Chapter 238 Paranoid Personality Disorder
A person's life is always spent missing his hometown.
When Ning Zhe was a child, when he was taking a test paper and he couldn't understand the reading, he directly wrote down the author's homesickness. His score rate was astonishingly high. Many times he couldn't help but wonder, why are so many great poets, great writers, and literary giants like children who have not grown up, invariably looking at pen and paper and feeling homesick?
The boomerang thrown when he was a child hit him today, and he also missed home.
Obviously this is Taoyuan City. Ning Zhe has studied and grown up here since he was a child. The land of his hometown is under his feet, but he still can't help but want to go home.
It was only now that Ning Zhe finally understood the sentences he saw on the reading questions when he was in elementary school. The so-called hometown is not a house to stay in, nor a stamped property rights certificate. The hometown is a spiritual destination for people to return to their roots. A sentence that can be said calmly no matter where I go, where I come from, where I am from.
Perhaps people in their hometown cannot feel the pain of homesickness, just like adolescent boys and girls who do not know how to cherish their youth.
People cannot have youth and the feeling of youth at the same time, but they will miss their hometown while standing on the land of their hometown.
After obtaining the death certificates for her grandparents and making reservations for service dates at the funeral home and crematorium, Ning Zhe returned to her new home in Junjing Community, Jiangcheng, with some unexplainable emotions.
“My current state is very wrong. This is not a good sign.”
Passing a cigarette to the security guard at the door, Ning Zhe walked into the community gate, feeling a little worried. He didn't even hear what the guard behind him said to him.
“After controlling Jueyuan, my emotions seem to have become more sensitive, or to put it another way, Jueyuan will make the upgraders who control him become more extreme, more paranoid, and easier to be provoked...”
An idea that is extremely paranoid to a certain extent is a stamp of thought.
Walking into the lobby on the first floor, Ning Zhe pressed the button to go to the 18th floor and stood at the door waiting for the elevator. He reviewed in his mind the process of controlling Jue Yuan:
Stealing Yu Ziqian After his self-recognition, Ning Zhe obtained all his memories and learned the way Yu Ziqian controlled Jueyuan - he used Jueyuan's rules and imprinted the thought of "I am Yu Ziqian" on Jueyuan. Steel seal.
Once the ideological stamp is stamped, it cannot be erased or overwritten. Two conflicting ideological stamps will only drive God crazy, and no one will benefit.
In other words, Yu Ziqian has actually blocked the way for all subsequent people. Ning Zhe can no longer control Jueyuan by giving him the ideological stamp of 'I am Ning Zhe'.
But relying on Taiyi's rules, Ning Zhe was able to find another way. He stole the complete identity of Yu Ziqian, deceived Jue Yuan, and gave Jue Yuan the ideological stamp of 'Ning Zhe is Yu Ziqian' , using Yu Ziqian’s identity to control it.
The subsequent use of Yu Ziqian's identity to read the almanac, and the use of Taiyi's rules to transfer the punishment of death to Jue Yuan was just a means to allow him to collapse back into the body of the upgraded person from the macroscopic expansion state.
“Jueyuan will make people’s thoughts become paranoid, and paranoia will eventually transform into ideological stamps.”
"So those who control Jueyuan must maintain emotional calm and indifference at all times. Once they have strong emotional fluctuations or paranoid thoughts, it is easy to unintentionally stamp themselves with thoughts."
Ding - the elevator has arrived.
Ning Zhe walked into the elevator expressionlessly, and the thoughts in his heart gradually smoothed out:
"Every upgrader who controls Jueyuan is a potential patient with paranoid personality disorder." However, Yu Ziqian himself is a bohemian, careless, often moody, and very stubborn. Otherwise, he would not have gone out to start a rock band even after graduating from college, and would rather go against his whole family.
Therefore, during the short period of time that Yu Ziqian controlled Jueyuan, he was unable to discover the influence of Jueyuan on him. But when it came to Ning Zhe, the situation was different.
Yes, according to Yu Ziqian's own memory, he actually didn't control Jueyuan for long at all.
Ning Zhe has a temperament made of water. Most of the time, his emotions are as calm as a pool of stagnant water. Occasionally, a stone or two splashes into it, causing ripples, which will soon disappear. Calm down.
On a surface of water as calm as a mirror, any tiny fluctuations are extremely conspicuous, so Ning Zhe immediately realized the interference Jue Yuan had caused to him.
“This defect can be said to be big or small, depending on how the user weighs it.”
Ning Zhe looked at the constantly changing numbers on the top of the elevator. As he thought about it, he gradually felt confident.
“The worst result is that you cannot control your emotions, and you are stamped with two conflicting thoughts under the excitement. For example, you believe that water is highly toxic, but you also believe that water is the source of life. In the end, Drive yourself crazy."
"The best love. The situation is to completely control one's thoughts and emotions at all times, without any impulse or emotion, and to be as cold and indifferent as an AI program... If you can achieve this level, you can use Jueyuan with almost no side effects. ”
Can I do it?
Probably not.
The elevator door opened, and Ning Zhe walked out of the elevator and thought of a worse possibility:
"There is also the most terrifying situation. If during the process of contact with ghosts or upgraded people, I mistakenly He came to the wrong conclusion based on the information. Then he believed in this conclusion because of Jue Yuan’s influence. Even though he knew that he might be wrong, he still persisted in going down the wrong path..."
That would be tantamount to suicide.
No wonder Yu Ziqian always gave Ning Zhe a subtle sense of recklessness when he was chasing them in Taoyuan City. A person who has been in the circle of promoted people for 5 years would be so restless. Are you anxious?
No.
It was Jue Yuan who caused him to become like this, it was Jue Yuan who destroyed him.
“The road to promotion is really...difficult.”
This is the second time Ning Zhe has uttered such a sigh. He is as strong as Ang Wu, but he is still suffering from the torture of evil ghosts. , Yu Ziqian was killed by his own paranoia and impulsiveness, and to himself, even if Tai Yi's flaws had been made up for, Jue Yuan's flaws followed one after another, leaving no room for breathing.
Every step on the road to promotion is done with trepidation, like walking on thin ice.
Back at the door, Ning Zhe opened the door lock with his fingerprint and walked into the living room. A slightly sweet fragrance blew against his face. When he looked inside, he saw a woman wearing a white camisole and pink shorts lying on her back. On the sofa, the big TV on the wall was playing the theatrical animation of "Natsume's Book of Friends". Two long snow-white legs were dangling leisurely, with a pink flip-flop hanging on the foot.
"Xia Yubing?" Ning Zhe was stunned for a moment: "Why did you come to my house?"
(End of this chapter)