Chapter 383 The relationship between them is fake
The room suddenly became quiet.
Obviously she knew that the answer shouldn't be too surprising, but Shang Ruyi still felt a sudden pain in her chest, which made her unable to guard against it and even her breath became confused.
After a long time, she managed to say "Oh" in a calm but somewhat weak voice.
Chang Wan looked at her carefully and did not dare to say anything.
Shang Ruyi stood for a while, then walked to the table and sat down. After sitting for a while, she turned to look at the jewelry box that Chang Wan had brought over on the table. She took a deep breath, as if she felt that she was finally calm and calm. When he got down, he reached out to open the jewelry box and took out two beaded hairpins.
Comparing the two, she put the luxurious and colorful one back, leaving the simple but dignified one aside.
I followed the same pattern and chose bracelets and earrings.
Chang Wan watched for a while, then came back to his senses and said softly: "Young madam, are you choosing what to bring tomorrow?"
Shang Ruyi nodded gently.
At this time, Tu Sheer also walked in from outside. She had just finished packing Shang Ruyi's things for bathing. She was still sweating and was fanning herself with her hands. As soon as she entered the door, she saw Shang Ruyi arranging the jewelry on the table. He was stunned for a moment and said: "Miss, I'll just prepare the things you need to bring tomorrow. You'd better get ready early." Get some rest."
Shang Ruyi shook his head and said softly: "You still have to do these yourself."
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The two maids glanced at each other subconsciously, as if they felt that there was something deeper in her words.
But before they could think about it, Shang Ruyi raised his head again and said: "Bring me formal clothes."
Hearing this, Chang Wan hurriedly said: "Young madam, tomorrow's Dharma meeting is not a court gathering, so go ahead Officials and wives are not required to Wearing formal clothes."
"Oh?"
Shang Ruyi thought for a moment and said, "Then, prepare that indigo dress for me."
"Then. Set? ”
Tu Sheer and Chang Wan looked at each other again, and Tu Sheer said softly: "Miss, do you want to change a set?"
Although the jewelry selected by Shang Ruyi are all clean and dignified, that set The clothes are also plain, but when matched with the jewelry, there is something strange, low-key and eye-catching, as if - it doesn't seem to attract much attention, but once someone sees it, they will not be able to take their eyes away. Eye-catching.
But tomorrow is the court's Dharma assembly, and Shang Ruyi has a special status, so the experience of this trip to Jiangdu is even more special.
Shouldn’t she try her best to make herself “obscure from everyone”?
Facing the confused looks of the two people, Shang Ruyi smiled faintly and said: "No, just prepare like this, let's go."
Seeing what she said, the two of them had no choice but to take out the clothes, hang them on the rack, iron the wrinkles, and prepare the belt, just waiting to put them on tomorrow.
After everything was ready, the two maids exited the room, leaving her to rest alone.
The room became quiet.
Almost immediately, Shang Ruyi felt as if his heart felt empty.
She knew that she was feeling uncomfortable, and she also knew that she had perfectly concealed her discomfort, but even if she had deceived everyone, the dull pain in her heart and the feeling of emptiness at this moment could not deceive herself.
But why do you still feel uncomfortable?
She was a little angry with herself, but she was even more helpless. Even though she was angry with herself, even though she knew she shouldn’t feel bad for that person or what he had done, the pain seemed to be something she couldn’t resist. Monsters always ran rampant into her world just when she thought she was well-prepared, tearing her heart apart and making her bleed.
Shang Ruyi raised his head, looked at the pale and pitiful look of himself reflected in the bronze mirror on the other side, and smiled bitterly.
So what if it’s bloody? She still had to heal herself, stand up, and live again.
She has to rely on herself!
Thinking of this, she gained some strength from her depressed mood. Shang Ruyi took a deep breath, stood up and walked to the bed, preparing to rest early. After all, what exactly would she face tomorrow? Not only would she I don’t know, maybe even God doesn’t know.
But as soon as he walked to the bed, he froze there again.
There is only one bed in this room.
Of course there is only one bed. This is where Yu Wenye grew up. He lives alone, so naturally there is only one bed.
But how to sleep?
In the past, when they were in Taiyuan Mansion and Luoyang, the two of them could sleep in separate beds as agreed. After that -
What about the relationship between the two now?
In fact, for her, there doesn’t seem to be much difference between sleeping on the same bed or sleeping in separate beds. After all, the two have already had skin-to-skin contact and are already a real couple; but in her heart They also understand that after experiencing some things, it is impossible for the two of them to go back to that time, the time when they were close to each other, their ears and temples were rubbing together, and their hearts were completely given to each other.
This couple is fake after all.
Fake...
Thinking of this, Shang Ruyi suddenly felt that her heart was empty and she felt less uncomfortable. She went to bed calmly, blew out the candles, then lay down and closed her eyes.
Time passed by little by little in the dark night. In a blink of an eye, the third update has passed.
The lights in the entire Duke's Mansion were extinguished, and everything was silent. And this room was enveloped in an almost tense silence, and it was still beating at the same time. My heart is about to slowly become cold.
At this moment, the door to the outer room was gently pushed open.
She obviously felt that she was about to fall asleep, maybe even fell into a light sleep, but that gentle click sounded like something she had been waiting for for a long time. As soon as it rang, Shang Ruyi suddenly woke up. .
She slowly opened her bright eyes in the darkness.
At this time, she was a little panicked. She didn't know why she had to wake up at this time. She didn't want to face Yu Wenye again tonight, especially after he entered the palace and came back.
Thinking of this, she tried her best to suppress her heartbeat and breathing.
The whole person lay quietly on his side on the bed, as if he was already asleep.
However, the more she suppressed her heartbeat and breathing, the blood in her body surged almost to the point of bursting, and her senses became much sharper than usual. She could even clearly hear Yu Wenye's breathing and his footsteps. He walked into the inner room step by step, and then walked to the bed step by step.
Then it stopped.
Standing motionless like this, as if looking at something and waiting for something.
But, on such a night, what can he see, and what can he expect?
Shang Ruyi’s hand on his chest subconsciously tightened his grip on his clothes.
Only then did she suddenly realize that the situation at this moment, even the heartbeat, was familiar. It was the same night when the two of them were outside Xingluo Cang. It was like this. She fell asleep, but did not fall asleep. Yu Wenye left. Go to the bed and stand quietly.
However, it is different after all.
At that time, even though I had been injured several times, I still longed for a sincere heart that could completely belong to me. Even after being rejected by him many times, I still mustered up the courage to walk to his tent. , take the initiative to ask him for the truth - whether it can be true between them.
But now, she already knows everything and no longer accumulates useless courage.
The relationship between them is fake.
Even if there is physical intimacy, even if there is reality between husband and wife... But it is fake.
Thinking about it this way, and then recalling my bravery and initiative back then, I felt that it was a little funny, and even more pitiful. Shang Ruyi’s hand that was tightly clasped on his heart gently caressed himself, as if It's like comforting one's old wounds that refuse to scab.
And at this moment, a warm big hand suddenly touched her shoulder!
“…!”
With just this contact, her whole body seemed to be electrified, and she suddenly started to tremble.
What's going on! ?
Yu Wenye——
Shang Ruyi’s breathing was suffocated, and even his heartbeat stopped at this moment. All the sensations in his body were concentrated on his shoulders at this moment, and that tiny inch The cold skin, separated by a thin layer of pajamas and covered by the warm hands, suddenly felt as hot as if it was about to burst into flames.
What is he going to do?
Why are you touching yourself at this time?
Just when Shang Ruyi was a little panicked, but tried her best to control herself and calm down, she heard a gentle sigh.
It was Yu Wenye’s sigh.
It seems to have a little smile, but also seems to be a little weak.
What is he sighing for?
That night, they had no communication at all. He went to the palace and saw the person he wanted to see. This sigh could only be because of the person in his heart.
But why, standing next to him, stroking his shoulders, sighing like this?
Shang Ruyi felt very confused, but felt that he should not be confused.
The things he did, his sighs... Why do I have to think so much?
Thinking like this, she calmed herself down more firmly. Even though her heart was beating like a drum, she still tried her best to breathe evenly and long, still lying on her side on the bed, behind her The large space was enough for the two of them to spend the night without disturbing each other.
So that hand——
She waited for the hand to release.
After a long time, the hand really let go.
Then, she felt Yu Wenye slowly take off his coat, sit on the edge of the bed, and seemed to look back at her for a while before lying down.
Then, he also turned sideways.
Although he didn't look back, the keen senses all over his body clearly told Shang Ruyi that the person behind him turned sideways and was facing him.
In the night, his eyes seemed to be looking at her.
After a long, almost suffocating silence, he sighed again.
The breath that carried his scent, and even his body temperature, blew across the back of Shang Ruyi's neck, bringing a tingling feeling that was almost unbearable for her - although she couldn't stand it either. Knowing that she couldn't bear this, what else could she do, but she still curled up calmly.
The night passed in such panic and confusion.
(End of this chapter)