"Aunt..."
As soon as Shen Jinsi put down her phone, she saw her nephew's beautiful oval face, which was red from crying.
"My little baby..." She held Shen Bai Yao's face, wiped her tears with her fingers, and comforted her: "Grandma just has low blood sugar, don't be so nervous."
Shen Jinsi was worried, but she regretted that she shouldn't have shown it on the phone and was unfortunately overheard... In an instant, her heart, which had just been peaceful for a moment, became restless again, and she took a deep breath of the smell of disinfectant like a masochist. .
Lu Xiang went mountain climbing with the Sunset Red Tour Group today. When they gathered together in the evening, he suddenly felt unwell and then fainted.
Fortunately, there were many people around and the scenic spot was in the urban area. Some tourists judged that it was hypoglycemia, received prompt treatment, and then sent him to the hospital.
Shen Jinsi received the news first and then informed her brother-in-law.
Feng Zhaoyun originally drove behind Sun Haoran's car, but after receiving the news, he changed his route to the hospital.
After the doctor's diagnosis, Lu Xiang's body was fine and he was just tired from hiking. However, the three people waiting outside the ward were still worried and decided to let the old lady stay in the hospital for a few days for observation.
Shen Baiyao was more sensitive and thought of her deceased grandfather. Panic and anxiety overwhelmed her again, and the deep pain made her breathless.
She has already lost two important people and must not lose the third one.
Thinking of this, her hands couldn't stop shaking, and she was sobbing out of breath. The confusion that drained her soul made her at a loss.
Because she cried so sadly, tears flowed down her cheeks and onto the floor of the hospital corridor.
Feeling embarrassed, she squatted down, took out a tissue and wiped away the traces, and asked while wiping:
"Aunt...who were you talking to just now..."
When Shen Baiyao was crying sadly, he vaguely heard the word "our mother".
She wondered if she was so worried that she heard wrongly.
Shen Jinsi opened her mouth, thought quickly, and quickly lied: "It's a little early to talk to my boyfriend, but it's also a matter of time to call me mom..." Then she took over her sister's business and joked casually: "You Brother Xu Dan, although he doesn’t have many hairs, he is still reliable at critical times. He found a VIP ward for your grandma..."
Shen Bai Yao couldn't laugh, and still squatted on the ground, staring at the cold floor tiles of the hospital with empty eyes.
"Why are you squatting on the ground?" Feng Zhaoyun returned from paying the fee and saw his daughter in a daze. She stretched out her hand to pull her up, but was avoided.
Shen Bai Yao lowered his eyebrows and rested his chin on his forearm, his voice hoarse from crying, "I want to squat for a while..."
When people feel insecure and remain standing, they will always feel that air is leaking from all directions, and fear from all sides seems to be pervasive.
Only by curling up into a ball can you feel a moment of comfort.
Feng Zhaoyun also squatted down, put the child in his arms, patted her shoulder, and comforted her softly: "Grandma is fine, don't be afraid."
"Well..." Shen Bai Yao gradually calmed down and wiped his eyes with his sleeve again, which made the area around his eyes red and looked distressing.
She was scared, but she didn't dare to show too much sadness.
She knew that she couldn't do anything to help, let alone cause trouble to the adults.
……
The whole night, Shen Yunian was going crazy with anxiety. She wanted to visit her mother in the hospital, but was discouraged by her sister and husband for fear that she and Bai Yao would run into each other.
She had no choice but to worry about her cell phone. She waited until 10:30 in the evening to get the news that her daughter was home. If she wanted to go to the hospital, it would only hinder her mother's rest.
As eleven o'clock approached, Shen Yunian looked up at the cloudy night sky, becoming more and more moved by the scene. He had no desire to do homework, but he felt uncomfortably idle.
She couldn't help but think about how other ways for concubines in costume dramas to pass their time besides counting stars and touching tiles...
Then, Shen Yunian suddenly had an idea and thought of the half-embroidered doll that "died in the middle".
At this moment, she urgently needs a job to calm her mind.
Shen Yunian turned the desk lamp to the brightest, watched the video on the Internet, and picked up the dolls that had been sewn during the winter vacation.
She opened the window, bathed in the gentle evening breeze, let the faint moonlight interweave with the indoor lights, welcomed the light, and sought a pure land.
Rather than borrowing the moon, it is better to say it is an escape.
To escape the weight of life that was unbearable for her.
People who have experienced life and death tend to cherish their lives even more. They are wary of even the slightest change that happens to their loved ones.
She was so scared, so scared...Afraid that after finally reviving her life, she would encounter the misery of the world.
Just like how my relatives received their own bad news ten years ago.
Elder Shen Yu let out a long sigh and suddenly felt a strong sense of powerlessness, as if he could no longer hold the needle and thread.
Against the cold wind, it made her eyeballs more sensitive. Soon the tears disappeared and filled her eyes. She could only wipe them away with her sleeves before continuing with her work.
However, the more tears she wiped away, the more they fell on the baby's navel. The tears quickly melted into the baby's body along the cotton.
Shen Yunian wiped away her tears, looked at the doll with various stitches, and suddenly laughed out loud:
The real picture is of a cute little boy with a round face, but under her unrestrained sewing, he turned into a mummy.
When her cell phone rang, she put down her sewing. Seeing that it was her daughter, she immediately picked up the call and changed her tone to a relaxed tone:
"Why are you still not sleeping at this hour? You have to stop looking at handsome guys?"
Most of Shen Baiyao's worries dissipated in an instant, and he smiled and said, "Which high school student goes to bed at 11 o'clock, and it's obvious to you?"
"Also, I am doing my biology homework, can you give me some structure?"
She was depressed inside and always wanted to find someone to talk to, but among the people she could talk to, her mother, the most suitable person to talk to, was no longer around, and her aunt was in the hospital again.
As for her father...she was afraid that her low score in chemistry would cause more problems for him, so she avoided it whenever she could.
Shen Baiyao made this call to his friend purely impromptu. He didn't think about the specific content of the chat, so he could only chat, for example:
"I don't want to study geography. I was told by Teacher Chen because I didn't do well in the exam..."
"The pudding Tang Jiali gave me was delicious..."
"Slow down!" Shen Yunian was a rare audience member and couldn't help but interrupt: "How delicious is the pudding Tang Jiali gave you? This is already the second time!!" Then he smiled in a mysterious manner, " We can’t be bribed with pudding. I’ll give you something nice next week”
How could she not understand that her daughter had nothing to say here, just to find comfort in the long night, so she went straight to the point:
"Is there anything bothering you?"
As soon as these words came out, Shen Baiyao was silent for ten seconds and hesitantly told the story about the hospital.
In her opinion, "Zhao Xu" is her best friend, and there should be nothing she can't talk about about the troubles at home, except...
Shen Yunian smiled hoarsely, saying that mother and daughter were in love with each other, and they were both worried about the same thing.
"Don't worry too much, hypoglycemia is not a serious illness."
But fainting for nothing, how can we not make people think too much...
Even though she was extremely worried, she still had to pretend to be nonchalant in front of her children.
Anyone can panic, but she can't, because she is the backbone of the child.
Shen Yunian couldn't help but think that after he left, and after his father left... the adults around Bai Yao had to endure the heartbreaking pain and comfort their children:
"They went to a better place."
Life and death are fateful, and letting nature take its course became such a desperate and useless comfort at that moment.
If possible, who wants to let go of their loved one's hand in person, and who can send them away calmly?
Letting go is always self-deception.
The heavy pressure on his chest did not get much relief. Shen Bai Yao hummed softly and asked cautiously: "Can you go to school early tomorrow?"
I don't want to be alone for too long.
In the past, Shen Yu would have agreed within a second, but now he hesitated.
She originally planned to take time off on Sunday night to take care of her mother.
"My...sister has a bad gastrointestinal condition recently and she insists that I stay with her at home."
Just after saying this, Shen Yunian seemed to hear Zhao Ning laughing.
One second, my stomach hurts because of eating ice cream, and the next second, I feel happy again while watching Fruit Attack.
"Okay..." Shen Bai Yao couldn't hide his disappointment, but he also expressed understanding: "Okay, good night."
Shen Yunian raised a smile and said, "See you on Monday."
See you on Monday, what a blessing.
Leave the unpleasantness in the past and embrace a new beginning.
Shen Yunian hung up the phone, and the connection was almost seamless
——Even more fixed than the alarm clock, Feng Zhaoyun came to give her warmth again.
"Hello."
Normally, she would have insulted him before getting to the point, but she was not in the mood today, and her tone was much gentler.
After a busy day, Feng Zhaoyun found time to deal with school matters. He knew that his wife must be anxious, so he had to make this call.
"Nian Nian, don't worry too much, go to bed early."
Hearing the voice from the other side, he felt extremely relieved and relaxed, but his voice was particularly tired.
Shen Yunian did not change his true character and replied: "You asked me to go to bed early and you still called me?" Then he teased: "You, on the other hand, stay up late at your age and are careful about baldness."
Feng Zhaoyun walked to the window. Through the reflection of the glass, he saw that his hairline was relatively forward, and heard the breathy voice on the phone, which made him feel relieved.
Shen Yunian fiddled with the ball of thread on the table and said casually: "Thank you for always."
She seems to be carefree and has something to say, but in fact she rarely expresses her feelings directly. She always feels that saying those sad words is disgusting and cheap.
Now that she had opened her mouth to speak, she took a deep breath and continued:
"Thank you, help me take care of my parents, take care of Bai Yao, you are alone..."
It's really not easy.
It is said that middle-aged people are difficult. The difficulty is that there are seniors above and juniors below. Since you cannot care about one and neglect the other, you can only consume yourself excessively, devote all your free time to your family, and no longer have yourself.
Although Shen Yunian didn't say anything, she still felt guilty in her heart. Over the years, she had been absent countless times when her family needed her.
The burden that could have been divided into two fell almost entirely on the husband alone. Feng Zhaoyun was relieved but felt relieved again and said with relief: "Nian Nian, do you still need to say 'thank you' between you and me?" Then he walked to the desk, caressed the photo, and looked at the woman with extremely gentle eyes.
Shen Yu sighed young, and suddenly his eyes were firm, saying: "Don't worry, I will definitely..."
"What?" Feng Zhaoyun looked away, his eyebrows were raised, and his light eyes were smiling.
Shen Yunian made up his mind and said seriously: "I will definitely support you in your old age in the future!"
Feng Zhaoyun: "..."
This is not necessary.
……
Shen Bai Yao wrote the biological genetics question without saying a word, just as sleepiness hit him and he yawned continuously.
She was about to turn off the lights and go to sleep, but she vaguely heard voices. The night amplified the parts that were not silence, dispersing her haziness.
If you don't listen carefully, you really can't hear it. However, Shen Bai Yao is a night owl, and the darkness of the night makes him extremely sharp.
Shen Bai Yao put on his slippers and opened the door quietly. In the huge living room, he could only hear the ticking of the clock, but the voices were clearer.
She suppressed the strangeness in her heart and walked along the furniture in the dark. She saw a faint light coming from the crack in the study door, guiding her to find the source of the sound.
She quickly sneaked to the door on tiptoe, lay down at the crack of the door and listened secretly:
It was vaguely audible that my father seemed to be talking on the phone in a very gentle tone. His mind, which had just calmed down, fell into turmoil again.
"Still taking care of yourself? Do you think I'm too old?"
The mellow voice is full of anger but still endearing.
Shen Bai Yao's eyes almost popped out of his head when he heard his father talking like this. He resisted the urge to rush in and put his ear to the study door, listening carefully to find out any clues about the unknown "stepmother".
Because her father was talking with headphones on, she couldn't distinguish the voice on the other end of the phone. She could only hold her breath and feel it with her mind.
Feng Zhaoyun didn't notice that there were ears on the wall. He was still immersed in the phone call and said with jealousy: "There are so many little boys in the high school affiliated to the Normal University. If they don't go to college, it's not possible for you to remember me. By then, you may not remember me." ”
It’s over, it’s over! !
Shen Bai Yao covered his mouth, his hanging heart finally died, and he constructed the relationship between the characters from a few words.
Her father's words were like mortars, hitting her between the eyebrows one after another. She was so shocked that she couldn't recover for a long time, and she didn't dare to recover.
As it neared midnight, the pendulum clock in the living room rang even louder. I wonder if it was an illusion, but the pendulum swayed more and more frequently, almost at the same frequency as her breathing.
Shen Bai Yao bit his trembling lips, his three views were shattered bit by bit, and then reorganized bit by bit.
That is him, the father whom he respects the most...
She has never openly opposed her father's remarriage, but she should at least find a woman who is equal in all respects!
Rather than being suspected of harming female high school students.
Shen Bai Yao didn't want to believe it, but urgently wanted to find out.
The stone stuck in her throat rolled down, finally breaking through the last line of defense. Without thinking, she pushed open the study door and rushed to the desk.
Feng Zhaoyun was facing the door, talking on the phone and arranging the bookcase, still some distance away from the mobile phone on the table.
When he reacted, his eyes suddenly switched from tenderness to shock, but by then it was already too late.
The father and daughter looked at each other. Shen Bai Yao was furious and strode forward. Before his father could pick up the phone, he grabbed the phone first. He caught a glimpse of the words "Dear" on the screen, and then without hesitation turned on the headset mode. Switch to external mode.
The joyful voice immediately came out from the mobile phone:
"A handsome tall man! A handsome tall man! Of course I want both!! Who likes an old man like you? Can you have a clear understanding of yourself?"
After hearing the other party's voice clearly, Shen Bai Yao opened his mouth half-open, his vision seemed to be frozen, and he couldn't recover for a long time.
Thinking about the intimate behavior between the two of them while drinking milk tea this afternoon, I really can't blame Zhao Xu's dad for being so weird. It turns out that there are traces to follow.
When did it start... No matter how hard she thought about it, she still couldn't figure out why her father was with her best friend?
I lament that I am a fool and have been kept in the dark for so long.
Feng Zhaoyun took advantage of her daughter's daze, took the phone and hung up.
He leaned down, held his daughter's shoulders, looked at her seriously, and said softly:
"Bai Yao, listen to dad first..."
Shen Bai Yao yanked his hand away with a look of disbelief on his face, his lips moving, "Is this... true?"
Deception and betrayal, in an instant, almost shattered the girl's entire understanding of the past 15 years.
Feng Zhaoyun pursed her lips tightly and hesitated.
His wife's identity cannot be revealed for the time being, but the current situation was something he had not expected.
Shen Bai Yao woke up, his round eyes were already red, he pushed him away and asked sternly.
"How old are you? How old is she!?"
"It's glorious for you to deceive a little girl, isn't it!?"
"Are you worthy of being a father!"
"You are so... you are so..." Shen Bai Yao calmed his heaving chest, paused, and then said with dead eyes and a despairing heart:
"Disgusting."
Normally, she would never have been able to say such hurtful words, especially towards her father.
Nowadays, she speaks indiscriminately in a hurry, and uses words to slander the person who loves her most.
The whole world can say something bad about him, but she, the daughter, can't.
She had just cried a few hours ago, and her tears fell uncontrollably. Shen Bai Yao let the tears slide down his cheeks, and his shoulders couldn't stop shaking.
The established moral code in her heart was crumbling at this moment.
Silent heartache is the ruins left behind after the collapse of faith.
Her father, her friend... two people who were close to her, actually joined forces to embarrass her.
Feng Zhaoyun panicked and took out a tissue, wiped away her daughter's tears, and said in a soft voice, "It's all dad's fault..."
He was not good at words, and the sudden dilemma made him unable to make a choice.
Shen Baiyao couldn't stop sobbing, and the gravel slowly accumulated in piles, weighing down her heart, making it hard for her to breathe.
For a long time, her eyes were bloodshot, listless, and extremely sad:
"Are you worthy of my mother?"
Thinking of her dearest mother, Shen Baiyao suddenly no longer wanted to be a crying little girl. Her deepest blood suddenly awakened, and she immediately became energetic. She grabbed her father's car keys and rushed downstairs.
When Feng Zhaoyun wanted to stop the person, the phone rang again. He could only answer it while chasing him, watching the elevator running downward, and ran down from the seventh floor quickly.
Shen Yunian over there didn't know what happened, but felt that his phone hung up suddenly, so he called back and asked:
"Why are you out of breath! Others practice in the morning but you practice at night?"
Feng Zhaoyun was afraid that his wife would worry about not sleeping well, so he tried hard to prevent her from hearing anything unusual, "I left something in the garage. I'll go get it."
"Good night." He hung up the phone immediately,
For the first time in his life, he ended the call before his wife hung up.
In the early morning, Shen Baiyao ran against the wind, letting the night wind dry his tears, trying to let the long night swallow up this not so good experience.
When she ran to the underground garage, she hesitated for a moment. Seeing her father chasing after her, she gritted her teeth and rushed into the bottomless abyss alone.
Feng Zhaoyun was afraid that her daughter would bump into her, so she turned on the flashlight on her mobile phone and illuminated the dark passage for her behind her.
Fortunately, even though it was early in the morning, the lights were still on under the garage. Shen Bai Yao quickly found his father's car. When he opened the door, he was gently pulled on his arm.
Shen Bai Yao pulled his arm out hard while reaching for the two Doraemon dolls placed in front of the car.
"Is this evidence that you went out to have dinner with her!?" She ignored her sadness and laughed angrily, "It's so hard for you to hide it from me!"
Perhaps guided by her intuition, she suddenly thought of these two dolls whose appearance coincided too much.
She wanted to smash them to pieces with her hands, but because Doraemon was so cute, she didn't do it. She could only throw them in the back of the car in a rage.
Feng Zhaoyun took off his coat and handed it to his daughter, and said in a low voice: "How about going home with dad? It's cold outside."
Taking advantage of the moment when he let go of his hand, Shen Bai Yao walked into the car and locked the door directly, with the intention of spending the night in the car.
Anyway, I can’t go back home for the time being, so I’ll make do with one night first.
How could Feng Zhaoyun tolerate her mischief and slapped the car door, "Good boy, you can't spend the night in the car."
"You and your father are angry, so you can't live with yourself..."
"How about you come down here? Dad will explain everything to you..."
At this moment, he really wanted to tell everything. His wife's concerns were important, but his daughter's health was even more important right now.
It was a cold spring night, there was no heater in the car, and she was wearing thin clothes.
Shen Bai Yao pulled the pillow in the car and covered his head. He didn't want to hear his so-called explanation at all.
After a long day of self-study and a trip to the hospital, she was really tired after coming back from being so stimulated. It didn't take long before she fell into a deep sleep.
What she didn't know was that her father, filled with self-blame and guilt, sat beside the car and watched over her all night.
Stayed up all night.
I don’t know how much time passed, but Feng Zhaoyun had dark circles under his eyes and looked haggard. He looked at his phone and estimated that his wife was asleep before he dared to send a message:
[Sorry, Bai Yao knows about us. ]
(End of chapter)
The author said: Dear friends, part of this chapter once appeared as the beginning, but it was too abrupt, so I changed it and refined it into this chapter.