Chapter 116 The so-called halo
Xu Jiayu was a little curious, "What did Auntie say?"
Li Shuhe suddenly raised his head, a trace of surprise flashed in his eyes, and he quickly stood up cautiously, "Oh! Why are you here, Master?"
She was called Master Mu. It was obvious that Lu Tong had successfully captured Li Shuhe.
"Don't call me that, I'm embarrassed."
"Then...Sister Xu?"
Xu Jiayu patted the place next to him and said, "Don't stand, sit down and talk."
"Hey! My mother said you should never go to a doctor when looking for a partner. If you are lucky, you will get a widowed marriage, but if you are not lucky, you will get a widowed marriage plus cheating. This is why my mother was different from me at the beginning, just like I liked Lin Mochen. In the eyes of these doctors, patients will always be married. More important than my wife.”
After the little girl finished speaking angrily, she suddenly covered her mouth in horror.
"Sister Xu, don't be angry! I'm just here to talk."
Xu Jiayu chuckled, "No."
It seemed that something strange happened to the little girl. She stared at Xu Jiayu for a long time before she spoke with emotion.
"Lin Mochen was suddenly called away like this. Sister Xu, you are really not disappointed or sad at all! I thought you were just faking it just now."
“My mother’s complaints have made my ears tingle since I was little. Every day she calls me and she talks about working overtime. The most common thing she talks about is that she is busy. It is common for her to not go home during the New Year and holidays. If she even manages to spare a day to spend time with her, she is often picked up halfway. The hospital called me back, and my mother said that an immature child like me is not suitable for a doctor as a companion.”
Xu Jiayu smiled, "So are you troubled? But I think you seem to have made a choice in your heart, otherwise you wouldn't call me Master Mu like Lu Tong."
"...If you don't tell me, I didn't realize it myself."
Li Shuhe stared and blinked, then looked at Xu Jiayu again, panicking like a little rabbit whose secret was discovered.
"Well...actually thinking about it now, I may just admire Lin Mochen. He is handsome, capable, a young academic, a leader in the subject, and the youngest deputy chief physician. The aura surrounding him is simply amazing. There are too many halos around him, making him less than a legend, but I seem to be blinded by these halos.”
Li Shuhe suddenly stood up, "Sister Xu, that time Lin Mochen insisted on asking me to apologize to you but I refused, but today I want to apologize to you from the bottom of my heart. I did scratch your face on purpose, I'm sorry."
"At that time, I thought that as long as I spared no effort and was sincere, I would get his response one day, and I would never give up before that."
"But as time went by, I found that feelings didn't seem to be like this. I went to him again and again to please him, trying to be as mature as possible to match him, but he rejected me again and again, as cold as a smelly and hard piece of meat. Shitou, suddenly one day I found that I hated him, especially after seeing you, that feeling reached its peak.”
"Mom told me that this is what you ask for but don't get."
"I can't understand why the same pair of cold and ruthless eyes would cause ripples when he saw you. In my understanding, that kind of look should not appear on Lin Mochen at all. Later I saw him kissing you in the garage, and I realized Lin Mochen also has love, he can also be angry, he also has weaknesses, and he also has times when he is afraid. ”
"I suddenly realized, ah! It turns out that Lin Mochen is also a human being! He is no different from Lu Tong, me, and everyone else in the world. The aura surrounding him collapsed in an instant. I asked myself, do I still like him after giving up these things? The answer is no , His love only shines on the people he loves. Compared with Lu Tong's warm sunshine, I even hated Lin Mochen a little. At that moment, I suddenly felt relieved. What I liked was just the gaudy halo that was built on him. That’s all.”
"Ever since I got together with Lu Tong, I realized what 'falling in love' really is. Those people who were dating me only cared about whether I was so-and-so's daughter, and didn't even care what my name was. But Lu Tong and them It’s different. He will remind me to eat, tell me funny jokes to make me happy, take beautiful photos for me, take me to the game arcade... It is he who makes me feel loved. With the warmth of people's love, I realized that loving and being loved are the desires of people's hearts. Those hatreds were ignored by me and accumulated in my heart, the desire to be loved." "I even began to rejoice in Lin Mochen's kindness of not loving. Because I can't tolerate his shortcomings at all. But you are different. You see, you can understand what he means without saying a word."
"Sister Xu, I want to ask you, are you really, really! Aren't you disappointed and sad?" Li Shuhe finished speaking in one breath, breathed a long sigh of relief, and looked at her again after a long time, "Sometimes I always feel Lu Tong doesn’t love me at all, he only loves his job.”
Xu Jiayu pondered for a long time, "I think... I can probably understand your mood? In my opinion, since I chose him, I am ready to accept everything about him, his good, his bad, his dreams, his Choice, his responsibility..."
"I often see him sitting in the study, with a patient's CT on the table and some documents that I can't understand on the computer screen, while his eyes are staring ahead, as if in a daze."
"I asked him what he was doing, and he turned to look at me. He took a moment to recover. He sighed, rubbed his brows, and said he was thinking about a treatment plan. His expression seemed very heavy."
"I am familiar with his little movements and know that they are signs that he is tired. I was thinking about how complicated the condition is that makes him so embarrassed. He is Lin Mochen!"
"I watched him immerse himself in thinking again, and suddenly I felt that he had to pay so much to get those so-called halos."
"I grew up with him, and I knew very well that he hated the profession of 'doctor'. But later he said that choosing medicine may have been an accident, but he never regretted it. I knew that he insisted on wanting to be a doctor. Things to do.”
“I think everyone has their own dreams and things they want to do, but being able to be so persistent, defying difficulties and unswervingly doing something is something worthy of admiration in itself, isn’t it? ”
"We seem to be working hard, but Lin Mochen doesn't feel it himself. I think he should be happy and happy. I know that when he chose this career, he chose to devote himself. He supported the lives and health of many patients with his hands. His shoulders have carried the happiness and laughter of many families. Just like when I walked into the hospital just now, a patient's family member would greet me affectionately, thank me one by one, and give me fruit, just because I am Lin Mochen's. Mrs. ”
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"My mood is like this, let alone him? I love him, and of course I hope he is happy, just like he will support me no matter when and where. Only when two people understand and support each other can we go forward together."
After saying these words, Xu Jiayu's face swelled up inexplicably. She took a deep breath and looked at Li Shuhe, "Have you thought carefully about whether Lu Tong has done anything that made you feel 'love'? Love or not." I believe you know it better than anyone else.”
"Dangdang——"
"Kaka——"
The two people's WeChat ringtones rang at the same time. Xu Jiayu looked at the text message and then looked at Li Shuhe, "Is it Sister Wang?"
Li Shuhe nodded, "Sister Wang said that the patient's condition is urgent, and Tong Lu asked her to send me a message if anything happens."
She smiled and held up the car keys, "Are you driving? Do you want me to take you off?"
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