Chapter 126 I lied to you
The disappointment in his father's eyes deeply hurt Lin Yan's heart.
In my impression, my father has always been a very gentle person. If one day he is no longer gentle, then someone must have gone too far.
She had gone too far.
"Xu Zhiyan is a very good person..." Finally, the young man couldn't help it anymore, whether it was because of his rebellious spirit or because he was desperately trying to save something:
"But..." Her throat was also choked with sobs: "But Xu Zhiyan, who is very good and very good, couldn't even live past the age of eighteen."
"Lu Xingye is also a very good person, but he failed to get out of that mountain..."
"A disgusting existence like the Crow family was able to escape unharmed after severely injuring the Lin family, and even caused trouble again eleven years later."
"Father..." Maybe Lin Yan didn't realize that she was already in tears:
"This is outrageous!"
Lin Chen felt very sad. He hugged his daughter and sighed heavily, "My little Chang'an..."
He clearly wanted to say that it doesn't matter. I'm here and I can solve everything. You don't have to fall into the quagmire.
But when the words came to his lips, he just sighed and said: "You are only eighteen years old..."
The young girl, who was only eighteen years old, had not yet experienced the warmth of this world, and this world already disgusted her.
"I have to grow up," she cried.
Her identity meant that she had to face all this. All Lin Chen could do was to block out all the darkness as much as possible before her ability to bear it fully grew.
He couldn't protect his daughter all his life. One day she would have to face the malice from this world alone. But when that time comes, who else can accompany my little Chang'an?
Who else can redeem her?
"Hold on, kid... you have to hold on."
"If...if one day, I can't hold on anymore..."
Her eyes were broken but determined.
"Father, don't blame me."
Lin Chen closed his eyes in pain.
This will be the Sword of Damocles that will always hang over the two of them. However, when that day comes, Lin Chen can only pray that his little Chang'an will not blame him.
……
After the conversation, Lin Yan couldn't help but go back and look through the images left by Xu Zhiyan countless times.
She saw the photos taken by Aunt Lu of Xu Zhiyan as a child, and saw the blond boy pestering his mother again and again to tell her the story of bringing him back from the orphanage.
"At that time, the director told us that you had congenital leukemia, so we took you to the hospital. We thought, if the matching is successful, we will take you back. If not, we will take you to travel around the world and let you I can be a happy little angel," Lu Zhizhi said, stroking Xu Zhiyan's hair.
Later, Lin Yan learned the last piece of the story from his father: the year Lin Yan was born, the institute sent samples of hematopoietic stem cells that were about to be destroyed.
Fate is sometimes so wonderful. Lu Zhizhi smiled and told his son: "Your little sister's stem cells saved a total of six children, including you."
"Wow!" The young Xu Zhiyan's eyes were filled with admiration: "She must be a very, very, very, very good person."
"Then we, Xiao Xu, will also become a very, very, very, very good person in the future!"
The blond boy nodded heavily and said: "I'm not as powerful as her. I just hope that in the future, if she gets sick one day and becomes seriously ill, I can save her like she saved me."< br>
She didn't know Xu Zhiyan at that time, but Xu Zhiyan had never been absent from her every year before she was 16 years old.
It wasn't until the day she got the video diary that Lin Yan learned that on March 14th every year, Xu Zhiyan prepared every birthday gift Aunt Lu sent her back from abroad. Sometimes it's a picture album, sometimes it's a string of shining moon stones, sometimes it's a handmade shell wind chime... The gifts may be light or heavy, and they are all thoughtful.
When Lin Yan was 14 years old, he even received a set of CD records! Vinyl is definitely a rare thing in this era, and not many people care about this antique anymore.
Lin Yan was extremely happy. Her father specially bought a CD player for her. She put the record in and listened to it over and over again. It was her favorite Bach.
In the days when they had never met, Xu Zhiyan had already pictured her in his heart thousands of times.
His obsession was so deep that when leukemia recurred for the second time, he signed an organ donation agreement without hesitation.
"I didn't expect that the joke I made when I was young would actually come true." Xu Zhiyan, who had just been diagnosed with leukemia relapse, pointed the camera at herself and said with a smile as she walked outside the clinic.
But even if he smiled again, there were still a little tears in his eyes.
"I won't accompany you this time...but I leave my whole heart with you, Yan, be happy~"
Lin Yan couldn't stop himself from recalling some beautiful things, nor could he stop himself from hating the filthiness of the world.
She could only watch the video over and over again and ask again and again: "Ivan... what do you think I should do..."
The shadow of the white-haired woman stood beside her, but this time Lin Yan didn't call her mother, she just called Yi Wen over and over again.
She knows the difference between reality and fiction better than anyone else, but she longs to indulge in a lucid dream more than anyone else.
In the middle of the night, she fell asleep among the fragments of information on the ground. While she was sleeping, the code composed of 0s and 1s was reconstructed countless times.
No matter how much you cherish them, people will always grow up and like the new and dislike the old. Therefore, most of those 16 birthday gifts have been lost in the torrent of time. Only the string of handmade wind chimes still hung by Lin Yan's window day and night, sending strings of ringtones one after another in her dreams.
Finally, she dreamed that the white-haired woman left a soft kiss on her forehead.
When she woke up, there was only Ivan's emotionless electronic voice saying good morning to her.
No shells and wind chimes, no kisses, no old people.
"Ewen, help me check the route. I want to find Lu Xingye."
……
When she opened the door to the ward, Xie Shuyan was still awake, and next to the bed was Lu Xingye, who had obviously been awake all night.
Seeing Lin Yan, Lu Xingye wanted to say something, but Lin Yan shook his head and made a silent gesture.
So he finally pressed the quilt for Xie Shuyan, closed the door, and followed Lin Yan to the living room outside the ward.
The first moment he came out, Lu Xingye held her hand tightly: "Chang'an, I..."
He thought about it all night, but obviously still couldn't think of how to speak.
Before that, they were still boyfriend and girlfriend, but now, within just two days, he no longer dared to look into Lin Yan's eyes.
"I'm sorry..."
That was all he seemed to be able to say.
"I... lied to you."
(End of chapter)