Chapter 263: It’s impossible to go back to the past
Chen Feng never dreamed that Shen Lin would come here, so he was stunned for a while before he realized what he was doing and withdrew his hand.
At this time, he really felt all kinds of feelings in his heart.
Although Shen Lin was relatively proactive back then, the most she did was take the initiative to invite and contact him, but she was not as direct and direct as she is now.
The two of them have been separated for more than half a year, and I feel that she has really changed a lot.
In fact, of course it was Chen Feng who changed more than she did.
This is exactly what the saying says - things are different and people are different.
How is it possible to reunite now?
"Shen Lin, you should also know in your heart that I am no longer the person I used to be, and you are not the person you used to be. It is impossible for us to go back to the past. Moreover, I just talked to you last night Your family has reached an agreement, and we have settled everything. If you feel that one million is not enough, I can give you some more."
Chen Feng's words were a bit deliberately irritating.
However, Shen Lin was not angry. Instead, she just closed her eyes slightly, sighed and said, "I never wanted to collect your money from the beginning. Not to mention the youth loss fee. You should know that back then, I So I didn’t choose you because you were rich. The main reason I fell in love with you was because I fell in love with you. It was as simple as that, even though you had no money, no house, and an average job.
I sometimes fell in love with you. It’s incredible to think about it, I asked myself My conditions are good, but I accidentally fell in love with you. But this is fate. I don’t regret my choice. I only regret that I ruined my own happiness by agreeing to divorce you so easily. you also He is the executioner who has cut off our marriage with one hand. "
If Shen Lin had spoken harshly, or even cried and made a fuss, things would have been easier. At most, Chen Feng would just walk away and try not to see her again. That’s it. Anyway, she doesn't know where he lives now.
But now that she said these words so calmly, he couldn't help but think of the loving and happy days between the two of them, and how she insisted on marrying him despite her parents' objections. No matter how hard-hearted Chen Feng was, It's impossible to just walk away.
Chen Feng could only stand by the bed depressedly, not knowing what to say for a while.
"I know you still have feelings for me, otherwise you wouldn't have rushed to save me this time. Don't deny this. We have been together for five or six years, even if the relationship in the last few months was not very good. Harmony, but it cannot erase the happiness and warmth in the previous lives.
And we actually have no irreconcilable differences with each other. Despite conflicts and mistakes, we didn't do anything to feel sorry for each other before we got divorced. The foundation of our relationship was still there. It was only because of the cold war, lack of communication, and our mutual pride that we finally got to the point of divorce.
< br>Now that we have been separated for so long, we should realize the problem. I was angry and disappointed with you back then. The main reason, you know it yourself, is because you were not going well at work, you have been depressed and self-destructive. If you could cheer up and face difficulties positively at that time, like you are now, how could I be angry and disappointed with you?
I'm not right either. I should have given you more comfort and encouragement at that time, but I failed to do so. Instead, I kept blaming you. , which made you worse. It must have made you disappointed and angry. The result was that the cold war finally came to an end. "
Shen Lin analyzed it well. In a failed marriage, both parties are basically responsible. It cannot be entirely the responsibility of only one party. The difference is only in the different proportions of their respective responsibilities.
Chen Feng also sighed and said: "You are right. Although you were wrong at the time, the more fault was mine. It was because I was not going well at work and could not withstand the blow of failure, which directly affected my life. He doesn't care enough about you emotionally, which leads to your embrace. Blame.
At that time, I really needed your comfort and encouragement the most, but you kept complaining about me, saying that I was incapable, that the mud could not hold up the wall, etc., which naturally made me feel very hurt. , we also had doubts about our feelings for each other, and then I started a cold war with you."
Shen Lin said quickly: "I know that I was excessive and cruel to you, but my intention was not to hurt you, but to stimulate you and encourage you to start again. Cheer up. It's not about beating you."
Chen Feng smiled slightly bitterly: "You did stimulate me and hit me, but you just didn't encourage me."
"I don't know myself either. Why did that happen at that time, I..."
Shen Lin still wanted to explain, but was interrupted by Chen Feng waving his hand: "Okay. This topic has been explained very clearly now. It has been more than half a year since our divorce. Even though I had feelings for you before. The resentment is gone now. So, there is no point in talking about it now.”
When Shen Lin heard this, her eyes blinked, tears flashed in her eyes, and her voice was slightly choked and she said: "Are you really so heartless? Are you really not going to give me a chance for yourself? You really don't want to save the relationship we have had for so many years. ? We were originally a happy couple, and we can always be a happy couple."
Chen Feng turned his head slightly. He opened her eyes, sighed and said, "Some things can't be made up for if they are missed. Moreover, I am no longer the same person as before. Even if we start over, we can't go back to the previous state. "
"Why?" Shen Lin asked in a serious tone, "Is it because you are rich now?"
"There may be some reasons for this." Chen Feng said honestly, "It is a law that men become bad when they have money. Now that I have money, I have also turned bad. I am now with several women. There is an intimate relationship. Coupled with our failed marriage, I no longer believe in love, let alone marriage.
Therefore, for a long time, it was impossible for me to get married again. Now even if I get along with you again, it is impossible for me to remarry you, or even to break off relationships with other women. Can you accept these two points? "
Shen Lin looked at him steadily and didn't speak for a long time.
Chen Feng took the initiative to step forward this time, squatted down in front of the bed, looked at her level, showed a smile and said: " Shen Lin, I loved you before, but the innocent and stubborn Shen Lin back then will always occupy a very important position in my heart and is the most precious memory in my life. But now we have all changed. In my heart, the former Shen Lin is dead, and the former Chen Feng is also dead. We are no longer who we were before, and we can never go back to the past.
I now sincerely wish you can find a man who can satisfy you and make you happy throughout your life. We can be friends in the future. If you have any difficulties, you can contact me. But we can't go any further. Let us keep the beautiful memories of the past in each other's hearts. "
After saying these words, Chen Feng stood up, turned around and said, "I'm leaving. From now on, everyone should take it seriously. ”
After saying this, Chen Feng strode to the door without looking back, then opened the door of the ward and walked out.
The tears that had been swirling in Shen Lin's eyes finally fell down.
She didn’t expect that her seemingly one-hit victory would actually end in failure. For this reason, she did not hesitate to risk her health and actually took five sleeping pills.
The result was such an ending. Chen Feng had no heartache or pity for her, only the alienation and indifference revealed in his bones.
He may still care about her a little bit, but it is no longer the kind of care that a relative or a lover would have. At most, it is the kind of care between ordinary friends.
Does he really have no feelings for me at all?
Shen Lin didn't believe it. She clasped her hands and let tears keep falling from her eyes.
Chen Feng quickly walked out of the inpatient building, stretched out his hands and rubbed his face hard twice, which made him feel more relaxed.
Faced with his ex-wife who was full of fire, Chen Feng couldn't really be as calm as he had shown before.
After all, he had lived with her for five or six years and truly loved each other. Listening to the words she said while lying on the hospital bed, it was even more impossible for him to remain indifferent. When she talked about the emotional place, wasn't he touched at all?
There was even a moment when Chen Feng impulsively wanted to start over with her or even remarry, but in the end it was just a momentary impulse. As he said, they had all changed, especially him, who was no longer the same person as before. Chen Feng.
It can be said that he has died once, not to mention being reborn, but he has changed a lot in his personality now compared to when he was still working before, not to mention his life. , these are the mentality.
They were happy and sweet when they were together, but they were also painful in the end.
He now has a completely different life than before, and he doesn't want to go back to the past.
Chen Feng took a deep breath and quickened his pace to leave the hospital, which was filled with the smell of disinfectant.
He did not go back to Villa No. 8 immediately, but drove to East Lake Villa along the way. This villa that he was very satisfied with at the beginning has become uninhabitable since he bought it.
I opened the gate and went in. There were already a lot of weeds growing in the yard. After walking through the yard and coming to the villa, I opened the door with the key. A faint musty smell came from inside. After taking a look, there was a light layer of dust inside.
This house will not work unless people live in it and maintain it. Even though it looks like a fairly new villa.
But Chen Feng doesn’t want to rent it out. He bought it at a high price and rents it to others instead. It always feels weird. Anyway, he was not short of money. He bought this house just because he liked it, not as an investment.
Chen Feng plans to live here for a while. So, I called the property management company here and asked them to call two cleaning staff.
After waiting for more than ten minutes, two cleaning ladies came over. After Chen Feng explained to them, he went for a walk on the shore of East Lake alone.
Since I moved into Hongshu Bay, I rarely come to the shore of East Lake.
The weather is now noon, the sun is shining, I can take a walk and look at the scenery. The temperature is just right, neither hot nor cold.
There are also many pedestrians and tourists on the embankment, either in pairs or in groups. Everyone looks very relaxed and comfortable.
After Chen Feng walked for a while, he sat down on a bench facing the lake. He looked at the sparkling East Lake in a daze, and his thoughts unconsciously drifted to the scenes he had passed with Shen Lin.
After all, we have lived together for five or six years, and at least two-thirds of the time were happy and sweet. Moreover, the reason why he divorced in the first place was that their feelings for each other had faded. The more important reason was that he discovered that he was terminally ill.
If there was no terminal illness, he would definitely not have been able to make the decision to divorce her at that time.
So, what Shen Lin said before was not completely wrong. The two of them still had some feelings for each other.
But Chen Feng really doesn’t want to be his old self anymore. He now has money, a woman, and a cool life. Why should he remarry?
He could only keep convincing himself in his heart and strengthen his confidence.
He was very worried that he would not be able to hold on, and Shen Lin would really pull him back to his original life trajectory that seemed happy and sweet, but was often depressing and depressing.
Just to completely draw a clear line with Shen Lin, a woman who has loved each other, and even to the point of not having contact with each other until death, it is inevitable that my heart will have ups and downs, and it is difficult to calm down.
He sat in silence for more than ten minutes, until a young couple sat down next to him and hugged each other, bringing his thoughts back.
“Here, take a bite.”
The woman held a stick of ice cream in her hand and handed it to the man's mouth with a sticky sound.
The man chuckled, opened his mouth and took a hard bite.
"You hate it! I hate it so much! Such a big mouth."
"I was wrong, I was wrong, then I will give it back to you."
Male hug To seduce a girl, you need to have mouth to mouth...
Grass!
Chen Feng stood up suddenly, startling the young couple.
Chen Feng did not look at them and left directly.
"This man is sick!" the man whispered.
"Don't talk nonsense. He may be out of love."
"How can you lose love at such an old age? It should be divorced."
...
Chen Feng's hearing is very good now. Although their voices were low, he heard them all. Of course he didn't beat the young man up for it.
He can only wish them with the mentality of a person who has been through it: Good morning and good morning.
I wandered aimlessly along the lake for a while, checked the time, figured it was almost time, and returned to the lakeside villa.
Sure enough, the two cleaning ladies moved very quickly and almost finished cleaning up.
Chen Feng sat on the stone bench in the yard and waited, while replying to a few messages that he had ignored before.
Among them, one was from his mother, asking how he was doing during his time in Xiuzhou. What are you busy with? If you have nothing to do in Xiuzhou, you can go home and live for a while. It is best to bring Wu Mengting with you.
Of course Chen Feng didn't want to go back to his hometown. After thinking about it, he sent a voice message and said that he and a few friends were currently preparing a company and couldn't do without it.
My mother asked in seconds: [What company]
So, Chen Feng said it was a film and television company, a small company with a total investment of less than one million. He only invested a few hundred thousand, and there were several other shareholders.
Of course Zhao Xiaolan didn’t understand this, she just told him not to be deceived.
After the mother and son communicated for a while, Chen Feng ended the call with the excuse that he had to go out for a drive.
Looking at other unread messages, one of them was from Guo Mengyao, saying that she would fly to Xiuzhou at noon tomorrow and hoped that he would pick her up.
After Chen Feng hesitated for a moment, he sent her an OK gesture.
Not long after, Guo Mengyao called him directly.
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