Chapter 15 Preface ‘The Bible and the Butcher’s Knife’
Time: 1997, October 17,
Summer
Preface: [‘The Living Jesus’]
"Dad, where is our home?"
I sat on the ground and looked at the sloppy man in front of me.
The man looked slovenly, and without caring about the looks of the people around him, he checked out the plastic bottle from the trash can and said after hearing this:
"We people have two families."
"Where is home?"
"Don't rush, we will get there eventually."
My name is Sun Jiang, actually I have no name, but my crying by the river woke up the man under the bridge, so he took me away and named me Jiang after his surname.
He is a beggar, and I am also a beggar.
He said he was a rat, a rat in his fifties or sixties, the kind that everyone shouted to beat. He crawled everywhere on the street and made a mess in the trash can, with flies and mosquitoes flying around.
I said that I was a little mouse. I had been a mouse since I was born. I hid beside the street where I went to school and watched the mice carrying schoolbags and being escorted by their parents to school.
He said that I should be content with what I have. In fact, I am quite content. I have a girl by my side to play with.
The girl's name is Bai Xuhong. She is uglier than me. She has followed the big mouse even earlier than me. She seems to be the daughter of a homeless man. The big mouse won't let her take a bath or wash her face, and won't wipe off the eye droppings on her face when she's out. She couldn't speak either. She often whispered these words to me.
I followed her and scolded the big rat.
later.
The big mouse is dead.
Before he died, he called me over with a pale face, touched my head and said:
"I'm going home first."
After saying that, the big mouse closed his eyes.
I don't understand. He said he was going home, but he never opened his eyes or left. He was just lying in the garbage in this alley.
Xiaobai and I waited for a long time. The big mouse had a strong smell. We wanted to give him a bath, but soon a few people came and took the big mouse away.
I think the big mouse has come home.
Where is my home?
I walked aimlessly and felt confused, but I felt at ease when I held Xiaobai's hand.
Xiaobai is very lively. She can't talk outside, so she talks to me in private.
We lay under the stars and talked while looking at the stars.
She said that when she grows up, she needs to wear nice clothes and eat ice cream. She thought about it and added that she didn't pick it from the trash can.
I said, I want to have a family when I grow up.
Xiaobai thought for a while, patted his chest and said proudly that we would have a family together.
Later we walked together and hid together.
Other rats will come to bully us and the bottles we have picked up will be taken away.
There are old people who are obviously not mice but they will come to rob them. I was thinking, if they can survive, why would they rob them? Forget it, I can’t beat him anyway.
But there are also people who come to see us from time to time, because they and I can still read.
We live intermittently like this, but we are very happy.
I know I'm growing up.
The big mouse said, we have two homes, as long as we survive, we can always go home.
later.
Flowers appeared in the sky. Xiaobai and I walked out of the ruined temple and looked at the flowers in the sky. We felt very strange.
It seems that after a long time there will be flowers in the sky, and it is also very lively below.
Xiaobai looked at it for a long time, then looked at herself. She said she wanted to take a bath, so she went to the home of the person who taught me how to read.
Xiaobai is very beautiful after taking a shower, better looking than me.
I thought about it and went to the foot of the mountain to beg for food.
This festival is so good. Every time I knock on the door and ask for food, many people give me food, and it’s delicious.
I thought about eating it with Xiaobai when I go back.
I went back.
The bowl fell to the floor.
I saw several figures doing something to Xiaobai. I didn’t know what it was, and my mind went blank.
I chased him. I didn't know why I chased him, but I chased him anyway.
When they come back, I can't seem to see them.
When I woke up, I met the man who taught me how to read.
He took me to the top of the mountain, and I saw Xiaobai. Xiaobai also closed her eyes, and there were a bunch of people around her. According to the big mouse, she went home. I don't understand it, but I feel pain, pain in my chest.
I was speechless and about to step forward, but the man suddenly pulled me back.
He put his hand to his mouth.
"Shh~"
Zhao Kang is a political teacher.
Not only is he a teacher, he is also a grade director, very dignified.
He was meticulous, and when he saw gangsters or lazy students, he felt worthless for them, so Zhao Kang would take them back to school seriously.
Zhao Kang knew that these students would scold him Zhao Bapi behind his back.
But it doesn't matter, a little scolding is nothing. If they can come back to study and go out of the villages and towns, then just scold them.
Later, he grabbed a few students outside.
A few children like this kind of loyalty the most, but little do they know that this kind of behavior will only ruin their future and eventually become ordinary people at the bottom of society, busy and doing nothing.
He wants to save the other party's future.
Zhao Kang gave them a good meal and took them back to school. Even going to a technical secondary school was a good way out in this era, not just to go to college.
But it's a pity.
He underestimated the other party's character.
The other side killed his destiny.
A few people who felt that they could not live up to their dignity, under psychological coercion, blocked his son, robbed him, and killed him during the fight.
His wife also went crazy and jumped into the river while he was not at home.
Zhao Kang shed tears. He kept appealing and suing.
The judge kept giving him those words.
He has learned this, so he naturally knows the words.
As a result, the textbook in Zhao Kang's hand became a Bible.
The Bible filled the emptiness in his heart, and he became the most devout believer. He held the Bible in his hands day and night, and continued to do good deeds to atone for his sins.
Until later.
He found that something happened to two of the children he was taking care of from time to time. He grabbed the boy who came forward. He knew what the consequences would be if the other boy went up, and it was nothing more than the same.
He didn't understand, were these children guilty?
He asked again if he was guilty.
Zhao Kang asked God, but God didn't answer.
God gave him no answer.
Zhao Kang needs an answer.
He gave the boy a seed and the boy planted it.
Four springs and autumns passed, and the seed became a small sapling, exuding lush vitality.
He looked at the other person with questioning eyes.
The opponent held a sharp knife and cut off the sapling.
He smiled.
So
Zhao Kang closed the Bible.
Zhao Kang tightened his grip on the butcher knife.
On September 2, 2003, Sun Jiang was sitting in the detention center with his hands cuffed.
The big mouse said that people like them only have two homes.
The big mouse went to the first one.
Sun Jiang came to the second one.
(Case closed)
September 4th, 6:30 in the morning.
"Chi!"
Xu Hao suddenly jumped up from the bed, his eyes were bloodshot, and he sat on the bed blankly for a moment.
Various scene fragments from his dream appeared in his mind. His lips moved for a moment, and he wanted to say a lot, thousands of words in the end.
Condensed into one sentence.
“Cao Nima’s dog system!”
This is the first time I write such a long preface.
If you feel bad, I won’t write it later, or you can make a special extra
(End of chapter)