Chapter 58 Having a Family
At first, Yin Xingyue disliked her grandma.
That was when her father had just passed away and her mother sent her back to the countryside.
She thinks her grandma is old and ugly, and she also dislikes her being a girl.
She clearly remembered that at that time, her grandma often looked at her and sighed: "It would be great if you were a boy..."
But she didn't know when she started to like grandma.
Maybe she wanted to eat chicken, but in the middle of winter, when it was freezing cold, she got up early in the morning to kill the chicken for her...
Maybe she wanted a ballpoint pen. On a rainy day, she walked in the mud and went to the town to buy her a pen. Although she later bought her a pencil...
Maybe it was because she cried and made a fuss, but she never got angry, she just used her rough hands to rub her cheeks with a smile...
Maybe it was in the summer, when I was lying next to her, closing my eyes and gently shaking the cattail leaf fan for her...
……
Yin Xingyue didn't answer grandma's question, and grandma didn't ask again.
The two went to town together, and grandma went to the scrapyard to sell things as usual.
But she didn't drag the cart back home in a hurry as usual.
Instead, he went to a store in town and bought a hairband.
A very old-fashioned kind of hairband, black, twisted with iron wire, without any decoration.
Grandma put the hairband on her head and asked Yin Xingyue with a smile.
"Isn't this more convenient?"
"Grandma is very beautiful." Yin Xingyue said happily.
Grandma smiled and said: "You are a little old woman, what else can you see?"
Then she took Yin Xingyue's hand, went to the toy store next door, and bought her a butterfly wing that could be carried behind her back.
She chose the biggest, most beautiful one, and naturally the most expensive one.
She took out an old handkerchief from her pocket, counted bits and pieces for several minutes, and then paid.
"Grandma, do you remember?" Yin Xingyue held the butterfly wings and felt the corners of her eyes sore.
In addition to stationery and food, her grandma rarely bought her toys. She felt that those things were of no use and ended up throwing them away, which was a complete waste of money.
One of her favorite words is that what you eat is what truly belongs to you.
For the last time, she wanted her grandma to buy her butterfly wings because she saw a child in the village carrying them very beautifully.
But grandma always says that I will buy it for you next time...
Then there will be no next time.
Yin Xingyue wanted to tell her grandma that she didn't like this anymore. She had grown up and was no longer a little girl.
But - but for some reason, she was still a little happy.
On the way back, grandma helped her carry it on her back.
"It's so beautiful, like a little fairy." Grandma said with a smile.
"Grandma, I died and now I am a ghost, not a fairy." Yin Xinyue said.
Grandma was silent after hearing this, and after walking for a long time she said: "But I feel like you are still alive, not dead at all. Your mother lied to me, right?"
Yin Xingyue shook her head, and then told her about Shen Siyuan.
"It turns out I met the master."
When grandma heard this, she was very happy for Yin Xingyue.
"Then thank you very much." After hearing this, grandma asked the master in detail what his name was and where he lived.
Yin Xingyue just thought of chatting with her grandma, so she told her grandma.
About two weeks later, one day after get off work, Shen Siyuan came home and saw a note on the door, saying that someone was looking for her at the gatekeeper of the community.
So he met the old man. She had arrived in the morning and waited until he got off work. She was carrying a slaughtered chicken, a basket of eggs, some scattered money wrapped in a handkerchief, and the butterfly. wing. I don’t know how she found it or how she brought these things over...
This is all for later, so I won’t mention it for now.
From beginning to end, grandma never asked why Yin Xingyue committed suicide.
On the contrary, Yin Xingyue couldn't help herself and asked her grandma why she didn't ask?
Grandma said: "When people are alive, they often encounter obstacles that are difficult to overcome. When I was young, I often wanted to die, but I am an adult and gritted my teeth and stepped over it. But you are still a child and you can't get over it. It’s also normal...”
When Yin Xingyue heard this, she burst into tears.
She hadn't cried like this for a long, long time.
Grandma rubbed her cheek and wiped her tears with her rough hands.
With tears in her eyes, she said: "The thing that grandma regrets the most is that she handed you over to your mother. She is your mother, and she should help you get through..."
"I don't want to either..."
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"Mom, was my dad really a gangster before?"
Seeing her father go to the kitchen, Zhu Tingting asked her mother in a low voice.
Du Xiuzhi pulled her daughter into her arms, stroked her hair, and said softly: "Don't listen to outsiders' lies. Your father was honest when he was young."
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"But...but..."
"You mean, the tattoo on your dad's arm?"
Du Xiuzhi turned her daughter's body around and looked at her.
Zhu Tingting nodded obediently.
"His tattoo was done deliberately to protect me. I guess he should have been crying loudly at that time. When your father was young, he was a little crybaby and cried easily..."
Zhu Tingting's eyes widened with an expression of disbelief.
"Mom didn't lie."
Du Xiuzhi smiled and talked about the past.
"That's me. Your father and I are neighbors, but your mother and I are good at studies, but your father is a fool, so when he was in junior high school, he dropped out of school to work outside..."
"He works part-time and when he has money, he often buys me things..."
"Later, some accidents happened in my family. Your grandparents passed away. When my relatives saw that I was a little girl, they thought I was easy to bully. They showed up one by one and came to make trouble..."
"Your father protected me, quarreled with them, made trouble with them..."
"In order to scare them, your father got tattoos, dyed his hair, and took a knife, crying and slashing at the same time. He scared all my relatives to pieces..."
"Later, your father was arrested by the police and imprisoned for several months. But before he was arrested, he threatened those relatives of mine, saying that if they bully me again, he would kill their whole family if he came out..."
"Then no one will dare to come to bully me anymore..."
"Wow, dad is so awesome."
Zhu Tingting's eyes widened. She had never felt such admiration for her father at this moment.
"So, you can't be too weak as a person. If you are weak, you will be bullied. You must first learn to be strong. Don't hide some things from the people closest to you. You must face and solve problems together. You are still a child..."
Du Xiuzhi tapped her nose, indicating something.
"Then... what happened next?"
"Later...then your father worked part-time, and I continued to go to school. After I graduated, we got married, and then we had you..."
Du Xiuzhi smiled and fell into memories.
Zhu Guangfa came out of the kitchen and saw the mother and daughter smiling happily.
Full of suspicion: "You are not talking bad about me, are you?"
"Mom said you were a little crybaby when you were young."
"How can you tell her this? I don't want to lose face?" Zhu Guangfa yelled.
The mother and daughter laughed even louder.
(End of chapter)