Su Ye's long hair was wrapped around Xi Yu's fingertips. The electric touch started from Xi Xi's slightly twisted fingers and spread to the roots of Su Ye's hair. It was tingling and numb, making Su Ye's back sway slightly. one time.
It was a very familiar feeling, and Su Ye had never thought too much about it.
Xi Yun always liked to touch his hair, here and there. He attributed this familiarity to habit and never thought about anything else.
But in retrospect, he hated having his hair touched so much, but when Xi Yuan touched him, he didn't resent it or avoid it.
Su Ye looked at the strand of hair between Xi Yun's fingers, "Why do you always like to play with my hair?"
When was the first time Xi Wei touched his hair with her hands? Su Ye couldn't remember much.
But he thought that he must have somehow managed not to be too disgusted at that time, otherwise he would not have given Xi Yue room to get worse in the future.
For Xi Xing's touch, he would only feel a sense of peace of mind after a long absence.
It was as if something like this had happened a long time ago, in those years that he had forgotten due to the shadow of his childhood. There was a little boy who quietly and nonchalantly sat next to him and touched his hair.
There are also those little purple flowers swaying in the breeze in Xi Yun's words.
But Su Ye was still a little sad, because of Xi Yun.
"I failed to keep my promise."
Xi Yun supported her head with one hand and turned her head to look at Su Ye. The other hand kept moving, "Why do you say that, Shuishui?"
Su Ye pursed his lower lip quickly, glanced at Xi Yuan secretly with his beautiful eyes, and pressed his fingertips on his knees, "It was agreed at that time, but the result -"
"We did agree."
Xi Yue tucked Su Ye's long hair behind her ears, and gently stroked Su Ye's ears with her fingers, then probed into Su Ye's long hair and pressed it.
Su Ye's hair was very sensitive, and his narrow and thin waist immediately straightened up. The uncontrollable sense of loss just now disappeared and turned into an even more uncontrollable emotion.
"So later you grew your hair long, and I waited for you, and we went on stage together."
Xi Xing's voice was extremely clear, which stabilized Su Ye's sad mood.
"What are you doing!"
An Sijia's voice came from outside the door. Jiang Congfeng and Jiang Congfeng stood at the door and looked around. They cleared their throats forcefully and looked at Xi Yun sideways.
Jiang Congfeng was behind him, expressionless, but his eyes fell on Su Ye's lightly frowned brow.
"Brother, are you feeling uncomfortable? Are you wearing aerosol?"
Su Ye was like a spring, his back instantly pressed against the back of the chair, avoiding Xi Xing's fingers that were about to move.
The four of them left the sanatorium. An Sijia came to Geneva for the first time. In her excitement, she dragged Jiang Congfeng to other places intentionally or unintentionally, and soon separated.
Passing by a flower shop, Xi Yun bought the last bunch of lilacs for Su Ye.
Su Ye was a little worried and looked back frequently, and was hugged by Xi Yu's shoulders.
"They are all adults, don't worry about them, worry about me, brother."
Su Ye suppressed a smile, knowing that Xi Wei's temper was causing trouble, so he coaxed a child, "Okay, I'm most worried about you."
Unexpectedly, after saying this, Xi Yue leaned forward slightly and rubbed his cheek against Su Ye like a small animal. He rubbed Su Ye's long hair slightly tousled and stuck it to the side of his face, making Su Ye look a little dazed and cute.
"Me too."
Su Ye was a little nasal because of the cold wind, "Huh?"
Xi Yue said word by word as if he were talking, "I'm most worried about you."
The temperature by the lake is always much lower at night. Su Ye didn't react for a moment. He stood on the plank road and stared blankly down at Xi Xi, who lowered his head seriously. He buttoned up his clothes for him, took off the scarf around his neck, and held it for Su Ye. After Ye finished the scarf, he also helped Su Ye to trim his long hair very considerately, and the bulging hair was stuck to the scarf.
"It's windy, so wear more clothes. Buttons should be buttoned to the top, scarves should not be rolled up casually, and ears should be covered. Don't be distracted while walking. When waiting for someone, stand in a sheltered place and wait in the car. You have to take off your scarf and hat, otherwise it will be even colder when you get off the bus.”
The more Su Ye listened, the more confused he became. He pulled Xi Huan's hand and said, "What are you talking about?"
Xi Yun continued: "Dark blue also suits you very well." He straightened out the thick wool scarf and arranged it into a loose and warm look.
Su Ye opened his eyes slightly, but his brain failed to respond, "Xi Yun?"
Xi Yue raised her head and stared at Su Ye with her exquisite peach blossom eyes. The tips of her raven-black eyelashes and slightly messy bangs swayed in the wind.
Su Ye put on the pure white cotton coat again this time, with a dark blue scarf, a big wool ball hat, and even the bag he was carrying was exactly the same as the day he returned home.
It was exactly the same as the one in Xi Xing's memory who he met by chance at the airport after five years of absence.
But the difference was that what was left to him at that time was just a back view. Now this person was standing in front of him, looking at him, with a little ice crystal on his eyelashes, reflecting the fine silver light.
"That's what I was thinking when I saw you at the airport."
If Su Ye had been in front of him at that time, he would not have cared to speak and would have wrapped Su Ye up first before talking.
It's a pity that there were too many people between them at that time, so many people disappeared in the blink of an eye.
But now Su Ye was standing in front of him again. Instead of him chasing after him, Su Ye took the initiative to stay by his side.
Su Ye's brows furrowed slightly, but with a very gentle look in his eyes, he asked what he had been wanting to ask for a long time.
"Weren't you angry then?"
Because Su Ye was looking at Xi Xi very carefully, Xi Xi replied simply: "Angry."
He was so angry that he didn't think anything, got in the car and chased Su Ye.
Su Ye did not move his eyes away, but waited seriously and quietly for Xi Yun's next words.
"But rather than being angry, I'm still more worried about your body."
"You were wearing just this, with a hat and a scarf. It looked tight, but in fact it was so loose that you couldn't block the wind at all."
Su Ye laughed and said, "Why are you so demanding?"
Xi Yan also laughed, and after laughing for a while, he quietly said, "This will give me a legitimate reason to come forward and touch you, right?"
Su Ye blinked, "Then there's nothing to worry about."
Xi Yun remained silent. Although the obstacles ahead had been cleared, those things left indelible traces on Su Ye.
The horrific injury on the back of Su Ye's head, the problem of being confused with time from time to time, the asthma that easily relapses when he is weak or cold, and the auditory hallucinations that linger in his ears from time to time.
Su Ye recovered, but not completely.
Xi Yun hooked Su Ye's finger and said, "But I'm still worried about you. What should I do?"
Su Ye's eyes were very obedient, or it could be said that he was helplessly doting on Xi Xi, "Well, what should I do?"
"Oh, it's Ye!"
Not far away, a little old lady came over carrying a complicated woolen bag and pushing up her glasses. She was Su Ye's neighbor across the door.
"Wow, is this your friend? He's so handsome."
Xi Yun raised his eyebrows, but before Su Ye could answer, the little old lady spoke with a smile.
"I just passed by the post office over there, and the young man inside asked me how you were doing."
Xi Wei said very sensitively: "Young man?"
The little old lady smiled mysteriously and pushed Su Ye with her elbow, "We Ye have many suitors, don't you know?"
Xi Yun touched the tip of her tongue to her lower teeth and looked at Su Ye with a fake look, "Well, is that so? I really don't know."
Su Ye blinked hurriedly, trying to wink at the old lady. However, the old lady was so talkative that she didn't even notice Su Ye, who was holding a scarf and trying to raise his finger when she met an audience that was so cooperative with Xi Yun.
The little old lady was in high spirits, "There are young girls and young men. Ye Ke is very popular. There are also people who come here every day just to have a few words with Ye."
Xi Yuan said in a long voice, "Ah, then we are really extraordinary."
"Right." The old lady patted Su Ye.
Su Ye didn't want to lie in front of Xi Yuan, so he whispered: "Yes."
Su Ye's fair fingers pressed against the dark blue scarf, his eyes were wandering, and the exposed tip of his nose was red, which made Xi Wei's heart feel hot.
"But," the old lady continued, "Maybe it was because she saw that Ye had no intention of falling in love, so the boys and girls just stopped."
The old lady chatted for a few more words and waved goodbye to the two of them.
After she left, Xi Yun deliberately whispered into Su Ye's ear: "It turns out that my brother has so many suitors."
It was impossible not to be jealous. Xi Wei didn't want to think about the scene where Su Ye was shown love in turn, lest she get into trouble.
Su Ye's ears were itchy due to Xi Yu, so he ducked aside, rubbed his earlobes, and complained softly, "What are you doing."
Xi Yun stopped teasing him, "But as my brother is so good, it's normal for him to have suitors. Why didn't he have any suitors later?"
The two were walking side by side. After Xi Yue asked this question, Su Ye suddenly stopped. Most of his face was retracted into the woolen scarf, revealing slightly messy light blonde hair and a pair of eyes with a faint heat at the end. Soft eyes.
"Because." Su Ye whispered, the cold air from the lake rushing into his mouth, but the tip of his tongue was still hot with shame, "I told them-"
"What?" Xi Wei didn't hear clearly and stopped. He bent down and put his ear close to Su Ye's face.
Then he heard Su Ye's thin voice, floating in like snowflakes.
"I said, I have a boyfriend."
After saying that, Su Ye noticed that Xi Xi didn't move and still kept leaning forward to listen. After a long while, Xi Wei said, "Shui Shui, can you say it again?"
Su Ye's half of his face hidden behind the scarf was exposed, he opened his mouth and gently bit the tip of Xi Xi's ear, protesting in a low voice, "You obviously heard it."
Xi Wei's posture was very gentlemanly and his tone was serious, "But how can I be sure if this is your excuse to get rid of me?"
Su Ye was stunned for a moment, and then felt dumbfounded.
Xi Wei was in debt again, "Who is your boyfriend? Is he a nice person?"
Su Ye kicked Xi Xi's with the toe of his shoe, and rubbed the warm scarf with the tip of his nose, making his voice muffled.
"His name is Xi Wei. He is a very nice person, very talented, and very handsome."
"Oh, then you must have known each other for many years, right?"
Su Ye was vague, "Well, it's been many years."
Xi Xing's voice was filled with polite and sincere curiosity, "Do you like him very much?"
Su Ye paused for half a second and nodded vigorously up and down. His long, light blond hair floated out with the movement and was slightly raised.
"Well, I like him very much, I like him very much."
Xi Yan's voice already contained a trace of irrepressible laughter, accompanied by a strange look of regret, "Ah, then it seems that I have no chance."
Su Ye scratched Xi Wei's palm with his fingertips, "Aren't you ashamed? It's embarrassing."
Xi Wei responded naturally, "Boyfriend, there's no shame in that."
Now that everything has settled, the two are walking by the lake, holding hands.
"So beautiful."
They stopped by the lake and looked at the ultramarine sky illuminated by lights in the distance, as well as the looming mountains, accompanying this quiet lake.
"I want to take a picture." Su Ye took out his phone, took a picture of the sky, and then opened the WeChat list.
He has no habit of contacting anyone in a fixed way, and will only send it to a few people he is familiar with.
There was a click from the side. Su Ye lowered his head to flip through the news page, and heard Xi Yue also say next to him, "It's so beautiful."
Ding dong.
The conversation bar of a contact that I haven't spoken to for a long time jumped to the top.
[? ]:[Picture]
Su Ye went in at a loss.
Photos load.
Under the ultramarine sky, a man wearing a wool ball hat, a dark blue scarf, and long light blond hair lowered his head slightly, revealing a beautiful profile.
Su Ye looked at it for a long time, then suddenly raised his head, "Is this you?"
Xi Xing said nothing and looked at Su Ye with a smile.
When Su Ye came back, he always wanted to take an awkward step forward, but he was afraid that the person in front of him would run away. In the end, he could only choose this method of going around in a circle to get close to Su Ye.
Su Ye was so shocked that he stood by the lake for a long time. Finally, Xi Wei began to worry that Su Ye would be angry, so he pressed Su Ye, and Su Ye calmed down.
He checked Xi Xi's WeChat account again, and found that the ID was "Y". He compared it repeatedly, and his eyes stayed on Xi Xi's circle of friends background picture.
Su Ye had seen it before, but it was the mottled reflection in the shadow of the street lamp, but Su Ye never understood what it was.
Su Ye was a little depressed, "So that's how it is"
There was a charming street lamp beside the lakeside path, which was reflected diagonally above Su Ye's head. In the blink of an eye, he could clearly see his own shadow.
Then Su Ye's breathing paused.
The reflection was mottled and shimmering with tiny spots of light. It was the light from the street lamp that passed through the lilac leaves in his hand and fell on the ground.
"So that's how it is"
Xi Wei felt a little uncomfortable, "Ah, this, it was taken when I ran out to buy flowers after you agreed to confess to me five years ago."
Su Ye remembered that he seemed to have heard Xiao Yang complain that Xi Yun was a love brain, and couldn't help but smile.
He stared quietly at the lake for a moment, then spoke again.
The topic jumps around a lot.
"You just said you were worried about me and asked me what to do."
Xi Yue likes to brush aside Su Ye's long hair that is blowing in the wind and take care of it, "Yeah."
Su Ye was silent for a while, then spoke as if telling a story.
"When my mother was at her most serious, she once cried and said that it would have been better if she had not given birth to me."
Xi Yun listened quietly, and he instinctively realized that the meaning of Su Yun's words was not what it sounded like on the surface.
Because Su Yun is essentially the same as Su Ye, a very gentle person, even too soft-hearted.
But this sentence still sounds very sad.
"Are you feeling a little uncomfortable?" Su Ye's gentle voice sounded, "But that's not what she meant."
Su Yun cherished Su Ye more than anything else.
She said that Su Ye suffered too much. If Su Ye had not been born, Su Ye might not have suffered so much.
She said that even Su Ye’s birthday came after people’s cheers for the New Year.
"I also thought about why my mother gave birth to me in the most painful moments. Survival itself seems to be a kind of suffering."
Xi Yue listened and couldn't help but reach out and grab Su Ye, fearing that Su Ye would float away like a floating cloud again.
When his fingers exerted slight force, Su Ye also clasped his hands tightly, and the palms of his hands were inseparable.
"But I still think it's great to be born and to be a human being."
Xi Yun thought about it countless times in private. Su Ye looked fragile, but was really strong most of the time.
So strong that Xi Xi asked, "Why?"
Su Ye turned his head sideways, eyes slightly curved, cheeks flushed, looking at Xi Yun,
"Only in this way can I meet you."
Su Ye spoke slowly, his voice blending into the wind, but reaching Xi Xi's hearing word by word, it was extremely clear and passionate.
"What should I do?"
Su Ye muttered to himself, stretched out a finger and pressed down the scarf.
However, before he could make a move, Xi Yan had already leaned over, kissed the corner of his lips, and then let go, but still kept a very close distance.
He was so close that Xi Yue could feel the tip of Su Ye's slightly hot nose, see Su Ye's trembling eyelashes due to shyness, and hear Su Ye's ethereal voice that he couldn't control.
Contains infinite hot emotions and long-lasting love.
"Then please stay with me."
"Shui Shui."
Xi Yue suddenly called Su Ye from a very short distance away.
Su Ye rubbed the tip of his nose against Xi Xing's, closed his eyes, and his lowered eyelashes almost brushed Xi Xing's eyebrows, "Huh?"
Xi Yan's peach eyes slightly curled up because of her smile, "I love you."
Su Ye kissed Xi Yu with his eyes closed, smiled when he heard the words, and heard Xi Yu asked in a low voice.
"Shui Shui, can you tell whether it's an auditory hallucination or reality now?"
The two of them almost hugged each other.
Su Ye whispered softly, rubbing against Xi Wei, his smile becoming more and more gentle, "You can tell the difference clearly."
"Why?"
"Because I love you too."
On the shore, those seabirds that had traveled across the ocean were back again, flapping their wings in the leisurely white snow.
As long as Xi Yu lowered his head, he could see Su Ye's eyes.
My breath is hot and I can’t forget it.
You are in the world, and I am by your side.
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The author said: You can skip some small thoughts directly.
It's hard to explain my feeling of loss.
The outline of this article was written in summer, but the text was started in early winter. Where I live, it is always gloomy in winter with no sunshine, so I wanted to write a story that can make people feel happy even in the cold winter.
"Missing" should be a point that often appears in this article, including myself outside the article. I have written about early winter, Christmas, and New Year's Day, but there is always one step missing, but there is still a gap. I wish I could always have readers by my side, so I won’t be alone with these vague things.
Shuishui and Xiaoxi are characters that I conceived very early on. They were a flash of inspiration in summer. I was thinking about what a gentle person would be like if he were brave, and what a passionate person would be like if he stayed silent. What expression does it have? So there is the beautiful him and the wanton him.
It’s embarrassing to say that I shed tears more or less in the middle of writing this article. I am always embarrassed to say it for fear of being laughed at. But at the end, Shuishui was honest with herself, so of course I had to be honest with myself.
The biggest regret is that the Christmas chapter was not published on Christmas Day, but I will dig it out next Christmas and take a look at our gentle water and handsome little seats.
Because of the well-known special period, I had some health problems during the second half of the series. I was very unlucky and am currently receiving treatment. But when I think of Shuishui, Xiao Xi, and everyone, I feel very motivated.
I also spent my birthday with everyone in this article, which is one of the happiest things for me.
When writing this article, I often worry about whether the feelings between Shuishui and Xiao Xi have been conveyed to everyone, whether my feelings have been conveyed to you, and whether I am the only one who is not invested enough. In fact, everyone is not. Too many feelings and so on. But in the end, as long as this series can bring everyone even a moment of relaxation, it is meaningful to me.
Thanks to all the readers who accompanied Shuishui and Xiao Xi to the end. Your inadvertent encouragement is one of my biggest sources of motivation. I also want to thank Shuishui and Xiao Xi for accompanying me through the long and dark winter.
Finally, let me say it louder: Shuishui, we love you!
To Purple.2023.2.7
Wave your little hand and see you next time.
Love you!
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