The curtains in the quiet ward were tightly closed, and various instruments were surrounding the bed. The person on the bed had a clear face, but it could not stop the dark blue staining under his eyes that would never fade away.
Li Yan was pacing outside the door. She had been busy with the company's affairs all day long. She had ignored it for too long and didn't notice anything wrong with Ye Gu. If it hadn't been for the accident today, she might not have noticed.
Ye Chengming pulled Li Yan down beside him, grabbed her hand meaningfully and held it tightly.
"It'll be okay. Agu's body has already recovered. This time it's just a slight fever and a cold, plus the reason for staying up late before. Don't blame yourself, Agu won't want you to feel guilty."
Li Yan frowned, but she didn't want to increase his psychological burden.
As dusk approached, the person on the bed finally woke up. He raised his hand and saw the bracelet on his hand. He paused for a few seconds, untied it and threw it away.
"You can't leave now! You haven't recovered yet!"
"Don't touch me!"
Ye Gu pushed everyone away, with long-silent violence in his eyes, and stumbled toward the elevator among the crowd.
When Li Yan came out of the department, she saw Ye Gu looking at the doctors and nurses around him defensively, gasping for breath and speaking sharply.
"Agu! Calm down, I am mom, can you come to mom? Tell me what you want to do, and I will take you there, okay?"
Li Yan carefully stuffed the list in her hand into her pocket, stretched out her hands and got closer to Ye Gu.
Ye Gu stared at her with distant and wary eyes, but soon he took a half step back and shook his head, as if he had sobered up for a moment.
"Mom, I'm calm. I won't go there. I want to go out. I want to find her. I'll come back when I find her, okay? Please..."
Li Yan's heart suddenly shrank, she pursed her lips tightly and clearly captured those two words.
Ye Gu was so proud. He had never begged anyone. Even when he was hit by his grandfather's crutches and couldn't stand up, he never said such words.
Li Yan's voice trembled slightly and she looked at him: "What did you just say? Mom didn't hear clearly..."
Without any hesitation, "Please, please let me go."
Li Yan's heart was troubled by colic and screamed about the sharpness of the blade.
She held back her tears and waved her hand, "Okay, you go ahead. I won't stop you, but if you don't find it, you have to promise me not to indulge in this matter in the future. Can you do it?"
One second, two seconds, three seconds——
"I promise you."
A few minutes after leaving, Li Yan called and asked a few people to follow Ye Gu silently.
He is still sick. Even if he is allowed to leave the hospital, Li Yan must avoid all accidents.
But it seems that sometimes the truth just likes to go in the opposite direction, and always likes to make all kinds of harmless jokes with the world.
Those two hours were Ye Gu's most desperate two hours so far.
No light, no her, no hope.
In the hotel closest to the airport, it was Luoyang's most frequented hotel. Whenever she had a conflict with Luo Jiancheng, she would run away from home and stay there temporarily.
Ye Gu can even recite the room number she often chooses.
The elevator malfunctioned, destroying all progress, and the sudden extinguishing of the lights knocked over the last tongue of joy in Ye Gu's candlestick.
Some time before the elevator fell, he thought he had arrived at the gate of hell.
But God didn't want it. The elevator got stuck in the middle. He didn't know whether it was luck or misfortune. His breathing gradually became weak. Ye Gu tried to dispel the fear in his heart bit by bit in the corner, but fell deeper into the trap every time he comforted himself. mud.
"You'll always find me, won't you?"
"If someone must come to me, then that person must be Ye Gu."
"You'll always find me missing, won't you?"
"Will you find me?"
Will it...
Like a revolving lantern, the scenes of finding Luo Yang in front of the shabby house while camping that day passed by his eyes frame by frame, and the words he said floated down like subtitles and fell in front of his eyes, constantly magnifying until they blocked his entire sight.
In the past, Ye Gu always liked to make various bets with Luo Yang. Every time the bet ended, Luo Yang failed. Everyone said that Luo Yang probably had bad luck in gambling.
So this time is also a bet on whether he can find her?
Ye Gu was exhausted and couldn't help but lowered his eyes. There were beads of sweat on his forehead and the broken hair on his forehead was covered with it.
"Ahe, you bet so big this time..."
What should I do if I lose...
Ye Gu did not break his promise. He promised Li Yan and never mentioned anything about Luo Yang again.
But since then, he has never taken an elevator again, and rarely goes to the hospital. He even hates it.
Everything seemed to be back on track. Ye Gu once again became a man of the hour in the university. His grades were at the top every year, he was good at various activities, and he enjoyed the spotlight.
Xi Jinzhou occasionally went to see him and just sighed. No matter how he tried to persuade him to give himself a chance to take a break, he would always use the student union work to evade.
Bian Yao saw Xi Jinzhou at the door, but before he spoke, Xi Jinzhou just shook his head gently, with a calm tone, as if he was used to it.
"To untie the bell, you must tie the bell. He is very persistent and will not look back until he hits the wall."
"Then did he find her?"
Xi Jinzhou looked at the sky and pondered, unsure in his heart.
If Ye Gu really wanted to accomplish something, not everyone would know about it, so he couldn't be sure whether Ye Gu had already started looking for people to ask about Luo Yang's news.
Bian Yao didn't take it seriously, "I think he must have found her a long time ago. It's just because Luo Yang has never mentioned her in front of us. He is afraid that she will run away again."
Xi Jinzhou said nothing and fell into deep thought.
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"No specific location?"
"No one knows? Then look for it again."
In the study, Ye Gu spoke calmly. After hanging up the phone, he stared at the bear doll on the table for a long time without saying a word. He reached out to pick it up, dusted it off, smoothed the hair and put it back again.
This is Luo Yang's third year away. Graduation is no longer far away. For a long time, he has developed the habit of using busyness to numb himself. But every time he is free, he will be uncontrollably occupied by one person. The space is so crowded that there is no chance to think.
The storm was about to come, and he could only attribute this situation to a counterproductive result.
When Li Yan knocked on the door and came in, Ye Gu was in a daze.
"Eat some fruit, why don't you go to bed so late?"
Ye Gu said in a shallow tone, "Thank you, Mom. I'm not sleepy yet. I still have some student union matters to resolve."
Li Yan nodded vaguely, "Go to bed early after eating. You can still get up and do it tomorrow."
When she pushed the door open and went out, Li Yan stopped for a moment. After thinking about it, she turned to Ye Gu and said, "If you want to find it, go ahead. Mom won't stop you."
Ye Gu was slightly startled, as if he was trying to determine the authenticity of Li Yan's words, but Li Yan's unblinking eyes made him unable to find any flaws.
He gave up and sighed. It seemed that when it came to her, he could always avoid it, and even being seen through by others was common.
"What if I can't find it? What if I lose-"
"You won't lose. She may be waiting for someone to find her. Who do you want that person to be?"
Ye Gu was silent for a long time, stood up from the desk, walked over and hugged Li Yan gently, his voice was slightly muffled.
"Will you blame me?" Li Yan patted him on the back, slowly like telling him a story when he was a child.
"What's your fault?"
"Blame me for being willful."
Li Yan left his embrace and looked directly at Ye Gu solemnly.
"Agu, you should know that Luo Yang is more than just my friend's daughter. After Yang Yue left, I treated her as my own daughter. It was not just you who found her crazy, but also me. ”
"Agu, you must always remember that before we had this family, Yang Yue was the most important person to me. After having you, I have more important people than you, but this never means that she is no longer important. , Luoyang is her life, I have lost her once, I can’t let her lose an important person, can you understand?”
Ye Gu's eyes were deep. He had always known that Li Yan and Yang Yue had a good relationship, but Li Yan had never told him about Yang Yue directly. Today was the first time.
Feeling Li Yan's strong sadness, Ye Gu ended the conversation.
He had never seen Li Yan cry. Even at Yang Yue's funeral, Li Yan never shed tears. However, Ye Gu saw Li Yan more than once at night holding the voice notes that Yang Yue sent her before his death. Open and play repeatedly.
It was as if she was still there, still the girl who loved to share her daily life with her.
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On the eve of the new year, Ye Gu dressed in simple clothes and got on a plane to England without telling anyone.
When Xi Jinzhou found out, Ye Gu had already arrived in England for two days.
"So you still want to find her?" Xi Jinzhou was not surprised at all.
Ye Gu also tacitly acquiesced that they could know each other's thoughts even if they didn't have to inform them of everything before.
Xi Jinzhou slowly stopped tapping his hand on the table.
"Do you know where she is?"
"I don't know, but someone saw her in Cambridgeshire, England, but lost her. She was very alert, which is good." At least this way, she is better able to protect herself than before.
Xi Jinzhou smiled helplessly, "I'm so proud of you after I lost you. I really can't figure you out. So what should I do now? Christmas is coming soon, and it might be even harder to find you then."
Ye Gu silently looked at the street scene outside the window and murmured: "I must win this game. You don't have to worry about me. By the way, no one in the Luo family must know about this."
Xi Jinzhou paused and responded.
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It was Christmas, and Ye Gu was bored. He was holding on to the few clues about Luoyang without any clue. He was wandering the streets alone when he saw a small tavern with a modest appearance. The wooden decoration was unexpectedly warm.
Ye Gu didn't like alcohol, but he was not in a good mood at that time. After a mental struggle, he finally walked in. He looked about the same age as him, but his skin color was different.
Everyone was chatting heartily. Ye Gu was sitting next to the door, feeling their joy from a distance and feeling calm in his heart.
He is not a sociable person. He is the center of attention in the student union, so as long as he wants, he can immediately integrate into the strange small group, and at least he can survive the loneliness of this night.
But in the end, he did nothing. He just ordered a glass of mulled wine, sat by the window, and looked at the couples walking by on the street. Occasionally, there was a family of three, and the child was jumping happily, holding wave candy in his hand. , was also his childhood obsession.
The glass of red wine was steaming with heat, and he didn't take a sip from the beginning to the end.
"Lea, why are you here!" With a burst of exclamation, a British girl among the students at the table jumped down from the high chair, "You are so beautiful today!"
The boys around her were also attracted. The Chinese girl in front of her looked like the image she had always been dedicated to studying. She was like an independent rose. Even a gentle touch would hurt her delicate petals.
Ye Gu hummed silently in his heart. Although the guy left without saying a word, there were still few people who could be more unique than her.
"Thank you, Ada, but I'm not used to this dress. Maybe I'd better change back."
Ye Gu's eardrums suddenly experienced auditory hallucinations. He couldn't believe it. There was a battle between heaven and man in his mind, but he still didn't go too far.
Is it her? Such a similar voice, even if it is an imitation, may not be so familiar.
No, it won't be hers, no.
Ye Gu kept denying himself. He had imagined many possibilities of finding her, but he never thought it would be such an ordinary thing.
Just a second ago, Ye Gu was still trying to deceive himself. It was impossible to meet her by such a coincidence.
But the scene in front of him was clear. He met Luo Yang.
The velvet skirt decorated with pure white plush edges made the girl look like an exquisite little bunny. Her shoulder and neck lines as white as milk were perfectly displayed. She smiled and sat down next to her classmates. Her smile was gentle and soft.
In front of him was Luo Yang, whom he had not seen for almost three years. She had grown into a graceful figure and was no longer the ignorant girl constrained by school uniforms back then.
She has a nice English name, Lea, and she has many friends and, obviously, many admirers.
Ye Gu just looked at her from a short distance away, looking at Luoyang who he had missed for two years. She was shining here. He hid in the corner and stared at it for a long time, as if he wanted to carve that look into his eyes. , like a clown who is not on the stage, greedy and jealous, he will even feel jealous of the wine glass in her hand.
That day, Luo Yang and his friends played in the tavern for as long as Ye Gu stayed. He knew the joy of every victory she felt and witnessed her annoyance every time she failed.
With vivid expressions, they had never been so close in the past few years. As long as she called her name, he might be able to talk to her, but until the end, he didn't.
He didn't dare, he couldn't even open his mouth.
Watching Luo Yang leave, he didn't dare to come forward. He just hid in a place with no light. He saw her stopping at the door of a wedding dress shop. She looked at a wedding dress embroidered with roses and sighed with her friends: "I really hope I can have a flower that belongs to me." My everlasting rose.”
Ye Gu stopped for a long time, turned around and returned to the tavern, left a blue note on the wall and left.
He didn't know why he believed in such an elusive thing as fate, but at the instigation of the tavern owner, he decided to try.
This is a tradition in the tavern——
The tavern owner is an interesting and sentimental person. He will let everyone who comes to the bar leave some messages they want to write on the wall.
At Christmas time, he would ask the person who left the note to choose another person who had the eye to leave a gift, and then he would deliver it to him.
That day, the boss saw Ye Gu alone and even waived the money for the glass of mulled wine. Ye Gu couldn't resist the boss's warm invitation, so he left a note on the message wall.
The content of the note is not long, just one sentence——
If I disappear, will you look for me?
(End of chapter)
The author said: Inexplicably, I feel that Ye Gu is very persistent. It is a persistence that I am afraid I cannot achieve. Help QAQ