The love I never saw.
Lin Xiyue looked at her face. To her, Jiang Sui was not the lover she had never seen before.
During those times, when she wiped away her figure and followed the other person like this, what was she thinking?
Jiang Sui had already finished talking about all the things she had done in the past few days, and picked up the chopsticks. In her eyes, there should be no one in front of her, but she still picked up food from time to time for this person who did not exist in this world.
Lin Xiyue lowered her head and looked at the steaming food in the bowl. She wanted to see it in front of her right now, but she remembered what her senior said.
She regarded Jiang Sui's love as a weight, and Jiang Sui would never truly express his feelings under such circumstances.
She would just hide her inner thoughts and blindly cater to her mood like she did before.
Lin Xiyue didn't move, just watching Jiang Sui eat the food in the bowl.
The summer nights were obviously very noisy and hot, but at this time she could only feel a kind of silence and loneliness.
Perhaps it was because Jiang Sui had made her feel like this from the beginning.
Jiang Sui gently put down his chopsticks, making a soft clicking sound in the quiet night.
She raised her head, stared in Lin Xiyue's direction, and after a long time said softly: "...You haven't been by my side for a long time."
"Is it because I took medicine? But I have obviously stopped, why haven't you shown up yet?"
"The doctors said it was just my imagination." She paused for a moment and then continued: "But you are obviously real. Is it because of what happened to you in that world?"
"It would be great if I could help you."
She looked out the dark window, which was blocked by a big tree, and there was no light at all, "But I can't do anything now."
Lin Xiyue felt the pain in her heart. It turned out that when she didn't appear, Jiang Sui was talking to someone who couldn't respond to her day after day, and then waited hopelessly.
It would be nice if she knew about this from the beginning. If they didn't start in that situation, if they could trust more, she would definitely be able to do better.
At least it won't be like now, where I can only sit here and watch.
Jiang Sui had already stood up, picked up the bowls and chopsticks, and walked to the kitchen. Not long after, the sound of running water came from inside.
But the bowl in front of Lin Xiyue was still in place, the heat had cooled down, and there was a light grease on the ribs.
She suddenly felt joy in her misery and knocked off the system's hand that wanted to steal the ribs. "Look at my current situation, do I look like a ghost who has been dead for many years but still stays in the same place?"
The system hid for a while, but did not escape at all. It was held in the palm of the hand and said in a vague tone: "This is a normal world, and there will be no phenomena like ghosts."
“And there are so many ribs in the bowl, you won’t be caught eating one.”
"Your key point is actually the last sentence, right?" Lin Xiyue stood up with it, leaned against the kitchen door and looked at Jiang Sui's back, "I want to see Jiang Sui's reality. When I didn't show up, she passed by What kind of life is it, what does she really like, not the Jiang Sui who blindly pleases me and does everything according to my ideas.”
"But the real Jiang Sui with his own character."
She silently recited that sentence, "No one can save anyone, only yourself can save yourself."
Bang!
The sound of clinking bowls and chopsticks came from the kitchen, and Lin Xiyue cautiously approached.
Jiang Sui's fingertips were cut open by a fragment of the bowl, and the fresh blood dripped down, but she didn't make any move, she just frowned and looked at it.
Lin Xiyue was a little anxious. Seeing her look like she was waiting for the blood to flow out, she could only think of a way.
She walked to the window and knocked on it.
Jiang Sui soon heard this subtle noise. She turned her head and finally recovered from her previous thoughts. Looking at the blood dripping from her hands, she made an action that made Lin Xiyue even more helpless. .
He put his hand under the faucet, trying to stop the bleeding from his wound.
If Jiang Sui was in front of her, she would never do such a thing, Lin Xiyue thought, she would only use this matter to act coquettishly, and then the two of them would kiss and spend a good time together.
Lin Xiyue sighed. The only thing more terrifying than discovering that her wife loved her wholeheartedly was discovering that she didn't love him at all.
In fact, she had doubts about this situation before, but she was quickly hit by Jiang Sui's sugar-coated bullets, and then forgot all about it.
But now she really feels it.
Jiang Sui solved the accident, wiped his hands and returned to the living room, as if he felt no pain at all.
The living room remained as it was, and she lowered her eyes in disappointment, but quickly cheered up. She had not been there for a long time before, but she didn't know why she was so sad this time.
Perhaps it was because she finally realized that in the many hours she thought she spent together, she fell in love with someone she would never meet.
But that's fine too.
She didn't put away the man's dishes, but sat on the sofa and turned on the TV. Exaggerated laughter came from the variety show being played, but Jiang Sui remained expressionless.
The room quickly became dark, with only the endless noise coming from the TV. Jiang Sui had already fallen asleep curled up on the sofa.
Lin Xiyue looked at it for a long time, then covered her with a blanket folded into a square.
The sky broke, a red sun rose slowly, and the temperature that had barely dropped last night quickly rose again. Lin Xiyue, wearing glasses and a mask, stood at the school gate and stopped a student.
She handed over the band-aids, disinfectant and other bits and pieces she had just bought in the store, "Classmate, can I ask you a favor?"
"..."
Seeing the classmate's suspicious and conflicted expression, Lin Xiyue took out a few coins.
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Jiang Sui looked at the white plastic bag handed to her. She didn't say anything, just raised her head and waited for the other party's next line.
The girl with a bun smiled awkwardly, but a little embarrassment for money was completely acceptable, "Is he your... suitor? Please let me bring these things to you. I thought I'd give them to you on the way. Bring it over.”
Jiang Sui is still very famous in this school. After all, he is good-looking and rich, and he always looks like a high-altitude flower. Therefore, it is not uncommon for such suitors to only ask others to deliver things.
But Jiang-senpai's charm even for women... seems to be normal?
The girl with a round head retracted her thoughts that she had already thought of somewhere, and pushed the things on the table, "Senior sister, I'm going to class next door first. This thing..."
Jiang Sui lowered his head again and continued what he had done before, completely ignoring it.
"I just said Jiang Sui won't give up." The system squatted on Lin Xiyue's shoulders and said proudly: "She is not as good at dancing as she will be in the future. The supporting characters in the book generally say that Jiang Sui is very cold at this time. .”
Lin Xiyue couldn't help but curse, what gave you the illusion that Jiang Sui was not indifferent in the future.
But Jiang Sui is indeed not as good at hiding her thoughts as she is in the future. For example, right now, if class wasn't about to start, she would definitely throw the bag on the table into the trash can.
"It's one thing to take it or not..." She looked at Jiang Sui who was writing something with a pen, sitting on the window edge and shaking his legs, "But I really care, doesn't she feel the pain of the wound? ”
Lin Xiyue followed her for a few more days.
Regardless of whether there are classes or not, Jiang Sui gets up on time every day and runs along the river. Sometimes he stops to sit on the grass and watch the sun rise. Then he goes to the supermarket to buy food and cook. Then he either goes to class or has a video conference. He was talking about something that Lin Xiyue couldn't understand at all.
If I weren't still in this wonderful state, maybe it wouldn't be bad to continue like this.
The changes started on Saturday afternoon.
It rained heavily this morning, so the two had no choice but to stay at home.
Jiang Sui was stretching on the balcony, while Lin Xiyue lay aside and watched the raindrops sliding on the glass.
The thunder suddenly sounded and the rain fell harder, dispelling the heat of this period.
In addition to these, Jiang Sui's cell phone finally rang after a few days
She stopped and picked up the phone. There was a gentle female voice over there, seemingly asking her why she hadn't come for a follow-up check during this time.
Jiang Sui was silent for a while, and then said with the rustling rain: "I know, I'll come in the afternoon."
She hung up the phone and opened the window. The rain drifted in and wet the floor.
By the time she finished her pasta slowly, it was already evening.
The rain had stopped long ago, but the ground was still wet, and the sky was a light khaki color, and it looked like there would be another heavy rain later.
Jiang Sui wore low-key clothes as usual, with a black braid diagonally braided because it was too sultry. This outfit, which would be a bit old-fashioned for ordinary people, gave her an air of innocence.
She placed the black umbrella in her hand outside the consultation room, then sat on a chair and waited.
Lin Xiyue was still following her as usual, looking at the photos of outstanding doctors posted on the wall.
Jiang Sui didn't wait long before someone took her to a familiar room. As soon as she sat on the sofa, the doctor sitting on the other side smiled and said, "It seems that you are in a good mood these days?"
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She took out the cup, poured a glass of ice water and handed it over, "The weather is really hot these days. Are you still running every day?"
Jiang Sui took the water and put it on the table. He had no intention of taking a sip. He just nodded, "I originally wanted to go for a run in the evening, but there were too many people there in the evening."
The doctor still maintained his gentle look and said: "That's good."
"Can you still see that girl during this time?"
Jiang Sui shook his head and remained silent for a long time under the doctor's gaze before saying, "She seems unwilling to see me."
"But I can feel that she is beside me." She said looking in the direction of the window.
The rain began to pour again.
(End of chapter)
The author said: This article will be published tomorrow on June 28th. Thank you for your supportｏ３o