Chapter 341: Having her own consciousness
But now that she has returned to her first life, she must find a way to find out the truth, not for Hua Qingmei, but for herself who has worked hard all her life.
Jian Huadong was overjoyed to receive a fragrant and soft hug from his mother, with a smile on his face, "Mom, don't worry, I will definitely study hard."
"Xiao Dong , So good." Hua Xiali touched Jian Huadong's head and said to Jian Nan, "Jian Nan, please take Xiaodong downstairs! I want to take a rest."
When Jian Nan took Jian Huadong downstairs, Hua Xiali locked the door, then took her own teapot, flashed into the Lingquan space, scooped up a cup of Lingquan and drank it, because her stomach She feels a little uncomfortable. She wants to live well. She wants to visit Huo Beixi. She doesn't want Huo Beixi to wait endlessly in the endless darkness...
"Daughter-in-law, it's time for dinner." I don't know how much time passed before there was a knock on the door and Jian Nan's voice.
"Got it, here we go." Hua Xiali straightened her clothes, opened the door, and met Jian Nan's gaze. Hua Xiali quickly dodged her eyes.
She can see that Jian Nan really likes her, but she has no way to respond to Jian Nan's feelings, so she can't give him hope until the child is born, or until the child is older. Yes, she must divorce him.
She couldn't live with him.
It was not her original intention before, it was the author's arrangement. She was a puppet in the author's hands. But now she has her own consciousness. She is no longer her former self. She wants to like herself. People want to live the life they want.
"Xia Li, are you okay?" As soon as she came down the stairs, a middle-aged woman came over. It could be seen from her eyebrows that she was Jian's mother.
Hua Xiali nodded and didn't call her mother because she couldn't.
"Xia Li, you mother and daughter have taken care of your father for so many years. You have done a very good job and he has received the best care. He really has no regrets, so don't be too sad. Now, do you think your mother and your eldest sister will feel a lot more relaxed now that he is gone?" Mother Jian comforted her, fearing that she would be depressed.
Hua Xiali nodded, "I understand."
She is not sad for that scumbag Hua Tiefeng, she is sad for herself, for Huo Beixi, she is back or has awakened It's too late, Huo Beixi has been dead for five years, and they will be separated again in this life. Huo Beixi sleeps in endless darkness, while she spends the rest of her life in endless longing...
Jian's mother took Hua Xiali and walked towards the dining table, "Come on, let's eat. Eat more so you can have strength."
Hua Xiali didn't expect that Jian's mother was quite good, but she should also see For the sake of the child in her belly, how could a family from a provincial capital think highly of a village girl like her?
If she hadn't saved Jian Nan's life, they probably wouldn't have agreed to Jian Nan marrying her.
In the evening, after Hua Xiali washed up, she lay down. It was only March and the temperature in the morning and evening was quite low, so she didn’t need to take a shower every day.
Seeing Jian Nan lift the quilt and get into bed, Hua Xiali sat up immediately, "Jian Nan, what are you going to do?"
"I'm going to bed!" Jian Nan was very confused. "Daughter-in-law, you are pregnant. I will not touch you. I am not such an animal." "No, that's not what I meant." Hua Xiali was told by Jian Nan She was a little embarrassed, "I am..."
She didn't want to sleep with him, even if there was no intimate behavior, she couldn't accept it.
So Hua Xiali got out of bed, took out another quilt from the closet, spread the quilt on her side, and then closed her eyes under Jian Nan's confused gaze, without explaining anything, because She didn't know how to explain it in a way that didn't sound so hurtful.
It’s not Jian Nan’s fault for this. It was the author of the original article who brought them together. He is just a poor puppet!
Seeing that Hua Xiali was sleeping, Jian Nan did not disturb her, but looked sideways at her. She felt as if she suddenly became much more beautiful, and couldn't help but reach out and gently scratch the bridge of her nose, " Good night, sweet dreams.”
Hua Xiali’s eyelashes trembled slightly, how could she have a good dream? If she had not awakened and was still the paper person described by the author, she might have a good dream, but she would never have a good dream now, because there is no Huo Beixi here, and she has to spend the rest of her life alone.
The next morning, after breakfast at Jian’s house, Jian An and Hua Xiali set off with Jian Huadong. They took the train from the railway station in the provincial capital to the town, and then it was convenient to get to the town. Because there are many buses in the town, we can rent a car and go directly back to the countryside.
Sitting on the green leather train full of age, Hua Xiali turned his head and looked at the scenery passing by outside the window, looking a little dazed. Is he being reborn again and again or what is going on?
When will it stop?
When can we have a truly stable and happy life?
"What's wrong? Why are you so absent-minded?" Jian Nan reached out and shook Hua Xiali's hand.
Hua Xiali was startled and hurriedly retracted her hand. Seeing the hurt look in Jian Nan's eyes, Hua Xiali opened her mouth but said no explanation.
She knew she was wrong, but she really couldn't accept Jian Nan, and she couldn't continue to live with Jian Nan.
In order to ease the embarrassment, Hua Xiali took Jian Huadong over and put him on his lap. Jian Nan hurriedly took Jian Huadong down, put him on the seat, and whispered, "Daughter-in-law, you are pregnant now. Don’t be too hard, I will take care of Xiaodong. You can take a good rest.”
At noon, the three of them finally walked on the road to Huazhuang. Seeing that the property they had worked hard for for two consecutive lives was restored to its original state, Hua Xiali felt extremely sad. It felt as if everything had been destroyed. After formatting and restoring it to the original state, will it disappear in the end no matter what she does?
When they reached the ditch, Hua Xiali turned to look at the cemetery. Huo Beixi was buried there, but she couldn't go directly to see him now.
"Jian Nan, you take Xiaodong to find grandma first, and I'll go to grandpa first." Hua Xiali had no choice but to find an excuse to separate Jian Nan and Jian Huadong.
Fortunately, she couldn't see the cemetery from the door of her house, otherwise she would be seen kneeling in front of someone else's tombstone and crying. If they came over and looked at the name, they would know what was going on.
Huo Beixi is dead, and she will not allow others to spread rumors about him.
Hua Xiali stood by the ditch and watched Jian Nan lead Jian Huadong into the courtyard of her house. Then she walked towards the cemetery and came to Huo Beixi's tombstone. Hua Xiali's legs were still a little weak. .
She came back late, Huo Beixi has been dead for five years.