Maybe that's all Jiang Sui wants.
Lin Xiyue thought to herself.
Those thoughts, those hidings, every time she hesitated to speak, every time she deceived, to Jiang Sui, were they like lighting a candle in a dark room, obviously not hot but hard to ignore?
Jiang Sui was still looking ahead, as if he had turned into a statue.
Lin Xiyue didn't know how to answer at all. She wanted to appear in front of Jiang Sui, but she was hesitant. If her idea was wrong, it would be another failure.
And she had already failed twice, even though she had clearly vowed to do so.
She opened her mouth, but was a little timid.
What should the first sentence be? Are you going to tell me all of this directly? Or is it better to say hello first?
Lin Xiyue looked at Jiang Sui who was waiting, and realized that she was indeed a coward who dared not do anything.
"...I may be really crazy." Jiang Su lowered his eyes and laughed at himself: "Maybe these are problems caused by my own excessive desire. After all, those doctors have said it before."
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Her eyes flashed with water for a moment, "I was just in too much pain, so I fantasized about someone being with me since I was a child. But now the symptoms are just more serious."
Perhaps in the eyes of those people, all of this was directed and acted by her, and she was the only one who was not willing to wake up at all.
The joy just now suddenly cooled down. Jiang Sui rubbed his eyes and decided to go to the river to calm down.
"Wait a minute...can't you give me some time to think about it first-" Lin Xiyue looked at Jiang Sui's back and stood up in a panic, "I haven't figured out what to do yet..." But not now What she said that would be observed was just useless.
She could only watch helplessly as Jiang Sui opened the door and walked out. She wanted to chase him out now and explain, but her feet were as motionless as if they were rooted to the ground.
The moonlight outside the window is swaying, branches are tapping on the windowsill, the water in the cup has cooled, and the dishwasher in the kitchen is making a soft beeping sound.
If only she could know what Jiang Sui was thinking, so she wouldn't have to make that candle.
"Aren't you going to chase it?" the system asked: "Generally, in this kind of situation, you will chase it in the book."
Lin Xiyue looked at the brown-red door and said, "But this is not in the book, and I can't do anything."
I'm just a fool who wastes time relying on her love.
The pendulum on the wall moves forward, round and round, and time will never stop because of your countless hesitations.
She burst out the door.
What should I say after meeting?
The cool wind rushed past my ears, the light shining from the gaps in the leaves was like an ethereal phantom, and there was no figure on the silent avenue.
On the main road not far away, there was still traffic rushing to different sections. The orange-red light was too dazzling. Where would Jiang Sui go at this time?
Will you hide in a corner and be in a daze like you did when you were a child? Or will you go to the riverside to watch the sunset that has already set and will never appear?
She slowly stopped and realized that she actually had no idea what Jiang Sui would do.
She clearly bears Jiang Sui's love and hate, but she is always away from this world. What does this world mean to her?
At this moment, Lin Xiyue suddenly noticed Jiang Sui's feelings when he faced her at a certain moment.
"...So that's how it is." She stood by the river and held her knees up to take a breath, then looked at the river covered in silver.
Black, sparkling water.
But there was no one.
"I guessed wrong again." The wind blew across the grass, and the slender blades of grass were crushed by the wind. Her heart was squeezed once again, just like many times before, they could never do anything about it——
There was the sound of feet stepping on the stone road behind her. Lin Xiyue turned around and saw a pale man wearing a black coat with red eyes walking over and walking into the ankle-deep grass.
They passed each other.
The corners of her clothes lifted by the wind seemed to carry a faint fragrance, and she walked toward the shimmering water.
Lin Xiyue silently followed one step behind, "I guessed wrong so many times before, but this time I finally guessed it right."
She paused and then continued: "The reason I like to watch the sunset is because I don't want to go home, and then it became a habit."
"What about you, why are you doing this?" They stood side by side by the river. As long as they lifted their feet forward, they could step into the water.
"I know, it's because of me." Even though Jiang Sui couldn't hear it, Lin Xiyue was finally able to say this in front of her, "Just treat it as an exercise so that I can be honest with you next time." Say the next words.”
She finally made up her mind. If she didn't say anything this time, she would be even more unable to say it in the future. How could she express her feelings to Jiang Sui, who was getting younger and younger?
"The person I like has always been you." "Look, I am just like you now." Lin Xiyue had a smile on her face, but she looked like she was crying, "I have seen you in different times. , as long as this continues, then I will be just like you.”
"I seem to be able to know what you are thinking when you are going through this."
Silver waves sometimes jump on the water at night. At this time, the bright moon under the water will be shattered, but as long as the river calms down, the moon will reappear.
Dark clouds sometimes obscured the moonlight, and Lin Xiyue turned her head and could only see her quiet silhouette in the night.
"I shouldn't look forward and backward." The moonlight appeared, and she once again saw Jiang Sui's red eyes. A shining tear fell from the corner of her eye, following the curve of her cheek and resting on her chin for a moment.
Lin Xiyue spread her hands, her tears were very light, and they quickly slipped away through her fingers.
"I never believe what those doctors say." Jiang Sui said calmly, "Maybe when I was a child, I would doubt whether you really existed, but since I grew up, I know that those are all my father's attempts to dominate. The actions I took.”
"I am very smart and will not be deceived." She looked at the water, without any pride in her tone, just stating the facts, "I have a clear grasp of my psychology and physiology, so I have to do one thing. ”
"Perhaps even a lunatic would not think that he is a lunatic, right?" She said in this hidden corner in a light voice: "But even a lunatic will have the determination to take a gamble."
She turned her back to the river bank and opened her hands. The wind blew her hair back. The moonlight shone on her white cheeks. Even the black hair tail was coated with silver light. There was a paranoid look in her eyes. , said softly towards the front: "I can't swim at all."
Then he relaxed his body without hesitation, closed his eyes and fell back.
Maybe it's all fake, but it doesn't seem to matter. If she hadn't sent someone to ask those things from the shopkeeper.
Obviously she can appear in front of others, she obviously cares about me so much, if I am going to die soon, then she will definitely appear next to me.
There was no fear of death in Jiang Sui's eyes, only extraordinary expectations.
She had to raise her head to see the moon, but now it was right in her eyes.
Lin Xiyue hugged her.
"...Hello, maybe this is our real first meeting." Jiang Sui put his head on her thin shoulder, not in a hurry.
The water flow made a splashing sound, and when they jumped, they would see water splashing onto their trousers, and the shadows on the ground were close to each other.
Lin Xiyue felt her slightly cool cheek and said somewhat depressedly: "Did you lie to me just now?"
Jiang Sui exhaled and said seriously: "I really can't swim."
Lin Xiyue whispered in her ear, "That's not what I said. In fact, you have known about my existence for a long time, right?"
"You can't say it's early." Jiang Sui really wanted to take her home now instead of settling old scores by the unromantic river. "I asked someone to ask the shopkeeper about something just now, so I can confirm you." Really.”
"After all, my own memory can lie, but I can't control other people's memories. One person can make a lie, but if many people say the same thing, then it is true."
"I didn't do this to force you to show up, just——"
Lin Xiyue released the hand holding her, touched her red eyes, exhaled and said, "Jiang Sui, listen to me first."
"The first time you traveled through time was when you were twenty-seven years old. I met you while walking on the sidewalk. At that time, I didn't understand why you looked at me with that sad look. Later, we had a misunderstanding and I came to Your..."
She told everything that happened from the past to the future from the beginning, "I want to tell you all this, and it is you who I like, do you understand?"
"Whether it's Jiang Sui in the future or Jiang Sui now, all I like is you." Lin Xiyue still didn't understand what Jiang Sui was thinking in her heart now, but she still put aside the hesitation in her heart and put the relationship between them Everything that happened was told.
"I know." After a long silence, Jiang Sui finally said: "No matter what happens between you and the other two Jiang Sui, I will always like you more than them."
She repeated: "I like you the most."
"...What?" Lin Xiyue blinked, not understanding the meaning of this sentence, "You are obviously...that's you."
Jiang Sui's cheeks still wrinkled with baby fat, and the light brown mole on the wing of his nose also moved. "So here, in this world where only this Jiang Sui is the only one, do you love me the most?"
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Lin Xiyue nodded reflexively, "Of course it is." She was led forward by a man who was half a head shorter than her. Jiang Sui's voice came from the front, "That's fine, as long as you're with me. Just don’t think about other ginger years.”
She turned back and said with a smile: "Otherwise I will be jealous and really sad."
(End of chapter)