Chapter 363 This is unfair
October 13th.
cloudy day.
【92%, 6℃】
The compact humidity detector displays this.
"Ha..."
As I breathed, the white air shone brightly in front of my eyes.
"I want to sleep on this bed too~"
"Don't worry, come one by one."
"Ah... so comfortable. Is this the bed that capitalists sleep on every day?"
"No, I think they sleep in better beds than this."
Two more weeks, hard to imagine, right?
They used to depend on others for their survival, but they were actually encouraged by Ming to move back to the electric bed. The shelves and mattresses were taken apart and then put back together in a mess.
It's all because of Youming's presence, no one has to worry about food and medicine... Even small operating tables and speculums have been moved back.
Precisely because they no longer have to worry about food and clothing, they begin to be interested in other needs.
‘Well, as long as you have the ability to bring it back, it’s yours. ’
‘Everything is yours. ’
Ming can be mean-spirited sometimes, right?
After encouraging them like that, they were exhausted but hadn't brought back much food. They would have to work harder tomorrow.
He looks more and more like the president of the company.
However, it has little interest in exploiting its employees.
"Miss Tokugawa."
Someone waved to me from a distance.
"Huh?"
I hesitated and put down the wood with insulation film in my hand. This is the material found to build the third wooden house.
"This... bed is for you and God."
"It's just that, after helping us so much, there is nothing else to give as a gift to you and Lord God."
“Isn’t the simple floor covering very uncomfortable?”
"Well, with a better bed, the baby will be born faster."
"..."
"Hey, you guy actually made such a joke with Miss Tokugawa?"
"Didn't you ask me to say this?! What about our future? The new population will only be Tokugawa-san and Kami-sama... That's how it is. Anyway, it's for you and Kami-sama."
"..."
I'm not angry.
Rather, it's a bit of a pity.
I seem to be infertile? I don’t know if it’s just too few times, or if it’s really because I’ve eaten monster flesh and blood.
It was said that they found the remains of several men who had been expelled until they were almost eaten. The rest fled to no one knows where.
They were very happy at first, then a little lonely, saying, 'What should we do with the population? ’ ‘Without men, what will happen to us when we grow old? Are all human beings doomed? ’ ‘Just go find a foreign man! There must be one in the hometown that Lord Kami mentioned! ’. Women who were originally worried about their livelihood seemed to really start to have faith. They all regard themselves as an indispensable member of the collective "humanity".
I also heard that women with medical expertise secretly approached Ming. Hopefully he can keep the seeds for refrigeration.
I don’t know how I refused.
But I will still be happy.
Um.
I am not working for all mankind, I am just living. Life is more comfortable here.
What did Ming think? About future generations.
"..."
I picked up a small hammer and hammered the nails into the wood. Recalling what I subconsciously asked a few days ago.
‘Ming, what if... I’m pregnant? ’
Although I was calm on the outside at that time, I was actually very nervous inside.
‘What else can be done? Just give birth. You don't want it? ’
After knowing Ming's thoughts, I felt a little sad. As a woman, I always feel incomplete without the reproductive function.
But I didn't want to hide it from him.
‘Monster flesh and blood? Is it possible to restore it later? ’
‘If you really can’t recover, you can adopt one. But actually I don't care. ’
‘…’
I'm so happy.
So much so.
‘Ellie, should you consider listening to the radio? ’
‘Ours is actually very small. Everyone can hear it. ’
Then...you can't blame me.
After being distracted, I didn't pay attention to anything else. Vigilance, safety, thinking...all thrown away. Only warmth remains.
Could it be that Ming would be the same as me?
If they heard it, they would treat it as if they were claiming to be husband and wife.
Um.
Maybe it's a bit of a weird hobby. Just think of it as my secret.
Not too long.
Ming came back with more insulation film.
"Have the other two cabins been covered?"
"Yeah."
I nodded.
"It's really a bit cold in the tent, so we might as well let the weak ones go to our room. Let's just go to the tent for a day or two."
"..."
I have no problem with that.
Anyway, if the quilt is well covered, it will be warm next to him.
And I always sweat a lot, which is no less than practicing swinging a sword.
October 20th.
We are all very busy lately.
Ming Yao was busy leading people to retrieve the materials while checking the situation of the monsters. Reinforcement, maintenance and protective measures, such as barbed wire.
I, on the other hand, stayed at the base camp and directed them to repair their houses. Of course, I would do the physical work that was difficult for them to do.
October 20th.
Night.
"Ellie, aren't you tired?"
"Ming, are you tired?"
I looked at him.
"That's not true. After all, my physical fitness cannot be considered normal. But your words..."
"Me neither."
I put my hands into my hips and straightened the black silk coverings.
"..."
Ming didn't take out his tablet to write or draw as usual, he just looked at me.
I don’t know how to think either.
Words naturally flowed out.
"Ming."
"Huh?"
"This is how the socks are put on. Fold them first, then put your toes in first, and then slowly lift them up...if you go too fast, they may get hooked. Then go to the hip hem, and use your hands to straighten the stockings against the hip hem."
"I won't wear it."
"Well...just wanted to talk to you."
"Teach me how to wear black stockings? Actually, this is... well, it's really novel. This is the first time I've heard of it."
I'm not a fool either.
You have been married before, how could you never see your wife putting on socks in front of you?
Not jealous.
"The electric bed they worked so hard to bring back is finally going to be given to us."
"I heard about it."
"Ming, my knife is rusty."
"Huh?"
"It's been too long since I've polished them. Maybe... I can't cut off their tentacles neatly."
"Actually, you can replace it with weapons made of better materials. Didn't you bring back a lot of them? They should be easy to use."
"..."
I didn't say anything and just leaned against Ming's side. Put your hand on his chest and feel the strong heartbeat.
"Jump very fast."
"Which good man can feel calm when his wife hooks his thigh with his toes?"
hehe.
Isn’t it okay from the beginning? It's like he doesn't think of me as a woman at all.
But not anymore.
The katana is really rusty. As Ming said, there are many weapons with better materials.
But what I want to say is...
"I am, Su Aili."
"Did you tell me? There is no such habit of changing names in my hometown."
Pretend you didn't hear it.
Changing my name is like a ritual for someone like me who grew up in a traditional Izu family.
If my mother had not changed her name to Tokugawa and I had not been called Tokugawa, I would have been accused of having a relationship problem with my father.
Changing my last name proved that I married into this family.
The ring still shimmered silver. The tent was whistling by the cold wind, and some cold air got in.
"Ellie, if you fall asleep tomorrow, I won't explain it to you."
I don’t know whether to explain or not.
Just looking for warmth.
October 21st.
morning.
My favorite thing is teaching Nogizaka swordsmanship.
"Ha!"
The reason is simple, she is motivated. It's easy to cheer up. It's convenient for me to be lazy.
"Ming's body is very warm."
"Hmm...kissing his slightly bearded chin was very prickly. But he seemed to like me looking over from below."
"He doesn't have a trace of fat, and his shoulders are what you would call straight shoulders. He looks handsome in a suit, but he doesn't like wearing it because it restricts his movements."
"..."
"Ahhh! Stop talking! I practice, I practice like crazy!"
"As promised, when I beat you... Even if I want to push back on uncle Airi-chan, I won't say a word! I will just come and close the door silently! It's best to keep your word!"
"...Well, I keep my word. As long as you can make Ming like you, I won't be jealous by then."
pity.
My body is not at a level that can be reached by swinging a knife many times.
Even if he beats me, Ming is not that easy to conquer.
October 26th.
7 wooden houses have been built. Less than 30 people can fit into three rooms. But they need special research rooms and inventory rooms to store medicines or perishable food.
I also tried the electric bed with Ming.
Not good at all.
It squeaked, they didn't assemble it tightly enough... The sound made by Ming made me shy. But compared to lying on the floor, an electric bed is much better.
October 28th.
Night.
"Huha... cool!"
“It’s so refreshing!”
I heard that some team members went out and met a man who left here alone. To rob her.
But he was killed.
And there are greater good things. Ming took them together and successfully led a large number of monsters to fall into prepared traps. Many monsters were dumped into the lake or the nearest sea using simply modified cargo ships like garbage.
Even if such a large number were divided evenly, each person would kill no less than 10 of them.
It's a huge victory.
"Get dressed. Shoulder straps."
"Ah...Miss Tokugawa is jealous again."
A lot of people made fun of me in good faith. But I knew very well that some of them looked slovenly after being drunk, showing their shoulder straps and sitting cross-legged in an exaggerated way, not caring about being exposed. In fact... I just have a good impression of Ming. He is the only man here.
Whether it's for the sake of population or simply to satisfy his desires, he has some thoughts about him.
Ming is a conservative and not so thick-skinned person. I don't want him to be distracted by these mixed emotions. So he would help the woman pull up her shoulder straps before he came to sit down.
"Ah, Lord God is here."
"You want to kill them all in one go? You've killed all the girls, where's God?"
"..."
They discussed what they had done today. Emotions are high. From time to time someone runs up to Ming. Although I could pull up the woman's shoulder straps before Ming came, I would not do anything that might bother him after Ming came. Mom... she would come to the kitchen knowingly while dad was chatting with his colleagues.
Me too.
October 28th.
late at night.
Ming was still having a celebration banquet with them, and alcohol was a good thing to heighten the atmosphere and ease the mood at this time.
But there must be someone standing guard.
Me, and Nogizaka.
"Want to practice with me in real combat?"
Normally, if asked like this, Nogizaka would definitely grit his teeth and want to duel with me, and then cry after losing.
But not today.
She glanced at her clothes and sat there holding the katana I gave her.
"Nogizaka?"
"..."
When I got closer, she just looked back at me, and then turned back to look at the slightly foggy night.
"Tokugawa."
You didn’t call me Airi-chan. There was an indescribable tremor in his tone.
"..."
I walked up to her.
Staring into her eyes, they were confused and shaken. There were tears, as if she had cried.
"What happened?"
"..."
She shook her head dully and opened her mouth several times but was unable to form words. Then he suddenly took out a portable radio from his pocket and thrust it into my hand.
I know this thing is a signal-enhanced version that a few women with professional knowledge have been tinkering with for a long time. I hope Nogizaka keeps it with me and try my luck to see if I can receive any signal from a higher place outside.
It should have displayed [8888] invalid code.
But not now.
【98.5Mhz】
"Zizi..."
Flick the volume knob and there is no correct vocal. There was only inaudible noise. I didn't know if the people inside were talking or it was just noise.
"You...raise it and stand taller."
After hearing her words, I took the radio and stood on the lookout platform specially made of wooden ladders and wires.
【Izu...born unknown...as...heard by everyone】
【Please go to Chiyo Ward Port immediately...】
[Port...confirmed, safe. 】
"Did you hear it too? There...are people outside. The officials are still there!"
"I-I don't know what to do!"
"I want to talk to my uncle, but he is busy. This matter... If I say it, everyone will be shaken."
"Even if the port is safe, how are we going to get there...how many people will die?"
"I don't know what to do..."
"..."
She was trembling violently, as if the already vague hope suddenly became extremely strong.
How should I answer?
I know.
What the radio said may be right, it's very safe outside. But that is for 'human beings', but I and everyone here are no longer considered 'human beings'.
Rather than saying they are here to save us, I believe more... that something happened and they want to liquidate us.
"Nogizaka, you didn't tell anyone about this, did you?"
"No, I just wanted to tell uncle first, but..."
"Well, don't tell anyone for now. I will talk to Ming personally."
October 29th.
Early morning.
"Radio station? Something must have happened to them."
"It's impossible to be kind suddenly."
Ming had the same idea as me.
"That's all I can do. I'll go to Chiyo District and see for myself."
Haven't the monsters over there become stronger?
I wanted to say this, but I couldn't.
November 3rd.
The temperature plummeted again.
【81%, -1℃】
Even I was starting to feel cold, let alone everyone else.
In the days after Ming left, the situation changed... which was not unexpected. Radios are not unique to Nogizaka.
Now everyone knows.
"Didn't Lord God say that there is something terrible in the port? He has also gone out to sea, and there is nothing he can do. Aren't we bound to die if we go?"
"Yeah, just wait here. Since there are people, they will definitely come here, right?"
"..."
At first, everyone firmly believed that we must wait until Ming comes back.
"But, the radio said again...the port has been cleaned up. Does that mean that the scary monsters have also been dealt with by official people?"
"What if they are confirming whether there are any survivors in Izu, and if not, they directly strike with nuclear weapons? Aren't we all going to die here?"
"..."
Then, with the occasional news coming from the radio, he was shaken again.
November 4th.
noon.
Ming is back.
"I'll be honest with you."
"They are not here to rescue anyone. There are no ships or planes to pick up people at the port, only cannons hundreds of kilometers across the coastline."
"..."
Although no one immediately questioned Ming's words, I could still detect the cracks of trust in the whispers and eyes during the exchange.
If you can live without God, why should you listen to God?
Life is your own. Do you all think so?
November 4th.
Night.
"Thank you for your hard work."
I wiped Ming's back. There were one or two very shallow scars on it.
"What on earth do they want to do? Do they want to destroy it if they don't get it?"
"..."
I could hear that Ming was a little irritable, but he calmed down quickly.
"It's too reckless to tell them the truth directly."
"No, even if you don't say it, they will be induced by the radio."
"We have to think of a way to break up if this continues."
Actually, I don't understand why Ming has to control them.
ah.
It’s not incomprehensible either.
I just feel a little lonely. I was wearing a nude apron...they didn't even look at me.
Obviously I said that I should respect the fate of others and put aside the temptation to help others, so why not do this?
November 6th.
Mr. Ming tried to get them to be more cautious.
But I don’t know when the rumors began to spread.
"Really, I saw it with my own eyes the day before yesterday. The monster didn't attack him at all...it passed by him."
"Evolved people are not as strong as him. They can make fire with their hands..."
"We were not allowed to go to the port. We obviously heard the radio. Did he really go to the port? There was no mention on the radio that anyone went there."
"..."
"I want to be the emperor. Here I can only rely on him and listen to his words. When the woman next to him gets tired of it, it will be us."
"Hey! How can you say this about Lord God?"
"But that's it! Even though there are officials here, but they don't take action, they still stay here. And...don't you find it strange? The monsters will look at him twice. Don't you feel it yourself? Even if you stand with him, The monster will always attack you first. It won’t be him. I’ve never even seen a monster attack him.”
"Otherwise, how can it be explained that he dared to sail a boat with so many monsters into the lake alone?"
"..."
I see Nogizaka in the corner.
She hugged her knees and looked at me silently.
"You and your uncle kept it secret from me before?"
"Yeah."
"Is what uncle said true?"
"Yeah."
"That means there is no future, right? No one wants us to be alive. I...I want to see with my own eyes. Who are the people who want to kill us."
"Are you going to the port with them?"
"Anyway, no matter how hard I practice, I can't beat you. My uncle doesn't like me either."
"Now duel, I can lose to you."
"No, you don't accept me... Airi-chan is just worried that my uncle will be sad if he is betrayed all of a sudden. I hope it will be better if at least one of me is here, right?"
"..."
I'm speechless.
"No. All you need is Airi-chan to convey it to me. Then... uncle should just ask for Airi-chan. Bastard... I and others are so shameless in taking the initiative, even touching and kissing." ! Still a cook until death! Uncle stinky! "
"Isn't it you who caught Ming and bumped into you?"
"Isn't it Airi-chan? If you succeed, you are a winner, if you lose, you are a loser."
"...Isn't it good to be alive?"
"Where can I still be alive? If Airi-chan is not lying, Airi-chan, please... stay with uncle. I don't know why, although uncle always looks very strong, I always feel that he is... I am weak in some way and need to be taken care of. Ha, maybe I am overflowing with motherhood.”
Tears ran down her cheeks and she quickly wiped them away.
"..."
I looked at the smile mixed with tears, and for the first time I felt...it turns out that Nogizaka really likes Akira. It's not a lie.
November 6th.
late at night.
What's strange to me is that Ming didn't do anything. Didn't say anything more.
Instead, he took me to the city. Go to the monster group and ask me to stand on the rooftop and watch him walk among the monsters with disgusting tentacles.
"They are right, low-level monsters will indeed ignore me. The reason... I am not sure."
What do you want to express?
Do you think I will be suspicious too?
"That is to say, I am not actually from here. I..."
Can't understand.
Don't want to hear it either. I was suddenly very angry and pulled Ming's collar.
"Am I the same to you as they are?!"
"..."
Maybe it was because I had never seen me angry before, so I was a little confused.
"You, never think that I don't believe it."
"I swore, and I said, I love you."
"No matter what you want to do...I believe in it and will help you."
I let go of my hand and looked into Ming's hesitant eyes.
Ask the next question.
"Ming..."
"Huh?"
"Are we going to die?"
"It's not that bad. I won't persuade them to go there. They'll understand when they get there. I'm not a good person either."
"Don't lie to me. I know... If the situation is really not that bad, at least, I will wear an apron perfunctorily."
"..."
He sighed helplessly.
Why should you protect me like a child?
Completely forgotten?
Apart from being a wife, I am also the most capable partner, the closest partner who can give me my back.
"I don't want you to die."
"I want to live and live with you."
Why are you so nostalgic? Want to live so badly?
Even knowing the truth is very cruel. It's not something I can resist at all.
Why am I not qualified to grow old with the one I love? That's not fair.
Why am I not qualified to receive medical treatment in normal society, restore my fertility, and give birth to offspring for my lover? This is really unfair.
(End of chapter)