"Since I don't know, then tell me in detail, Zhongyi, are you hiding any secrets?" Li Xin looked at me coldly. Her eyes were so sharp that I didn't dare to look directly at her.
"I, I didn't, I said everything. I was just controlled by the power of the magic circle, and then I woke up. It's that simple." I don't want to say any more, Li Xin is too naughty, she can easily get me in with just a few words.
Jiao Ba suddenly spoke at this time and said, "After hearing what you said, I knew that the power of the magic circle you first encountered should be called greed. Those gold and silver are proof that when humans When you see wealth, you will burst into guilt The greed of the inner world and the power of the magic circle will amplify this greed several times, and eventually make you become crazy and do whatever it takes for wealth. But when you come into contact with the gold turned by those black-faced stones, you will I would be killed by this kind of greed, and I'm fine with it. I admire your sworn brother for actually breaking through the power of the magic circle with his own willpower. You are indeed very strong."
I said dismissively, "You are so strong. The power of the magic circle distorted my mentality, otherwise I wouldn’t You will wake up."
Jiao Ba nodded and said, "Maybe. As for the second power you encountered, it is a bit strange. Logically speaking, it should be happiness, but this happiness can also be regarded as a kind of human being. **?”
"Why not? In today's materialistic society, aren't people always looking for the so-called happiness? Therefore, this happiness can be regarded as a kind of luxury, and can even be said to be a luxury product." Li Xin said crookedly Head said, it seems that she also has a lot of emotions about life.
“Even if it is a kind of desire, this kind of desire should come from the sworn brother himself. I just don’t understand that one that can make you obsessed and make you believe that there is yours. Who is the woman who can even make you feel happy?" Jiao Ba looked directly at me, as if he was interrogating a prisoner.
“Damn, it’s good if I can make it out alive. Why are you asking me this? She’s just an ordinary woman. Maybe I’ve been single for too long, so it’s inevitable that I’ll have this kind of happiness. Illusion." I made up a random sentence, I always felt that they were trying to trick me.
Jiao Ba chuckled lightly, "Brother Yi, although I have not experienced the situation at that time, I understand very well that the magic circle can only expand your body, but it should not change your thinking. If it is just If you are an ordinary woman, you will never feel this kind of happiness. That woman should have a very important place in your heart. It can even be said that you love him very much."
Jiao Ba's words were like a steel needle, piercing my chest directly, making my originally calm heart start to fluctuate again. , I glanced at him and said nothing. He was really nosy. It was enough to analyze the matter at this point. Why bother asking so many questions.
Li Xin suddenly said, "Oh, I know, could it be that woman who turned into Jenny? That's why you..." She pointed at my chest with her finger, which seemed lukewarm.
"Absolutely not. This has nothing to do with Jenny Bapolian. Can you please stop making wild guesses?" I deliberately glared at Jiaoba. If he changed the subject, Li Xin would not Ask again.
Jiao Ba understood what I meant immediately. He pretended to cough and said, "I don't mean anything else. Brother Yi, it's good that you can come back safely. The first two forces know it, so in the end, you Where did you go? You told me that it was a place full of mirrors?”
I replied. I thought about it and said, "Yes, it is a place surrounded by mirrors. No, it should be ice mirrors." I explained the situation in detail. The feeling of fear is still unforgettable to me. When I think about it, I feel all over. I got chills, but I didn’t talk about my comrades, it was just the power of the formation that kept driving me to commit suicide.
After listening to what I said, Jiao Ba touched his chin and said, "Did you miss any important information?"
"Information? No." I pretended to be innocent.
Jiao Ba curled his lips and shook his head and said, "This is wrong. According to the power of the magic circle, it is impossible for it to control your heart and make you commit suicide. If that were the case, we would have died long ago. Well, it should be that there is something in your heart that makes you blame yourself, or that you have done something that makes you feel very guilty and cannot even forgive yourself. Love, the power of this ancient ship will be inserted from it, otherwise, there will be no wind and waves at all."
Damn it, I don’t know if it’s Jiao Ba’s analytical ability that’s too strong, or if he’s just right. I know these evil ways very well, and I really hit the nail on the head. Even if I want to hide it, I can't. It seems that I can't get through this.
I said with a cold face, "No, there is nothing for me to blame myself for. You don't have to think about it anymore. It's just that the power of the magic circle controlled me."
Jiao Ba He suddenly smiled and said, "Yi Ge, I don't force you to tell us anything, but you can't lie to us. You just need to tell me whether it was the magic circle that controlled your mind for no reason, or you. Is there really something unspeakable about it?”
I know very well that it seems impossible to get through with Jiao Ba. Jiao Ba doesn't dare to say how much he knows about the power of this hexagonal array, but he at least knows that the power of this array is extraordinary.
And he is also the only one among us, except Chang Shan, who knows about the hexagonal array, but I always feel that there must be someone among us who knows the existence of this array, especially Mr. Mai and Jenny, I can’t understand them more and more.
I sighed and said, "You're right, I do have something I blame myself for, but it's been many years and I haven't mentioned it to anyone. I've always kept it in my heart. I thought that this matter could be exploited, but I don’t understand. Could it be considered a kind of **?”
“Being able to get rid of this kind of inner torture must be your personal **. What do you think?" Li Xin looked at me and asked softly.
"I don't know either." I really don't know if it is true, but in the past few years, this matter has always been lingering in my mind, and I can't forget it even if I want to.
Jiao Ba then patted me on the shoulder and said, "This kind of power should come from inner self-blame. The magic circle will amplify your self-blame and guilt several times. If you can't bear this kind of pressure, you will naturally commit suicide." Extreme."
I nodded and said, "Yeah, I almost shot myself. It was really a torture in my heart. It seems that only if I die can I be freed from this feeling of guilt."
"Sister, what on earth is going on? "Can you blame yourself for several years?" Jiao Ba turned to look at me and asked.
"I don't want to say it, you'd better not ask." I looked ugly and didn't want to think about that past event again.
"Aren't you afraid that it will always be pressing in your heart? Once the power of the ancient ship increases again, you may not be able to bear it. Brother Yi, this is a knot in your heart. If you want to untie it, You have to do it yourself to open this knot," Jiao Ba said earnestly.
I thought about it carefully. If I always keep it in my heart, it is indeed a problem. Once it breaks out, I'm afraid I will go insane. I'm so crazy that it doesn't matter. At most, I will die and solve a lot of troubles. But if I implicate everyone, then I What a sinner for the ages.
"It happened five years ago. Because of the failure of a mission, I killed my comrade."
I recalled the situation at that time and told it word for word. What happened, but by the time I got to the point where he died in my arms, I had I couldn't stop crying. The tears were like broken pearls, silently falling down my face. The heartache came again. We were once as close as brothers, but watching him die in front of my eyes made me miserable. Every time I think about it, it stimulates my fragile body and mind.
"Lao Ba, I am guilty. If it weren't for my selfishness, how could he die? It's all my fault. It was me who killed him, it was me." I He grabbed Jiao Ba's shoulders and said with tears.
Jiao Ba grabbed my arm tightly with both hands, "Listen to me, sworn brother, I can't blame you entirely. It's been so many years, and you should be relieved. You can't always let this happen. Things are weighing on your mind. You have to look forward and not stay in memories. ”
"Although you had an unshirkable responsibility back then, you didn't want this to happen. I know that his death was a big blow to you, but you were also condemned in your heart for it. In the past few years, you have been The torture is enough. If your comrade knows that you are still living in self-blame, he will not be happy. Let it go, let it be a thing of the past and go with the wind."
Li Xin was also beside me, supporting me, and said with slightly red eyes, "Yes, Zhongyi, let it go. As long as you want to let it go, you can do it. I didn't expect that you still have such a big depression in your heart. People can't always let it go." Live in the past, he will definitely forgive you, and you must forgive yourself."
"Can I forgive myself?" I looked at them and asked with tears in my eyes. .
Over the years, I have been trying to find an excuse, or a reason, to let myself off this heavy burden, but every time, I have to continue to carry it because I really can’t find it. Any reason that can remove this burden, I would rather it weigh heavily on me.
"Of course, you should forgive yourself, we can all understand you, step brother, as a brother for many years, I didn't know you were hiding such a big thing in your heart, just say it, it's okay Now, you don’t have to carry it alone anymore, we can all share the burden for you, let him go.” Jiao Ba’s words made me feel a lot more comfortable, and it seemed that the pressure in my heart was not that big. Big.
Li Xin smiled and said, "Yes, you still have us. It's okay to be loyal and loyal. It's over. As a grown man, don't cry and cry." She made me feel very warm. It was really like a wife comforting me. Husband-like, unknowingly, the relationship between Li Xin and I seems to have gotten closer, but it may be my own unilateral feeling. I don't know what other people are thinking.