Chapter 47: The innocent yet cruel murdering primary school student
"...What all the classmates and teachers at Fujimi Academy don't know is that I almost killed someone before - one night four years ago, when I was a junior high school student, a madman wanted to He attacked me from behind and wanted to violate me. Of course, I didn't lose as I had a wooden knife in my hand. I broke the guy's shoulder blade and thigh bone with just a few blows, causing the idiot to scream and faint. ”
Standing on the rooftop balcony of the Takagi family residence, facing the dawn, Busujima Saeko told Wang Qiu about her past.
"...This is just a normal self-defense counterattack!" Wang Qiu curled his lips, "...If a girl from our side defeated the idiot, she would definitely think that she was an incredible woman with unparalleled martial arts skills. A knight. Then brag about it in the class and enjoy the admiration of your classmates..."
"...The police who handled the case at the time thought so too, so they regarded it as self-defense and did not hold me accountable at all. They even sent me home in a patrol car... But the problem was... at that time I I feel so happy! It’s not that I feel relieved because I defeated the idiot, but I feel extremely happy just because I can do violence to others!”
Busujima Saeko's voice became even deeper, "...that time four years ago, I actually deliberately pretended to be scared to lure the man into further action. Then I launched a counterattack without hesitation - ah, that bone The sound when it is broken, the expression of pained moaning, the pungent blood splashing, Everything makes me feel extremely happy, and I can't help but want to challenge more thugs, break their bones, and listen to their moans... It's all so happy, so happy that I can't control it. Myself! I discovered that this is the true nature of me, Busujima Saeko!
After that, I tried hard to suppress my violent factor, and even hated myself for it... However, in this disaster where the living dead were rampant, I was horrified to find that I was once again intoxicated by power and happy. In it, the urge to kill cannot be restrained at all - while fighting zombies It was like this at that time, and it was also like this when I knew that troubled times were coming. Apart from fear, waves of excitement filled my heart, and I wanted to release the urge to kill. When I thought of this, I felt so scared. I don’t look like a normal girl at all..."
——Wang Qiu’s expression was completely embarrassing for Busujima Saeko’s confession.
Your character profile is clearly that of a violent lady who is good at fighting and killing, but why are you still such an awkward literary girl at heart?
Did you know that with such a contradictory setting, if there is no aura of the protagonist, he will often die quickly in reality?
——I have to admit that post-war Japan has gone a bit too far in terms of "de-militarism", so much so that while advocating fighting and violence in comics, it also advocates wasteful cuteness and delicate beauty in reality... As a result Even a master of swordsmanship like Busushima Saeko is hypocritical.
"...Ahem! Well...although I'm not a psychiatrist, I still don't think there's any big problem with your mental state, Busujima-san, this is just the most common battlefield syndrome at most - if If the desire to defeat an opponent with violence is considered an ugly psychology, then every boxer, martial artist, and sumo wrestler standing in the ring should be imprisoned in a mental hospital."
Wang Qiu scratched his hair and explained to her, "...Strictly speaking, the passion for violence and fighting, and the pursuit of all kinds of powerful power, are the innate instincts of each of us, from ancient times to the present. , has never changed. Of course, boys are more obvious in this regard, so they have been since childhood. They like to play fighting games, while girls prefer to play with dolls and play house... But there are also many examples of the opposite. For example, when I was a child, I was often beaten with my fists by Senior Sister Ma Tong... Hey, these days There are really more and more wild girls..."
Having said this, Wang Qiu couldn't help but smile bitterly, "...In fact, if you live in a tribe in the barbaric era, then your preference for violence is a necessity for survival! Of course, we are civilized people, different from beasts and barbarians, You will use the law to limit your violent instincts. Don't you always abide by it? No matter how the beast in your heart roars, you still maintain your consciousness as a civilized person. This is enough.
What's more, now that the end of the world has arrived, everyone must fight for survival. This is the time to unleash the beast in you..."
"...It's not that I don't understand this, but the problem is..." Busujima Saeko said with a bitter smile, "...a woman like me who has blood on her hands and a beast in her heart, and still enjoys it, can she really Is it accepted by other companions? ”
——Well, I didn’t expect that you appear to be an Amazon female warrior, but in your heart you are a Yamato Nadeshiko... No wonder you have a demonic barrier!
Perhaps because his spine was broken during the war, in postwar Japan, the entire social atmosphere was somewhat closer to that of China's Song Dynasty. Soldiers, who were respected before the war, simply became the target of discrimination after the war, so much so that there were strange cases of self-defense members being unable to apply for household registration. For "heroes" with powerful weapons, most ordinary Japanese praise them in comics, but at the same time question and fear them in real life. They wish to stay away from them, and even create the idea of "weak groups fear powerful individuals" And trying to expel it" is a ridiculous farce.
Of course, in a peaceful era of stability, glitz and smoke, this approach is far from absolutely wrong. After all, in that era, individual force was no longer important to a highly developed civilized society... However, it was already the end of the world. In this cruel world where the weak eat the strong, the weak can only survive by relying on the strong. Warriors with powerful weapons will surely become the unequivocal ruling class of the whole society, just like the Japanese samurai in the shogunate era and the European knights in the Middle Ages - cf. Those who do not understand this deserve to be eliminated by the times!
Moreover, what kind of cruel things did Busujima Saeko do? At best, he injured a few idiots in the past and killed a few zombies recently. Just like this, it already has a psychological burden, and even gradually becomes dirty and unclear... Then those revolutionary martyrs in the revolutionary era, the superheroes in American comics, and even most of the detectives in the Metropolitan Police Department How to live?
But what should we do to help this troubled artistic girl break through her mental barriers and become clear-minded?
Wang Qiu thought about it, and finally felt that it would be better to find a few typical examples to express his opinions - such as Doraemon's five-person team.
"...To be honest, Busujima-san, in my opinion, your psychological burden of violence and killing really makes you feel like you are torturing yourself. Look at the elementary school students around Doraemon. A person who doesn’t live a life of fighting and killing all day long, especially Nobita Nobita, who just recently I just personally killed 200,000 people in Bianliang City in the Northern Song Dynasty! But now you are not going to school and taking exams and playing baseball every day, and you are living a happy life? I think, Mr. Busu Dao, you are a high school student? , I can’t believe that my mental endurance is not as good as that of a primary school student..."
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Nobi Nobita, a fifth-grade elementary school student, is a good friend who lives under the same roof as Doraemon, and a super adventurer who has traveled through countless worlds.
——And the murderous schoolboy who once went on a killing spree in the multiverse and wiped out countless creatures.
Destroyed at least hundreds of aliens in the space war, defeated the Iron Man Legion in the Earth Defense War, fought against the robot army in the Platinum Maze, and supported the dog prince in the African tropical forest to rebel and restore the country. , helped the animals defeat the invaders on the animal planet, in ancient times He saved the ancestors of the Japanese nation in the tribal melee of the era, and eliminated thousands of demons in the world of "Journey to the West"... And just at the head of Bianliang City in the late Northern Song Dynasty, he even controlled the twenty-two The interstellar warfare weapon of the century swept away the two hundred thousand golden soldiers besieging the city!
However, despite going through so many mountains of corpses and seas of blood and having such extraordinary killing experiences, he is still so innocent and kind. He still lives a life of "getting zero marks in class every day and being scolded by the teacher, playing baseball after school and being laughed at by his classmates." , go home and continue the ordinary daily life of being lectured by my mother.
Therefore, Nobi Nobita said that he could not understand Busujima Saeko's tangled self-loathing mentality of enjoying violence but resisting violence.
"...When you defeat the bad guys, do you feel self-loathing? Sister, why do you ask such a strange question? Isn't it a man's duty to defeat the bad guys? If you are defeated by the bad guys and run home crying, That would be even more embarrassing!”
"...Eh? Are girls unable to get married because they are too violent? How is that possible! Even the gentle and lovely Shizuka Minamoto likes to wear [universal gloves] to play wrestling with gorillas in the tropical rain forest! I also like her very much (whisper + blush)..."
Next, Minamoto Shizuka, Onikawa Koo and Takeda Takeda also joined the discussion, happily bragging to Busujima Saeko about their respective combat experiences - using [Magnifying Light] to turn into a giant and turn the enemy into a bug. Just as crushed to death! Use [Air Cannon] to blast the enemy to pieces! There are also things like directly using baseballs to blow up alien battleships... It sounds like a person is very happy. It seems that he is not doing anything bloody to kill people, but going to the forest to catch beautiful insects. It's like digging up earthworms with a small shovel in the park. Busujima Saeko was stunned for a moment.
Well, what's the saying? The most innocent children can often do the cruelest things because they don't know what cruelty is!
But on the other hand, if you have to do some of the most cruel things, you might as well keep yourself as innocent as a child, forget what cruelty is, and throw away all psychological burdens to avoid the collapse of your own mind. ——In anime terms, it’s “blackening”!
——In an apocalypse where the jungle prevails and force prevails, brave and rational strong men can become heroes, and bloodthirsty and tyrannical warriors like Busujima Saeko can also live well; as for those who are honest and responsible, they can also pass. Cling to the strong, serve the strong and survive.
But there are two kinds of people who will most likely end up miserable - the first is the Virgin White Lotus, who has boundless love and completely disregards her own abilities; the second is the arrogant and arrogant little arrogance who has no trouble making trouble... The former is those who oppose the police blockade at Yubieqiaotou protest groups, the latter ranging in size from Takagi Saya to Sister is a typical representative - talking about this eldest lady who always had troubles along the way, Wang Qiu couldn't help but feel a little puzzled: Compared with her **** teacher and busty classmates, this guy's breasts It's not particularly plump, so why has the brain shrunk due to lack of nutrition?
Although in this zombie disaster that instantly destroyed the old world, as an ordinary girl with a fragile psychology, she was unwilling to face the bloody world and did not want to believe this cruel reality. It seemed to be human nature. But a naughty kid like you who repeatedly seeks death and provocation... Well, if it weren't for Doraemon, their moral integrity and tolerance are too high, and Saya Takagi has a powerful and good father, Saya Takagi, the arrogant young lady who always does her harm, should have been thrown out and bitten by zombies long ago for re-education!
——Just like in peaceful times when life was affluent, arrogant and funny cats might be very popular and given preferential treatment. But once it comes to the war period when supplies are scarce and life is difficult, such pets, which lack practical use and are not obedient enough, are the first to be abandoned by families in need...
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In short, watching these innocent yet cruel primary school students talk about how to kill people, Wang Qiu suddenly had the urge to smoke a cigarette.
——Although he has never had the habit of smoking, and he rarely drinks alcohol, even beer, he can be regarded as a moral model for college students in the class.
As an ordinary person who was suddenly thrown into a god game and had to struggle to survive in a horror movie, Wang Qiu also had a similar mental journey.
In general, Wang Qiu never thinks that he is a genius, let alone a strange person. He is just an ordinary college student who is a little more diligent and harder than others. His greatest hope has always been His own efforts can be rewarded, and it is not in vain that his parents worked hard to bring him up. Then, if fate can be better for him, he hopes to find a girl who likes him and likes him, and spends his life peacefully - this is the little hope in his heart and his hope for the future. all expectations.
However, since the moment I arrived in the infinite space, all these ordinary wishes have disappeared.
——In the tragic horror movie plot space, he doesn't know when he will die, let alone how he will die, but... no matter what, he still wants to live, no matter how slim the hope is. , he still wanted to find a glimmer of hope to survive from despair and terror - fortunately, he got lucky in the end, defeated the Lord God with the help of external forces, and regained his freedom.
Now, he has temporarily got rid of the cruel gladiatorial arena and is no longer a gladiator for people's entertainment. He can finally use a relatively objective and calm look to look at how people in other worlds are in danger of life and death. Struggle while trying to make a profit while saving the world...
"...How's it going? Doraemon? Are the Gao Cheng family already collecting money?" Wang Qiu asked casually as Doraemon appeared behind him.
"...Well, they were very cooperative. The whole house was turned upside down in search of valuable things that could be pawned."
Doraemon had a pleasant smile on his face, and it was obvious that he had become a lot more sinister these days, "... I must have stuffed all the family's treasures into the [automatic pawn machine]... Humans are such creatures. , As long as there is a little hope, we will never give up!" "...And we will indeed save them, won't we?" Wang Qiu winked at Doraemon equally.