Chapter 161 Case closed! A Prostitute's Narrative: 'A Bitch's Life'
Time: 1997——2003
Winter
Preface: [‘The Narrative of a Prostitute’]
"I'm a damn bitch."
Inside a mental hospital.
A woman wearing a blue and white striped psychiatric uniform slowly spoke.
Her voice was pleasant, but her words caught people off guard.
She said:
"Maybe, maybe I'm a woman destined to be a bitch"
"Sometimes I forget when it started. Counting the time, it should be six years."
"But when I think back, I feel that time flies by so fast, as if what happened six years ago still happened yesterday"
As the sound emerged, a picture appeared in the minds of those around him.
January 3, 1997.
There was light snow falling in the sky, and the white snowflakes were mixed with the black hair.
The whole world was dyed white, and the dark clothes of passers-by seemed very inconsistent with the ground.
3pm.
The sky is still white, but the temperature is below freezing.
The two girls huddled together.
They squatted on the roadside, shivering, keeping each other warm, their breath turning into steam and disappearing in the dry and cold air.
"Sister."
The little meat ball whispered in fear, and then snuggled into the arms of another girl, feeling the body temperature and feeling a little calm in his heart.
She looks very young and has a delicate name.
My name is Lin Miao, ten years old, very well-behaved.
"Don't be afraid, don't be afraid, the Chinese New Year is coming soon, don't be afraid."
The young Lin Miao shrank down, shivering due to the cold air, looking at the house behind him, but still whispered comforting words.
Behind them is their home.
But not anymore.
"Aren't mom and dad coming back?" Lin Miao, a ten-year-old little meatball, huddled in the arms of her sister Lin Miao and asked softly.
"Don't be afraid, don't be afraid."
Lin Miao didn't know what to say. She was actually only a few years older than Lin Miao and was still a child.
But he also tried his best to comfort.
But she knew that her parents were dead.
Died in a car accident six months ago.
At that time, she received the death notice of her parents, and not long after, her uncle and aunt came.
They have no immediate family members, so they are the legal guardians.
Likewise, in a sense the property also belongs to the other party.
Half a year later, the house was sold by the other party in some way.
The uncle and aunt disappeared.
The person who bought the house looked at the strangers, one big and one small, slightly silent, gave them two thousand yuan, and sent them to the police station.
After coming out of the police station, they subconsciously returned to the door.
But the door was closed, and she didn't go in.
Lin Miao knew that from now on, this place would no longer be her home.
They can't go back.
The wind and snow are still there.
The cold wind howled.
Everything was white, and two petite bodies were sitting on the stone on the edge of the roadside, leaning against each other and huddled in the corner.
Their clothes were already covered with a thin layer of white snowflakes, which turned into ice.
Lin Miao's childish face.
Those eyes looked at this familiar and unfamiliar world with confusion and fear.
She hugged Lin Miao and stuffed him into her arms.
She has nothing left but her sister.
She suppressed the fear in her heart, her voice no longer trembled, and said softly:
"Don't be afraid."
"Don't be afraid."
"That's when I gradually became a bitch."
"I still remember, it seems... because of money?"
"My uncle sold the house and kept one thousand dollars and disappeared. The person who bought the house saw me as pitiful and gave me two thousand dollars."
"Three thousand yuan, that's all I have, but it's not enough."
"I know that this money is not enough. This money is really not enough. I did not tell anyone and stopped going to school and ignored the upcoming exams."
“But even this is not enough for the daily expenses of two people.”
"I went to work, but no one took me in. I was young and weak. Even in a black workshop, it was more cost-effective for a boy."
“Even if you find a job, you won’t get the money to support your family.”
"Xiaomiao is very good. She has good grades. I have to provide for her to go to school. She can't disappear quietly like me."
"But rent, water, electricity, gas, meat and vegetables, book fees, clothes"
"So, I went the other way."
"I still remember, it was a spring when I only had 800 dollars left."
June 10, 1997.
Lin Miao was wearing a revealing white dress, standing uneasily next to several women. She held the corners of the skirt with both hands, lowering her head subconsciously, trying to cover the exposed skin with her hands, and there was also a special makeup on her face. Makeup.
She is like a commodity for people to choose from.
"Oh, that one, the one who lowers his head looks up."
A voice sounded. Lin Miao was held up by the manager and raised his head, with a forced smile on his face.
"It's just you!"
A voice sounded.
This was Lin Miao's first time. She didn't know where this place was, but she knew she was being recruited and given a lot of money, so she came here.
Her identity seems to be that of a bartender.
The manager told her that he was drinking with her. The other party had a high status and needed her to drink with her. The more she drank, the more money she would make.
Lin Miao remained silent, sitting on the sofa and drinking wine.
The wine was very spicy, and other women were trying to avoid it. Lin Miao wanted to make more money, so she kept drinking.
It seems like the wine in the glass will never be finished.
She drinks one glass, a second one appears, a second one disappears, and a third one comes on.
Lin Miao's eyes gradually became dizzy, her mind fainted, and the flickering dim lights blurred in her eyes.
She didn't know how many drinks she had.
She only knows
she cried.
The wine was mixed with tears, and she couldn't tell which ones were which. The spiciness was washed away by her, and she drank it.
Cried until morning.
It was a hotel, and Lin Miao was crying. Her petite body was covered by the bed quilt, and there was a burning pain underneath her body.
There was no one around her, but she had a thousand dollars.
Lin Miao cried for a long time.
But it doesn’t seem like that long.
At some unknown time, she sat in front of the mirror, wiped away her tears, took care of her body, took the money, and limped outside.
She used the money to buy some hawthorns, candies, marshmallows and candied haws.
She has a sweet tooth.
When she returned to her depressing and dilapidated rental house, her sister Lin Miao's head popped up.
Lin Miao took these things, pulled out the marshmallows and the only candied haws, and handed them to Lin Miao.
"Sister eat."
Lin Miao ate and sat on the sofa with her ten-year-old sister in her arms.
There is no TV in the living room.
She sat for a long time, her eyes dull, just leaning against the wall, with nothing in her mind.
Maybe there is something.
But it was illusory after all. She felt that it was a dream, but if it was a dream, it would be too painful and she should wake up.
The candy in your mouth melts, and the sweetness does not dissipate the bitterness in your life.
Lin Miao sat on the sofa. He sat there all day, just blank, his mind went blank, and there were still tears in the corners of his eyes.
It wasn't until the sound of drumming in Lin Miao's stomach that night that she came back to her senses.
Lin Miao was very good. She didn't bother her sister, she did her homework quietly, and after finishing her homework, she previewed the textbook.
Lin Miao looked at her, silent. Then, without knowing what she was thinking, she squeezed out a smile on her haggard face, faced Lin Miao, and grabbed the money.
"Xiaomiao."
"The family is rich."
"I'll buy you some candy."
"Maybe, maybe I was born to do this."
"Since that time, I have been staying in the club as if my true nature has been exposed."
"The women in the club have small cliques, and I know they all reject me. Occasionally, I can hear secret conversations that are not so sneaky."
"They said that I was a naturally dissolute woman. At this age, the first time I accompanied someone for a drink, I confessed myself."
"They said I'm a bitch who likes to show off. I give my instructions so simply, and then I'm so coy when I'm choosing."
"Maybe."
"It doesn't matter."
"I said, maybe I was born a bitch, so I did what a bitch does."
"But I have a sister."
"My sister is not."
"I remember, the first time I said my sister, they said"
July 16, 2000.
In the Baihan Club, Lin Miao, who was wearing bright lipstick and a sexy and revealing red dress, was bored and reading a book in the background.
People around suddenly spoke and asked:
"What are you doing in this business?"
As these words rang out, people around him began to respond.
"Money, the bag I want is too expensive, seven thousand five thousand!"
"Tsk, have you seen that clothes guy recently? Just a pair of shoes costs more than 4,000!"
"Are you talking about the pair on display in the mall? I have one. I met a big seller a few days ago, and he bought it for me directly after taking care of it!"
Several people gathered around and chatted with each other. After a while, the topic turned to Lin Miao.
"Sister Lin, why do you do this?"
Someone asked Lin Miao in a mocking tone.
Lin Miao knew what this meant. He was nineteen years old. Based on his experience, he could call her sister
But she didn't care.
"I have a sister. My sister is beautiful and smart. She is 13 years old and is in junior high school."
Lin Miao kept talking.
She showed off and shared it with her colleagues.
"She is very well-behaved, she never makes me angry, and she even helps with housework!"
"Her grades are also very good. She is among the top 20 in the entire school and among the top 20 in key junior high schools!"
"I will go to a key high school next year and then be admitted to university"
As she spoke, the people around her listened quietly.
Until one person suddenly said something.
"When the time comes, I will be admitted to university."
"My classmates said that my parents are civil servants, and my senior said that my parents run a company."
"Your sister said that her sister is a drunkard?"
"Haha, I'm afraid I'll be embarrassed to say that, and I won't even look for you after I graduate in a few years!"
“You can’t even contact me if you want to!”
The woman spoke very harshly. Looking at Lin Miao's cheap clothes, a trace of disgust flashed in her eyes.
The people around him were silent, embarrassed and didn't know what to say.
The same was true for Lin Miao. After a while, she sat in front of the mirror, took out her lipstick and touched up her makeup.
"Is that so?"
"That's not bad."
"If you don't accept my words, there will be no stain, otherwise you will be easily bullied."
The people around were stunned for a moment, then felt that they were asking for trouble and hurriedly dispersed
"Although I don't have a very good relationship with some people, nothing big went wrong."
"The days passed like this little by little."
"Life is gradually getting better."
“I actually met a few very interesting guests, one of whom looked very familiar.”
"That seems to be a junior high school classmate? Forget it, I can't remember clearly, but he looks a bit like a boy."
"He's weird."
"Do you know what he wants from me?"
Probably because Lin Miao didn't want to think back, the time was very blurry and she couldn't remember when it happened.
Just remember.
It was a winter, and a guest who had never been here came to the club. The guest looked very familiar.
As an 'old man', Lin Miao, unlike usual, lowered his head when he saw the other party.
However, the guest named him and asked him to stay.
Nothing happened that night.
The clubhouse is quiet.
Lin Miao only remembered that it was the quietest box in the entire club and the quietest box he had ever entered, and the guests in the club did not speak.
Just drink one glass of wine after another.
It's funny to say that Lin Miao was the bartender, but the other party didn't let her drink.
Just when I was drunk to the point of boredom, I broke the silence and asked a question.
"You won't get married anymore? You said love"
Lin Miao suddenly paused, a little absent-mindedness flashed in his eyes, and he was stunned in place for a long time.
marry?
How long has it been since this noble, pure, pure word appeared in my ears?
marry?
Lin Miao was silent.
Can she have this?
love?
Does she deserve it?
After a long while, she managed a smile and said:
"I'm a bitch."
"Who would take a bitch home?"
After saying this, without waiting for the other party to speak, she stretched out her hand and reached under him.
The guest stood up.
He dropped some money, took a puff of cigarette, and then left without taking his coat or saying a word.
In the box.
Lin Miao was stunned for a long time. The money on her body was very hot, even hotter than the thousand yuan she got the first time.
She froze on the sofa, motionless, and didn't even take the money. She froze for a long time.
Lin Miao cried, but raised his head and wiped away the tears.
After a long while, she walked out of the box.
She covered herself with this dress and walked out of the club.
It was snowing outside, and it seemed to fall every time she was in a bad mood, but it didn't matter.
Lin Miao walked aimlessly on the dark streets. She didn't know where she was going, where she was going, and why she was going.
But still walking.
She met some street kids.
All the clean and tidy passers-by, the homeless children who can't be avoided.
The other person was rummaging through the contents of the trash can. Lin Miao looked at it for a long time and then moved closer. The other person was scared away. She waved again and exuded goodwill, and then the other person came over.
She took out her things and looked at the confused and dirty child in front of her.
She said softly:
"I'm a bitch, I'm dirtier than you."
"I won't bully you, just eat."
From then on, she had another habit.
Use that dirty body to exchange for rancid money to feed a few dirty street children.
"Later, my sister was also a child who studied very well in high school."
"She told me that she would support me when she grows up and makes money, and I said yes."
"Actually, after I entered high school, my financial pressure was lessened. I had saved some money before."
"Xiaomiao is in the top five in the school. The school begs her to take the college entrance examination and waive many fees!"
"She asked me to stop doing this and work part-time. In fact, money is not that important. As long as she grows up, she will have a lot of money."
"But I'm a very cheap bitch and I want to buy my hometown back."
"It takes a long time to save money, but I don't want to wait until Xiaomiao grows up and comes back with her boyfriend to see my room."
"I don't want him to know that Xiaomiao has such a sister."
"I started to break the rules and became a complete bitch, taking on private jobs and showing off everywhere."
"Maybe."
"It's probably because I'm a very mean person."
"Retribution has appeared."
"That was a client who took over several private jobs"
2003
"This is my first time coming to your home. The atmosphere is not bad."
"Who is that?"
"Sister? Let's have fun together. I'm not short of money. You sisters can come together."
Lin Miao was beautifully dressed, and she was embraced by a man with a big belly.
In the afternoon, the man raised his eyebrows and asked the girl who had just returned from vacation in the house, with a trace of desire in his eyes.
Lin Miao was shocked and cursed herself inwardly.
Lin Miao went to college, and her work and rest were different from before. She couldn't judge the time according to her usual habits.
She has received this person many times, in slaughterhouses, clubs, or in her own home. She has records of this person and has given him a lot of money.
But today I was bumped into by Lin Miao.
She said:
"My sister doesn't do this, she's different from me!"
"She's a college student, she's still a child"
"Child? Looks as old as you"
"But...she's still a chick?"
The man paused and suddenly spoke.
"Master, I'll give you a discount, I'll give you a discount, don't embarrass a child."
Lin Miao smiled, gave Lin Miao some money, and quickly asked the other party to leave.
She embraced a pile of fat that would look disgusting to ordinary people and closed the door.
Later, Lin Miao disappeared.
She still remembers that the last time they met, the well-behaved Lin Miao got angry and advised her not to continue in this business.
Then it disappeared.
Lin Miao originally thought it was out of anger, but after searching all the places where the other party might appear, it was proved that the other party had indeed disappeared.
School, friends, even clubs
There was no trace of the forest seedlings.
Until someone from a neighbor said that there was an inexplicable stench on the street on the day she disappeared. She, who had always been accustomed to the stench, recalled her previous guests.
Her body and mind were trembling, and she didn't care even if it was late at night, and ran to the place in her memory.
It was far away, but Lin Miao didn't feel tired. She fell, got up, and fell again.
She walked for a long time and reached the place in her memory.
When she passed the yard, she suddenly stopped, as if she had a telepathy, and stared blankly
She trembled and looked toward the veterinary room.
She was suffocating, her brain was deprived of oxygen, and she reached for the secret door.
She saw Lin Miao.
I saw my sister, who was skinned and her bloody corpse was hanging upside down
Her mind went blank, there was a strong tinnitus in her ears, her vision was dark, and she couldn't breathe.
Later, Lin Miao.
Crazy.
2003, December 24.
‘Lin Miao’ was completely naked, stepping on the snow in the early morning hours.
Little by little, she walked towards the new place in the capital that she once said.
Afternoon, three o'clock.
Lin Miao stood in front of the rearview mirror.
She looked at the mirror, groping for her face, and some image seemed to appear in her mind, her eyes were empty, her expression was dull, and her fingertips were touching.
A man walked up to her.
(‘Human Skin Blood Clothes Case’)
【Case closed! 】
(End of chapter)