Shen Yunian had been living in a state of confusion this week. It wasn't until Xiu asked for leave this Friday night and came to his mother that he felt a little relieved.
In the hospital corridor, Shen Jinsi saw her sister's depressed face and wanted to make some witticisms to lighten the atmosphere.
"Sister, how old are you and you still ask me to pick you up from school? Can you make good use of taxi-hailing apps?"
Shen Yunian was distracted for a moment and had no energy to reply.
"Sister, you can't do that." Shen Jinsi saw her sister's expression on one of the few occasions and put her arms around her shoulders, "You are a mother, not a palace maid, how can you be so humble?"
Shen Yunian shook his head helplessly and said with emotion: "I finally came back, but I left such bad memories for her. I feel sorry for her."
"Have you come back after a long time..." Shen Jinsi, who had always been smiling, muttered in a low voice because this sentence touched the scene deeply: "It sounds like you are here for a trip..."
Don't leave anymore, this was her only thought.
The two sisters walked into the ward and saw Feng Zhaoyun sitting on the sofa, stirring the white porridge with a spoon in his hand, obviously having no appetite.
"Let's see what you eat." Shen Yunian placed the packaged two vegetables and two meat dishes in front of him. The moment he raised his eyes, he noticed that the man's eye sockets were getting sunken and he was very haggard, and he felt unbearable.
Feng Zhaoyun looked at his wife, his eyes brightened, and then he lowered his eyelids, "Bai Yao hasn't called me for a week."
"Today I sent a message asking her if she wanted to come to the hospital, but she didn't reply to me."
Shen Yu laughed young and suddenly thought, "I'll give you an idea."
"I watched a TV series two days ago. The male and female protagonists are married by contract. The female protagonist pretends to be the male protagonist's wife. In fact, she earns a salary by doing housework. You can also hire a lady to act in front of Bai Yao..."< br>
"This is a very convincing way to cut off the contact between us."
The fine lines at the corners of Feng Zhaoyun's eyes showed gentle arcs, and a smile appeared at the corners of his mouth:
"Let me hire you. You don't have to go to work or do housework. You just get a salary every month."
Listening to the couple "flirting" openly and indifferently, the old lady and the younger daughter looked at each other and reached a consensus.
"Cough cough cough."
Lu Xiang cleared his throat: "I'm not even 70 or 80 years old."
Shen Jinsi, on the other hand, looked like a passing dog that had been kicked, with a look of despair on her face and she wished she could buy both of them.
"Okay, okay, you go quickly." She pushed her sister and brother-in-law out, "I will just take care of our mother, so that you don't have to humiliate your ears here."
"I didn't say anything..." Shen Yunian couldn't help but feel aggrieved, and was pushed out of the door smoothly like Dave pushing a forklift.
After leaving the ward, Feng Zhaoyun couldn't hide his smile and asked shamelessly: "You really don't think about it?"
Shen Yunian almost had the word "Go" written on his face and flatly refused: "I'm warning you, stay away from me at this stage."
"How long will this stage last..." Feng Zhaoyun's stern eyebrows revealed a sense of grievance that was extremely inconsistent with his temperament.
Shen Yunian resisted the urge to roll his eyes and was about to speak when he noticed a man on crutches appearing at the corner of the corridor.
The man is tall, dignified and calm, and does not look embarrassed even if he has difficulty walking.
"Qin Muye?" Shen Yunian recognized him and couldn't help being surprised.
Qin Muye also recognized her, with a slight smile on his cold face, a slight nod, and walked this way on a crutch, but was stopped by Shen Yunian, "Don't come over here, I'll help you go back."
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She is planning something big recently and needs help from people related to Zhao Xu.
And Qin Muye may be the last link.
Such a handsome young man suddenly appeared. Although Feng Zhaoyun knew the relationship between the man and the original owner, he still felt in danger and wanted to find an excuse to take his wife away.
Shen Yunian felt that Mr. Feng was in the way, so he deliberately raised his voice: "Teacher Qin! Let's go!" Then he supported the somewhat confused Qin Muye and walked away.
Two people who were not familiar with each other walked awkwardly together at this moment, and they both noticed the disharmony between them.
It was Shen Yunian who spoke first: "Teacher Qin, how did you break your leg?"
Qin Muye responded calmly: "My leg is not broken." Then he added: "...I was run over by a bicycle and the bones were broken."
"Poof."
Shen Yunian's laughter was not loud, but it caught the other person's attention.
"I'm sorry, I didn't blame you, I just suddenly thought of something funny."
The funny thing is not that he was run over by a car, but the expression on his face when he spoke. It didn't look like he had been in an accident, but like he had eaten too little salt.
A touch...
In fact, she was a little gloating.
I asked you to fall in love with a student, so you must have received retribution.
Qin Muye raised his eyes when he heard this, chuckled lightly, and said nothing.
But this laughter sounded so weird to Shen Yunian that he suddenly broke out in cold sweat. He dared not laugh again and immediately returned to his serious expression.
For some reason, whenever she was close to Qin Muye, she would always feel a strong coldness on his body.
It's impersonal and cold.
Later she learned that the man, who seemed to be in a normal mental state, was actually suffering from a disease:
Unipolar affective disorder.
When she was distracted, her hand on the other person's arm loosened, and Qin Muye suddenly lost his point of focus. The crutch in his left hand slid on the ground, and his whole body crashed into the big wall.
"Sorry, sorry." Shen Yunian opened his eyes wide and asked himself that he was definitely not seeking revenge for personal gain, and quickly helped the person up.
Although Qin Muye was tall, he was not too heavy. He shook his head to indicate that nothing was wrong, and then used the wall to stand up, but his wallet fell out of his pocket.
The soft touch of the wallet, even a person like her who didn't know much about it, could tell that this wallet must be worth a lot of money.
A photo slipped from it, and Shen Yunian bent down to pick it up, staring intently at the two people in the photo: the man in the photo was Qin Muye, standing quietly on the beach, lowering his head and smiling, looking at the man who was picking up shells on the shore. girl.
The girl was Zhao Xu, squatting on the spot, holding a shell in her hand, her indifferent eyes showing a rare luster.
It was as if the object in his hand was not an ordinary object, but a treasure as valuable as gold.
"You...we went to the beach to take this photo together?" Shen Yunian asked.
She suddenly remembered that Zhao Xu also had a photo with Qin Muye, and he seemed to be holding a shell in his hand.
Qin Muye knew that the other party had "amnesia", but when he heard her say she couldn't remember, disappointment still flashed through his eyes.
"That day was the eighth anniversary of your departure from Tonghua County, so we went to the beach."
Shen Yunian couldn't help but wonder, why should there be an anniversary after leaving home?
She doesn’t think Zhao Xu will like his hometown, so the only thing left is...
As if guided by a mysterious force, she turned over the photo, and sure enough, the same text as Zhao Xu's was written on it:
[This is the sea. ]
"So...what does this sentence mean?"
A few months ago, she subconsciously linked this sentence to the movie lines, and thus deduced that Zhao Xu and Qin Muye fell in love as teacher and student.
Shen Yunian was complacent about his unparalleled intelligence for a while, after all, he could guess such a deep meaning.
When it comes to intelligence, who else can she be?
But now it seems...
Qin Muye's eyes were heavy, "What do you think it means?"
Shen Yunian was about to reply when he met his calm, yet sharp eyes that could penetrate the soul, and his thoughts were shaken.
There is always a feeling of being helpless when one's identity is seen through.
She pretended to be calm and told Qin Muye her guess at the time. As soon as she finished speaking, the other party laughed out loud.
Qin Muye's serious face showed a slightly embarrassed smile, "You have a very rich imagination."
"Literal meaning, nothing more." Shen Yunian looked through the commotion in the photo and looked at the shell in Zhao Xu's hand. The past was like the wind, picking up the fragments deep in the memory and connecting various clues.
The shells on the private car, the shells in the photos, the shell ornaments in Sun Haoran’s home...
Seeing that she still didn't understand, Qin Muye reminded her: "Where is Zhao Xu's home?"
"Tonghua County..." The village surrounded by mountains and closed in many directions appeared in Shen Yunian's mind.
It was as if she had experienced a landslide deep in her soul. The mud and sand poured down, uprooting the dead trees that had taken root in her hometown of thinking, destroying her stubborn cognition.
Yes, where there are mountains, how can you see the sea?
It turns out that "this is the sea" is just a girl who grew up in the mountains and wanted to cross the mountains and open her eyes to see the world.
That's all.
Qin Muye's eyes passed through the corridor and reached the sea. His eyes reflected the blue sky, revealing clear light.
"She once told me that her 11th birthday was the first time in her life that she saw the sea."
How can a person who has seen the sea be willing to return to the mountains?
Crossing the vast sea and traveling in the endless sky, her life seemed to no longer have any limitations at that moment, and she truly welcomed the vast sea and sky.
"You really don't care about her."
Qin Muye shook his head gently and gave Shen Yunian a series of heavy blows in the most ordinary tone.
She looked at the person's indifferent face in disbelief, unable to recover for a long time. For a moment, she even doubted whether she was talking to an AI that was proficient in human nature.
"I'm suddenly a little hungry. Let's go first." Shen Yunian didn't care about the other person's life or death. He suddenly let go of his hand and ran away as if he was oiling the soles of his feet.
With a bang, Qin Muye lost his support again and fell again.
He sat on the ground in a state of embarrassment, his expressionless face rising and falling due to the pain.
At that time, although Shen Yunian felt a little ashamed, he had a dark thought:
Drop it a few more times to reveal your true form as an AI.
"That's right." She suddenly remembered that she had something to ask for, squatted in front of the man, suppressed her smile, and said solemnly: "I have something I want you to cooperate with."
Qin Muye has an excellent upbringing and can express his emotions and anger, but he can't help but think:
You dropped me twice and you still want me to help?
Afraid that he would hold a grudge, Shen Yunian added: "Just think it's for Zhao Xu."
At the mention of this name, Qin Muye was in a trance, his brows relaxed, and he responded in a low voice:
"Say it."
……
After Shen Baiyao received the message from his father, he couldn't read it back, but he was thinking about his grandmother in his heart, so he colluded with his aunt to secretly ask for leave and come to the hospital.
Grandma's ward was on the fifth floor. By some mistake, she ran to the fourth floor. After walking around, she realized something was wrong. Just as she was about to return to the elevator, she was stopped by someone.
"Bai Yao."
When Shen Baiyao heard the man's voice, he trembled reflexively, turned around, stood at attention and said hello: "Hello, Teacher Chen."
Something bad happened. The class teacher saw me skipping evening classes.
Teacher Chen was holding a lunch box in his hand. Different from his usual dignified appearance, his face was much kinder now.
Shen Bai Yao nodded and smiled. When he turned his head, he saw a middle-aged woman with disheveled hair leaning against the door of the ward.
The woman had a sallow complexion and a haggard appearance. Only her eyes were wide open, staring at Shen Bai Yao scorchingly, and her mouth seemed to be muttering something.
"Quiet...quiet..."
He must be a mentally disturbed person.
When Shen Bai Yao faced her weird smile, he was so frightened that he was afraid that the other party would attack him. He hid behind the teacher, not daring to look again.
Teacher Chen stepped forward to comfort the woman, "She is not Jingjing, she is my student."
The woman, who was originally overly excited, suddenly became discouraged and murmured: "It turns out it's not the case..." Then she left in despair as if she had been drained.
Teacher Chen breathed a sigh of relief and apologized to the students: "I'm sorry, she is my wife."
Shen Baiyao shook his head, but he was still a little frightened. He thought of the rumors about Teacher Chen and fell into deep thought for a moment.
Teacher Chen guessed what the students were thinking and asked tentatively: "Did any classmates in the class say that my daughter was abducted?"
Shen Baiyao shook his head resolutely and categorically denied: "Absolutely not."
"It's true."
Teacher Chen forced a smile, pinched his brows, and mentioned the unbearable past. He suddenly lost his strength and slowly sat on the hospital bench.
"Sorry teacher."
Shen Bai Yao hurriedly sat next to the teacher, unable to say anything useful for the time being.
No amount of comfort is of any use to a father who has lost his daughter.
She could probably guess the inside story. After the teacher's daughter was abducted, his wife was devastated and became mentally unstable.
The most poignant thing for her is that the teacher not only has to watch over the students every day, leaving early and coming back late, but he also has to go to the hospital to take care of his wife who has limited mobility, running between the school and the hospital.
For a long time, she could only comfort the teacher: "You must believe that your daughter will come back one day."
There is still a one in 10,000 chance that a missing person will come back.
But the dead will never come back.
Thinking about it this way, Shen Bai Yao felt that he was even more unlucky.
All living beings suffer, who is better than whom?
Many people's expectation is not to be "happy" until tomorrow, but to be "nothing" until tomorrow, or even to be "alive" until tomorrow.
They are all just holding on, some for themselves, and more for their loved ones.
Teacher Chen smiled with relief and rarely joked: "Bai Yao, tell me the truth. Do our classmates dislike me very much?"
He saw the reactions of his classmates, and although he didn't say anything, it didn't mean he wouldn't care.
Every time Teacher Wen enters the class, everyone is eager to applaud and welcome him. ”
When he was in the class, none of his classmates dared to say a word. Even activists like Jin Rumo behaved themselves.
Shen Baiyao thought for a while and said, "Everyone understands your painstaking efforts. Some don't. I'm sure they will understand in the future."
At least judging from the midterm results, their class has already caught up with key classes in many subjects.
Teacher Chen smiled silently, and his face, which had always been tense, rarely relaxed.
Although he had never expected anything in return, listening to the students' words, he suddenly felt that all his efforts were worth it.
……
Shen Bai Yao sat for a while, thinking it was a break from visiting his father. After saying goodbye to Teacher Chen, he turned and went up the stairs.
Just as he entered the stairwell door, "Zhao Xu" happened to come down from upstairs, lowering his head and playing with his mobile phone.
Seeing that the other party did not see him, Shen Bai Yao hid directly outside the door, observing his movements while making wild guesses:
Why did she go to the fifth floor? You didn’t come here with your father, right...
Thinking of this, Shen Bai Yao just wanted to forgive a little, but he quickly put it away, his anger was ignited again, he restrained himself from stepping forward to question, and just sulked on the spot.
At this time, Shen Yunian was addicted to his mobile phone and was not aware of his daughter's existence at all.
She opened the text message interface and solemnly went around the recipients, finally choosing Feng Zhaoyun.
For a time, a variety of emotions were intertwined, choked in the throat, and tapped the screen:
[Bai Yao has stopped taking medicine for the past two days and secretly drinks cold yogurt. Keep an eye on her. ]
[Never tell her my true identity, otherwise I will despise you. ]
In the end, she had tears in her eyes and her hands were shaking as she typed:
[Take good care of our daughter, just like when I am away. ]
After editing the text message, she chose to send it at a scheduled time.
When will it be decided?
Probably when she finished her errands.
Here, life and death were uncertain, and she had to explain her biggest concern before she dared to travel far away with peace of mind.
(End of chapter)
The author said: I know that the reversal of "This is the Sea" is blunt, and it was my sudden idea to raise the idea to a higher level.
The TV series where the male and female protagonists get married by contract is "Escape Is Shameful But Useful", it's particularly good to watch! !
If Youbao wants to know more about Zhao Xu’s past, you can read this preview:
"Forbidden Sea [Campus]"
[The age difference between teachers and students is 8 years old, high school background, two-way redemption]
[Pure love mixed with taboos/Confrontation between reason and emotion]
The beautiful, strong, infatuated male protagonist x the artistic tsundere looks well-behaved but is actually a rebellious female high school student
Unipolar disorder x childhood shadow
(^.^)This article is also called: "Bitter Orange Sea"
Part1. Female protagonist
At the beginning of the second year of high school, the first math class was taken over by the new teacher Qin Muye.
Zhao Xu recognized by her voice that the teacher on the podium was a netizen who had shared several film reviews with her last summer vacation.
Fortunately, the teacher didn't recognize her.
However, she didn't intend to recognize him.
Let the beauty of this mistake end here.
The rumored Qin Muye has outstanding looks, is gentle and polite, has a superior background, and graduated from a top university...
Only Zhao Xu, who became a netizen with him, knew that beneath the beautiful appearance, their hearts were equally broken.
On the surface, you follow the rules and want to live the way others expect.
In fact, he is rebellious and longs for warmth.
I don’t know where the love started, but it goes deeper and deeper.
Zhao Xu didn’t know that the math teacher had been secretly in love with her for a long time
——But, that was before they became teachers and students.
Based on professional ethics, Qin Muye could only seal his heart forever.
Even if their beginning... wasn't like that.
Part2. Male protagonist
Qin Muye fell in love with a girl who had only two sides,
When they met for the first time, she looked indifferent and showed no fear in the face of the threat from the man at the table.
The second time they met, she was sitting by the window, flipping through Lorca's poetry collection.
The blue sea carries poetry and the distance in its mouth
The sunlight hit the side of her face, bright and soft.
An unknown heartbeat was at work. He wanted to see her again, or at least ask her name.
The third time I met her, the two of them were teachers and students.
From that moment on, Qin Muye chose to let go of his delusions and tried to draw a clear line with his hidden good feelings.
Things are moving out of control.
That night, there was thunder and heavy rain.
The glass was broken all over the floor, and a man was lying in a pool of blood.
The girl not far away had desolate eyes, and blood mixed with rain flowed down her face.
Seeing this scene, Qin Muye did not hesitate and hugged Zhao Xu, whose hands were full of blood.
The wet and cold rain drenched two hearts full of holes,
How come they don't understand? The relationship between each other will not stop at teachers and students...
There was a sentence in the book:
[The most intimate relationship in the world is accomplice. ]
But Qin Muye wanted to add:
[The most inescapable thing in the world is the love born from taboos. ]
……
The sky will always welcome the sun,
The shady feelings will eventually be exposed.
Reality is not a fairy tale. Who can not be afraid of the secular world?
If you make a mistake in your journey, it will be difficult to collect the water.
Day and night, it’s all wrong
Reading Guide
①The male protagonist does not know that the netizen and the female protagonist are the same person at first, but the female protagonist knows that the male protagonist and the netizen are the same person from the beginning.
②The heroine was already 18 years old when she first met the hero and settled in late.
④Demining: This theme/the male protagonist is the first to be tempted as a teacher.
⑤ No be, there won’t be a plot where “all the teachers and students in the school find out that the male and female protagonists are in love, and then a lot of people blame it”!
⑥There are supporting characters who like both male and female protagonists, but they do not engage in female competition.