Chapter 240 Heart Knot
"Mr. Jiang," the girl's timid voice came. Her name was Nan Jin. Unlike others, alcohol seemed to have a very limited impact on her.
Even she herself couldn’t remember how many glasses of wine this was.
She is also the only one among the few people who calls Jiang Cheng Mr. Jiang instead of "Jiang Pan'an", "that one", "handsome guy", "cutie" and other random names.
After a few seconds, Jiang Cheng slowly looked away and looked at her.
Nan Jin's face hidden in the dimness seemed to be even redder, but she still mustered up the courage and asked in as calm a voice as possible: "Mr. Jiang, what are you thinking about?"
Overflowing brilliance It flashed through her eyes from time to time. She had a pair of very beautiful eyes, just like her mother.
But unlike the hard and cold look in the latter's eyes, there was a sense of cowardice and ignorance hidden in her eyes, like a lost deer.
Distant, defensive, yet lovable.
Some people say that alcohol is a poison, even if it is mixed with soft drinks.
But for Nan Jin, only such "poison" can make her open her heart.
She suffers from a relatively rare psychological problem.
Avoidant Personality Disorder.
It is a type of personality disorder characterized by comprehensive social inhibition, a sense of inadequacy, and extreme sensitivity to negative evaluations.
The resulting series of problems can have a significant impact on the patient's social and occupational functioning.
Such patients always feel that they lack social skills, are unattractive, and are at a disadvantage in all aspects, and thus appear overly sensitive and have low self-esteem.
Low self-esteem, coupled with over-sensitivity and fear of being rejected by others, make it particularly difficult for patients to take the first step and establish close relationships with others.
Such patients usually start to show shyness, isolation, fear of meeting strangers, and inexplicable panic about sudden strange things or sounds that are very different from their peers in childhood.
Unlike Ms. Qin, who was so focused on work that she ignored her daughter’s feelings, Nan Jin’s mother was a “meticulous” person who cared about her daughter.
She even gave up her position as a company executive for her daughter and became a full-time mother at home.
She has to take care of everything from three meals a day to her daughter's clothing, academic performance, hobbies, behavioral habits, and so on.
She is trying her best to make her daughter the most perfect handicraft in the world.
Whether it is academic performance, dance, painting, or piano, Nan Jin is the best among her peers.
In sharp contrast to the excitement and joy of sitting in the front row, watching her daughter ascend the podium and be reflected in the spotlight, is Nan Jin's delicate but indifferent face.
Rather than saying that her mother loves her, it is better to say that her mother loves to manipulate her.
Manipulating her to run towards a "perfect" life that does not belong to her.
Mother, she is just using herself to make up for the regrets she has owed.
Early on, my mother, who had not yet taken over the family business, had a dream of becoming an actress.
She looks forward to one day appearing on the screen and showing her best self in front of everyone.
But after this dream was crushed by reality, it was irrigated into the soil, and finally irrigated itself.
She didn't know whether her mother saw the shadow of her past in herself.
But she knew very well that according to her mother's character, even if she did not see the shadow of her past on herself, she would cut out her own shadow and stick it on her body.
Strength is her most intuitive impression of her mother.
She must do what she says. She must get what she likes and wants, and what she asks herself to do must also be done.
Only in this way will mother love her as always.
She only loves her radiant self.
The "ugly duckling" who has shed all his achievements and aura is not worthy of his mother's love.
It is precisely the long-term high pressure and anxiety that makes her, who is already extremely good, often fall into a cycle of doubt and self-doubt.
The mother's intensified encouragement sounded like a death horn in her ears.
I am accusing her of why she refuses to be a little better
If she were just a little bit better, she would be one step closer to her mother's dream.
But that was my mother’s dream, not hers.
She has no interest in showing herself on screen, and is even afraid.
For her, those boring information, rigorous numerical characters, and cold chemical materials are more attractive to her.
She just wants to be an ordinary person, not noisy or noisy, hiding behind the scenes, living a quiet life by herself, with someone she loves and loves her back.
Being looked at by Mr. Jiang in her own eyes, Nan Jin became more and more uneasy. The former's silence made her wonder whether what she said was inappropriate, or whether she was blaming herself for interrupting his thinking.
“Ding.”
A crisp collision sounded, and the light red wine in the wine glass rippled, refracted by the light, like blood.
Before Nan Jin realized it, Jiang Cheng stretched out his hand, and the wine glass in his hand lightly touched the one in her hand.
"Mr. Jiang"
Nan Jin was stunned for a moment, and when she reacted, she panicked like a child who had done something wrong, although she didn't know why.
But at this moment, she did think so.
Just like the scavenger who interrupted Marquez's thinking because he wanted to pick up Coke cans, he realized it later but couldn't help himself.
Taking a sip of wine, Jiang Cheng sat on the sofa with the wine glass in hand. The aura around him was incompatible with this place.
"I'm waiting for someone." He said.
Because of the light, she could only see his eyes clearly.
The noise here was out of control, but looking into the eyes of the man in front of her, she actually had a strange thought. It seemed that all the noise would end here.
It's like a ladle of boiling water poured on the iceberg.
Moreover, he was clearly standing while Mr. Jiang was sitting on the sofa. He was supposed to be looking up to himself in a high position, but in the end it seemed that he was looking up to him.
Just sitting there, he seemed out of tune with everyone here.
It was clear that not long ago he was excitedly drinking with a few people, but the next second he suddenly fell silent, entrenched alone in the corner, like a colorful poisonous snake.
After putting away its fangs, it quietly waited for the next batch of prey to come.
“What kind of person?” She spoke like a ghost.
But she panicked as soon as she opened her mouth. They had only known each other for a few days, and it seemed that asking such an intimate question was a bit too much.
The next second, she saw that the man in front of her had already emptied his penis. The wine glass was placed upside down on the marble-like tabletop, and his slender fingers made beautiful strokes in mid-air.
"I'm waiting for someone who is willing to drink this glass of wine with me," Jiang Cheng raised his eyes and replied: "Miss Nanjin."
The move is almost over, more than 400 kilometers to a new city. , it’s such a hassle.
Normal updates will resume today. I will start adding more updates after I regain my feeling. Thank you for your support.
(End of this chapter)