Chapter 67 Don’t look back
There was no emotion in Chu Yan's words, and she couldn't feel how much she was reluctant to let go of the child who had briefly stayed in her belly.
Indeed, thinking from a rational perspective, as Chu Yan said, it was just a fertilized egg that had not yet formed. Even consciousness had not yet been born, so it could not be considered a living person, so she chose to give up. There should be no need for any psychological burden.
But if a person can always think rationally, then he is not a human being.
Gu Chuan had already missed an opportunity to understand Chu Yan, and he would not miss it a second time.
Chu Yan forgot the past, so she also forgot that emotion.
Not long ago, Gu Chuan frantically investigated. When Chu Yan went to the hospital for surgery, only one friend stayed with her. He knew Chu Yan's circle and could guess that friend must be Fang Fang.
Fu Juan also said that Chu Yan was in a very bad state at that time. She was very sad and helpless, but the person who was supposed to stop it didn't show up.
Gu Chuan often felt that fate had never favored him. Fang Fang, Fu Juan, Shen Xing... Why were so many people aware of Chu Yan's past, but he was the only one who didn't?
He and Chu Yan should not have come to this point.
Gu Chuan forced himself to laugh. He seemed to be a normal person with a sound soul. He held her hand and said softly: "It's okay, Yanyan, it's okay if you don't remember the past, so you don't have to worry about the past." We are sad about what happened, but we can still create more memories, and we can also bring back the child we lost, Yanyan..."
The stinging feeling in Gu Chuan's throat became stronger and stronger. He wanted to endure it, but the pain had spread all over his body, making it difficult for him to breathe.
"Yanyan, let's start over. We will have the next seven, ten, twenty years... just like we promised before, we will spend our whole life together."
"Really, I won't lie to you, and I won't break my promise again this time."
"I will remember everything we said and everything we did."
"We can bring back the lost child together, if..."
"It's okay if you don't want kids, we just have each other."
As Gu Chuan spoke, he slowly approached. He held her hand and moved it slowly, placing it on her waist. The man's eyes were now dark, and he could only tentatively rely on to find her presence. direction, to find the light point that can illuminate yourself.
"Yanyan, let's start over, okay?"
As he got closer to her, Chu Yan's hand tightened on the knife and fork hidden in her pocket.
In the past, no one thought that Gu Chuan would be a scumbag who lost his mind and acted against a woman's will.
But now, the way he looks at him can no longer be the same as before.
If he really lost his mind and tried to do anything to her, then she couldn't sit still and wait for death.
Chu Yan said: "I am very tired and I want to rest."
Gu Chuan stopped approaching. He stared at her for a long time and said gently, "Okay, I'll guard you."
He gently picked her up and put her on the soft bed, covering her with a quilt. He sat on the edge of the bed, holding her stiff hand, and said with a smile: "Yanyan, sleep peacefully." Chu Yan closed her eyes, but didn't dare to really fall asleep.
Now, she has no trust in Gu Chuan. In her eyes, he is no different from those illegal elements.
When she felt someone lying down next to her, her nerves were highly tense, but she didn't dare to open her eyes rashly. She just thought she was asleep and didn't know what he wanted to do.
However, Gu Chuan did not use strong methods as she thought. He just lay next to her, held one of her hands, and looked at her quietly all night. Other than that, he didn't do anything else. Didn't do it.
Chu Yan "woke up" the next day, and neither she nor he were in such good mental condition.
Gu Chuan could smile happily, and brought her a beautiful skirt and hair accessories, as if he were treating her as a princess, and coordinated with her to dress her up beautifully.
"Yanyan, I remember when you were in high school, you liked to use this kind of headband." He was used to holding the pen, and now he was unfamiliar with picking up the headband and tying a bow on her ponytail, "We live in After we got married, I would sometimes tie your hair. At that time, you thought the bows I tied were not beautiful enough, so I practiced secretly for a long time. "
Later, he was finally able to tie beautiful bows, but his relationship with Chu Yan gradually changed, and she no longer asked him to tie her hair.
After many years, he finally had the opportunity to tie her hair, but the skill he had not touched for a long time was now very unfamiliar.
What's even more ironic is that no matter how badly he tied the bow, she would never tell him to start over again.
Gu Chuan looked at the person in the mirror. She was still the same person, but she would no longer smile happily at him like before.
Every morning in those years, when I opened my eyes and saw each other, it suddenly became very lively and lively.
However, this morning, it was too deserted.
She must not know how much effort it took for him to suppress the destructive desire in his body.
Gu Chuan was in dire straits, and there was a voice in his mind that kept telling him, that's it, as long as she is imprisoned in this room, he can do whatever he wants and fill her up until she is pregnant with his child.
But the missing blade that could be used as a sword to destroy both jade and stone gave Gu Chuan a brief moment of clarity.
He is already in hell, and he can no longer drag Chu Yan into hell to suffer with him.
If he really did that, it would really be impossible for him and her.
What he wants is a living Chu Yan, the Chu Yan who will smile and be angry with him, not the Chu Yan who is now only indifferent to him.
Gu Chuan put down the hand that was tying her hair. His fingertips slid all the way down and touched her cheek. Her subconscious reaction was to hide to the side. His hand just stopped in mid-air, without any support. The feeling of emptiness satirizes his self-righteousness.
He took back his hand and forced a smile, "Yanyan, I've prepared breakfast, including your favorite taro paste and pork floss buns. Let's go eat."
Gu Chuan took her hand, and this time, she did not refuse forcefully.
She has always been smart and her priority is to protect herself, so she knows not to anger him too much.
Since Gu Chuan chose to use this method to bring her to the villa, it proved that he had long been prepared not to look back.