Chapter 211 Intermittent Amnesia
Human memory is a fragile thing that will gradually become blurred as time goes by.
Time flies by, and all kinds of life experiences accumulate in my mind, like audio and video files that have been compressed over and over again in the depths of the hard drive to save space. They have not disappeared, nor have they been compressed. Blocking, but the code rate is getting lower day by day.
How many people can completely remember what happened when they were children? Basically no. When most people think back to their childhood, what they see are memory fragments pieced together from different scenes. Only the most profound memories can withstand the erosion of time and remain in the depths of their minds for a long time. new.
If the rainy season of youth is a 720P film reel with some artistic editing, then childhood memories are sliced PPTs that retain only the key contents. It is not surprising at any time when the clips are cut off.
But there are a lot of 'fragments' in Bai Zhi's memory...
Not so much.
In Bai Zhi’s childhood, there are basically no long memories with a coherent plot. There are only fragmented scenes piled up one after another, such as learning and playing in the kindergarten, being held by her mother to sleep at home, and looking up from the passenger car. Looking at the blue sky outside the car window...
One by one, one by one, the scenes are connected to each other, but there is no relationship between them. It is like editing all the high-profile fight scenes in the entire Naruto Shippuden together. Who is in front of whom? It’s innocuous at all, and there’s no way to figure out a complete timeline.
Bai Zhi herself may not think there is anything strange about such fragmented childhood memories. After all, she has no way to compare them with other people's memories. If there is no comparison, there will be no gap.
But Ning Zhe knew that his memory was not like this.
He remembered sitting in front of the TV with Chen Yaming when he was a child and watching Shenzhen Houseshare. He also remembered the first time he went fishing with his grandfather on the Taojiang River and then returned rich. He also remembered going to elementary school. I was bullied by several classmates together, and then The backs of their heads were bleeding, and they picked up bricks and smashed their knees one by one...
Ning Zhe's memories are like an old photo album spread out along the timeline, while Bai Zhi's childhood is a large section. Large slices of stream-of-consciousness movies, disorganized.
"Bai Zhi's memory has been deleted. From the time she became conscious until she entered elementary school, she would suffer from intermittent amnesia and forget certain things regularly."
Ning Zhe took off his blindfold, took a glass of warm milk from the stewardess, took a sip, and closed his eyes again.
The whistling wind sounded in her ears. Bai Zhi sat quietly in the passenger seat of the vehicle, looking at the street scene regressing outside the car window. This was her first day of elementary school, and her mother was driving.
Instead of the father.
Ning Zhe frowned slightly and discovered a strange place.
Ever since she can remember, the role of 'father' has never appeared in Bai Zhi's memory, whether it was the first time she learned to walk, the first time she learned to speak, the first day of kindergarten, until now the first time she learned to walk. In Tianshang Elementary School, Bai Fugui, as a father, never appeared.
The role of 'father' was missing from Bai Zhi's childhood. She has been taken care of by her mother Feng Yushu alone since she can remember. Her father never even showed up, let alone caring.
If Ning Zhe hadn't known her, one would have doubted whether Bai Zhi was from a single-parent family after reading this memory.
"...By the way, intermittent amnesia."
Bai Zhi had intermittent amnesia when she was a child, which was the main reason for the fragmentation of her childhood memories.
Combined with the lack of the father's role, Ning Zhe made a bold guess:
"Bai Zhi's memories of her father have been deleted when she was a child." It's like a celebrity criminal. He made a principled error, which resulted in the variety show he participated in having to delete and code all the scenes in which he appeared, and deal with them harmoniously. This caused the narrative rhythm of this program to suffer a catastrophic collapse, and everything did not match up.
This was the case with Bai Zhi's childhood memories, but the father in her memory was not harmonized, but directly 'deleted'.
Ning Zhe carefully checked Bai Zhi’s elementary school memories.
After entering elementary school, Bai Zhi's intermittent amnesia became much less frequent. She went to and from school normally, had meals and rested. Apart from not having much interaction with her classmates, Ning Zhe was finally able to draw out a relatively complete timeline. .
But intermittent amnesia still exists, it just happens less frequently.
When she was a child, Bai Zhi was very lovable. Both the teacher and the boys in the class liked her, although they liked her in different ways.
Chinese, mathematics and English teachers all want to designate her as a study committee member for their subjects. The shy little boy who wants to make friends with her will deliberately sneak plastic snake toys or snacks into her. Bai Zhi's drawer made her develop the habit of cleaning the table every day as soon as she got to her seat.
Perhaps because of the frequent intermittent amnesia in childhood, Bai Zhi’s temperament is as calm as water. Not only does she have little communication with her classmates, even when she is lying in her mother’s arms at night and listening to stories, she will not make any remarks, such as A doll with only body temperature.
Baizhi still suffers from occasional memory loss in elementary school, such as returning home directly after school before getting into her mother's car, or finishing her birthday cake and brushing her teeth before making a wish, which has little impact on her life. Big, she's used to it.
The ordinary time passed quietly, and she was in the first grade of junior high school.
This year, Bai Zhi started writing a diary.
"The grown-up Bai Zhi has the ability to think independently. She realized her intermittent amnesia and began to record her life in a diary."
An answer to a doubt in Ning Zhe's mind It's open.
When Feng Yushu said that she had peeked at Bai Zhi's diary, he felt a little strange. Who would a serious person write a diary? Emotional Bai Zhi is indeed not a serious person
At the age of 14, Bai Zhi was in the first grade of junior high school. This year, she began to try to keep a diary. It was also in this year that she began to have nightmares.
"Ah?"
Feeling that his consciousness began to sink into deep sleep, Ning Zhe was a little surprised. It turned out that Bai Zhi didn't lie to him?
Hazy sleep enveloped Ning Zhe's consciousness, showing Bai Zhi's first nightmare when he was 14 years old before his eyes.
Bai Zhi’s first dream was in a mental hospital. She fell asleep on the bed in her room, and woke up in the bed in the mental hospital. She was wearing a blue and white striped hospital gown, with her hands Both feet were tied to the iron bars on the edge of the bed.
The nurse whose face could not be seen clearly brought breakfast over, changed the bedpan under the bed, and told you to be more honest today.
Bai Zhi asked, why?
The nurse said that there is a manic patient downstairs who broke free of control, escaped from the ward, and is hiding somewhere now. You'd better be honest and don't imitate him.
After the nurse left, Bai Zhi finished her breakfast in confusion and was tied to the hospital bed looking at the dirty ceiling.
Click, click, a small sound suddenly came from the vent on the wall. Bai Zhi followed the sound and saw a pair of bloodshot red eyes behind the grille of the vent.
(End of this chapter)