill you, but you killed yourself. , doesn’t this suit his wishes? He won’t stay for you? A trace of tears, those who shed tears will be your parents who are not far away in heaven."
Obviously, these words had an effect on Amy's current mood, so that she could calm down and think about herself. future, the future of myself and my children.
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On the same night, the same girl who lost her parents and relatives, Ruola was sitting at the desk, the bright desk lamp was on, and there were some letters and documents on the desk. It turned out that These are the relics left by the Royal Tutor. Perhaps because these relics were just correspondence and some work documents, it was not until last time that his colleagues found them from the office and gave them to Ruola.
Originally Ruola would never read other people's private messages, but when she was sorting them out, she accidentally discovered some mail files that seemed to be related to Teacher Bei Ji. Although Teacher Beiji is deceased, she has always taken good care of Ruola for many years. Ruola was wondering why the Royal Tutor had so many letters and documents related to Teacher Beiji, so she opened it out of curiosity. .
It turned out that after returning from the incident at the Tomb of the Hero King, the Royal Tutor had been investigating the reason why Bei Ji went to the Tomb of the Hero King. He found that although Bei Ji went to participate in the archeology for gold coins and personal gain, part of the reason was also for The gold and silver coins of angels and devils from the Bemut period, or in other words, the relationship between the coins and the tomb of the Hero King, and the historical story behind them.
Perhaps the reason why Beiji has been devoted to studying the ancient culture before the Holy Garden Calendar. Even though she was blinded by selfish desires, she could not forget her research and persistence in history, so much so that she could not forget it until she died. It's also the coin that I hold in my hand and don't want to let go.
After being dejected, Ruola continued to read letters and work records and reports. After Becky's death, the royal tutor also became interested in studying the coins of angels and devils, but he had already encountered an encounter before he started to study in depth. Something unexpected happened.
Bemut culture is a local national culture in ancient times, while the hero king Sag is a hero who emerged in the world in modern times. The two are seven or eight thousand years apart. I really can’t figure it out. What is the connection between this? However, Ruola thought about what happened in the fake tomb of the King of Heroes. What happened to the King of Heroes thousands of years ago? He insisted on leaving clues to the fake tomb in Aipula Province, and the map leading to the ancient times. What kind of place is it? Where is the 'Elven Sanctuary' that the King of Heroes talks about?
Thinking of this, Ruola couldn't help but start to yearn for it. What was the ancient world and the civilization that existed ten thousand years ago like that?
"It must have been a very beautiful era. People at that time must still be living a simple life? They were simple, kind, friendly and helpful to each other. Do they still have traditional and ancient sacrificial rituals? Yes, they cultivated land next to their homes. On the ground, women harvested fruits and vegetables in the orchards and held dustpans on their heads. They were busy with farm work under the bright sun, hard but happy... It must be like this." Ruola thought about ancient history, and her heart drifted to it. far away. Even though all this is just a fiction in her mind, she is willing to think about this beautiful aspect, or maybe this is because her reality makes her heart too painful.
"Such a beautiful place is much better than the current city. I would rather live in such an environment than stay in this empty capital." Ruola lowered her head in despair, and couldn't help but feel in her heart Somewhat sad. In this world, the only two caring people left one by one, and there was no longer anyone in this city who could make her feel intimate. Apart from this house, apart from the teaching job in the college, I was alone and had no other concerns. It was as if I was in a completely unfamiliar place, so lonely that I had no one to talk to about my pain. "I...I want to get out of here." Ruola muttered in a daze, and even she was shocked when she realized what she was doing. She stared blankly, opening her mouth, surprised at what she said, and then thinking about what she said.
"...I...can I leave here?" Ruola thought carefully, and she was increasingly surprised by this bold assumption. It wasn't that she had never left the capital before, but that kind of leaving was completely different from what she was thinking about now. In the past, people left, but her heart was still here, but now... now her heart just wants to stay away from this place and never come back.
Thinking about leaving the royal capital, Ruola's heart was beating fast. She had never had such a bold idea. She had been living and growing up here all this time. If she stayed here, she would find A teaching job and marrying an ordinary man were her thoughts about the future. She was willing to live a mediocre life until she grew old, but now she wondered if she could change anything.
The vision of leaving, like a pebble dropped into stagnant water, gradually set off ripples and gradually shook Ruola's heart. "Leave here, leave this place that I have no attachment to, I want to leave here~!" Ruola's heart was beating wildly, and she could no longer suppress her rapid breathing. Suddenly she calmed down again: "After leaving here, where should I go?" This is a realistic question, which determines whether she is a leaf of duckweed that goes with the waves, or a free bird with a goal. . But for her, even though the world is vast, there is no place she is familiar with, no place where she can put down roots and long for her.
She couldn't help but turn her eyes back to the messy envelope transcript on the desk. The scratchy handwriting was the instructor's bit by bit record, and it was also Teacher Bei Ji's unfinished wish.
"By the way, I can go to archaeology, I can... I can understand the world of Bemut. That was Teacher Beiji's wish before she died, and it was also the work that the mentor did not complete before he passed away." Just do it as you think of it, Ruola immediately packed up things in the room. After packing for a while, she realized that it was still late at night and it was too early to do all this.
It’s just that Ruola has made up her mind, and her heart is like a galloping pony. She no longer thinks about whether there is any reluctance in this city. Her heart is already galloping on the wilderness road splattered with mud. , yearning for the future life.
“Yes, those adventurous travelers and those passionate mercenaries can live a free and unrestrained life, so can I.”
That night, Ruola could no longer sleep peacefully. Her heart was filled with longing for the future. She had already begun to outline her new life and her decision to sell this house tomorrow. It was the only relic she inherited from her unknown parents.
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(End of this chapter)