Chapter 343 Who do you care about?
He asked this question very lightly, but at this moment, it was like a huge stone weighing heavily on Shang Ruyi's heart. She felt suffocated almost immediately, and she was even speechless.
After a long while, he said with difficulty: "Brother——"
Shen Wuzheng looked at her tenderly, but his eyes did not let her escape at all: "Little sister, I need to know how you Think.”
“……”
"Did you choose this path or this person?"
"..."
Shang Ruyi bit her lower lip. After a long silence, she finally took a deep breath. After taking a breath, she raised her head and said, "If I say, I choose Yuwen——"
Before she could finish her words, there was a sudden click behind her.
Both of them were startled and turned around hurriedly. It turned out that the door of the main hall not far away was opened, and the monks who had finished their evening classes filed out. Although no one was making any noise, they were in an orderly manner. The sound of footsteps and the sound of Haiqing blowing gently in the night wind still broke the tranquility of the night.
Shang Ruyi breathed a sigh of relief, but felt that his heartbeat was a little fast, and his face turned red.
Shen Wuzheng also looked back, and when he saw that nothing serious happened, he turned his head again.
Looking at Shang Ruyi, whose cheeks were a little red, his expression became more solemn - although Shang Ruyi had not finished what he said just now, he still heard those two words, and her choice, Self-explanatory.
There was an imperceptible sadness in Shen Wuzheng's eyes.
Shang Ruyi said softly: "Brother, I——"
At this point, she didn't know what else she could say. In a dull silence, Shen Wuzheng reached out to hold her thin shoulders and said softly: "Okay, as long as you know what you are choosing. "It doesn't matter, whether your choice is right or wrong, I will always be by your side."
"Brother..."
Shang Ruyi looked into his eyes, feeling warm in his heart. , another impulse arose.
She thought for a while and said softly: "Brother, if I told you, my choice must be the right one, would you believe it?"
"...?"
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Shen Wuzheng was startled and looked at her in astonishment.
You know, what they are talking about is not which piece of jewelry to choose, or which way to go out, or even who a woman will marry as a wife, but the choice of life, not to mention, they are still facing the change of dynasty. A life choice in a grand situation. The princes, generals and ministers in the court, even if they hold heavy troops and are in a powerful position, are always cautious, fearing that if they make a mistake, they will be regretted for eternity.
It was a matter of negotiation, but she said with such certainty that her choice must be the right one!
If an ordinary person said this, even if Shen Wuzheng didn't sneer, he wouldn't pay much attention to it. He would just think that this person was talking nonsense, but it was Shang Ruyi who said this - you know, this little guy like himself My sister has never been a confident and arrogant person. On the contrary, she is more cautious in her words and deeds than anyone else.
Why did she say this this time?
Shen Wuzheng looked at her with a complicated expression for a long time before saying, "Ruyi, what do you know?"
"..."
"Did something happen to you?"
“…”
Shang Ruyi thought for a while and said : "Brother, there are some things I can't tell you now because I don't understand them myself. But you have to believe me, I'm not talking nonsense, nor am I crazy. Everything I do is to get the best result." Good results, protect my uncle, aunt, you, and myself!”
Looking at her firm gaze, Shen Wuzheng's mood became heavier.
After thinking for a long time, he said: "Okay, I believe you."
A joyful smile suddenly appeared on Shang Ruyi's face.
And Shen Wuzheng added: "However, you don't have to carry so many burdens on your shoulders. My parents, me, and your safety are all protected by me. You - you should think more about yourself, Your happiness is more important than many things, do you understand?"
Shang Ruyi smiled so hard that his eyes rolled up and he nodded vigorously.
Although this conversation failed to untie some of the tangles in her heart, Shang Ruyi received a gentle comfort and made her feel much better. At this time, the monks had left, the main hall door was closed, and the whole temple seemed to be quiet. Shen Wuzheng said: "It's getting late, and I've bothered you for half a day. Go back and rest quickly. Let’s go.”
Shang Ruyi looked back and saw that they were standing at the door of the side hall, where the Bodhisattva Avalokitesvara was enshrined.
She said softly: "Brother, please go back first. I want to worship the Bodhisattva again."
"Do you want me to accompany you?"
"No, I have it. You should speak to the Bodhisattva alone.”
Shen Wuzheng thought that she probably had some things about her daughter that she was embarrassed to say in front of outsiders, so he smiled and stroked her hair, and then said: "Don't stay too late."
"I know."
So, after watching Shen Wuzheng leave, Shang Ruyi turned around and walked into the side hall.
There are a few candlesticks burning in the corners of the hall, which are not brightly lit. In addition, a gust of wind caused by someone walking in caused the candlelight to sway, adding a bit of darkness to the face of the Bodhisattva. Ming's spirit.
Shang Ruyi walked to the futon and slowly knelt down.
Unlike Yu Wenye, he does not believe in gods and Buddhas, let alone what gods and Buddhas can bestow on the world, but she - she believes in the existence of gods and Buddhas in the world, and also believes in the mercy of gods and Buddhas, who will give the world some peace and happiness. But she had never asked for help since she was a child. Because of her childhood experiences and her personality, she had lived a pure life for the past ten years without any desire or desire.
But after getting married, she discovered that she was not so pure and free from disputes.
She also has someone she wants, and she also wants her feelings to be responded to.
But now, she also understands better that there are some things that cannot be obtained even by force. Even if God gives her a chance, God cannot control the human heart.
What's more, that person doesn't believe in gods and Buddhas.
Thinking of this, Shang Ruyi smiled bitterly, then clasped his hands and said softly: "I still don't understand why that happened to me. If this is the guidance you gave me, then I will follow your instructions." Guide me to go on, no matter this road No matter how many thorns and sufferings there are, it’s just——”
She paused, looked up at the kind-hearted Bodhisattva, and then said: “Please let me and the people I care about get the best results. ”
After saying that, he kowtowed.
But just as she was finishing her three bows, suddenly, a curious voice came from above her head——
“Who are the people you care about?”
"Ah!?"
Shang Ruyi was caught off guard and let out a low cry in fright. When he looked up, he saw a round little head sticking out from behind the Bodhisattva.
Looking closely, he turned out to be a little monk!
Shang Ruyi hurriedly stood up and said to him: "Who asked you to eavesdrop on others?"
The young monk hurriedly waved his hand: "I didn't want to eavesdrop, you I came in and started talking loudly, but I couldn’t help but listen.” Shang Ruyi was angry and funny, so she could only wave to him: “Come down quickly, you are disrespectful to the Bodhisattva.”
The little monk smiled and jumped down from behind the Bodhisattva.
When he walked up to him and took a closer look, he saw that the child was only thirteen or fourteen years old. He had a tiger-like head and a somewhat milky look, and was very cute. And he actually held half a steamed bun in his hand. After jumping down, he carefully protected the steamed bun in his arms, and then said to Shang Ruyi seriously: "Female donor, this young monk is polite."
Shang Ruyi I originally wanted to teach people a lesson with a straight face. But seeing how cute the little monk was, and after saluting, he took out half of the steamed bun and ate it in big mouthfuls, he couldn't help but smile and said, "Are you practicing here?"
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"What's your name?"
"My name is Good Tong'er."
"Good Tong'er? Who told you to hide behind the Bodhisattva in the middle of the night and scare people?"
“That’s not me, I’m eating here.”
“Why don’t you go to the kitchen to eat instead of hiding here?”
Good Tong'er took another big bite and said vaguely: "They all thought I ate too much and wouldn't let me eat at night, so I secretly came here to eat."
Shang Ruyi laughed again. got up.
Seeing that the good boy was eating so much that he didn’t even know that there was a lot of dough residue on the corner of his mouth, so he reached out to help him wipe it off. The good boy glanced at her and said with a smile: " Thank you.”
Shang Ruyi found that although the child was naughty, he was very polite and seemed to have received some education.
So he asked: "Why did you become a monk at such a young age? Where are your parents?"
Good Tong'er blinked, and then said: "They don't want me anymore."
Shang Ruyi frowned: "Why don't they want you?"
Shan Tong'er blinked again. With big eyes, he said: "I don't remember, I was still young at that time."
Looking at him, it seemed that he really didn't remember. Abandoned, he didn't even feel sad. Shang Ruyi suddenly felt sad in his heart, and his tone of speaking to him became a little gentler, saying: "Then, what happened next?"
Good Tong'er After thinking for a while, he said: "Later, I was bought by someone and moved to a beautiful house to play with a young master."
"Then, how did you become a monk?"
"The young master was sick, so they asked me to become a monk. They said, if I become a monk, the young master will recover."
"..."
Seeing him tell all this almost without emotion, Shang Ruyi felt sad and sad at the same time, but she also listened. Understand, this child should have been bought to play with the children of a wealthy family. Originally he was just a playmate for the book boy, but the child of the wealthy family got sick, and there is a folk saying that if the child's illness If it cannot be cured, one has to sacrifice one's life to serve the Buddha to achieve peace. However, most parents are reluctant to part with their children, so they will find a child to become a monk instead of their own child.
This good boy was manipulated in this way and became a monk.
Looking at him, he was only in his teens, with round, dark eyes, as clear as a clear spring, but he didn't expect that he had already experienced so much.
Shang Ruyi suddenly felt sorry for him and reached out to touch his bare head: "So, you became a monk here?"
The good boy raised his head and was about to What to say, suddenly, a monk's scolding came from outside the side hall——
" Good boy, you stole it again!"
The two people looked back quickly and saw a great monk walking in from the outside. When the good boy saw him, he was so frightened that he hurriedly took away the last bit of steamed bun in his hand. He stuffed it into his mouth, his cheeks on both sides were bulging, and then he said: "Senior brother..."
The monk walked in and saw that Shang Ruyi was also there. He could only salute to her first, and then reached out to catch the good boy: "You kid, there was a thief in the kitchen just now. I knew it was you!"< br>
This good boy did not run away. He was hung up by his collar and his hands and feet were bent like a puppy. He smiled and said: "Brother, I know I was wrong."
The monk said: "I admit my mistakes every time and never change them, right?"
"Hehe."
"It's not that easy to get through today, I have to beat you."
Shang Ruyi looked on and couldn't bear it, and said hurriedly: "Master, please spare him."
The monk glared at the good boy in his hand, then looked at Shang Ruyi and said : "You don't know this female donor, this kid is the most He often goes to the kitchen to steal food at night. He eats a lot. If he steals half a basket, half of the people in the temple will be hungry tomorrow."
Shang Ruyi looked at the good boy in surprise. I didn’t expect that such a young child could eat so well.
The monk said angrily: "It's okay to eat too much. Who told him to be young? But he often sneaks out to play and is not seen for three days. Even if he is asked to recite sutras, he will not recite sutras. He doesn’t even practice Zen..."
While scolding, he picked up a palm as big as a cattail leaf fan and slapped the good boy’s buttocks several times.
The good boy screamed after being beaten, and begged for mercy: "Brother, please spare me."
Shang Ruyi still felt sorry for the child's poor background, so he said: "Master, he is still young. If you're sensible, don't blame him. Let's do this -"
She said and reached out to touch the money bag.
But he was in a hurry when he came out and didn’t have any money with him. Seeing the good boy looking at him eagerly, Shang Ruyi thought about it and simply took off a pair of earrings from his ears and handed them to the good boy. Monk: "Just think that I bought him steamed buns to eat. Don't blame him."
Her pair of earrings were not given to her by the official wife before, and they were not considered a treasure, but they were made of pure gold after all and were worth some money. When the monk saw it, his eyes lit up and he immediately put down the good boy. He took the earrings and thanked her repeatedly: "Thank you so much to the female donor."
The good boy stood aside and looked at Shang Ruyi with his eyes wide open, and then at the earring in his senior brother's hand.
After a long while, he said to Shang Ruyi: "Thank you."
Shang Ruyi smiled and said softly: "Listen to your senior brother, don't eat secretly again, and don't eat it again. A fool's errand . ”
The good boy didn’t say anything, and just stared at her blankly, as if he had never been treated like this before. The great monk was beaming with joy, and after thanking her repeatedly, he grabbed the good boy. Son left.
After all this fuss, Shang Ruyi had no intention of praying to gods or Buddhas anymore. He only looked back with lowered eyebrows, quietly watching the busy Bodhisattva in this mortal world, smiled, and turned around to leave. From this side hall, go to the dormitory.
As she walked on the road, her steps became heavy again - she didn't know if Yu Wenye had fallen asleep.
Now, she still doesn’t want to face him alone.
When I walked to the door, I found that the doors and windows were closed. It was dark inside and there were no lights. I guess he had already fallen asleep.
Shang Ruyi breathed a sigh of relief and reached out to push the door open. But as soon as her hands touched the door, the door suddenly opened from the inside.
Yu Wenye was standing at the door, looking at her quietly!
(End of this chapter)