Chapter 78 Suicide Note
As Gu Miao's nominal second brother, He Zhihuai got the ashes after contacting the police.
On that familiar sea, they found He Zhihuai.
He Zhihuai was slightly startled when he saw the two brothers. Then he smiled and said: "I remember you, you are our Miao Miao classmates, right?"
"What are you going to do?" Chi Yan looked him up and down, feeling that this man was a little abnormal.
He Zhihuai said that he would send Gu Miao to where she wanted to go.
He Zhihuai wants to throw her ashes into the sea.
Can't! Absolutely not! She has been deprived of her life by this sea and cannot be trapped here anymore!
She should sleep quietly and wait for the opportunity of reincarnation to meet him again.
Instead of being trapped in this deep sea forever.
Those fish would eat away at her free soul like they were eating at her flesh and blood.
Chi Fei thought it was ridiculous and wanted to snatch the ashes back. He thought Chi Yan would do the same. It was even more intense than his reaction.
But for some reason, after hearing He Zhihuai's words that day, Chi Yan was quiet for a moment and suddenly said: "I agree."
His outstretched hand just stopped in mid-air.
Partly because of the idea that the two people hit it off in front of me, and partly because of the ugly scar that was suddenly exposed to the sun when I stretched out my hand...
I can’t count how many there are.
Some were shallow and were freshly scratched, while others were deeper and still wrapped with gauze, oozing a little scarlet.
He awkwardly grabbed his sleeves and retracted his wrists.
It was also at that moment that he suddenly figured it out.
In fact, if you think about it, after meeting Gu Miao, he figured out many things in an instant.
There are no complicated problem-solving steps.
Or maybe he didn't figure it out, but he convinced himself.
He Zhihuai said that Gu Miao likes the sea.
Then stay in this sea.
Anyway, he was going to go with her anyway.
No matter where you are, no matter where you go.
Anywhere is fine.
Wherever she is, he follows her.
Under the sea, or somewhere farther away.
Even if he has to go over mountains and ridges and walk to the end of the world, he has to keep her appointment.
He will stay with her quietly.
Help her tear away the seaweed that imprisons her, use your body to help her distract the attention of the fish, and she will swim freely in this deep sea.
Thinking of this, he stepped forward and silently helped He Zhihuai open the lid of the urn...
The direction of the wind that day and the angle every time he raised his hand were so accurate that he had made calculations in his mind no less than ten times.
He remembered every detail, but he just couldn't remember what he was thinking when he saw the ashes slipping away from his fingers and being blown away by the wind, as if she had completely disappeared from this world...
Sad?
Is it relief?
Or are you glad?
Two rapid choked sobs escaped from the young man's throat, awakening Gu Miao who was still deep in thought.
"Chi Fei?" Gu Miao was at a loss. She just asked casually and cried?
You can't even take a roundabout way?
Can't mention it at all?
"I'm just asking casually. If you don't want to say it, forget it. Don't be sad. Don't be sad. It's all over!"
"Look at me... I'm not dead either."
Chi Fei seemed to be unable to hear her words, his breathing became so rapid that his chest heaved violently.
Gu Miao was afraid that he would suffer from respiratory alkalosis like last time in the classroom, so she quickly turned around in his arms.
The young man lowered his head and curled up slightly, unable to see the expression on his face clearly.
Gu Miao didn't dare to look. A quick glance passed over his face, and she quickly raised her hands to hug him.
A face-to-face hug is safer and more ambiguous than a hug from behind.
Lying with their necks crossed, each other's breaths were intertwined.
The air does not heat up. When He Zhihuai cried before, she was still a little excited. It's Chi Fei's turn, why is she so nervous.
She seems like a scumbag.
I really want to coax you: stop crying and I’ll buy you a bag. Don’t buy it for them, just buy it for you.
Chi Fei was immersed in sadness and couldn't help himself.
He remembered that when their ashes were about to be scattered that day, the Jiang family came and surrounded them. It seems like he's going to take action.
But soon, Gu Xu also arrived and stopped everything.
He and Chi Yan went back.
But they separated midway.
Chi Yan said he had something to do, but he hesitated and couldn't tell what to do.
He showed no concern and parted ways with him.
He returns home.
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He returned to the apartment where he and Gu Miao now lived.
At that time, he secretly saw her ambition, she wanted to go to Beijing University. So he changed his mind.
Gave up the opportunity to walk.
His parents immediately arranged for him an apartment not far from Beijing University.
That day was the same as now.
He is lying on the bed.
It was on the bed where he and Gu Miao were currently lying.
It was raining lightly outside, thunder was coming intermittently, and lightning pierced the clouds, illuminating a pool of blood on the floor of the room.
His wrists hung down weakly, resting on the edge of the bed.
Tick——
Tick tock.
I couldn't tell if it was the sound of rain outside the window or something else falling.
He didn't take it into consideration and just stared at the lightning and thunder outside the window. His eyes were dull and empty, and the smile on his lips was filled with relief.
He slowly closed his eyes, and in his blur of consciousness, the only thing left in his ears was the dull sound of thunder like a drum.
It sounded like a door breaking.
He couldn't tell the difference anymore, and his eyelids became heavier and heavier until they closed and could no longer be opened.
He thought that after tonight, he would be able to see her.
He spent that night in the hospital's emergency room. He couldn't remember exactly what happened.
I just remember opening my eyes again, and the deepest mark on my wrist was covered by thick gauze.
Looking around, it was family members sobbing.
There was also the unspeakably complicated look in Chi Yan's eyes when she looked at him.
Chi Yan seemed unable to understand his behavior. Like Gu Miao now, she didn't know why he did this.
wrong. Thinking of something, he laughed.
Chi Yan should have seen his suicide note, which was on his bedside table. The front was filled with calculation formulas and was disguised as scratch paper and neatly stacked.
He hurriedly found a piece of paper and wrote it down.
But the handwriting is neat, and each stroke is very strong, as if it is going to penetrate the paper and carve into the table, leaving the last indelible trace on his life.
[Galileo said that mathematics is the text God uses to write the universe and the key to exploring endless mysteries. I always hope that I can make good use of this key and open a world that only belongs to me.
I know that I have to walk a long way to get here, or that I may never be able to touch this world in my lifetime. Fortunately, God has provided for me, and I think I have found the habitat that suits me.
So, my family, please be sure to sink my body to the bottom of the high seas. I wish I could sleep there forever and find the perfect formula.
This will completely represents my true wishes, and I urge you to respect and execute it. 】
Signed: Chi Fei
(End of chapter)