Chapter 192 The Past of the Past
The next morning.
Shen Siyuan got up first, bought breakfast, and then rode to the company.
Ruan Hongzhuang was still sleeping soundly and did not wake up.
However, Shen Siyuan went to the company not to go to work, but to take another day off.
Because I have an appointment with Song Meixian and others today.
At this time, Zhao Ruijin also returned to Ruijin with his father Zhao Dezhu.
The early morning sunlight shone in from the car window, and Zhao Dezhu stared blankly at his son's little face.
His face was obviously still childish, but his expression looked particularly mature, which made Zhao Dezhu feel slightly uncomfortable. At his age, he should be innocent and lively.
"Zhou Zhou." Zhao Dezhu reached out and took his son's little hand.
"What's wrong?" Zhao Ruijin looked back at him doubtfully.
"Do you hate your mother?" Zhao Dezhu asked.
Zhao Ruijin nodded first, then shook his head.
"I used to hate her, hate her, but now I don't hate her anymore. She is my mother." Zhao Ruijin said.
Then he turned back and looked at Zhao Dezhu: "Dad, don't hate mom, she loves you so much."
"I...I know..."
Zhao Dezhu felt that there were many words choked in his throat, but he could not say them out, so they were blocked in his chest, feeling unspeakably uncomfortable.
It took a long time before Zhao Dezhu asked again: "Is your mother okay?"
In the past, when Zhao Ruijin was still alive, both parties could learn about each other's current situation through him.
After Zhao Ruijin passed away and Zhao Dezhu came back from attending the funeral, the two completely lost contact.
"She...she's about to die..." Zhao Ruijin choked in a low voice and wiped away tears.
"What?" Zhao Dezhu was surprised when he heard this.
He really didn't know about this.
"My mother committed suicide several times. Although... she was saved every time, the doctor said she had a mental problem and she was stupidly stupid every day..."
"Grandma said she might not live long, and grandma was also very sad..."
"It's all my fault, I hurt my mother..."
……
Zhao Ruijin sobbed softly, causing the driver who was driving in front to peek behind him frequently.
"Zhou Zhou, stop crying. It's okay. Let's go back and see him now. Everything will be fine..."
Zhao Dezhu's eyes began to turn red. He didn't know why he had reached this point.
He remembered that when his wife was young, she resolutely quit her good job and left her hometown for him...
I remember when my wife and I first arrived in Binhai, we rented in a dilapidated rental house. In order to save money, we traveled long distances to buy groceries and improve the food for him...
To think that they could give everything to each other.
But why, life is getting better and better, but they have reached where they are now.
Has the wife changed? Or has he changed?
Maybe both, maybe not.
What has changed is this society.
After getting off the car, Zhao Dezhu looked at the alley in front of him in a daze.
Zhao Ruijin explained in a low voice: "After my mother got sick, she moved in with my grandmother."
Zhao Dezhu knew that his son must have misunderstood. The reason why he was in a daze was because he remembered the time when he sent his ex-wife Zhou Congfang back when he was young.
Now that I think about it, it's still vivid in my mind, but why couldn't I remember it before? I still deliberately forgot it.
"Well, I understand, let's go." Zhao Dezhu took Zhao Ruijin's hand and walked towards the alley.
On one side of the alley is a white fence, enclosing a piece of wasteland that is said to be developed to build houses. However, more than ten years have passed and there has been no movement. It is already overgrown with weeds. On the other side are some shops, supermarkets, pharmacies and grocery stores selling grain, oil, rice and noodles, etc.
Nothing seems to have changed, everything seems to have changed.
The store is still the same store, but the people who opened the store have become older, and the sign in front of the door has become older.
He had passed by a few times before and never seemed to notice these.
About fifteen minutes' walk inside is Zhao Ruijin's grandmother's house.
A very old community, as soon as you enter, you will feel a sense of age.
Walking among the low trees, gray-white cement walls, and red wall tiles, it feels like you have returned to the 1980s and 1990s, and the flow of time seems to have slowed down.
I don't know if it was because of his change in mentality, but Zhao Dezhu fell in love with such leisurely time.
After entering the community, Zhao Ruijin let go of Zhao Dezhu's hand and walked forward impatiently.
And he would turn around to urge Zhao Dezhu from time to time.
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But when he reached the door, Zhao Ruijin stopped.
"What's wrong?" Zhao Dezhu asked.
"If I go in like this, it will scare my mother." Zhao Ruijin said.
"Dad, go see your mother first and talk to her. I'll see her again."
As Zhao Ruijin spoke, his figure faded in front of his eyes.
Zhao Dezhu opened his mouth and wanted to say that you are her son, how could she be afraid of you, but thinking of his previous reaction, he could not say a word.
Looking at his empty right hand, Zhao Dezhu walked into the building and pressed the elevator.
This community is a relocation housing. The quality of the houses is not very good, the property is also very poor, the corridors are cramped, and the elevator is extremely dark.
But all this gave Zhao Dezhu an extremely familiar yet unfamiliar feeling.
They are familiar because when he was in Ruijin, he often came to his father-in-law and mother-in-law's house for dinner.
His father-in-law was also a very good and cheerful person, but it was a pity that he passed away too early. Zhou Zhou died before Zhou Zhou was born. Zhao Dezhu has always felt regretful.
At this time, his mind seemed to be particularly clear.
Before the divorce, why didn't you bring your mother-in-law to Binhai to live together?
If their mother-in-law had been there to mediate, maybe they wouldn't be where they are now, and neither would Zhou Zhou...
It seems that his wife mentioned this to him at the beginning. What did he say at that time? I can't remember it anymore, but in the end, my mother-in-law didn't live with them in the past.
Maybe my wife should have been disappointed at that time...
Think about it, you really are nothing...
The sound of the elevator door opening interrupted his thoughts.
Zhao Dezhu took a deep breath and stepped out quickly just as the elevator door was about to close.
The houses in this community are all arranged with two staircases and four households, so Zhao Dezhu got out of the elevator, stood in the center and looked around, and then slowly remembered that his mother-in-law's house was in the innermost room on the left.
The door is a heavy anti-theft iron door. The iron door is covered with a screen. Because it has not been cleaned for a long time, it is covered with dust and the original color cannot be seen clearly.
It is said that this security door was hand-welded by my father-in-law. His father-in-law did not have a high level of education, but he had strong hands-on skills. He made many things in the house himself.
There is also a sharp knife made of a hacksaw blade at home. The ex-wife joked that if he cheated on her in the future, she would commit suicide with this knife...
Thinking of this, Zhao Dezhu's mouth trembled a little.
He stiffened his neck and swallowed, then slowly raised his hand and knocked on the iron door.
"Who is it?" an old voice asked inside.
Then the wooden door inside was opened.
A thin old man with white hair appeared in front of him.
"Mom~"
PS: There is one more chapter~, I feel a little dizzy~
(End of chapter)