Summary of 2017
First of all, I would like to apologize to everyone. In the past year, the updates have been really bad.
This is my third year since I turned 30. To be fair, I have a lot to say and show off. The online literature industry is booming, and I am making more money. I don’t have to worry about expenses like I did in previous years. In 2017, the copyright of "The Son-in-law" was sold, and I started to make film and television dramas. I got two He has won several awards, one is the Silver Award of the "Second Internet Literature Biennial Award", and the other is the "Mao Dun Internet Literature Newcomer Award". He became the vice chairman of the Hunan Internet Writers Association, participated in several activities, and accepted several interviews. , it can be said that it is very satisfying for vanity.
Life with my family is basically back on track. We bought a puppy, a border collie for more than two months. Ten days after the puppy came into the house, I was in a state of high tension. I often couldn't go to bed early, but I had to get up early to make food for the puppy. , change the diaper under the cage, clean up the feces, watch and teach the puppy where to go to the toilet every day, etc. The puppy is named Little Bear, which is very cute.
The reason why I bought this puppy is because my body has to start exercising. Last year, I found that I could no longer do a pull-up. I had gallstones and fatty liver, and maybe There are more questions. While I was immersed in writing books for a long time, I rarely took time to exercise. Even after I realized the problem, intermittent exercise actually couldn't solve many problems. Border collies are very active dogs. After one year old, their daily exercise starts at about 30 kilometers and can even run 90 kilometers. We were not aware of this problem before buying them. After we bought them, we checked the information and I said so.
Anyway, if everything goes well, this puppy will torment me for more than ten years, and it will probably allow me to maintain a good body and reach the other side of writing. Although I have been tired every day for these ten days, in the park of the community the night before yesterday, I found I can do a pull-up myself... Anyway, this is where I am at the age of thirty-three, and I have no way of measuring whether it's all worth it.
The puppy was finally able to go to the toilet on a diaper and stopped fussing in the cage. In the past two days, I found time to make coffee and sit in front of the computer to type. Suddenly, I felt a sense of freshness that I had not seen for a long time. , just like the feeling I had when I was in school. After class and homework, I would write down the beginning of a story in my self-study class or in my spare time between classes, full of longing for the beauty of literature.
Today is the 26th, and there are still a few days left in the year 17 , I wrote a small beginning and thought it was interesting, and then I found a song that I haven’t heard for a long time. A song that I have heard but is very important to me is "Tell You" by Wang Zheng. When I was writing "Hidden Killing", I listened to this song over and over again. I imagined a mother looking at her child, I hummed my longing for his future, but this night I suddenly saw myself.
“Like you, I don’t know what’s in the future
I really want to block the wind, rain and confusion for you
Let your sky only see rainbows
Until one day you become me..."
When I was a teenager, I had a hobby for literature, but it gradually turned gray at that time. In my life, it always gives me a place to live temporarily, where I see new worlds and experience life one after another. When I was in my early twenties. I gave up college and wrote all kinds of novel things in my spare time. I read what people think and I get excited every time I figure something out.
< br>I admire Balzac, I admire Hugo, I admire Lu Xun, I admire Lu Yao, I admire Shi Tiesheng... I admire every author who reaches the state of perfection. As I said before, "Zhu". When "Sister-in-law" came out, people said I was ambitious. No, my goal in the fourth grade of elementary school was to write "War and Peace." People who don't have this idea are incomprehensible to me.
I am thirty. At three years old, what is different from the past? I think it is that I can already measure the specific distance between myself and perfection. Knowing that I had to go somewhere far away in the end, I was full of fighting spirit and enjoyment. But as I gradually measured the distance between myself and perfection, life and literature became more and more demanding for me. . Measuring the distance does not mean that I will be able to reach it in this life, but every step after that, I can only be cautious.
Now I look at my former self who embraced literature in embarrassment, and I am very envious. I had a lot to say to him, but it was so fast that he turned into me in the blink of an eye.
I think that I will become someone else in the future.
Not long ago, someone sent me a private message on Weibo, which is a common message: This person thinks that my "Hidden Killing" is the best, and he was very happy to follow it, "The Son-in-law" He didn't like the writing because it was bad. He went to post it and was deleted and banned. This person thought that he really felt that "The Son-in-law" was bad. He couldn't get angry over and over again and had to come to me to tell me this... ...seems to be expecting some kind of answer from me.
After taking one look, I put the person on the blacklist.
I never retain anyone, and I never care who likes which of my books. I don’t care about this kind of "sincerity", which really means nothing to me.
What is the truth?
Each of us is moving forward. What I wanted to write when I was thirty must be different from what I wanted to write when I was twenty. The world I saw when I was thirty must be different from what I saw when I was twenty. When I was four Recalling my youth when I was ten years old, and "Hidden Killing" There must be differences in the feelings described in "Hidden Killing" some time ago. I wanted to write some stories about Gu Jiaming, Ye Lingjing, and Liu Huaisha when they were forty and fifty years old. In my mind The feeling inside is very warm and cozy.
In the end I didn’t write it either.
Time is too cruel, "Hidden Killing" is already good, there is no need to make people cry anymore.
On Weibo, I have become a different person from many people. What I write is very serious, which is very different from when I was 20 years old. When I was 20 years old, I also liked to be relaxed and relaxed. I won’t write about happy things now. When I was writing a book, I broke down some so-called truths and put them into it. I am usually not so tolerant on Weibo, because Weibo is a place for me to have fun, and I just follow my temper and don’t bother to care about the audience. As my thoughts gradually became incompatible with those of my simple-minded friends, I suddenly realized that maybe one day, I would become like those stubborn old people, saying things that only I could understand, sighing at the degradation of the world, People are hopeless.
At that time, did I become profound or corrupt? I think it's possible.
I can only guarantee that the direction of my change must go through my repeated thinking.
I used to tell people that when my son-in-law became popular, I could choose a super profitable direction. If my quality dropped and I updated every day, I would convince myself at that time that updating was the right thing. The biggest responsibility of readers is to laugh at people who update a few chapters a month for their lack of professional ethics. That "I" will certainly not think that there is anything wrong with itself.
The same is true for me today and me in the future.
A person who liked "Hidden Killing" eight years ago hopes that I will continue to write "Hidden Killing" eight years later. It is a pity. When I was willing to write "Hidden Killing", we bumped into each other. It was fate. When I wanted to write "The Son-in-Law", it was my fate with other people. When it comes to my next book, it will also be my fate with other people. So I never dwell on these things. When the ideas are in sync, people come, and when they don’t, they leave. Instead of thinking about serving tens of thousands or hundreds of thousands of readers, I think I can only be myself. So as you can see, hey, I don’t have many fans either. I prefer to regard it as a fate of like-minded people.
The 18th year is coming soon. In the new year, activities will probably be reduced as much as possible. I hope that I can complete "The Son-in-law" as soon as possible with the enthusiasm tonight. I hope my health will get better, and I hope the puppy will be well behaved. , I hope the goddess of literature can take care of me as always, and I hope everyone can be in good health and everything goes well.
Another: The simplified Chinese version of "The Son-in-Law" has been submitted and is in the proofreading stage. It should be available in bookstores in 18 years.
Sincerely, salute. (End of this chapter)