Chapter 120 Mood (Part 2)
When I woke up again, it was already morning, the cloudy sky looked like it was going to rain, and the weather was a little dull. The figure of the husband is no longer in front of the window, Xiaochan has also gone to rest, and Juan'er and Xing'er are here to guard. According to Juan'er, the old lady came over one o'clock earlier. Seeing that she was sleeping, he signaled that there was no need to wake her up. He just casually asked what the charts on the table were used for. He knew that it was done by Ning Yi. He didn't ask any more questions and just let her have a good rest.
The high fever couldn't go away in just one night, so she drank another bowl of medicine. Her head felt dizzy and her mouth was full of bitter taste. The anxiety in her heart was still there, even though Li Heng said those words yesterday, but what would happen in the end... She actually already knew to some extent, but she was unwilling to do so and spent a lot of effort.
The figure was no longer in the room. Thinking of it, I felt a huge emptiness, but I finally fell into sleep. This sleep was not like the one in the early morning. All kinds of nightmares came one after another, making her unable to rest peacefully. When he woke up again, it was about noon. Ning Yi sat on the chair in front of the window again. He was whispering something to Juan'er who was standing beside him. It was probably about an account situation last year. Juan'er whispered. Explain the reason.
Xiaochan came over and said, "Miss, are you awake?" Then Ning Yi and Juan'er also turned around.
She was very tired and didn't want to talk or move. Chan'er came over and raised the pillow for her, and Li Heng stretched out his hand to cover her forehead - apart from last night, they had never been so intimate before. Contact, but it feels natural. After measuring the temperature of his forehead with the palm of his hand, the man nodded: "It seems better. Let's ask Dr. Sun to come over later." Then he said some incomprehensible words such as "It was about 40 degrees yesterday." .
Xiao Chan went out and brought a bowl of porridge and "forced" her to drink a few sips of the porridge. Soon after, Dr. Sun came over and asked about the situation. Xiao Chan occasionally said something, and Li Heng was at the table. Continue to read the ledger, record things, and only speak occasionally. She lay there and watched a group of people coming and going. There were also times when she and Ning Yi were alone in this room. The movements of the figure at the table seemed to be quick, clear and orderly, which gave people a very strange feeling. The strange feeling is very calming.
In the evening, the sky became dark, and it started to rain outside the window. The fresh air floated into the room, with an earthy smell.
She only fell asleep occasionally, and then woke up. Shopkeeper Liao and others did not enter the house that night, and there were no lights as restless as they had been for several days in the rain. What were they doing? Business Has the above situation changed? ...Occasionally, I thought in my heart that only Ning Yi, Chan'er, Juan'er, and Xing'er were staying with her in the room. A few pieces of rice paper were hung on the wall in the room. Li Heng occasionally glanced at it, which was considered as a sign of peace. The situation took on a strange color that had no clear meaning.
Although her bedroom is often used for business matters and is more grand than the bedrooms of ordinary ladies, it still has the things and decorations that many girls like. At this time, adding these rice papers will instantly make it look more elegant. The atmosphere was broken. The room was still quiet for the most part. Chan'er, Juan'er and Xing'er talked to her and Li Heng in a low voice, entering and leaving quietly. Mixed in the rain curtain, Li Heng's busyness and concentration had their own rules, and they only Brings quiet strength.
It was only this night that she remembered the thought from the early morning more clearly: Her husband was a scholar, even the most powerful talent in Jiangning.
In the early years, when I was still a girl before I got married, I longed for these things. I also fantasized more than once that I would marry some talented man in the future, even though I was the daughter of a merchant. , his family is also a big businessman after all, so it’s not like he doesn’t have such opportunities.
Since I have learned a lot about the ways of the world, such thoughts have become less common, but the longing is definitely still there. She was very interested in asking about the stories about talented men and beauties that had happened in Jiangning, the stories of Cao Guan, Li Pin and others who later became famous, and the rumors of competitions that took place at poetry banquets. Most of the time she went to the Puyuan Poetry Club to discuss business, but hearing about other poetry clubs and seeing many good poems made her feel that it was worth the money. It seemed like something from another world, but it was not. It doesn't stop her from enjoying and dreaming.
Then, life was still life, she got married according to the predetermined plan, and got married. She was said to be a scholar, but she was incompatible with a talented person. She could only be said to be a nerd. Life is life, and she can still long for the things about great poets and great talents. However, when her husband-in-law does not seem to be as stupid as she expected, and when certain things begin to overlap, she feels a little at a loss.
My husband-in-law is called the most talented man in Jiangning by some people. What should I do? She actually couldn't feel the symbols of a great talent and a great scholar here - in the past, it was clear in listening to books and watching operas that what a great talent should be was quoted from classics, and even slightly deviant legendary novels should show talent casually. It should be the center and the symbol everywhere, the kind that no one can get close to. She once dreamed of marrying a great talent, saying "Thank you for your hard work, lady" and "Thank you for your concern, ma'am" - in short, it would be as formal and distant as on the stage, but what would happen if there was no distance?
On weekdays, he speaks simply and casually, without being ostentatious or boastful, and with a sense of humor. But such a person is known as the number one genius. She would read those two poems all the time. They were not like an ordinary couple, sometimes they were almost like friends - she had never heard of such good friends. They would go to the second floor to talk every few days. Talk, say anything. Is it possible for a man and a woman to become such friends? In some storybooks, women often disguise themselves as men and make friends with others, but she has not pretended to be a man, but are there such couples? It seems that I have never heard of it.
She actually likes this feeling, so much that... she doesn’t know how to change it, or how to go further. But her understanding that her husband was a great talent had always been a bit vague to her. Only then did it become clear.
From afternoon to evening, she heard her husband ask a few questions softly, all of which were the most critical points in the accounts of the past few years. My husband is a smart man and he does these things seriously. Su Tan'er soon understood this matter, but no matter how talented she was, there was nothing she could do about it. Her husband was a great talent, and she was the daughter of a merchant. These things should have been done by herself, and she had always done so. I was trying my best to do a good job and not letting my husband feel annoyed and disturbed by these things, but at this moment, he was still involved after all.
The result is not important here. My husband could not do this well. In order to ease his heart, he said: "I will definitely do it well." But these things are not determined by determination. It can be solved, no matter what, after letting him marry in, these things will eventually affect him...
Thinking about these things in her mind, she fell asleep and woke up. At midnight, the rain was still falling, but the night seemed quiet, the light of the oil lamp was swaying, and there was only Li Heng's back sitting on the chair in the room. He was at this time I was looking at some letters to and from shopkeepers from various places. When I noticed the movement behind me, I turned my head, then put down the letter and stood up.
"Are you awake? Do you want to drink some water?"
"Well..." Su Tan'er nodded slightly.
Ning Yi raised the pillow, poured a glass of warm water from the side, and fed her a few sips: "Xing'er slept with Juan'er, Xiaochan was also very tired today, so I just lied to her. Go take a rest, but you'd better wake up when you take the medicine later, uh, if you want to..." Ning Yi looked at her late After wondering for a while, he stood up and said, "I'll call Xiaochan."
Ning Yi's hesitation had its reasons. He had deliberately disappeared several times during the day, mainly to leave time for her to get out of bed. Even though she was very cold, she still had some strength to get out of bed, so she didn't really collapse on the bed. It is difficult to talk about these private matters. In normal times, Su Tan'er's face would be red. But at this time, she was just slightly embarrassed. Seeing that Ning Yi was about to leave, she just said: "Ms. ..." When Ning Yi stopped, he whispered: "My husband is really not shy..." Of course, if he completely avoids these things or doesn't think about these things at all, he will most likely be the one who feels uncomfortable.
Ning Yi smiled: "Better?"
"It's better..."
"It will take about two or three days for the fever to subside." Ning Yi looked at her a few times and had a lot to say, but in the end he shook his head: "You feel uncomfortable, no. If you want to eat or have anything else to do, please tell me.”
He took a letter not far away. After sitting down on the chair, the room fell into silence. The autumn rain outside had already become the background. Su Tan'er looked at the figure for a long time and finally said: "My husband...why did you agree to this marriage?"
There have been similar conversations between the two of them in the past, but when they talk about it this time, the issues are obviously different. Ning Yi put down the letter and looked at Su Tan'er on the bed. After a long while, he smiled and shook his head: "I thought about talking to you about this, but... maybe in a few days, when you are more awake? You see now "I feel bad."
"I'm fine. I want to...want to know." Su Tan'er said slowly, "Does your husband also want to talk?"
"It's not why I agreed to this marriage." Ning Yi put the letter aside, moved the chair to the bed, and sat down, "Before... I have actually said it before, I don't know why I agreed to this marriage, amnesia What I want to say is not what happened before the amnesia, but... "
"What happened next?"
Ning Yi looked at her for a while, sighed, and then laughed: "Are you sure you want to hear this now?"
Su Tan'er also tried her best to smile: "If you don't listen, I won't be able to sleep... "
"Okay." Ning Yi nodded. Since Su Tan'er's consciousness was probably limited at this time, he didn't speak fast and repeated from time to time, "It's actually simple. If we don’t talk about it now, we will definitely talk about it one day... There was a man named Ning Yi and a A woman named Su Tan'er got married and got married, so that's how we met... These are already facts. Don't think about him. Whether it's fate or some combination of circumstances, it's just the two of us anyway... You are part of such a thing, what do you think?”
Su Tan'er frowned and thought for a while, not quite understanding what Ning Yi meant: "I...I am very happy..."
Ning Yi patted her hand and paused slightly. : "No matter what other people say, it's all empty. What a talented person, marrying into the wife's wife... In short, that's what happened. Life is simple. As for me, I don't think much about marrying into the wife's family. Fa, I don’t hate you... No, why not say it directly, I like you, whether it’s business or personality, you are very strong, but yes, I like this kind of personality, not to mention, You are quite beautiful too..."
Ning Yi held his chin with one hand by the bedside, speaking calmly and calmly, as if he said it casually wherever he thought. Su Tan'er was suddenly caught off guard. Even in such a weak situation, her face flushed and she stammered shyly: "My husband, my husband, do you really... like it?" "
"Yes, I like it."
"But...but, this is not the nature of ladies. "Ge... It is virtue for a woman to have no talent, and a woman's family... shouldn't be like this, they all said... this... men won't like this..." After talking incoherently for a while, Su Tan'er, who was ill, still He did not forget to emphasize some things with his eyes. After a moment, he became frustrated and said, "I... am not worthy of my husband..."
"You are so aggressive at this time. In the eyes of others, I am just a freeloader. You are better than many men..."
"My husband is not incompetent..."
Ning Yi smiled: "At this time, there is no need to belittle yourself all the time. These are not important. , there will be no result in the argument until tomorrow... Anyway, it's just between us. I'm not dissatisfied with life, I also like you, I like this yard, Chan'er, Juan'er, Myolie and so on, there are some boring people around me, Doing boring things all day long, but overall, it's okay to just live like this "It's pretty good. So, I want to tell you about this."
He shook Su Tan'er's somewhat weak palm, her fingers were round and slender, and she played with it, then settled down. : "If you don't have too much dissatisfaction, then we may have to live like this in the future. ...No matter how it was arranged in the past, things are already like this. There is no need to think about why they are like this. Anyway, I don’t hate them, so that’s it..."
He took Su Tan'er's hand. , waiting for the answer, this may also be a more important decision for Ning Yi. When he just woke up, he was prepared to leave at any time. Later, he just waited and waited, but by now, some things could probably be determined. There is no need to think about those overly romantic factors. In short, since they are called husband and wife, and since he does not dislike Su Tan'er's temper, the two of them get along fairly well. If they can't change, then it doesn't matter. The next step is nothing more. It's life.
Su Tan'er looked at him, blinking, then blinking again, her eyes were red, tears were streaming down her face, her lips were pursed tightly, and she was speechless. Ning Yi waited for a long time before lowering his head and smiling: "No matter what, I have to say something..."
"Mr. sir..." Su Tan'er's lips moved, "What happened this time Afterwards, Tan'er's body got better, and we..." The voice was choked and slightly hoarse, but her eyes were firm. In the rainy night, she paused slightly and sniffed.
"Let's consummate our marriage..."
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It's really hard for her to say this. Easy...(End of Chapter)