In the early morning, I sat in front of the computer and typed out three words: conclusion, and then fell into silence facing the empty outline.
I have imagined countless times how I will feel when this article is finished. Will I be alone on the computer and go crazy with joy, or will I be so sad that I burst into tears?
The result was neither. I had mixed feelings and felt lost.
After more than four hundred days and nights, I finally completed this story and accompanied everyone in the book through their lives.
I am really, really grateful to you who have been with them and me during these hundreds of days.
If it weren't for your support and encouragement, I might not be able to persevere.
Let’s talk about the title of the book first. To be honest, I am a sucker for naming.
But luckily I met a good editor.
Initially, the editor gave me the name "Shuese Spring Light". To be honest, I personally like this name very much and it fits the content of this article... Later, when I signed the contract, the editor changed it again. I guess I was afraid that it was not enough. Maybe it’s because of the eye-catching effect.
Let’s talk about the original intention of writing the article.
In fact, when I looked back at the content after I finished writing it, it was far different from the first version of the outline I submitted to the editor.
At first I simply wanted to write an article about rebirth, but as I was writing it, I began to seriously think about why I want to be reborn? What is the meaning of rebirth?
I love my heroine very much and feel sorry for her very much.
Many people can't understand why I want to create such a tragic character as the protagonist and not give her any golden fingers. Is it just for the sake of torture and misery?
Of course not.
The heroine in my writing does not refer to a specific person, but a synthesis of many women.
Happy people are all alike, and unhappy people are all unhappy in their own way.
She brings together the misfortunes of many people, and also has certain shortcomings that you hate.
She's not a perfect person, and of course I don't expect her to be.
I sympathize with her misfortune, tolerate her shortcomings, and understand her mistakes.
I watched her fall again and again, breaking her head and bleeding, then gritted her teeth and got up and continued to move forward.
I also watched her fall into desperate situations again and again, but she never gave up on herself, tried her best to save herself, and survived in desperate situations.
Finally, I saw her break out of her cocoon and become a butterfly, gain a true new life, realize her own value, and have her own happiness.
Seeing this, do you think this is just her?
Many readers feel that this article is sad and tiring to read. I can only say that I am sorry that I cannot create the kind of pleasure you want.
Because this article itself is a history of growth mixed with blood and tears.
And growth is never something that only makes people feel happy and happy.
There is no chance for a do-over in life, so what is the meaning of the rebirth article? Is it just to satisfy temporary fantasies?
I think some treasures will definitely understand me.
That's enough.
In addition, many people said that this article does not have a strong heroine at all.
The definition of a heroine is very subjective and there is no unified standard. A thousand people have a thousand opinions, which can easily lead to controversy.
So in order to avoid triggering a war of words, I don’t want to touch these three words. In addition, there is the most important point. That is, I allow all kinds of women to exist in my writing, and I will not deliberately write them into a mold for the sake of writing.
I like this sentence very much: You don’t have to live like a rose. If you are willing, you can be a jasmine, a daisy, a sunflower, an unknown little flower, and thousands of others.
I think whether you love yourself or love others, it all starts with acceptance.
I am like this, and so are my characters.
Then let’s talk about the other two characters.
High potential...very controversial.
There is no whitewashing! It won’t be washed away! There’s no need to clean up!
The evil in other people's nature is caused by many reasons, including himself.
I just present a lot of complex things so that the character is no longer superficial.
Is it okay to hurt others just because of his misfortune?
His feelings for the heroine are not love in the true sense.
Please...you...collect_6_9_书_吧 (六//九//书//吧)
As for the heroine, it would be fine if she didn't hate him, let alone love him, which is completely impossible.
For the heroine, the high potential represents her unbearable past and hatred, like a cocoon that imprisons her.
Then, let’s talk about the male protagonist.
He and the heroine heal each other, redeem each other, grow together, and are soul mates.
There can be no one else between these two people.
Therefore, the biggest difficulty in their relationship is never other people, but themselves.
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Before finishing, I originally planned to write a few extras, but now I feel it is unnecessary.
This story is like a puzzle. I put it together piece by piece. It is also good to leave appropriate blank space to give everyone room for imagination.
Of course, if you have any questions, you can leave me a message.
Really, there are so many people I want to thank, and there are them on every platform.
I will remember all your comments, subscriptions, recommendation votes, monthly votes, and character drawings.
Due to various reasons, changes in real life, as well as my own physical and psychological problems, illness, stress, anxiety, and Carvin, the update was interrupted. I am really sorry.
Sometimes I sit in front of the computer all day, or stay up all night, but I can't write a word. Even if I wrote it reluctantly, when I look back and feel dissatisfied, I would rather delete it than post it.
But no matter what, I never thought about giving up or ending it hastily.
Thank you very much for your tolerance, tolerance and encouragement for my immature writing and rough stories.
As for what I will write in the next book, I haven’t decided yet. If it doesn’t work out, I will draw lots to decide o(*￣︶￣*)o
Of course, the most important thing is to see which one the editor has given, hahaha.
We are a long way from each other, we are lucky enough to meet each other, and we are destined to see you again!
May the winter be over for you and me, and may the stars be bright forever! (End of chapter)