Chapter 7 What happens next
"I was always teased when I was little because of my name."
Gu Lanxi had never told anyone this before, and for a moment she didn't know how to organize her words.
Fortunately, Lu Nanting is an excellent flatterer, and as long as he is willing, he will not let his words fall to the ground.
"Your name? It sounds so nice! Has your brain been caught in the door? Why are you laughing at me?"
Lu Nanting really couldn't understand why she said that.
Because it was the first time he heard his mother mention her name on the phone, he thought they had the same character in their names. At that time, he felt a subtle, indescribable sense of fate in his heart, which was a pleasant feeling.
Gu Lanxi was still so patient and explained to him in a low voice:
"You usually speak Mandarin. Although you can understand most Cantonese because of your mother and your grandfather's family, you naturally don't understand some daily slang, especially some curse words."
Because no one would say dirty words in front of the young master of the Lu family, and no one would scold him with such vicious words.
Gu Lanxi was a little embarrassed, but she still told those things openly:
"In my hometown, if a person, especially the youngest child in the family, is bad, has bad conduct, is useless, etc., others will contemptuously call him 'bad brother', which is a very dirty word with a very strong meaning. It has a strong derogatory tone. Listen, does it sound similar to my name? ”
Gu Lanxi specially said it in dialect, and it sounded very similar.
Some people with imperfect outlooks, regardless of age, always like to treat bullying as a game.
If you laugh at other people's names, laugh at other people's heights, laugh at other people's disabilities, you will be laughed at if you stutter when you speak, you will be laughed at if you have acne, and even if you are fat or thin, or if your breasts are too big or too small, you will be called a nickname. .
With her name, others would associate this curse word with her in a weird way without even bothering to think about it.
A group of not-so-sensible children looked at her sideways, suppressed their excitement, and leaned into other people's ears——
"I'm telling you, don't look at her because she is beautiful and good at studies. Her name is disgusting! Do you know? Her name is..."
When Gu Lanxi was very young, she knew how terrible rumors were, what it meant to be isolated, what it meant to make something out of nothing, what it meant to have no lower limit...
For the perpetrator, this is happiness, and the person concerned is stingy. For the person being bullied, it is a lifelong shadow.
I also thought about changing my name when I was a child, but no one in the family cared about it. They would only find her troublesome and worry-free.
When she was able to make her own decisions, she became stubborn again.
She wants to become the best version of herself and prove that a name is nothing to the strong.
She will make everyone who used to laugh at her and bully her call her "Miss Gu" in a polite and flattering tone when they see her.
It is precisely because of such a growing environment, wealth and status that she is so charming in her eyes that she is willing to pursue it.
"Buddha sees Buddha through eyes, and people with dirty hearts see everything as dirty. We just try to live a good life. Your name is fresh and elegant, especially good, really. And water is the source of life. Your name has So much water, an absolute blessing! ”
Although he knew that such comfort was very pale and would not have much positive effect, he still couldn't help but speak.
The gentle comfort was probably still effective. Gu Lanxi couldn't help but want to laugh when she heard his nonsense and his good intentions.
Now that the chatter box has been opened, she talked about other things:
"I loved crying when I was a kid. People always appeared from places I couldn't imagine, shouting my name randomly, and people always pulled my pigtails. At first, I would go home and complain every time, and then my grandma took me there. She had her hair cut, very short, like a boy’s, because she said, if you have to be beautiful and have long hair, who will they pull if they don’t?”
Lu Nanting felt that it was wrong for her grandmother to do this. The victim was guilty and so on, but it was somewhat inappropriate to criticize an elder in front of others.
So he just looked at Gu Lanxi intently and asked her: "What next?"
"As I got older, I learned to make phone calls. I called my mother and talked about it repeatedly, describing my pain in detail and my grandma's inaction. I thought she would find a way, such as giving me Change the name, for example, ask the teacher to take care of me, for example, give it to me Transferring schools, etc. However, she didn't care about these things. She only told me that there was a creek in her hometown called Lanxi. When I was born, she happened to be homesick, so she gave me this name. "That makes sense."
Hometown is warm and gentle deep in the hearts of many people. If you associate the name with these emotions, you will definitely feel better.
However, Gu Lanxi shook her head slightly, opened the mineral water and took a sip. After she calmed down, she slowly said:
"I thought so at first, and I was happy about it, because I grew up with my grandparents who didn't value me. They treated the grandson next door to me better than I did. So I was full of fantasies about maternal love. She only needs to show a little bit of care, and in my heart, it is enough to overcome everything."
Although it has been more than ten years since the incident, she has a good memory and can still recall her mother's tone of hidden impatience at that time.
"Later I found out that it was all just because I was a girl. My father didn't care what my name was, and my grandparents didn't care what my name was either. That's why my mother had the power to name me, and then she was extremely perfunctory and casual. It was settled, but later on, even though he knew it was wrong, he still didn’t bother to care about me.”
For many girls, the preference for boys over girls in their family of origin is definitely one of the heaviest shackles.
She was not liked since she was born, and she was not worthy of many things just because she was born with the wrong gender.
No one will be willing to do so.
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Someone else's light words to reconcile with the past are just standing and talking without pain in the back.
So Lu Nanting didn't say anything, he just put down the ring box and gently held Gu Lanxi's hand on his knee.
After many years, Gu Lanxi talked about these things as if she were telling a stranger's story.
But she and Lu Nanting had not been alone for a long time, and she had never said this in front of him, so every time she said a few words, she would stop to collect her thoughts.
"My parents were in a free love relationship back then. They met on campus. From school uniforms to wedding dresses, they used to be envious of others when they were young. Even though my grandparents firmly disagreed with her marrying someone from such a far away place, she still resolutely got married. .”
Most only daughters in Jiangsu, Zhejiang and Shanghai will not marry far away. As soon as her mother made this decision, it is said that her maternal family severed ties with her.
She has never seen anyone there since she was a child.
These were all things her mother told her while holding her hand the night before she died.
That was the last tenderness from her mother. For her, it was also a turning point that could affect her life.
"My parents opened a shoe factory in Jiangnan. I was sent back to my hometown when I was only seven months old. My grandma didn't want me to involve my parents too much energy and affect them in having a younger brother. My dad is so He did it, but just to take advantage of my mother's feelings for me, and planned to take two steps, first send me back, and then find a way to send my mother back, because at that time, he already had someone outside, that woman, for He gave birth to a son, only half a year younger than me.”
There are too many such things in wealthy circles. Lu Nanting has heard and seen countless things since he was a child.
Many of his classmates had been troubled by illegitimate children.
However, what they care more about is how the appearance of illegitimate children will affect the distribution of property, rather than how father's love and mother's love should be distributed.
But obviously, Gu Lanxi has always cared most about the latter.
It shows that the father-in-law whom he has never met is not a very capable person.
At least the wealth he possesses cannot keep people rational.
Lu Nanting tried his best to diss this person in his heart, and felt a bad breath coming out of his heart. Then he calmed down and continued to ask her: "What happens next?"
Is it a stereotype that Cantonese people care about good intentions?
(End of chapter)