Late in the spring, Luo Yang and Sang Huai met to go to the temple.
In the third year after marriage, nothing seems to have changed. Ye Gu still often plays tricks on her like a child. He is always worried that she will secretly hide her worries and not tell him, so he always tries to make her happy in various ways.
It's rare that Ye Gu has many meetings to be held in the company today, so Luo Yang accepted Sang Huaiyu's invitation.
Qingyu Mountain is a summer resort. It is spring, and the temperature on the mountain is even cooler. Luo Yang wants to touch the coat in his bag, but Sang Huaiyu hands one over.
Luo Yang was stunned and slowly took it: "Are you so well prepared? In the past, you preferred coolness and lightness in spring and summer."
Speaking of which, most of the Sang Huaiyu Luo Yang saw in the winter was in skirts. Before coming here, he didn't notice that she was wearing linen clothes and even flat shoes today.
Sang Huai smiled and said nothing. At this stage, Luo Yang was sensitive.
She tried, "Is something wrong with you?"
Sang Huaiyu was not the kind of person who could hide things, especially secrets. She smiled and took Luo Yang's hand and gently placed it in front of her flat belly.
Luo Yang instantly felt blessed, his eyes narrowed, and he looked at Sang Huaiyu in disbelief.
"Having a baby?!"
Sang Huaiyu did not deny it, but just hissed, "It's just been three months and I'm stable, but it's still early for me to show my pregnancy. The doctor said that my physical condition is not very good and I have to be extra careful, so I secretly came out today without telling Mo Chen. You have to keep it a secret for me.”
Luo Yang frowned and held her arm.
"In this case, you should be more careful. In fact, we can wait until your pregnancy is over, but no, no, I still have to send you back -"
Sang Huaiyu took Luo Yang's arm, "No, I've wanted to come here for a long time. I finally got a chance at the right time, place, and people. I promise I'll be careful, okay?"
Ever since Luo Yang met Sang Huaiyu, he had been unable to resist any of Sang Huaiyu's requests, and this time there was no exception.
On Qingyu Mountain, there is a temple that is very popular, but it seems to be sparsely populated.
Luo Yang stood in front of the temple door, raising his head and staring for a long time.
Once, she was extremely proud and did not believe in Buddhism or fate. She felt that she could do anything to turn the tide.
Later, when Yang Yue left, she began to waver. From that time on, she truly felt the insignificance and powerlessness of human destiny. No matter how famous a person was during his lifetime, he only needed one illness to take him away without any discussion. , the name he left behind was nothing more than nothing. In the end, only a handful of people even sent flowers to the tomb.
It was about that time that she began to have an indescribable reverence for life, and it was also about that time that she began to be hesitant about any decision.
Sang Huaiyu turned around and called her, and only then did Luo Yang regain his composure and follow her step by step.
After crossing the threshold, the quiet and peaceful atmosphere inside is unexpectedly soothing and calming. Occasionally, novice novices passing by will put their palms together and say hello to them.
That feeling of tranquility can really calm Luo Yang's mood.
Sang Huaiyu looks very familiar, worshiping at every place and feeling peaceful every step of the way.
Feeling Dai Luoyang's gaze, Sang Huaiyu slightly curled her lips, "My mother believed in Buddhism during her lifetime, and she was influenced by her ears and eyes. I also believe in some."
Luo Yang knew that Sang Huaiyu's mother died young, but it was the first time she mentioned it without any hesitation, which made her a little surprised.
Luo Yang did not visit the whole place. He waited for Sang Huai to meet him at the temple platform on the way.
From this direction, you can have a panoramic view of the scenery of Qingyu Mountain, full of waterfalls and greenery, extending straight to the foot of the mountain, so dense that it can obscure the figures of people.
"Amitabha, female donor."
Luo Yang was pulled out of her thoughts by the old abbot appearing next to her, and she responded as expected.
"Is there anything bothering the female donor?" The old abbot said with a gentle look on his face, twisting 108 rosary beads in his hand and looking straight ahead.
After a long time, Luo Yang's thin lips quivered: "Bad memories always need to be forgotten, right."
The old abbot turned around and looked into Luo Yang's eyes, then slowly looked back and closed his eyes with a smile.
"Whether you want to forget or not, it all depends on the female donor."
"But if I try desperately to forget but can't, how can I get over it?"
The old abbot laughed deeply, "Let go, let go, forget. If you can't do it, there is no need to force it. As long as it makes you feel painful, it goes against self-transcendence, doesn't it?"
"If you can't forget it, then don't forget it. If you remember it, it will fade away!"
The old abbot walked slowly down the mountain, leaving Luoyang alone with his words echoing in his ears.
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"Do you think it's okay if I go see him?"
The chopsticks in Ye Gu's hand paused, then recovered quickly, picked up a piece of fish, removed the fish bones, and put it into Luo Yang's bowl.
"I'll go with you."
Luo Yang knew that he understood what he meant, but he was still troubled in his heart, "Do you think that I am doing this to Ms. Yang?"
Ye Gu slowly put down his chopsticks and took her hand.
"If Ms. Yang were still here, she would definitely tell you; 'Just do it if you want to do it, and don't let yourself get entangled because of anyone.' Ah He, he has already paid the price for this matter, although what has happened is indescribable. Save it, but he is also enduring the pain, isn’t he?”
"I think before this incident, their feelings were not adulterated in the slightest. Ms. Yang told you before she left that she never blamed your father because in their love, they were sincere to each other and did not apologize to anyone. People.”
"So Ahe, don't be mentally burdened, I'll go with you."
Luo Jiancheng has been there for some years, and Luo Yang has never visited him during this period. She always selfishly felt that this was Ms. Yang's punishment for him. However, after going to the temple that day, she began to reflect on whether she had done something wrong. .
The more she forced herself to forget Luo Jiancheng's existence, the more pain and resentment she felt. But even so, the fact was that no matter how she put resentment on him, everything would never go back to the past, and it would not help. .
In the bone-chilling waiting room, Luo Yang had a clear view of everything here through the glass window. The door opposite the glass window slowly opened, and the police officers brought in a man with mottled white hair. He was depressed but could not hide the look on his face that he had once had. Merry.
The moment the man saw Luo Yang, there was a big tsunami in his eyes. He didn't dare to move forward. He was pulled by the police and staggered to his seat.
She hadn't seen this person in her life for several years.
Wherever the eyes pass, mottled and bad marks are hidden in every wrinkle that grows.
Luo Yang took the phone and said the first sentence.
"I'm here to see you."
I finally came.
Luo Jiancheng's eyes have turned yellow due to age, and he really deserves the phrase "old people have yellow eyes". The hand holding the phone kept shaking, and I could barely stop the shaking by holding it with my other hand. Luo Jiancheng sketched Luo Yang's face in his mind through the glass. It was really magical. What was originally a small and wrinkled face when he was born is now graceful.
I had thought that she would come to see him, but now I couldn't say a word.
"I...I still," Luo Jiancheng rubbed the table with his right hand nervously, the threads on the knuckles of his fingers were obviously rough, "Can I still call you, Ahe..."
The nickname Ahe was given by Luo Jiancheng.
He Qing Haiyan, he hoped that his little princess would have a smooth life and shine in the vast era.
However, in the end, all the misfortune and pain of his little princess came from him. It was he who personally destroyed all her trust. From his wrong first step, today's scene was revealed.
Luo Yang's hand holding the phone tightened, his eyes were dark, and his voice was soft: "I have never denied that you gave me my nickname, and you have the right to call me that."
Luo Jiancheng nodded, and the police officer behind him reminded him of the visiting time. He nervously changed his hand to hold the phone, with an anxious look on his face, searching for all the topics he could talk to her about, but in the end it was all in vain. Luo Yang saw Looking at him, for a moment, I seemed to see Luo Jiancheng's reluctance and reluctance when she was going to stay at someone else's house when she was a child.
She suppressed the restlessness in her heart and said word by word: "I am living very well now. I am still running my own clinic. No one has treated me harshly. I will always visit Ms. Yang. You don't have to worry about it. And - —”
"Perhaps I will come to see you again in the future."
Luo Jiancheng was stunned, the emotion in his eyes could no longer be contained, and the long-dried tears overflowed from his cloudy pupils.
He reached out and wanted to touch the glass window, as if he could feel Luo Yang's temperature.
But just a short distance away, the police stepped forward to take him away.
The person in front of him gradually moved away, his voice was hoarse and low, and he had all kinds of tastes and mixed emotions.
"Ahe, I'm sorry, Dad is sorry for you, I'm sorry..."
Luo Yang watched him until he disappeared on the other side of the door. She collapsed in her position as if she was exhausted, unable to recover for a long time.
This apology came too late. She could not forgive him for what he had done on her own initiative for those who had been hurt in this matter.
But the person who was hurt the most has already passed away.
When going out, Ye Gu was waiting at the door. When Luo Yang saw the first beam of light, she felt particularly dazzling. It was dazzling like never before. She stretched out her hand to block it. As the world was spinning, she could only Hearing Ye Gu's surprised voice.
There was also the sound of footsteps approaching in a chaotic mess.
She was a little tired, so she took a rest.
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"Ahe, you have to take care of yourself and don't make people around you worry."
In a familiar home, she saw Yang Yue standing at the top of the stairs. She ran up excitedly, but didn't catch anything. The image disappeared in just an instant.
"Mom? Mom, please stop hiding. I've obviously seen you. You can't be a swindler." Luo Yang panted and searched around the house, rummaging through boxes and cabinets, not missing any corner, but everything was in vain.
She slumped on the ground, looking at the now empty Luo family, feeling the draft whistling through her heart, showing no mercy, not even a leaf was left behind.
Everything in front of her was disappearing backwards, as if she had never lived here before, and even Yang Yue's face was blurred. Luo Yang shook his head and tried his best to find those fragments of Yang Yue's existence, those memories. There were pictures and photos in it, but every photo coincidentally had missing corners and missing pages. It seemed that God was deliberately playing a joke on her that was not funny at all.
The tears that flowed freely blurred her vision. She could not find the direction or anyone, as if she had suddenly returned to the isolation and helplessness she had been a few years ago.
Suddenly, a familiar voice sounded, ethereal and distant: "Ah He, you should have new expectations and new sustenance. He will be your dependence. Ah He, you have to move forward."
After speaking, the dream suddenly disappeared, and sparse sounds gradually appeared in her ears, tapping her eardrums bit by bit. The sounds came from afar, pure and clear.
"Ah He? Ah He? Can you hear me? Look at me?"
Fighting with her glued eyelids, Luo Yang followed the direction of the source of the sound and walked hard. In front of the light, she vaguely saw a slightly frowning face, and the blinking of her eyes was accompanied by the light. Point of guidance, fate-like attraction.
"You're awake. I won't agree to go out alone like this next time." Ye Gu is still scared, and even more guilty, "Is there any discomfort?"
Xi Jinzhou looked at Ye Gu like that, which was rare to see.
"You didn't see that the young master almost pulled his hair out."
Ye Gu glanced at him and said, "If you don't speak, no one will think you are mute."
Xi Jinzhou shrugged, turned around and went out to call the doctor.
Luo Yang looked at Ye Gu, who was clasping his hands in front of him, and laughed out loud, but his lips were light-colored and his complexion was a little weak.
Ye Gu kept thinking at the side, "I will personally see you off when you go out from now on. No, I have to accompany you. No sloppy people are allowed to get close to you in the future. Oh yes, I will call Liu Min now." Let people follow you starting tomorrow..."
"Ye Gu, look at me." Luo Yang's breath was still weak, but just one word made Ye Gu stay silent and look at her with burning eyes.
The dream just now seemed to be a real experience. Luo Yang returned to hold Ye Gu's palm, and the rings in the unknown place touched each other.
"I dreamed of Ms. Yang. She said, I want to move forward."
"So," Luo Yang put his hand on his heart, "I will walk towards you in the future. I have a poor sense of direction. A road will come to an end. You have to walk slower and wait. Wait for me, I will try to walk side by side with you.”
Ye Gu was moved and deeply moved, and he placed a precious kiss on her ring finger wearing a wedding ring.
"From now on, the three of us will walk together, and I will never let go of your hand again."
"Three people?"
Ye Gu put his hand on her belly and smiled softly: "A little angel has taken a fancy to us."
(End of chapter)
The author said: Wuhu! Little Rose and the young master have a new beginning!